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Here it is, chapter 7! My longest (published) FF so far!

A little warning: after this chapter a few things will change ... *cough, M-rating, cough*


"What happened then?", Niles asked.

"Hm ... Well, Josh told everyone that he'd deflowered me. And I avoided him, so he broke up. Of course it was already over for me", CC answered whispering. She still couldn't believe that she'd told Niles.

"Did you tell anyone?"

"I told Dana ... And you."

"What did Dana say?" Niles held her closer.

"She ... Hell, she was trying to find a way of helping me."

"See? At least she believed you -", Niles started but CC interrupted him.

"Yes she did, and two months later she eloped with Josh. In the last trimester."

"Wait - she ran away with Josh? They left the college? Together?"

"They had an affair while Josh and I were together. See why I don't trust anyone?"

Niles remained quiet. Her past ... It was so horrible. Yes, she was born rich but it seemed, everything that could have happened had happened to her.

Her mother hated her, her father had no time for her, her brother was her only friend, her nanny, the only person she'd trusted, died, she had been a rebel, her first time had been horrible, her best friend had an affair with her boyfriend ...

"Miss Babcock, I wish I could help you somehow", Niles mumbled. And boy, he did.

"Either way, now it's too late." CC closed her eyes and shivered lightly. "I've never had the chance of finding my true love."

"So you do believe in love?", Niles whispered. He was getting closer to the truth ...

"Of course I do. I've always loved my brother, my father, Nanny Bobo and Sara."

"And Mr. Sheffield", Niles added carefully.

"Yes", CC said quickly. She'd totally forgotten to mention him. "Speaking of Sara, she helped me through the last trimester."

"I know that story, you were thinking about quitting, but Sara helped you to pass the hard times."

CC nodded. "And now you know why I've had these hard times."

Niles kissed her head before he put his hands on her waist to help her up.

"Aren't you comfortable?", CC asked.

"I am, but ... Miss Babcock, could you maybe turn around for a few minutes?", Niles asked as he brushed the earth off his jeans.

"Why? What are you up to?"

"You'll see", Niles said nervously.

He was afraid of her reaction - but it was too late. He'd already decided he'd do it.

CC turned not only around with a sigh, she wrapped herself in the blanket again and laid down on the sleeping bag.

"Close your eyes and cover your ears", Niles said softly.

"Niles -"

"Trust me", Niles said.

And CC trusted him. Again.


What was he doing? She heard him all the time ... Doing sonething. She'd asked him already three times what he was doing, but he'd always told her not to turn around.

Not even ten minutes later he finally told her to open her eyes.

The first thing she saw, was that the lamp was turned off. It wasn't completely dark - as she turned around she saw a soft blanket spreaded on the floor, tea lights all around it. They were shining just as Niles' eyes as he looked at her.

CC gasped lightly. "Niles, what ...?"

"Allow me", Niles said gently and helped her to get up. "You can choose. Your first time was horrible - if you want, you can forget about it and start anew."

"What?", CC whispered.

Niles chewed his bottom lip. She looked shocked ... Had he misinterpreted the signs? "You - ergh - I thought we could ... I mean, we're dying after all ... Why not having a little fun?"

CC smiled a little bit. "You're right ... You know I am just a little bit surprised ... It's still me, after all."

Niles smiled and got a little closer. "What would make you believe that I wouldn't want to sleep with you?"

CC's heart started to race. He'd said it, she wasn't thinking of something wrong. And how he'd said it ... Wow. "Don't you think I'm fat and ugly and an old bitch?"

"I see your point." Niles was now so close he could kiss her if he wanted to. Instead of that he put his hands on her waist and travelled down to her hips. "Well ... What I feel of you feels perfect. Fat - no. Not at all. You're rather perfect."

He observed her face and smiled. Her sky-blue eyes, her sweet nose, her kissable lips. Her soft, pale skin, her golden hair. Her delicate neck.

His eyes wandered down. Finally he could look at her without an excuse. "Ugly. Never, Babcock. You're the most beautiful woman -"

"In this cave?", CC asked with a sarcastic grin.

"In this world", Niles said lowly and CC's mouth went open.

"Next - I know how old you are", Niles said and CC's mouth closed slowly. "You're not old and you're no bitch. You told me about your four lovers and that's okay."

"Niles ...", CC whispered. "How can I know you mean it? You think I'm beautiful? After all this time ... Since when -"

"Dammit, you know you are beautiful. You're simply stunning! Why is it so hard to see that I think the same?"

"Because it's you, Niles. We never got along, mostly because you insulted me the whole time and -"

"Forget it", Niles growled and turned around. He bit back tears. "I wanted to give you a beautiful first time but you can't see that I mean it." He sighed. "I've always adored you, believe me", he added with a whisper.

"Niles", CC whispered back. "I'm sorry. I just have no idea where to sort this feelings. They're so new ... And I'm afraid."

Niles turned around and found CC facing him, her eyes burning with desire. "Feelings?", he croaked.

"Desire", she said. "Longing. Lust. And something else." Without another word she grabbed his face and he grabbed her waist.

They pulled each other closer, just as they'd done years ago.

Their lips met so easily, as if they'd done this forever. Their tongues entwined automatically and their hands roamed over their bodies.

CC opened her jacket as good as she could and Niles did the same with his jacket.

When the need of air was too strong, they parted.

"Miss -", Niles started.

"Shsh", CC said softly and pecked his lips. "Niles ... I want you to take my virginity."

"Are you sure?"

"Just as you said before - we're dying. Let's have fun."

Niles regretted saying that. Having sex with Babcock wasn't only fun to him ... It would turn out to be serious. He wanted her, he loved her. And she didn't feel the same for him. Maybe he should tell her ...

He opened his mouth to say something, but CC's mouth crashed on his instantly so he had no chance to say something.

After a few seconds she pulled away. "Okay?", she whispered and Niles nodded.

He took her hand and lead her to the blanket. They sat down and started kissing softly.

CC's mind was turning, Niles was just a hell of a kisser. She couldn't wait to find out if he was an even better lover.

She was nervous, she started to believe she cared for him somehow.

She gently stroke his strong chest and inserted her hands in it to feel his muscles and skin. She pulled away again.

"Wow ...", she whispered and continued touching him. At some point she pulled the shirt over his head and moaned a little at the sight of his chest in the light of the candles.

"Beautiful", she said softly and lowered her lips on his chest.

When they thouched his skin, Niles felt a thousand electric spasms shooting through his body. He began to tug at the edge of her shirt until she groaned and removed it for herself. Niles was looking now at the same CC Babcock he'd known for years in nothing but her sport trousers and her bra.

"You are beautiful", Niles whispered and kissed her neck once, wandered down with little kisses and finally kissed both her breasts. "You are -"

"Shsh", CC said again. "How are we going to do this? You know, I've never done this before."

Niles smiled. She was taking that first-time-thing too serious ... and he liked it.

"You will be lying on your back and I will be on top of you", Niles said and CC grinned.

"Can't wait."

Niles pulled her trousers off and CC removed his jeans. She admired his body, while Niles almost dropped dead at the sight of her long legs combined with the rest of her body.

"Lay down", he ordered and kissed her. She did as he said and he suddenly began to kiss her ankles and moved up at her legs, leaving soft kisses on every inch.

"What are you doing?", CC asked nervously. "I'm not shaved!"

"That's something I don't care about at all", he whispered and kissed her knees. "Anyway, how do you want to shave yourself here?"

"Point for you", CC said and laid back on the blanket. She closed her eyes as Niles pulled her panties down slowly and carefully.