Probably not the smartest thing, but updating before I do my homework ahahah! I really hope you guys like this chapter :D
~Literally a few seconds later; Kendall's 16 and Logan's 15~
Logan could feel his mouth becoming dry. Kendall continued to stare right into his eyes and the sight of his blonde friend's shiny emerald green orbs had the power to make his cheeks blush. Luckily it was too dark out for the older boy to notice.
"…I-I just told you that I love you." Kendall sighed, "Why aren't you saying anything else?"
"I-I'm not sure of what to say." Logan replied.
"Why?" Kendall asked.
With the little bit of courage that Logan had left inside him, he stood up on his tippy toes, resting his hands onto Kendall's shoulders. His eyes were still locked on the blonde's as he stood now at his height level. The raven haired boy leaned in closer and closer, feeling shaky and nervous. Kendall followed along and leaned in; closing his eyes and waiting for the kiss that he knew would mean the world to him. Logan's soft lips then pressed against his and with that, a connection was formed. Kendall had never felt that way before…he'd never felt so in love.
"So?" Kendall smiled.
Logan's heart almost stopped. He didn't know how to respond. He just kissed his best friend, the guy who he had loved ever since he was 11…why didn't this feel good, then? He couldn't help but remember the reason he was even living in an awful orphanage. The trust from his parents that he had believed was real had been broken. He couldn't risk having that happen again. On top of that, if he were to date Kendall the bullying at school would only get even more unbearable.
Logan turned around in a second and dashed off of the porch. His feet slamming against the pavement and his arms swinging back and forth with full force; he couldn't away fast enough. This was too much…it was wrong and it couldn't happen.
"Logan! Wait!" Kendall called out, but the brunette ignored it.
He loved Kendall so much. Each footstep made more and more tears spring from his eyes. Why was he running away from the person who could save him? He was instead dashing towards complete torture. He didn't want to do that, but it was just too pressuring. The whole in his heart grew along with the sadness and anger he felt at the moment. He wanted to turn around more than anything;
"LOGAN!" Kendall screamed, getting more and more near to the brunette.
Logan stopped and panted, bursting into a fit of sobs. Once Kendall had finally caught up he pulled the smaller boy's head to his chest, letting him sob into his shirt for as long as he needed to…until the cries simmered down and went away.
Logan looked up at Kendall…the blonde looked down at his friend. Their eyes were connected again and it felt magical…nothing could compare to that feeling. The raven haired boy bit his lip, holding back a forming sob.
"Shh…" Kendall hushed in a soft tone, "What's wrong?"
"…I-I love you back, more than I've ever loved anyone in my life." Logan whispered, "But I can't date you…" His voice cracked, as the tears he was holding back began to fall, "W-what if you leave me? What i-if this isn't real or m-meant to be?"
"I'd never leave you, Logan…that's impossible for me; I love you too much." He cooed, "This IS meant to be, I could tell from the first time we meant that I was going to be yours forever. You are just so perfect and you mean so much to me…I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't have you all to myself. I wanna be with you, my heart longs for you to love me back and for you to trust me like I trust you."
Logan sniffled, the sobs ceasing once again, "Do you mean that?"
"It's coming straight from my heart."
"Then when I say that I love you back, it's coming from my heart too." Logan mumbled, "I wanna be yours…I wanna know what it feels like for you to…to actually love me, not like a brother or a friend, but to love me like you said you did before." Logan replied.
"Then…" Kendall grinned, "…Logan Mitchell, will you be my boyfriend?"
"Of course." Logan intertwined his fingers with Kendall's and blushed harder than ever as the blonde placed a gentle and soft kiss to his cheek.
Awwwh :) was it cute? do you guys want more Kogan fluff in the next chapter?
xoxo
~EMiLY
