Chapter 6
Captain Viscen
Day 1
When I woke up this morning, I knew the day was going to be important. However, I thought it would be important for a different reason. I thought that today, the mayor would order the evacuation of the town, and me and the guards would guide everyone to a place of safe refuge. Now the day did start off the way I thought, with me waking up and getting ready, followed by my daily check-up on the guards. When the day started to change from expectations was around 10:00 A: M, when Mayor Dotour called a meeting that included me, and the carpenter Mutoh. I was calm entering the building, at my normal state when I see the mayor. I only started to get angry when it was discussed what the purpose of this meeting was. It turns out it was not the mayor did not hold this to discuss the details of the evacuation, he held it to discuss whether we should even have one. After all, there had to be a reason why Mutoh, the head of construction for the Carnival Of Time was there. He had arrived to tell us on why we shouldn't flee, and that the carnival should continue as planed. I started the conversation by pointing out that most people had fled already, and that we might as well evacuate the rest. I then kindly asked the mayor and the carpenters if we could just end this meeting and begin evacuating people. After this, Mutoh yelled out that we were cowards as well as idiots for believing that the moon was falling. Not only was this a very personal jab in a non-personal meeting, but to deny that the moon is falling is to deny your own vision. He even went as far as to mock the solders, claiming that it was their fault that the panic in the citizens spread. Of course, I had to point out how he shouldn't bring the soldiers in a conversation such as this, as well as the fact that it is as clear as day that the moon is falling. He then called the guards cowards again, and then told the mayor that his wife would agree with him. Even his body language was ripe with immaturity and foulness. He had his arms crossed the entire time, and constantly scoffed. And this was not the entire meeting either. It continued for ten hours straight. Out of this whole event, what shocked me the most is how the mayor actually listened to Mutoh as well as me. Also, he never made a firm decision. That means that not only did he listen to Mutoh, but part of his mind actually agrees with what he had to say. I feel sick when I even think about it, let alone writing it down. This might be as much writing as I can handle tonight. Let's hope the mayor ends this soon.
Day 2
Let me begin by saying that today was not much better than yesterday. In fact, it was nearly identical to yesterday. It again began with me getting ready in the morning, leaving home, and checking on my men. The major difference in the morning was about the moon we had debated about for hours the previous day. It was now much closer than before, and far more intimidating. I hoped that this would show Mutoh that the moon truly is falling, and that we need to do something about it. However, when 10:00 struck and I was called to the conference room, I was once again greeted with something below my expectations. As soon as we both entered, he began bickering again, even louder than before. Not only that, but he still believed the moon was not falling. I was flabbergasted when I heard him make that statement. I find it impossible that he still thought this. Perhaps he does know, and the only reason that he does this is to mock and torture me with stupidity. But who would be so cruel and selfish, to endanger the lives of so many people for the mockery of one? I have lost any faith I had in this man. I have lost any hope that he would come to his wits. It truly disgusts me. Once again, he continued with his scoffing, and continued to cross his arms like an upset child. And once again, the meeting went on for far longer than it needed to. Another ten hours of constant jabbing, back and forth and back again. And after all this time, the mayor has still not decided on what we should do yet. While he is not so vile to agree with Mutoh, it is still unbelievable how he needs to teeter on this. If he was a true member of the people, as a mayor should be, he would have evacuated everyone by the end of yesterday. Granted, I have no grudge against the carnival and it's traditions. However, I believe that when there is a massive threat taking place around that time, we should abandon the idea of it for our own survival. Yet again my stomach hurts from writing these words. Goodnight.
Day 3
These past days have all been absolutely horrible. However, today was most certainty the worst out of all of them. It was the worst for multiple reasons actually. Again, it began with me leaving my home after getting ready and checking on my solders. This time, the moon was extremely close, to the point that you would have to constantly be looking down towards the ground to not see it. Another thing the moon brought with it were earthquakes throughout the day. This means the moon was going to hit soon, which meant I had to try to convince the mayor immediately before it was too late. 10:00 struck once more, and I entered the building with Mutoh at the same moment. He had a confident look on his face, like he had the best point in his argument to still tell. Once again, we walked into the office, shut the door behind us, and started arguing again. This time though, it felt worse than the other two. Not only were we forced to repeat the same points over and over, but we were both also desperate to out-do each other. We both anticipated that one sentence that would make the mayor fall towards a side. The verbal battle raged on for hours, though not as long as the previous two times. It was around 6:00, and we were both exhausted from arguing and bickering. It was then that Mutoh told the mayor that if he did not let the carnival continue, he would tell his wife about it. I was absolutely dumbfounded when he spoke those words. This man was actually willing to blackmail the mayor to get what he wanted. I didn't even have time to properly react because what happened next has even worse. The mayor silenced everyone and said he had made a decision. He declared that the carnival was on and that there would be no forced evacuation. It was at this moment when everything I could have thought was impossible, happened. It was at also here that I lost all faith in just about anything. I left the office and stood there, trying to take in what had just happened. I mean, the mayor was willing to let so many men, women, and children die. And why? Just so he wouldn't get yelled at by his wife! After I sulked, I walked home and started writing this entry. You know, I've been thinking about something. I know now that the end of my life is about to approach me, as well as the lives of so many others. But I am in so much pain and misery right now, that I don't know if I can even stand a few hours. I mean, there is a rope in my home. Should I just end my suffering now? Oh goddess, I can't even believe that I have become so depressed so quick to even think about doing this. I can hardly think straight at this point. You know what? I wont do that. If I'm going to die soon, I'm going to die like a true captain, dammit! A true captain would never take the easy way out, and would instead live until the end! Yes, that is what I will do! Before I go, let me say this. At this point, I am glad that I will die tonight, otherwise I would have to continue working for that selfish maniac of a mayor, and be taunted by that genocidal egotist of a carpenter for the rest of my life.
