If I were without you {music inspired by for this chapter; V.A.S.T – Touched}

Placing Haley on the bed he looked over her, checking for any injury's he was careful with her, as if she were a porcelain doll – so easily broken. When it came to emotions dean wasn't very good at expressing his. But he knew that Haley brought out that side in him especially when he didn't want to. Sitting on the chair besides Haley. He watched her, for any sign she was okay. He just needed to know that everything would be okay. Letting his mind cast back he remembered the times with Haley, like the day when she flipped on the iron maiden song and her hair whipped around her face as she sang along – Dean and Sammy both joining in. Or like the day when she told sammy she'd lost the baby. The way they were both torn up, at that point Dean had thought they'd be okay because they had each other. But from there everything for his brother and his girl friend had gone down hill. Mostly because of Dean. He closed his eyes. He'd ruined his best friend and his brothers life up. Haley right now was – he didn't even know what was wrong with her..because of him. - getting out his book that he always kept with him, he sat and read through it finding and testing Haley's symptoms. That's when he knew what was wrong with her. Sleeping pills. Someone had slipped sleeping pills in her drink. He felt the heat soar through his body. His hand swiped forward in anger colliding with the lamp in front. As he turned in frustration he jumped back – Haley was awake. ''Dean,'' she coughed out. Dean pressed his one finger to her lips as he rushed over to her. ''Haley I have to say something...'' he spoke to her with a calming voice as he took his place back on the chair. ''Since I met you, we've always been up and down with our friendship. And that night when me and you...'' he coughed and looked down, ''that changed perspective for my life,'' he ran a hand through her hair, ''Haley I love you.'' he told her. He knew this was about to start a war bigger than them. But he didn't care, because they'd have to stop hurting each other and do this together. Forever. ''Dean,'' she whispered, hurt falling over her face. ''I need to go to sammy,'' she told him, pushing up.

Haley felt the pain crush her insides as she pushed up, but she couldn't stay with Dean. The baby! That's when her eyes flashed fear, Dean stood – ''what's wrong?'' he asked quickly. Haley let both of her hand's curl around her stomach – ''what happened to me.'' Haley asked, her voice breaking as she spoke those words- That's when dean relaxed – ''I checked you over before you woke up, it was a sleeping tablet,'' He placed a hand on her shoulder to help he relax. Then he realised, the words she'd said to him a minute ago ''why'd you need to go to sammy?'' he asked, looking at her. Confused as much as he was. Why would she need to see sammy? Why was he important right now? He'd never let Haley out his sight again, that's something he promised himself as he walked over to the kitchen, searching he found one clean glass. But he made sure he washed it out before he'd even let her pink lips touch it. Placing ice cold water inside It after he carried it over to her, placing it beside her on the wooden bed side table next to where the now broken lamp would have been. ''So why?'' he asked again as he had not gotten a reply from her before. Haley looked at him with hurt eyes.

Haley had to tell him, he deserved to know that she wouldn't be there when he awoke in the morning. Even if she had to walk it. ''After the tablets, or what ever was happening to me I had a dream,'' she told him, explaining what she'd seen and heard. ''Your right, we can't be together,'' she nodded as she watched her blonde tangled still wet hair bounce in front of her, ''Sammy and me, we might have nothing for each other. But I know he needs me and the baby needs a stable relationship and a dad who'll always be there,'' that's when she finished looking away from him. She didn't know how he'd react to the last little thing she'd told him. She felt selfish. Like she was being kind of like Bella from twilight. But it was the only way, right? To save Dean the trouble? To keep the apocalypse at rest. This baby, the prophecy had told that if this baby was left in the hands of Dean and Haley Lucifer would rise. But if Haley and Sam were to raise the child. Lucifer would be at rest. Because Lucifer knew that Dean & Haley together would be unstoppable. And with Haley's powers developing, there was indeed a massive chance that the baby would also have powers. With Dean's hunting skills and knowledge about the way Lucifer and the Demons worked he knew we'd be a power family. An unbreakable family link of hunters. But with Sammy Lucifer had plan's and if Haley and the baby were with Sam then he would have a constant look over them through Sammy's eyes. Which kind of scared Haley. Haley could not let this happen, not after they'd come all this way and not because she wanted to have a fling with the other brother and he was too god damn hot all the time.

Dean looked at her, his expression frozen for a second as he listened to her. He pushed off from the chair and walked across the room. Turning around his finger pointed directly at her, ''are you trying to say I'll be like my father,'' he questioned her,, his eyes blaring on her. Haley pushed off the bed, her face scrunching up as she did so from the pain that ricochetted over her body, ''No,'' she gasped out of breath already. ''But you and I can't offer what me and sammy could,'' She tried her hardest to explain in the pain she was in, but it didn't seem to be working as much as she'd been wanting it too. Dean actually for the first time felt betrayed by Haley. ''It's my kid, not his,'' he closed in on her, so he was towering over, ''Don't take that away from me!'' he told her.

Haley could feel his breath on the top of her head as she looked up at him. Her eyes locking with his. ''Dea-'' but she was cut off with his lips hard on hers, stumbling back from the pressure from him she felt his arm curve around her back to steady her. She gasped against his lips as she kissed him back, she brought her hands to rest on the nape of his neck as she pressed her body against his. His lips rough against his, dean brought his lips away as he pushed her back simply onto the bed. She let her legs give way as she felt the bed fall around her again. Dean tugged at the back of his shirt as he pulled it over his head letting it drop behind him. Climbing on top of her he let his hands slip up her shirt onto her warm skin. His cold hands sent shivers up her spine as she wrapped her legs around his waist. His lips moved to the hollow of her neck as he kissed to her collar bone. Then back up. Haley stuffled a moan, until his hand grabbed the zip of the dress pulling it down on her side. Letting the tight dress loosen on her. She moved out of it quickly letting her bare skin breath under his bare torso. She breath a ragged breath as her lips once again brushed his as she undid his belt. Slowly he kissed the hollow bit of her neck again, a shiver fell over her body. There hand's moved over each other groping as they kept there new kiss locked for a long time, unable to get enough of each other. Pinning her arms above her head, breathed on her neck then slowly kissed her lips, building up as he pull of his trousers kicking them off as he heard them hit the floor. Dean and Haley knew this was a big deal with each other – every time this happened. Running her hands down the side of his body he shivered under her touched as lay his weight in the right places under Neath her. Kissing her neck, Haley arched her back slightly at the tingling sensation that swam around her body as she let out a ragged breath. Dean smiled against the kisses as he moved to her jaw line still sending signals that everything was always special for them. Every time. Every place. ''I love you dean,'' she moaned out under his touch, Dean smiled back ''I love you too,''

The sheets were rumpled up around Haley as Haley's eyes flickered open – adjusting to the dark surroundings she made out the room of the hotel room. Haley could still feel the warmth from Dean's chest as he breathed in a sleep that not a sledge hammer against a door could wake him from. Rolling of of Deans chest she moved to lay on her side; her hands tucked under her head. Sighing she thought of the consequences that Haley and Dean would have to face up too now, but also what they'd tell Sammy.

Haley frowned; what was she going to do? She could hurt either of them. And no matter what sammy had always been there for her through thick and thin. Kept her safe when needed and made sure she was always...happy. Or at least he tried to make sure she was. Haley looked over to Dean who was asleep peacefully breathing out sweet breath. So beautiful. Leaning over Haley kissed Deans forehead. He frowned lightly in his sleep but murmured a few words and drifted back. Slipping out of bed she back away. ''I cant believe I'm doing this,'' she whispered, and turned away from dean her hand over her mouth as she shook her head, ''Sammy deserves better than what we've done, lets just pretend,'' she told him – even though he would not hear her. ''Let's just pretend nothing ever happened, like you said...we can't be together,'' when she remembered she was talking to herself. She turned walking to the door, looking over back at Dean she sighed. ''Bye dean,'' and as the door opened she closed it quietly behind her.

Deans eyes opened at the small click of the door, turning over to look at where Haley should have been he realised she was gone, he felt his heart sink. She'd gone. Back to sammy. Slumping back into his pillow he turned so he was on his back. That was great, loosing her again not being able to make her feel like she was safe. Placing both of his hand's on his face, he let out a sigh of frustration. Before letting them fall by his side. He knew he needed to sleep, otherwise he'd feel even worse the next day and that was better to have sleep than wake up and hate the world for most of the day. Rolling over to his side, he closed his eyes...hoping...just hoping that sleep would be nice to him and take him into a dream...a place where everything was just not that bad.

Haley found her self standing at Sammy's door as she knocked a treble knock. It was now around six am. And knew Sammy always answered the doors so she wouldn't have to sleep in the car for the night. She thought about how much she'd hurt Sammy and Dean. She wished that everything could go back to when they'd all first met, just after the incident with the Demon and spirit. Everything had been perfect back then, everyone had been happy. Sighing she watched as a light flicked on brightly inside of the house. And a lock being unbolted came from behind the door. As the door opened half way slightly so Sammy's dopey eyes could look at who was standing there at this time in the morning. Haley stood, her coat over her arm as she awaited his reaction for her return. Sammy's dopey eye's soon changed to a full grin spread across his face as he threw the door back, stepping forward his hand caught her face as he looked deep into her eyes. 'Thank god your back,'' he whispered, placing his lips against hers. She fake smiled against his kiss, hugging him tightly. ''me too...'' her mind was still full of crap, she knew it needed to be sorted. ''lets go inside,'' sammy told her, taking he hand as he lead her inside.