A/N: I'm going to start doing random "TheSlap" status updates. Just for randomness. :D
Everybody's Fool
Digidestend Angel
I Do NOT Own Victorious or Any Of The Songs Used
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Chapter Seven
I Can't Let You Go Without A Fight
Beck walked in, alone, to the same class they all shared that Friday. The night before, his girlfriend dumped his sorry ass for his outbursts and lack of trust in her. He hadn't eaten, nor did he sleep. He went home, where Andre cried in his room, and he cried in his. Andre was mourning the loss of a child, practically, while Beck lost his whole world, which was Cat. He and Andre didn't even speak a word this morning either. Andre wasn't happy with him for calling Cat those horrid names and telling her to go jump off a bridge…Beck would kill himself if Cat ever did that.
Everything was dissolving before his eyes.
He sat on the end of a row, towards the back, knowing that no one was going to sit by him. Everyone hated him. He had to admit: he hated himself too. He so contemplated killing himself to end HIS misery, but that would be a coward thing to do. He wasn't a coward…just an insensitive jerk who doesn't know how to keep a girlfriend happy. A certain Goth told him those words years ago…
He hates it when Jade's right.
Robbie and Tori came in next after a few other students he didn't care to know and they apparently didn't see him, since he was in the very back row at the wall, right next to the door. They took their seats in the group's normal spot…even though he was sure, it wasn't normal anymore.
Soon enough, Andre came in, looking pissed and depressed at the same time. He sat on the other side of the room, towards the back as well. Beck had to admit…he felt heartbroken for Andre. Sure, the baby probably wasn't even a month or two conceived, but it had a heart…it was alive within Jade. That baby was going to be Andre's son or daughter…and Jade snatched something so precious away from him without even telling him. No matter what, Andre was still deeply at loss. Jade took his unborn child away from him because of selfish reasons…he couldn't help, but cry at that.
Class started when the teacher walked. Beck didn't see Cat or Jade, until the door opened.
Cat walked in, dressed in dark flare jeans and a long sleeve shirt that had a thin hood, with her long red hair flowing over her shoulders. "Sorry, I'm late, Professor." She said in a soft voice, but everyone heard her. She walked straight to him with a note. Everyone took her appearance in. She had no sign of distress or tearstains, and the clothes she had on made her look even tinier than she had ever been. She was reminding them of a little porcelain doll…the kind that didn't smile. Or even a Barbie, without being tall.
"And what is this, Miss Valentine?" The teacher asked her, examining the piece of paper.
"It's a doctor's note excusing Jade West from classes today." Cat answered, almost emotionless.
Beck vaguely heard Andre scoff.
"Hmm…alright." He handed the note back to Cat, since she'd have to show Jade's other teachers as well. "She must be back to class on Monday though, Miss Valentine."
"Yes, sir." Cat nodded and then took a seat right in front, seeing that was the first empty one.
"First things first: Miss Vega." The teacher turned to Tori's direction. "License?"
Tori took out her wallet, holding up a plastic card, with her picture and "California License" on the top of it.
"Thank god almighty." The teacher sighed. "Let's start class, shall we?"
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WHAT'S NEW ON TheSLAP:
Cat Valentine: Sooooo not wanting to be in class right now…or anywhere near Beck Oliver. :( Mood: Unhappy…
Beck Oliver: I wonder how many times a guy can mentally hit himself until he passes out…cause that's what I've been doing. Mood: Angry
Jade West: Ugh, why is my ex so dramatic about this shit? Damn. He's such a sissy. Mood: Lazy
Andre Harris: Never thought I'd feel this much pain. Mood: Sad
Tori Vega: I feel SO out of the loop! Mood: Totally Confused
Robbie Shapiro: I hear Cat's single now…hmm… Mood: Breezy
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Cat walked out of class, feeling like she wanted to pass out, when someone slammed their hand on the wall in front of her face, making her halt in her tracks. She saw Josh Michaels standing there, with a sickening grin. "So Kitty-Cat…" He took her shoulder and pushed her against the wall gently. "I heard you're single now." He took his other hand and put it under her chin, making her look at him. "Are you done resisting me?"
Cat bit her lip.
"Your protector isn't coming for you this time, baby." Josh taunted, leaning down and nibbling on her neck a bit. Cat could've cried. It was true. Beck wasn't coming to save her. "So…lunch?" Josh asked, straightening himself up. Cat couldn't answer. "I'll take that as a yes, pretty lady." He wrapped an arm, possessively, around her waist, leading her out of the building. "I know how to show a girl a fun time, trust me." He told her close to her ear and gave her a sharp pinch on her hip where his hand was keeping her next to him. She cringed, not appreciating his breath so close to her face and the physical pain he was giving her.
They went outside, down the walkway, and Josh saw a few of his football buddies. "What's up, man?" One yelled out.
"Look who finally loosened up!" Another one said, motioning to Cat.
"Yup." Josh said with pride. "All mine."
Cat didn't speak up. She had no cares about anything anymore. As they talked some more, Cat looked around and what she saw made her eyes tear up.
Beck was on a bench with a girl…she was touching his knee. She leaned into him and kissed his lips. He put a hand on her shoulder, as if to keep her there.
Cat couldn't breathe.
She snaked out of Josh's grasp and ran away from him.
"CAT!" Josh yelled loudly after her.
At hearing her name being yelled, Beck shoved the girl away and looked up, standing and saw his redhead angel running away from the campus. He couldn't do it anymore. Beck raced after her. He didn't a rat's ass if everyone was staring at the two of them. He didn't care anymore. All he wanted was for Cat to forgive him. He had only kissed the girl because he saw her with Josh…even though she looked completely uncomfortable with him…he should've known Josh was just taking advantage of her fragile state.
She was close to the apartment building, but she had to slow down. She was having quite the panic attack and it was making her lose her mind. She held onto a light pole, breathing heavily, with her vision going blurry. Her heart was racing and she was getting sweaty. This wasn't from running…no. No, something was wrong. Was it a heart attack? Maybe? She put a hand to her chest and tried to calm herself down, but nothing was working.
"Cat!"
Cat opened her eyes. "Beck…"
"Cat, look at me, what's wrong?" His voice was frantic.
Cat couldn't answer as she fell back into his arms, losing consciousness.
"CAT! NO! NO!"
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Beck rocked himself back and forth as he sat in the hospital room chair. He was put in a small private waiting room, where only he was there for now. He told Andre, Jade, Tori, and Robbie that it would be useless for them to be there. Cat's parents were living in Hollywood, but they told the doctor they can tell Beck anything he needs to know about Cat's state. But it was the waiting and waiting that was killing the 19 year old young man, who needed to hear his ex-girlfriend's voice.
"Mr. Oliver."
Beck looked up with exhausted eyes and a heavy heart, seeing the doctor standing there. He lifted himself off the chair and walked towards him. "Y-yes?" He trembled.
The doctor sighed. "Miss Valentine is perfectly fine and she can go home once you sign the discharge papers."
"What happened to her?" Beck asked.
"She had a panic attack." The doctor said.
Beck sighed in relief. "Oh, that's all-"
"The panic attack was brought on by starvation, Mr. Oliver." The doctor finished.
Beck frowned and closed his eyes.
"Does she have a past of eating disorders?" The doctor asked. "Her throat is quite burned and torn from gagging herself to the point she vomits. We are surprised she hasn't lost her voice all together."
"She's been on and off for the past year." Beck confessed. "Her dance teacher is pretty harsh on her, so Cat takes it to heart."
"Ah, I see." The doctor sighed. "I do insist you take her to the guidance counselor, Mr. Oliver."
"Yes, sir." Oh that's going to be a fun one. "I'll do that. Can I see her?"
"Sure." The doctor motioned to the hallway. "Just keep going until you hit room 5. She's right behind that curtain. The nurse will be by with the discharge papers soon."
"Thank you." Beck gave him a nod before leaving the doctor there as he walked towards the room. He was nervous, but determined at the same time. He had the strength to withstand this. Either he was going to help her as a friend or her boyfriend…either way, he wasn't going anywhere. He hesitated opened the curtain, but he did and walked in, closing it behind him. Cat was asleep on the bed, covered from the waist down with thin sheets, dressed in those hospital gowns that looked too big for her. Her hands were lying on her stomach in a limp way, as her head was tilted a bit to the side. Her hair was beautifully flowing over her shoulders. He walked to the side she was facing the most and took one of her hands. "Cat."
With the sound of her name, Cat's eyes fluttered open. She didn't move an inch though, but she looked to Beck with saddened eyes.
Beck decided to speak. "I am so sorry for the things I said last night." He shook his head. "I'm absolutely disgusted with myself. Cat, when I pieced together that you were pregnant, even though you weren't, but I thought you were…for a second, I was beginning to get excited. I thought I was going to be a father, you know? And it was you who would be carrying my child, which was a plus there." He rubbed his lips together. "So when I saw that receipt…I felt like I had no hope left. I'm sorry I'm such an idiot. I should've asked you about those pregnancy tests before I jumped to conclusions."
Cat stayed silent, but he could tell she was listening.
"I love you so much." Beck stared into her eyes. "Cat…you are everything to me. My job, my grades, the money, the fame…those don't matter to me. Sure, it's nice to have them, but there's only one thing- well, person in this whole world that I need and cannot live without…that's you, Cat. I feel like I can't go a day without your smile. You brighten up my day every day. I want to marry you and live in a nice big house with you. I want to eventually have children with you. Cat, you're all I see in my future. Everything else is so uncertain, but you aren't. When I think of my future…I see you." He kissed her hand and then her forehead, making her close her eyes for a moment and he leaned back, so she opened them again. "You."
Cat let a tear fall from her eye. "I love you too, Beck." Her voice was cracking. "When I see the future, I see you too. I only see you…and a puppy, but mostly you." She smiled as he chuckled. "I can't live without you. When you kissed that girl today, I felt like I had no point in living. You are the one that keeps me going. I feel like you're the reason for every breath I take. And if I lose you, where's my place in this big world? I don't have one. The only place I ever see myself is in your arms and by your side."
"I'm so sorry for kissing her." Beck said with remorse. "I saw you with Josh and…I was jealous, so I wanted to get back at you, in a form of revenge to hurt you for moving on less than 24 hours after you dumped my sorry butt…but I realize that you were in a fragile state and Josh took advantage of that. So what I did was wrong and horrible. I should've stood up, walked over, and punched Josh in the face…again."
"I had no hope when he cornered me, you know?" Cat told him. "He told me that there was no point in fighting back since my protector wasn't coming to save me. That's what broke me, Beck. You are my protector…and when I knew you weren't coming that time, what was the point? He was biting my neck and pinching me…all I wanted was you and to be in your arms, where I know I'm safe."
"I'm your protector." Beck told her with all seriousness. "Nothing will ever break that bond between us. Cat, please take me back. I want nothing more than to love you and take care of you. I want to attempt to give you the world. I want to keep you sheltered from all the bad things. I want you to feel safe when you're with me or even when you're not with me. I can't let you go. I'm scared of what would happen if I did. I abandoned you today and Josh practically was having his way with you. I can't lose you, Cat."
"I don't want to give you up, Beck." Cat whispered. "I take you back."
Beck let out a sigh of relief and then leaned down, kissing her lips with passion and love, yet they were both sobbing at the same time.
The world felt right again.
Okay, I know I said on my Twitter status that I was 7-8 hours away from home…I'm an airhead. W were halfway home, but my brain was thinking the distance (sort of) from San D to Las V…ugh, not smart sometimes. I'M HOME! :) Nathaniel's napping :) Oops! Sorry! I'll ask permission: is it okay if I say my son is sleepy? If that bothers you, please let me know and I won't mention that…lol. Anyways, the trip was fabulous and I hope you enjoyed the chapter!
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