Chapter 7 for your my only hope don't lie, don't leave

Gerard

"I love you, Gee. I know you're gay; I know you might not love me. I do though."

"I love you, too, Lyn-z. I think I'm bi. I never felt so…loved around someone like you."

"Promise to never leave me?"

I promised. It was a lie all wrapped in one. Now at points, I can't look at her. I'm leaving her; I been lying to her. I'm not in love with her. I love her as much as Alicia loves Mikey maybe. There's the problem again; I love Mikey as much as Frank loves Jamia.

Mikey told Alicia already that he's leaving for war. The girl ran away from him. He came home and told me everything. He became depressed after that. The next day he skipped school to talk to her. Jamia told us she came over and talked about something. She took Mikey and discusses it. Alicia started turning suicidal and thinking of cutting again. Depression took its turn on Mikey.

He started becoming less social. He really only talked to me, Jamia or Alicia. Jamia also became depressed. She's a different story; for her, she can't live without Frank. Maybe…Maybe that's how Mikey feels about Alicia.

It was a week before we left; I still haven't told Lyn-z. Mikey was calming himself by playing his guitar. He was in his own world. "Mikey," I said.

He looks up, pushing his glasses a bit. "What's up, Gee?"

"How should I tell her?"

"Gerard, seriously? You're the only who hasn't told their girlfriend!" He shook his head.

"I'm scared what Lyn-z will do!" I signed, "She's been…a bitch!"

"That's nice. Let your girlfriend know about a week before training, Think about it, Gerard. Frank waited a couple months to tell Jamia. Before that, Ray's girlfriend knew. I told Alicia a couple weeks after meeting Jamia. How could you wait so long?"

"Shut the fuck up, Mikey," I growled back.

"Put yourself if Lyn-z when you're talking to her."

I went to Lyn-z's house. Everything Mikey said was still shaking me. I knocked on her door, and her mother came out. "Oh, Gerard, hold on a second." She turned her head, "LINDESY! GERARD IS HERE!"

She came to the door. "Step outside," I said. She did. I placed my hand on her face. I wanted to start crying. "I don't know how to tell you this."

She grabs my hand. I lean in to kiss her. Our foreheads touch. Her eyes were closed. She broke the silence. "Gerard, what's going on?"

"I'm turning into every other guy you seen; those guys that have been hurting your friends by saying this. I'm fighting in war."

She pushes me away for a second. She closes her eyes, shaking her head. "You can't, you can't, you can't…" She keeps repeating the same thing. She keep sniffing and wiping her eyes.

"I'm so sorry," I whisper. "I just can't…"

"Why, though, just why?" She keeps crying. I got up and started kissing and wiping her tears. "Tell me, Gerard…."

"My father making both me and Mikey join. We both aren't doing so great in school and—"

"Stay with me," Lyn-z whispers.

"Lyn-z, I just can't…"

"Why can't you, Gee?" She places her hands, rubbing them against my soft arms. "Gee, please…" She starts tearing up again.

"I love you so much." I whisper, kissing her forehead. "I want to stay, but….I can't leave him."

"I-I," she slaps me. "I THOUGHT YOU FUCKING LOVE ME!"

"I do," I whispered. "I seriously do." She started breaking down. I grab her for a hug, "Lyn-z…"

"NO! LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE! I HATE YOU GERARD WAY! I…I HOPE YOU DIE IN WAR!"

It hit me. She never loved me, did she? Did she think about me as much as I thought about her? Did she ever forget the one who rescues her? Did she ever…did she ever…did she ever…No she didn't. I give up. I gave into her body and looks. The personally is changing on me. Now, she's breaking on me. We somehow weren't over.

I ran back home though, sucking in my feelings. They wanted to drain from my body though. I ran upstairs, not making eye contact with my parents. Mikey was still there. His eyes lied upon me for a second and then got up. He places a hand on me.

"Gee?" I started tearing up. "Gerard, w-what happen?"

"She hates me," I whispered. "She fucking hates me, Mikes…"

"Aw, Gee," He hugs me. "What happen?"

"She offered me to stay there. I told her my father will find out. She bitched out and told me…" I started drifting off. Why did she…? How could she…? Why me?

"Hey," Mikey said, "it's going to be okay. She'll come before training."

"I hope, Mikes…"

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"GET THE FUCK UP!" Our father bitched at us. Mikey and I were pushed off our beds. My father left us; I helped up Mikey. He looked reckless.

"Did you get any sleep, Mikes?" He shook his head. "Oh, Mikey…"

"Alicia," He whispers. "I keep worrying about her."

"I know, Mikey. We're all worrying about our girlfriends."

"I know," His undertone drifts. His eyes are moving away from my contact. Tears fall from his eyes. His head falls upon my shoulder. "Gee, I don't want…I don't want…I don't want…" He was choking on his words. I knew what he was saying. The phrase was choking him by the minute.

"Mikey," I shushed him. "Come on, let's go."

Our father drove us down. Both parents were in the front seat; I was in the back, grabbing Mikey's hand. He was sucking in all his feelings. I warned him to. I know what my father would scream if Mikey didn't do as I told him.

He leans onto me. "I just wish this moment hadn't come, Gerard."

"Me neither, bro…" We were there. Frank hadn't shown up yet; Ray was there with Christa. He was holding her and kissing her.

We walked up to them. Ray smiles to us. "Ready, Ways?

"I guess," we both mumbled.

Christa gave us both hugs. "Good luck out there, Ways." He looks into Mikey's eyes then to mine. "I'll care of Alicia and Lyn-z."

Right there, Alicia, Jamia, and Frank came down. Mikey ran and grabbed Alicia for a hug. Where is she? Where is Lyn-z? I knew she won't come. I knew she didn't care. Why did I believe you, Mikey? You're were so wrong.

Alicia came by me and Ray. She gave us a hug. She looked into my eyes. "She does love you. She keeps breaking down. Gerard, she…she also cut again. I'm sorry, Gee…"

Such a great way to know how my baby is doing before I'm transfer off to war…

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