Hey! Thanks to those who reviewed. This chapter is a little more adult, but just one paragraph, and it's still a T, though the way I originally wrote it might have been M, but I changed it as much as I could. Please can I have another review?
Maddie had been at Perkins for a few weeks, and things were going pretty well. It turns out that London isn't such a horrible roommate, neither is Coco. And Jake has turned out to be Maddie's best guy friend. Calvin is Maddie's boyfriend. Grant it, he isn't Trevor, but it is a start. They have been going out since that night after the party (London has never been to another one of those parties since getting drunk) and things were going okay. He wasn't as smart as the guys she was used to, but maybe that's why all of her other relationships had failed, maybe she needed someone who was her opposite.
Maddie and Calvin were walking into Calvin's dorm room.
"That was a good movie, wasn't it?" Calvin asked.
"I guess. I've never been much of a Spider Man fan. But it was okay" Maddie said.
"Oh come on. Who doesn't like Spider Man?"
"I never said I didn't like it, I said it was okay"
"So, the night sucked?" Calvin asked.
"Yeah, pretty much" Maddie replied.
"Well, why don't we fix that" Calvin said kissing Maddie. It went from a gentle kiss, to a passionate kiss, and they somehow made their way closer to Calvin's bed. They had always gotten to this point and then Maddie stopped Calvin, much to his dismay, but this time Calvin proved to be a little more relentless.
"Calvin. I don't think that we should" Maddie said as she now stopped kissing him. Calvin just proceeded to start kissing her neck.
"Calvin" Maddie said, still quietly, as much as she thought this was wrong, she was enjoying it a little. Calvin's hand started going up Maddie's shirt.
"Calvin, no!" Maddie said, now in a stronger voice.
"You're not fooling me, I know you mean yes. Playing hard to get, huh" Calvin said now trying to unbutton her pants.
"No! I mean no!" Maddie shouted finally having the strength to push Calvin away from her. She pushed him harder then she intended and he fell to the ground.
"What the hell was that for?" Calvin asked.
"I said no. You wouldn't listen" Maddie said.
"Oh, come on! I'm a man, I have needs. And I know you want it" Calvin said getting up.
"No I don't!" Maddie shouted defiantly, making her way towards the door.
"It's been weeks. How long do you expect me to wait?" Calvin more stated then asked.
"If you actually cared about me you would wait" Maddie said.
"Come on, you're hot, I'm hot, we can have something very hot if we get together" Calvin said coming closer to Maddie.
"No. Have it with some other girl. I'm done" Maddie said.
"Wait, are you breaking up with me?"
"Yeah, I guess I am"
"But I'm Calvin. No girl has ever said no, or broken up with me"
"Well there's a first time for everything" Maddie said as she stormed out of the room.
"You dumped him!" London said. Maddie was talking to London and Coco about what happened.
"Come on, that boy is fine" Coco said.
"So?"
"So, you should've gone for it" Coco said.
"But, it wouldn't have felt right" Maddie said.
"Why not?" Coco asked.
"Because, I went way too far with my last boyfriend. And he basically ripped out my heart. I don't wanna go that far with a guy again unless I know he really cares, and wouldn't hurt me" Maddie said.
"Good for you Maddie. Many girls would have slept with him, but you didn't. I'm proud of you" London said cheerfully.
"Thanks" Maddie said feeling better.
Maddie remembered the night she lost her virginity to Trevor. She loved him, so she figured this was her way to prove it. Giving herself to him and letting their bodies connect would prove her love. So, she had sex with him one night. It was the best feeling that she had ever had. And then she had sex with him again, and again. She couldn't keep her hands off of him. From their first kiss, she found him irresistible. She actually surprised herself by saying no to Calvin, but she knew why. She and Trevor shared something special, then one day, he ended things. She loved him, and gave him everything, and he ended it without explanation. That is why she didn't sleep with Calvin, she wasn't going to feel that attached to him, and then let her heart be ripped out again.
Maddie also remembered a song she wrote while she was trying to get over the breakup.
Take everything out
Just put it back
Right where you found it
You
Your hands in your jeans
Were you waiting for me?
'Cause that's how I found you
Every word seemed to roll of your tongue
Like honey on my lips
I never thought I could get enough
You
Took me around the block
But I couldn't stop
I thought it was real
The rush
So intoxicating
I look back and I'm hating
That I couldn't tell
I'm lying alone on the floor
Just laughing at myself
How could I ever go back for more
Put
Everything back
That you took out
Right where it started
Where we started
Where we started
How can I get back what you can't give out again?
How can I face my mother? How can I face my friends?
How can I look in the mirror and try to live again?
How can I get back what you can't give out again?
How can I get back what you can't give out again?
Take
The deepest breath
I just let it out
I will be stronger
You
Took everything out
I put it back
Just where you found it
Maddie replayed that last few lines from the song over and over in her head for a few days. And they worked, for a few days. But then she sunk into a state of depression again. But Maddie is stronger now. She has learned and has moved on. She has moved on, hasn't she?
That's it for this chapter. The song was Cheyenne Kimball's Full Circle. I might have changed one word to make it seem more like Maddie, but this song was the closest I could find to fit the situation. It's a good song, you should check it out. And can someone please review? The less reviews I get, the lower my confidence gets.
