I was unaware of who I was anymore. I was lost in my own little world knowing that Ben was leaving. I don't really understand why I'm so upset, I mean he did cheat on me. But, he loves me; i have to believe that. I stood beside my locker and rambled on in my head, but then someone had come up to me. "Hello?" the person said. It was Alice. The last person I really wanted to talk to. I bet she seduced Ben, or maybe even Ben seduced her instead, I don't know. "Um, hi." I finally said.

"Well, Ben's gone.." She told me, although I already knew that. I couldn't say anything after that, I didn't know what to say. "So, did he tell you where exactly he was going? Henry only told me he was 'moving',"

"Yes." I said, pausing. The way I said 'yes' sounded very strange; i hoped she hadn't noticed. "He-- he's going to Italy. He said his dad was marrying the prostitute and they were moving to Italy."

She looked at me like I was an idiot."Prostitute? That doesn't sound like Ben's dad. What prostitute?"

"I don't know. He didn't tell me. That's all he said." I told her.

"Hm.." She said. But, then I had an idea. Maybe I could get Alice to tell me some things about Ben. Alice was like his bestfriend, so I'm sure Ben told her a lot about me.

"Uh- Can I, uh, ask you something?" I asked her, sounding like a little kid.

"I guess." She replied.

"Did Ben really love me?" I said, bravely, but then I felt embarrassed. "Um- did he ever say anything about me. I mean.. uh.." Alice laughed at me for some reason.

"He was falling inlove with you on your first date." she laughed. "It's so funny. Because, at first he only wanted to find someone to have sex with. But, then I pointed you out. 'She's kinda cute, who is that?' were his exact words. He told me that you were a 'good place to start'." She said, rambling on quickly. I was horrified. Ben only used me for sex?

Alice noticed my expression and suddenly realized what she had said. "Amy, Ben changed once he got to know you. He didn't care about sex anymore, he just wanted to love you. You changed him. I hadn't believed it at first- but it was true."

"Oh." was all I could manage to say. I wanted to ask her a lot more, but I didn't think that I could. I was shocked and infuriated. I could not believe Ben. That's all he cared about all along was sex.

"I-- I gotta go." I told her, walking off in a hurry. I wondered where Ricky was; i didn't see him. I walked around trying to find him, but still couldn't, so I decided I would ask Adrian, which was the stupidest thing I could ever do.

"Adrian, have you seen Ricky anywhere?" I asked her.

"No, I haven't." She said, simply.

"Oh, well he should be around here somewhere."

"Amy!" I heard Ben shout from across the room.

"Ben?" I asked quietly, confused of what he was doing here. He ran up to me and hugged me.

"Wha-- what are you doing here?" I asked.

"Well, I decided I would come to school and say bye." I frowned. I was hoping that he was going to stay. I didn't really want to tell him bye again, it just made me feel bad.

"Oh." I said, remembering what Alice had told me earlier. "Uh- is the only reason you went out with me was because you thought I 'was a good place to start'? Because you wanted someone to have sex with?" Ben raised his eyebrow. I'm guessing he hadn't been expecting that.

"Where did you hear that from?"

"Alice." I replied. "Is it true or not?"

He looked like he was going to protest. He sighed. "Well, it was originally true, but then I fell inlove with you, which I hadn't expected to happen."

"Ben, let's go." I heard Ben's dad shout from down the hallway.

"Just a minute." He said back at him.

"Amy, I love you. I have always loved you. I always will love you."

"Then don't leave." I begged.

"I wish I didn't have to. This is so, so hard for me to do. But, you know we can't get married and run away. What about John? We don't have enough money for him, and we can't take care of him if we did leave. So, I guess that's a small complication there, or rather a large complication. I know I said I would do anything for you to forgive me, and I'm sorry I can't keep that promise. I want to. I love you so much, Amy."

"I love you too." I whispered, with tears in my eyes. Ben leaned over and kissed me.

"Ben let's go!" His dad shouted again.

"Bye, Amy." He said softly, with a tear in his eye.

"Bye, Ben." I whispered back at him. He walked off, looking behind him and then left. He was gone out of my life forever. And it's all my fault.

"Are you okay?" Ricky asked, coming up from behind me.

"Ricky, I was looking for you everywhere."

"You were? Oh. Well, I just got here. Is everything okay? Why are you crying?" He asked, concerned.

"No, everything is not okay. Ben's moving to Italy." I cried. "His dad is marrying a prostitute and they are all moving away."

"I'm so sorry." He said sincerely. "He's marrying a prostitute?"

"That's what Ben said." I answered him. Ricky was about to say something, but the bell rang.

"We should, um, go to class before we're late." I said.

"Yeah, I'll see you after school." He told me behind his shoulder. I stood there for a while watching him walk off before I went to class.

Grace's POV

"Mom? Can I talk to you?" I called to her. I needed to talk to her about something, I didn't think she was going to approve of it, but I didn't care.

"Yes, Grace, what's wrong?" She was already worried. I don't know why she automatically thinks that something's wrong.

"Uh- I wanted to talk to you about something. I'm not sure how you're going to take it though."

"Grace, you can talk to me about anything." She told me.

I hesitated. "Okay. Well, I was thinking of having sex."

"What?" she asked, not sounding surprised. "I knew I shouldn't have given you those birth control pills. They've only made you think of having sex. And who exactly are you thinking of having sex with?"

"Jack."

"Well, honey, I guess you're going to have to trust your intuition on this one. I can't make you not have sex. It's your decision, I guess. I just hope you make the right one."

"Thanks, Mom. I hope I can make the right decision, too."

Amy's POV

My mom picked me up after school, and then we went to get John. After work, I hurried home to see if Ricky was there. I opened the door and went up to my room. He wasn't there yet.

"You okay, Amy?" my mom asked me.

"I don't really know, mom. I miss Ben." I said.

"I know, Amy. But, everything's okay. You can still call him."

"Yeah, I guess I can." I said, cheering up just a little bit. "I'm actually more concerned about something else though."

"Hmm? What do you mean?" She asked, confused.

"Ricky." I told her. I'm not exactly sure of what I was concerned about though.

"What do you mean?"

"I don't know. I just think...I-- I think I maybe...I might belong with him. Maybe that's why Ben had to leave. Maybe we were meant to be together. For John."

"No, Amy. Just because Ricky is the father to your son, and because Ben is gone, does not mean that you were meant to be with him."

"But that's just it, Mom. I feel like I am. I can't explain it. Ricky isn't the same guy I thought he was when he got me pregnant. When I found out about Ben cheating on me, Ricky was there and he comforted me and I didn't see the same guy that I knew at band camp. He was completely different, and.. I don't know. I can't explain it, it's so confusing. I-- I don't know. I think, I think.. I think I might..." I trailed off.

"Amy, you're not about to say you think you love him, are you?" She asked.

"I think I might." I whispered, turning around to face the door when I heard someone knock. That must be Ricky.

"I'll get it."