Summary: AU. Sam is struggling to cope with his anger, and his girlfriend is on the receiving end most of the time. Soon, Sam starts to get violent, and when his lover turns to his older brother, it gets even worse. Please R&R!

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural or its characters. I only own my OC.

A/N: Wow! It's been a month nearly since I updated this but here is chapter seven. Prepare for a shock at the end! Thanks for the support so far! I hope you enjoy this chapter!

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Because Of You, I Am Afraid

-Seven-

Lily sat in her drama class, thinking over what Sam was trying to do to help himself to gain her trust. People could see the marks on her face and she knew that they were all making judgements about Sam. Sam wasn't a bad guy in the slightest. He'd just lost it, and it had been coming for a long time. As badly as he treated her sometimes, he didn't constantly beat her, and he tried his best to make her happy. He was dealing with his problems, and Lily was incredibly grateful that he was.

She went home, deciding to call Pamela to ask whether it would be a good idea to keep in contact with Sam over the next few weeks before their meeting. Maybe the communication would help him. Dean smiled as she got through the door and was on the phone ordering take-out. She immediately went to find Pamela's number, finding it almost straight away and calling her.

"Pamela Barnes."

"Hi, Pamela, this is Lily Nolan, Sam Winchester's girlfriend." Lily began, "I need some advice about my contact over the next few weeks with Sam."

"Oh, um...Could you just give me a moment to move to my office?" She said softly, "I'm just heading back from a break."

"Sure." Lily replied, waiting as Pamela headed into her office.

"Okay, what do you want to know?" She asked, "You understand that I can't share any confidential details with you."

"Oh, yeah, I know that." Lily said softly, "I just want to know if over the next four weeks of sessions, I should call Sam and speak to him maybe once or twice in the week."

"I don't see why not." Pamela replied, "You can keep letting him know how you feel and you can also keep an eye on his progress. That should be fine."

"Thank you." Lily said with a smile, "I'll call him in a couple of days. Bye, Pamela."

"Bye, Lily."

Lily hung up the phone, looking up at Dean who smiled softly at her. He handed her a soda, sitting on the couch and wrapping an arm around her as she rested her pretty little head on his shoulder. He was happy that she was giving Sam his space and that Sam was getting help. It was long, long overdue, but he was beginning to change his life.

"Thank you." Lily whispered softly, "For everything."

"No, you don't need to thank me." Dean told her, "Sam's getting help and turning his life around, and you're getting the break you've needed for a long time. You're family, Lily. You and Sam will be fine."

The two shared a hug, Dean pressing a tender kiss to her head as they held one another. He'd been there for her for all this time and she couldn't be more grateful. He was amazing, a true friend, and a brother to her. He would be if she and Sam got married.

"I spoke to Pamela, Sam's therapist..." She said softly, "She thinks it would be a good idea for me to call Sam once or twice a week through his sessions, so I'll call him in a couple of days."

Dean nodded and she announced she was taking a shower, grabbing her sweats and heading for the bathroom. The hot water soothed her muscles and as she rubbed the shower gel onto her skin, she relaxed and felt calmer. She had faith in Sam. He was persistent with whatever he did, including his college work, and she had a lot of hope and faith that he could get help. After her shower, she put on her sweats and headed out into the main area of the apartment, Dean handing her another soda as he served up the pizza.


Lily brushed a hand through her hair as she'd finished washing the dishes and joined Dean on the sofa, bringing two coffees with her. Dean thanked her for his and watched as she sat beside him, continuing to work on her assignment.

"You know, Sam is so lucky to have you." Dean told her, "You're being awesome, Lily. A lot of people would've left their partners because of this but you've stayed by Sam. You're a good person. Don't ever forget that."

"Thank you." Lily whispered, smiling softly at Dean and patting his back, "You're a good brother to him. He loves the bones of you."

"And I know he loves the bones of you." Dean replied, "He knows he's gone too far. He's desperate to make things okay between you guys."

"I know." Lily said softly, "I know."

She'd lost trust in him though. She'd trusted him to never hurt her, to love her and look after her always. But he belittled her, yelled at her, unleashed his anger out on her and he'd even beat her. Unintentionally of course. She wondered where he was at that moment and what he was doing. She also wondered how his sessions with Pamela were going too.


Sam and his friend Ruby sat on the floor, completing their assignment for the term. They'd always had a close friendship, which Lily had never begrudged Sam, but sometimes she got a little suspicious about Ruby's motives. But Ruby was a good girl really. She was helping Sam with part of their studies and she'd been there through the tough times.

"I think that the therapy is her way of controlling you." Ruby said softly, "She can't stand it when you have a go at her for not doing something she should have. Maybe she wants to rule over you instead."

Sam huffed out a laugh and shook his head.

"You know that's not right." He told her, "I shouldn't have behaved the way I have towards her. It wasn't right."

"Sam..."

"Ruby, no."

Sam and Ruby stared at each other, and Sam registered the look in her eyes. It was like an animal waiting to catch its prey and before her knew what was happening she was crawling over to him. Panic ran through him, at the thought of what was about to happen, at the thoughts of betraying Lily, at the thought of her with Dean.

Ruby kissed him and all thought was abandoned as he pulled her into his lap...

-TBC-


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