I can't wait to rehearse for the Games and getting more experience, but have to go through a huge process until this, I stay in bed all day. Aaron interrupts my sleep along with his makeup team, Adalyn drags my clothes covered by a black cloak. The costume wasn't much different from last year, still wanted to dress us like gods. They still used the gold. They put a big Crown on me with sharp edges, I have to look like a medieval Queen star. The dress is made of a beautiful Burgundy taffeta fabric with an embroidered panel forward. A huge collar on the back that can rise. It's super uncomfortable, I feel that if I move everything is going to fall apart, but it's just my imagination acting. The accessories are shiny, and It was to call attention of sponsors. We knew that after Peeta and Katniss, many designers would try to do the same thing. So I ended up turning into a star. My makeup is super light, with some golden details, as I like. My side bangs is a braid that is tied at the top of my head, and let my hair down.
I raise my dress, walking to Cato, Brutus and Enobaria. I put my leg in front of the other, folding my legs, greeting them as if I were a Queen. I give a laugh then. "I just want to make you aware that I'm not going to smile to them. I'm not happy with what's going on. " They understand my situation, having to abandon Kaya and leave her with my parents is terrible. All three agree on the head.
I climb in the carriage next to Brutus, I don't hold his hand like the Reaping Day, I'm not thinking of anyone but my daughter. I have to go back to her. We looked at ourselves before the horses begin to walk.
The Orchestra is the same, but louder now. There are several men lined up around us playing drum, it's a intimidating sound. All sponsors screaming for us, throwing roses. Brutus smiles with his arm raised and his hand cupped. I keep my lips sealed. I push the red button that my stylist gave me, and magically, we're shining like a star. Even my makeup. We passed by the circle, I do the traditional pose of a medieval couple. Relax my hand into the Brutu's palm. My eyes capture the President Snow with anger. Until the Haymitch's carriage is visible. I'm not the only one not smiling. He is alone, on fire, it's very beautiful the way his costume changes. He is on fire.
I get the help of Cato to descend from the chariot, he takes us to the tributes from District 1, they're smiling more than ever. The girl is wearing a white dress. Their muscles aren't hidden. They introduce themselves and we do the same. They admire I have only fifteen years of age and be in the games again. Then they go into the topic that we wanted to talk, that the Careers should stay together as leverage.
"Cato and Clove, I saw both of you winning the games. Thanks for taking care of my tributes. It's a shame that they lost. But if it wasn't for you, we wouldn't be here, "Cashmere smiles at Gloss. That's sick. She gives a wink to Cato, she knows he and Glimmer had something romantic in the Arena.
I smile as if I were enjoying being here too. "True. If it wasn't for them, we wouldn't be here . You know, alive. " She laughs, it doesn't seem to make much difference for them. "Despite appearances, you also know how to use the bow and arrow as her?" I ask.
"Of course, but we prefer to use knives and daggers. We are good at it, very good. Well, that's obvious, "they laugh. I realize how she won't let Gloss at least speak a word. And that makes me trust him more.
We continue to talk about the games and go back to our bedrooms. I start to play down all my embellishments. I sit in front of the window after opening it, all comments telling me to rest were bugging me. If I sleep, means that I'll wake up the next day, and I don't want this to occur. My bedroom door is knocked several times, Cato calls my name, but I pretend that I don't listen. I don't want to have a reason to live, I don't want to have to win, I just don't want this to be a priority of mine. Last year, I was just thirsty to win.
