"It's a very dangerous state. You are inclined to recklessness and kind of tune out the rest of your life and everything that's been important to you. It's actually not all that pleasurable. I don't know who the hell wants to get in a situation where you can't bear an hour without somebody's company."

— Colin Firth

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Day 130: Michonne

Rick started talking more about Lori. If I mentioned Mike he mentioned Lori. It was getting weird. He got pissed off when I told him that Mike would knock him out for looking at my Titties. It was too hot to have to keep myself covered all the time. Hot. It cooled in the night but in the day it was practically scorching. I could only take so much before heading to the waterfall to get cooled and the sweat off.

I noticed Rick eyes would always leave my face and go to my chest. I had to remind him to lift his eyes to my eyes. It was annoying.

After our dinner we sat back enjoying the coolness. He seemed to be in a better mood and we talked about our days before we were married. I had asked him if he ever dated a black woman before and he said never. I asked him how many women he dated and he said one and he married her.

I don't know why I find that weird but It may explain why he act as if he never seen titties before. I am no more than the size of oranges and that if I flex my chest a little bit. barely a C cup if you will... I guesstimate Lori must be the size of cherries. It was so damn annoying.

I think what was making me so frustrated with him he would leave once he thought I was asleep. I didn't like that. I didn't like it at all. I am a light sleeper. I sleep by hearing him and if I don't I can't. It's not right that he doesn't tell me. I would have to confront him.

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Driftwood

Day 132: Rick

I think Michonne was trying to purposely piss me off because I started hearing more about Mike in the fourth or fifth month than all months combined. It was going to make me lose my Shit. The way she tell it he was a black Clark Kent by day and a Superman by...I will tell you this... I didn't know what game she was playing but she knew just how to piss me the fuck off.

I asked her how many men she dated since she found that I only dated one person so unbelievable...She wouldn't tell me said a girl never tells. What kind of shit is that?

Then she goes to tell me about what her Granny Mabel said, "Beware of the man who only swam in one pussy. If he gets a taste of the good stuff he's a goner for sure." What the fuck was I suppose to do with something else Granny Mabel said?

If Michonne said anything about Lori titties being the size of Cherries she's fucking wrong. They are the size of apricots. Thank you. That woman. Just thinking about that time makes me feel a certain way. She says I was annoying. She was annoying.

And Yes I was looking at her Titties...they were right there asking to be looked at. Thin ass shirt...she comes standing in front of me after being soaked by the waterfall. Yes. I looked damn it.