Rating: It will be M in later chapters.
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. My name may be Stephanie but it is not Stephanie Meyers. If I owned Twilight I sure as heck wouldn't be writing fanfiction. The story would have been completely different, with no Bella!
Pairing: Edward/Alice is the main pairing, and there are hints of Edward/Bella and Alice/Jasper, but in the end it will be Edward/Alice.
Summary: While digging into her past Alice comes to a shocking discovery. Edward was the vampire who changed her to save her from James. But why didn't he tell her? And why is he suddenly pulling away from Bella when the wedding is only two weeks away?
AN: Alright so most everyone wanted to see choice number one. 'Alice and Jasper have a talk. Jasper takes Leah's side over his own wife's but why? And can they work it out? Many things will be discussed promises made some broken. This will test the strength of Alice and Jasper's relationship.' So people I really hope that you Jasper fans will not hate me in this chapter. Alice and Jasper are going threw a very difficult time. I mean wouldn't you think that things would be hard if your husband had been imprinted on by your mortal enemy? Also there talk turned more into an argument, because of what I had planned for the second half. Don't worry its not the end of Alice/Jasper..Yet.
AN2: I am so happy with how many people like this story! I would have posted this sooner but my gram from downstate came to visit! R&R like always! And don't forget to vote!
Alice's POV:
I sat in Jasper and my's room. He hadn't come home last night and I couldn't see him. I had been so worried that I made Edward call Jacob Black to find out if he knew where Jasper was. Apparantly he spent the night away from home, away from me with Leah Clearwater.
I couldn't believe it at first. My Jasper had been imprinted on? Why didn't he tell me? Did he think I wouldn't understand? Jasper and I never kept things from eachother. Well we didn't usually, but lately it seems we are drifting apart. I don't understand why. I love Jasper, he is my husband, but why would he keep this from me?
What about the things Leah had said to me, where they true? Did Jasper want to be with her? I knew all about imprinting, so I suppose that I could see where that would appeal to him. Leah Clearwater would do anything and everything to make him happy. What kind of guy wouldn't want that type of affection? She also said he told her things that he didn't tell me. What kind of things? Was he hiding things from me?
I paced around our room for about fifteen minutes before I heard Jasper enter through our window. I turned to face him; he wouldn't look at me directly. I didn't have to think about what I did next, I ran to him and threw my arms around his neck. "Jasper where have you been? I have been worried sick!" I exclaimed in a high pitched voice. I was just so happy he was back, and that he was ok.
"I didn't mean to worry you." I was confused when he pulled away from me. What was going on? Why was he distancing himself from me? I tried to walk to him, but everytime I took a step forwards he took one back.
I tilted my head to the side while looking at him. "Jasper?" I questioned him. I noticed his eyes flicker to the bandage on my collarbone. Was he-was Jasper discusted by my scar? That was why I had covered it, I didn't want people to see it. But I had thought that Jasper would be the one person who wouldn't be bothered by the scar. I was never ever discusted by his, how could he be by mine? But I suppose it was different, he would be the one who would have to look at it when he looked at me. He would have to see it when we made love. Maybe he found it so horrible that he couldn't find me attractive anymore?
"Alice, don't feel like that! Of course I'm not discusted by you, how could you ever even think that?" I didn't believe him. He still wouldn't come near me; he still wouldn't touch me. He didn't want me anymore did he? I wanted to cry at the thought. "Alice, don't be sad please don't be sad I cant take it!" He said to me, trying to lock eyes with mine.
"Then why are you backing away from me? Why wouldn't you look at me when you entered? Why did you stay away all night? Why didn't you tell me about Leah Jasper? Why would you keep that from me?" I couldn't keep the hysteria from my voice. There was so much in my life I didn't understand right now and Jasper was the one thing that I always was so sure about. I couldn't loose that, not now when I needed one stable thing in my life.
"How can you ask me those things? Shouldn't I be the one asking you questions, like for example what's going on between you and Edward? Why have you been so distant these last few weeks?" I had never felt fear towards Jasper before, but the anger that filled his eyes, I just I had to back up. I was scared and I hated feeling that way. I shouldn't fear Jasper; I shouldn't fear my husband.
I knew that Jasper felt my fear because he stopped and took a deep calming breath. I could feel tears wanting to fall. It shouldn't be like this between us. It was Jasper! I loved him! I needed him! He was my other half! Why was this so hard? Why why were we like two strangers? We shouldn't be like that; we should never be like that, not now and not ever.
Jasper ran his hands threw his hair. He wasn't as angry anymore so that was a start. "He loves you." I closed my eyes.
Damn you Edward, why are you making this so hard, and your not even here right now. Why do you have to love me? What's so great about me? You have Bella! You need to love her! Not me don't love me please. I knew he would hear me, and I knew it wouldn't matter. I couldn't change things I couldn't fix this.
I looked at Jasper and bit my lip. "But I don't love him like that Jasper, and he doesn't love me. Not more than a sister, he just, we all have lapses in judgement. Last night he just, he found me attractive, it happens. I know you have found Rosalie attractive on more than one occasion but it hasn't bothered me because I knew that you loved me." Well he had loved me, I wasn't so sure he did anymore.
Jasper grew angry again and because of this it made me angry. Not intentionally of course. "But you felt desire for him too!"
"Atleast I haven't lied to you about anything big like oh I donno, being imprinted on!" I screamed at him. "So what if I was attracted to him, I didn't act on it! I would never ever do that! I don't love him, not like I love you." Why couldn't he see reason? Why didn't he trust me? I would never betray him, never! "Do you love her?" I needed to know.
Jasper did something I never thought I would see him do, ever. Even if I lived for a million years (which quite possibly I could) I would have never ever seen this coming. He sneered at me. A cold uncaring sneer directed at me. "Don't you already know? Oh, that's right you can't see her."
That wounded my ego. Jasper knew how much I hated not being able to see. But I didn't let the hurt linger because I was still feeling his anger. "You seem awfully happy about that Jazz, is there a reason your glad I can't see? Or see what you two are doing?" It killed me think that Jasper would be with her, but I wanted him to be happy, even if it wasn't with me. Right now though, I was just too angry to think about that. He accused me of betraying him and yet he wasn't truthful either!
We stood there for a few minutes, just looking at eachother lost in our thoughts. I was so angry, hurt, sad, but mostly angry. I knew it was because Jasper was angry and I was feeling what he was feeling. I didn't know what was happening between us. Don't get me wrong, we had fights before, but nothing like this. Somehow this felt like the beginning of the end. God I so hoped not. No matter how angry, hurt, and confused I was, I didn't want to loose my Jasper.
Finally he spoke, but it was not what I expected to hear. It shocked me down to the core. "I think we should take a break." He looked about it. Here he was breaking up with me, or as he put it taking a break from eachother and he was calm about it. He was leaving me and he looked fine. It was breaking my heart.
"You don't want me anymore? You'r leaving me?" Even though I wasn't human I could feel myself hyperventalating. I couldn't breath and it was a good thing that I didn't need to. "But-but I love you Jasper!" Don't leave me! Don't you realize how much I need you? My heart cried out to him. How could he leave me, how did we get to this point?
He didn't even look at me. "I do love you Ali, but right now we need space, we need time to figure out what we want."
That was bullshit! I know what I wanted. It was him; it would always be him! "I know what I want!" I walked over to him and grabbed his shirt. A bold move but I had to be bold I was loosing him! "You're my life Jasper, you're my reason for existing! It was your face I saw when I became a vampire. You're my other half. That will never change for me."
I thought it would be ok when he leaned down to kiss my forhead, but then he pulled away from me and reached the window. "Are you really sure about that Alice? I don't think you are. I'll be in La Push if you need me. I have permission from Sam and the elders to go there but don't follow me. Carlisle is the only other one allowed there. I'll come back in a few days and we will talk again." And then he was gone. He was gone and there was nothing I could do about it.
I don't know how long I stood infront of my mirror after that. Maybe I was searching my soul for something, some secret answer to all of my problems. Did I even have a soul? I didn't think so, my soul had just left with Jasper, he was my soul. I placed my hand to the glass surface of the mirror. I ran my fingers along my image. What did I see when I looked at myself? A monster, what I saw was a monster.
I ripped the bandage off of my collarbone; there was no reason to hide it anymore. I may as well look like the monster I was. Look what I had done, I had run Jasper off! I ran off the one man who ment the world to me. How could I do that? What kind of person was I? Without even realizing it I had put my hand threw the glass shattering it. Good, atleast it knew how my heart felt. I let out a hollow laugh. I continued to laugh and it kept going up in pitch until it was hysterical.
I didn't even notice that someone entered my room. I guess it was my room now, not Jasper and I's room but just my room. It felt so empty saying it like that. Me, me, me, me, me, me, me…alone. I was just myself and I was alone. Maybe this was my hell? Maybe this was what I deserved?
My eyes had drifted closed but they snapped open when I felt arms go around my waist and lips on my neck, on my scar. Had Jasper returned home? Had he forgiven me? I hoped so, god did I hope so! I looked into the now broken mirror and froze. It wasn't Jasper who was kissing my scar making me feel so good. I felt my stomach plummet. It was Edward, oh god I had forgotten about Edward! I was so worried about Jasper that I just; I couldn't let myself think of Edward.
"You taste just like you did all those years ago. Your beautiful Alice, Jasper is a fool. He doesn't know what he is doing, what he is giving up." He shakes his head gently but his lips still linger on my neck.
I had to do something, this could not happen. I pulled away from Edward, like Jasper had with me and I went to sit on the bed. "Jasper will be back. He just needs time, all he needs is time to forgive me." He has to forgive me, he has too I don't know what I will do if he doesn't.
Edward walked towards me, and I couldn't move, I'd never seen Edward move with such grace, such purpose. He was very much the preditor right now. And I felt like the prey. "You didn't do anything wrong Alice. He did, he lied to you, kept things from you. I have never done that you have I?" He backtracked for a moment. "I mean besides the whole thing about your past."
"Edward, Jasper isnt the bad guy, he didn't mean to-" And I was cut off because Edwards lips where on mine. It felt so good, so soft yet hard. So cold but they filled me with a warmth I had never known before.
"Alice, tell me you don't want me." Why are you doing this Edward? We can't! What about Jasper? And Bella? You love Bella! "I love you Alice. Its you, only you. Let me show you. Please." And I couldn't fight it anymore, I needed to be loved, even if only for a little while. Even if I didn't deserve it.
Edward must have heard my surrender because he pushed me down onto the bed, he body leaning over mine. His lips on mine tongue dancing with mine. My hands were in his hair, and hands were everywhere. It was like he couldn't get enough of me. I knew this was wrong, but I liked that feeling. The feeling of being wanted, of being desired.
"I'll always want you Alice. You'r all I have ever wanted." In a move so unlike Edward he brought my tiny hand down to his jean covered crotch. He was hard. He was hard for me. Now that was mind boggling. I was making the always calm and collected Edward hard. I giggled and I felt him chuckle before biting my earlobe. "Find that funny do you? You little minx." And his teeth gently tugged on my ear, making me gasp as he ran his tongue over the shell.
"I find it hilarious." I would have said more but I was struck with a vision, when it ended I looked at Edward and he was breathing hard. I wasn't sure if my vision had arroused him even more than he had already been.
"So Alice this is where you decided. Do you want your vision to come to true?" I looked at him and licked my lips. That was a tough question, did I?
TBC….
AN: And this is where you all come in! It's time to vote again, so here are your choices:
Mistake: Alice and Edward have made a huge mistake, but Alice is the only one who sees it that way. What will Edward do to convince her otherwise? What news does he tell her that suprises her and makes her talk to Bella? (No this wouldn't be the end of the Bella/Edward relationship..Not yet.)
Heaven: Edward has Alice. She wants the vision to come true. This is his chance to show her that she should only be his. But will it have consequences? Who in the family knows there secret? And how does this person feel? What is their reaction?
Fight: Someone who isnt Jasper or Leah fights with Edward. (No its not Jake or Bella..You'd be surprised.) Why is this person kicking Edward's ass? And how will this effect the whole situation?
