Hi, sorry for not updating sooner and here is the very intense chapter. I´m glad so many have read my story.
Do I love you or do I lust for you?
Chapter 7
We have to start over
I ran down the street with Nate by my side. He seems to know the way.
I have been here ones before with one of Nate´s friends, she had gotten unwanted pregnant, and so she had to get rid of it.
Blair must have thought the same. I had to stop her.
We slam the door open to a red house and I saw that horrible sight of Blair laying on a table and a woman with a needle. I walk over to the woman and take the needle from her.
Blair looks at me with fear and starts to cry. I lift Blair off the table.
I give the woman a menacing glance. Blair just holds me tight.
I cover her thighs up. She hadn't been touch, lucky I thought.
I was scared as the needle comes close to me and suddenly the door bangs up and Chuck storms through the room and takes the needle from her.
I was so scared by Chuck´s expression he look angry and I felt fear running.
He lifts me up into his strong arms and he feels soft.
He walks me out of the house and he has covered me up.
We came home and Chuck looks sad and angry again
"You have no idea that you could have died," Chuck roars as he looks at me.
"And my child could have died to," Chuck says sounding hurt.
"No, she did not kill our baby," I say quickly. Chuck looks relief and says" Don't ever do that again to me."
He holds me tight.
Blair was asleep after she had cried herself to sleep.
She was young and I was being too hard on her. She wasn't ready to have a child and I had to let her get use to the idea.
Blair´s mother was thrill by the news and Blair look even more nervous and unsure. I love to have a child with Blair´s beauty but she was young and we both need to take time on this.
Blair came more gorgeous with her pregnancy and she has this amazing glow to her.
Serena was by her side they were connecting very well. She needed another woman to talk to and I couldn't blame her for that.
I was fine with being near her but we have to talk about the whole abortion since it nearly happen. Blair was trying to forget and I was to. Maybe I felt betrayed and hurt over the fact that she wanted my child dead.
Chuck seams all right by it all but I still fear that he hates me. He hadn't talked about the baby at all. Chuck had shown me off to his friends and looked so happy the other day.
We were so childishly sometimes just waiting for the other to say something. I was feeling guilty and it was eating me up and Chuck was probably in denial.
One night when I brush my hair Chuck came in. His face looks somber and sad.
"Chuck-, "I start to say. Chuck walks over to stand behind me. His warm arms wraps around my neck.
I feared that he would choke me and I try to move away as Chuck suddenly breaks down crying.
"I nearly lost you," Chuck chokes out and I throw myself into his embrace.
"Please don't cry," I say gently to him. His body was shaking as he tried to calm himself down.
Blair broke down after awhile later and she also cried. She was sobbing and says" I feel so guilty for lying to you."
I just held her and we both just let the other cry out. I hope nobody saw us like this. I have never been good with emotions and I had this feeling Blair was bad at it to.
I lift Blair onto the bed. She laid herself away from me. I had to drag her back. She was trying to block me. I carefully stroke her soft hair as I whisper comforting words to her.
The child will be born soon and Blair would be more desperate. I felt bad for making her so sad. She did not deserve to feel unloved.
People were only talking about our child and Blair did not care for a child. That hurt me a bit but she had wanted to travel the world since she was a little girl.
We both want something different, I fear that will make Blair leave me.
People were saying that Blair was a child without any feelings for me but I love her to much to care.
Don't get me wrong I love Chuck but he wants something very different than me. He wants a family and I don't feel ready yet.
On the party that night Chuck suddenly disappears and I couldn't see him anywhere. I start to worry about him. Serena and I were looking after him and in the end we found him.
Chuck was covered in blood and unconscious and I try to wake him up but he is too far gone. Serena and I got him home and send for a doctor.
Blair and I were going to another party and I was just going to get drinks as I meet Carter. He looks smug and says" I heard your wife was seen down in redistrict." I ignore him and I walk over to the bar but Carter did not give up.
"Do you have to sale her or do you to have gambling problems or an unwanted child," Carter says his voice annoying.
I stop in my tracks and say" you know nothing." Carter just laughs and says" again naïve Bass, I know Blair was down at Madam Linton."
"You hold your tongue," I say in a hiss and Carter just looks amused.
"So it's true that Lady Blair wants her child gone. I knew she was a whore," Carter was having a field day and I really want to hit him.
"That is none of your business and my Blair is not a whore," I say coldly to him. He was still looking smug and I lost it.
"You are a son of a bastard and Blair is my love," I say as I hit him.
Not before long both Carter and I were fighting a dual.
The pistols were loaded and we were standing with our backs turned. One of Carter´s friend was the judge of the dual.
On the count of three we would both shoot. My bullet hit Carter in the chest near his heart and his hit my stomach. We both feel over and my vision went blurry and I lost conscious.
"God Chuck, how would you do something so dangerous?" I cry as the doctor was in with him.
Serena was trying to comfort me but I couldn't stop myself from crying.
The doctor comes out after two hours and he says" Mr. Bass is very lucky that he still lives."
I stop crying and I ran into our bedroom and sit myself near to him. He looks so fragile and pale.
I held his hand as I felt glad that God what saved him.
I don't know how long I lay in bed but I start to wake up. I lift my eyes and see Blair. She is sleeping on the bed but a little away from me. I look down and see my chest cover in bandaging.
My whole body hurt and I feel very tired no wonder. I had been shot and Blair must have gotten me home.
I carefully touch her and Blair starts to stir, she slowly turns and looks at me.
Her whole face brightens and she says" Chuck."
She carefully start to rise and says" let me get you some water."
"No stay here by my side," I beg and she stays.
I call on Arthur and he comes with food for Blair and me.
Suddenly there was hammering on our door, Arthur went down to open it. Who want to speak to us so late, I wonder. Chuck was fast asleep and Arthur comes back looking grim. I ask who it was and Arthur says" Mrs. Bass please come down."
I nod to Arthur and goes with him down stairs. In the leaving room was a big man with white hair.
I know who that man was no one but Judge Weller if he was here something was very bad. He is my father´s best friend.
"Mrs. Bass, I am here to arrest Mr. Bass for murder on Mr. Baizen," he says in a grave mood. I was in shock and Judge Weller really looks sad on my behalf.
"He is not well," I say in a meekly voice.
"When he starts to get well enough he will be trialed," Judge Weller says in a cold but calm tone.
He left and I broke down and start to cry knowing they would lock Chuck up for murder.
