Sara POV

I feel you in my heart and I don't even know you,
now we're saying bye, bye, bye,
now we're saying bye, bye, bye
I was nineteen, call me.

I felt you in my life before I ever thought to,
I feel the need to lay down beside you and tell you,

I feel you in my heart and I don't even know you,
now we're saying bye, bye, bye
now we're saying bye, bye, bye
I was nineteen, call me.

I sung the words I had just mustered out of my mind with every bit of passion in me. I felt every word, meant every word. I somehow wished Tegan could hear them, hear exactly how I felt, maybe then she wouldn't think twice about wanting me like I want her.

Tegan POV

I stood silently by Sara's back gate, it had started to lightly rain and my hand was still over my mouth as small tears streamed from my eyes. I listened to the lyrics that Sara was singing and it broke my heart. It was then it that moment that I realised, regardless of how long or how well I knew Sara and regardless of how old she was, I wanted to be with her, I couldn't stand to think I had inflicted this pain on her and I wanted to protect her from anyone or anything ever hurting her again. I listened again as she sung a previous line again...

I was nineteen, call me

I then realised what she was singing about and remembered that Sara had given me her number. I flicked through my contacts, rain drops splattering on my screen as I did so, looking for a name I didn't recognize. She had saved her number simply under the name "Sara." Without thinking about what I was going to say, I pressed call and nervously held the phone to my ear. After a few rings I heard her singing stop and the sound of guitar died down, I took a deep breath as I heard a crackle before she spoke, answering my call. "Hello?"

Sara POV

"Hello?" I answered curiously. There was no caller ID and I was slightly anxious as to who was ringing me. I heard a slight sniffle on the other end before hearing a recognizable voice.

"I feel you in my heart"

The words were stated so simply but I felt real meaning behind them. I knew instantly who it was but it suddenly dawned on me that Tegan just recited one of my lyrics. I grew slightly more confused before realising she must have heard my song.

I pushed the door of my shed open with the phone still to my ear and stepped out into my back garden only to find Tegan at the other end. I could see small drops of water running down her face, I wasn't sure if they were tears or raindrops but we stared at each other for a few seconds, not entirely sure of what to say to each other. We both still had our phones to our ears.

"I'm Sorry" I heard Tegan say both through the phone and through the short distance between us. Tears started to well up in my eyes as well as hers. Tegan shoved her phone in her pocket and I did the same before we both started walking slowly towards each other. Before I had time to think Tegan was right in front of me, forcefully slinging her arms around me and holding me as tight and close to her as I thought humanely possible.

"I know this is all so quick but I want you Sara" She sobbed. "I can't bear the thought of hurting you"

I nestled into her shoulder, my arms wrapped around her waist, clinging onto the fabric of her jacket as we both cried. "I want you too" I said in almost a whisper.

Tegan started kissing my shoulder and up my neck, I felt her tears and raindrops on me along with her lips. She then brought us face to face and lightly kissed my lips, resting her forehead on mine afterwards as we both smiled at each other through our tears. We felt the rain start to come down on us harder and I grabbed Tegan's hand pulling her inside through the back door, leading us into the kitchen.

Our clothes were soaked through and we were dripping by the time we got inside. Tegan shivered and I peeled her jacket off of her shoulders before removing mine and throwing them simply on the floor.

"Come On" I said, walking out of the kitchen and towards the stairs, I turned just before I began to climb them, making sure Tegan was following before leading us into the bathroom. I stripped me and Tegan of our clothes. She didn't resit, just stood simply still as I undressed her and myself before eyeing over my naked body. I pulled on Tegan's arm until we were both enclosed in the shower, turning on the water as I went.

Tegan sighed gratefully at the feel of warm water on her body. I leaned into her, pushing her back against the shower wall. I stopped just before my lips met hers, my hands either side of her head, hovering over her, letting her feel my breath on her skin. I watched as she shuddered and her pupils dilated while drops of water ran down from her head.

Tegan POV

Sara leant over me, teasing me. She knew now that I wanted her and was playing it much to her advantage. I tried to resist, playing her at her own game but she was just so irresistible, especially when dripping wet in the shower, completely naked. I placed my hands on her hips before running them up and down her body. She smirked before filling the gap between us, attaching her lips to mine in a heated kiss. I moaned at the contact I had craved and opened my mouth slightly allowing Sara to deepen the kiss. I felt her hands start to explore my body, scratching down my neck before palming my breasts, causing another moan to exit my mouth.

I was enjoying Sara's assault on my body, she may only be 19 but she knew exactly how, when and what to do to a woman and thankfully it turned me on greatly. As we continued kissing in the shower, I took Sara's bottom lip lightly between my teeth, pulling at it. It was Sara's turn to moan.

As I let go of her lip she broke the kiss completely, allowing us both to breathe. I stared into her eyes, they were plagued with mischief. Her hands returned to either side of my head as she returned her lips to me, this time kissing, nipping and sucking down my neck. I leaned my head back against the wall, closing my eyes, feeling myself growing more and more aroused. Sara's hands paid attention to my breasts again before moving down to my stomach as her lips met my collar bones.

She kissed all the way down my body, her hands trailing behind, down the rest of my stomach. Sara finally arrived where I wanted her, resting herself on her knees. She kissed me just above my clit teasing me as always. I moaned before she flicked her tongue over my clit just once, before looking up into my pleading eyes, a cheeky grin plastered across her face.

"Please" I breathed. "I need you".

I swear she loved making me beg for her. It worked however as I felt her tongue glide beautifully and gently up my slit before circling my clit. She licked back down again before moving her tongue in and out of me, making my legs quiver. She held them to steady me still continuing to make me moan uncontrollably. I felt her lift my legs slightly and rest my thighs on her shoulders. I placed my hands on her head steadying myself as I began to ride her face.

As Sara continued I pushed myself into her quicker, getting as much contact as I could. My breathing started to get more ragged and I felt Sara's right hand on the small of my back. She began to stand, holding me up with her right arm before pushing me against the shower wall and unexpectedly thrusting 2 fingers inside me. I gasped earning a giggle from Sara. She pumped in and out of me, attaching her lips to mine. I broke the kiss and began panting into her mouth; she didn't flinch or move her face away, instead kept her eyes locked onto mine as she moved her hand in and out. My walls began to clench around her fingers and she thrusted into me twice more before I came on her fingers.

"AHH FUCK, I..I… love you" I cried breathlessly staring her dead in the eye.

Sara POV

I stared at Tegan for a few seconds before smiling and looking downwards. I lifted my head and looked in her eyes again.

"I love you too" I replied. I'd never been so sure of a reply in my whole life and I said it with as much meaning as I could, kissing Tegan sweetly on the lips. She sighed slightly and smiled, seeming almost relieved.

For the next 15 minutes we comfortably washed our hair and bodies, splashing soap and water at each other occasionally, laughing as we did so. When we were done, I turned the water off and me and Tegan hopped out of the shower, wrapping ourselves in a towel each.

Once we were dry, I pulled some underwear out of my drawers and some clothes out of my wardrobe. Deciding on my usual skinny jeans and a band tee, I was satisfied and pulled them on, leaving Tegan in her towel. I threw some underwear at her which she pulled on before turning to look at her. I squinted my eyes. "hmm" I said the myself, trying to decide which band tee to give Tegan.

"You know Sar, any t-shirt will do" Tegan giggled.

"shh I'm thinking. I'm trying to pick out a band I think you'll like"

I settled on Now Now and threw it to Tegan with a spare pair of jeans. She looked at the T-Shirt and smiled to herself. "They're my favourite you know" she beamed at me.

I smiled wildly at her, pleased with my choice and watched as she pulled it over her head, messing up her damp hair. I reached my hand over to her, sweeping the hair out of her face before tucking it behind her ear. I let my hand linger on her cheek for a few seconds, gently rubbing it with the back of my thumb. Her hand came up and covered mine as she leant into me and kissed me sweetly on the lips, both of us smiling stupidly as she did so.

I laced our hands together, dragging her downstairs and into the kitchen where we began to make some lunch. I told Tegan to sit down whilst I began making us fajitas, cooking chicken in a pan before adding a few mixed spices.

"You look sexy when you cook" I heard Tegan say from behind me. I turned around and smirked at her, looking down at the cheeky smile plastered across her face. I leant down and kissed her before she playfully bit down on my lip as I pulled away. I continued cooking and our lunch was quickly made, which we sat and ate comfortably, passing the time until late afternoon. I watched Tegan reach her hand out to me, brushing a crumb away from the edge of my lip with the back of her thumb, smiling as she did so.

I cleared our plates before dragging Tegan up and into the living room. She made herself comfortable on my sofa and buried herself under a blanket whilst I flicked through my DVD collection. I popped in one of my favourites and joined Tegan under the blanket, snuggling into her side. I heard her giggle as the classically, recognizable, opening music sounded around the room.

"Harry Potter? Really Sar?" Tegan chuckled.

"Shut the fuck up, I love Harry Potter!" I argued with her. In all honesty I was a little obsessed with Harry Potter. Tegan just laughed and kissed me sweetly on the top of my head before we both settled and engrossed ourselves in the film. I absentmindedly mouthed the lines of the film to myself as they were said by the actors, knowing each and every small detail of the film and knowing what was going to happen next.

About an hour into the Chamber of Secrets, my eyes began growing heavy, the evening was consuming the day and the flicker of the TV was the only source keeping my living room alight. I looked up to Tegan who hadn't spoken since the film began and saw her eyes peacefully closed with a content sleepy smile playing at her lips. I rested my head on her chest that moved steady with her breathing and let myself gently fall asleep. My mind conjured up sweet dreams, a nice change from the nightmares I was used to having and I enjoyed sleeping my way through the evening, snuggled up with Tegan.

I felt a small, light tapping on my head and sleepily opened my eyes, turning to see Tegan waking me. She greeted me with a smile, which I returned and sleepily rubbed my eyes. We both sat up, stretching out our limbs, yawing as we did so. I pulled my phone out of my pocket to check the time, it was 20:18.

Tegan POV

I'd laid awake for a while whilst Sara was asleep on me, she looked so beautiful and peaceful, I felt as though I could spend every day doing nothing but simply watch her sleep. I woke her up realising it was getting into late evening and we needed to eat at some point. I smiled to myself as Sara out cuted herself, yawing and stretching whilst still being incredibly sleepy.

"Shit, we were asleep for a while Tee" She giggled as I watched her check her phone.

"I know, but you looked too cute to wake up" I smiled, causing Sara to blush and playfully push my shoulder with one of her hands. Before she could retract her hand, I had grasped her wrist and pulled her down onto my lap. She was beaming at me and I loved how happy I made her. I kissed her passionately, pulling her in close by her arms. She kissed me back before we were interrupted by my rumbling stomach

"Wanna go eat?" Sara asked.

I immaturely giggled and raised my eyebrows.

"Not like that" Sara laughed back. "I mean lets go out, get dinner maybe? And then hit the pub?"

"Sounds perfect" I smiled.

She hopped off my lap and we both went upstairs and changed into slightly less casual outfits. Sara lent me some clothes as all mine were still at the sad excuse of a B&B. We fixed our hair before grabbing our belongings and heading out the door. It was cold out and we both shivered, November had morphed into December and winter was very much here. We walked down the street heading towards the town centre.

My right hand brushed with Sara's left and I dropped my head, looking down towards them. I moved my hand and laced my fingers with Sara's looking up and smiling at her. She stopped our walking briefly and sweetly kissed me on the lips before we continued our walk into town, hand in hand.

We arrived at a small Italian place. I'd walked past here so many times and I'd always wanted to go inside but Lindsey would always rather eat at home.

"Hope this place is okay?" Sara turned and asked me. "I drove past it the other day and thought it looked nice" She shrugged.

"I've wanted to eat here for ages" I said excitedly, practically dragging Sara inside the place. We were seated at the back of the restaurant, on a cute 2 person table. The waiter gave us our menus and we both read through them. I peeked my eyes over my menu looking at Sara and how cute she looked, furrowing her eyebrows whilst scanning over the menu. She looked up and caught me, kicking my leg under the table. We both giggled like school kids acting a little too immature for our age.

"You'll pay for that later" I teased her. Before she had time to respond, the waiter was back at our table. We ordered some wine and both settled on similar pasta dishes. We chatted comfortably as we waited for our food, the candle lit ambience of the place made it a little more romantic then either of us had intended but I was enjoying myself with Sara too much too care. Our faces were close as conversation flowed between us however one of us always seemed to stop talking just for a split second and we ended up gazing into each other's eyes. Me and Sara found ourselves giggling and smiling at each other once more that we barely noticed the waiter had arrived with our food.

He smiled knowingly at us both before setting our food down and telling us to enjoy our meals, which we did.

"Fuck this is so good" I praised. "Better than your cooking" I winked at Sara.

"You better shut the fuck up or you won't be getting any dessert" She responded playfully to my surprise. I looked at her with a smirk on my face knowing full well what she meant. We finished our meals and paid the bill in short time before stepping back out into the cold air to make our way to the pub.

As we entered we were both slightly relieved we didn't see Lindsey in there. We walked up to the bar, Sara ordering us both a JD and coke. We took our drinks and went to head for a table before we spotted, Ted and Emy, Sara's friends. They called us over and we went and joined them.

"Hey guys" Ted greeted us, slightly slurring as we sat down.

"He's already drunk" Emy chuckled and we both laughed back.

"Well we better drink up if we wanna match you hey Ted?" Sara joked. However to my surprise, she necked the whole JD and coke in one. She turned and looked at me expectedly, raising her eyebrows. I sighed and copied her actions as did Emy.

"Looks like we're getting fucked tonight then?" I asked.

"Yep"! Sara replied quickly before she was back at the bar. I laughed at her slightly shaking my head but still had a surge of excitement to get drunk and spend my night with Sara. She returned with a drink for each of us as well as a tray of shots. We all downed the various shots on the tray before tending to our drinks.

It didn't take long for the alcohol to kick in, my head was slightly fuzzy but I felt great. We all spent the night laughing and joking with each other and obviously drinking more. I felt so comfortable in everyone's presence and for once I actually felt happy and it was amazing. I felt something fall into my shoulder and turned to see Sara slumped on me looking completely bladdered. She looked up at me with her drunken eyes and I held her shoulders up before leaning down bringing our lips together. She tasted like a mixture of Jack Daniels and vodka but still kept the sweetness she always had when I kissed her. Our kiss deepened quickly earning whistles from Ted and Emy. I raised one of my hands flashing my middle finger at them, earning a laugh from their mouths before I broke mine and Sara's kiss to laugh with them.

I went to remove my hands from Sara's shoulders but as I did so she came with me, unable to hold herself up. I giggled at her realising she was considerably more drunk than I was. I put my arm around her to keep her steady.

"Come on Sar, you little drunk. Let's get you home, we both have work tomorrow" I said, checking the time to see it had just gone midnight.

"I'm not drunk" She slurred.

I laughed at her again before taking her hand and pulling her up to her feet, keeping a tight, firm hold on her.

"Nice seeing you guys, hopefully see you soon" I spoke to Ted and Emy who said their goodbyes back, earning another slur of words from Sara.

We stumbled our way to the exit, gasping a little as the crisp air tickled at our exposed skin. After spending most of my money that evening on alcohol, I rifled through my wallet to find I had no money for a Taxi. I looked to Sara who was swaying unsteadily on her feet, looking at me with an intoxicated smile. There was no way she could walk home so without warning and much to her surprise I picked her up, slinging her on my back.

"Put your arms around my neck Sar. Don't let go" I commanded.

"Yes Sir" Sara spilled out as she lazily slung her arms around my neck, willingly obliging to let me piggy back her home.

I easily walked the cold, dark streets that December presented us. Sara was a delicate, light, little thing so there was no struggle to walk with her on my back, in fact I enjoyed it. I could still taste the alcohol in my mouth that had slightly intoxicated my brain, making me slightly giddy and the chilly night heightened my senses so the feel of Sara's breath on my neck and hands clinging onto me was a great feeling. It wasn't long until I found my way back to Sara's house and as I reached her front door, I let her slide down my back until her feet hit the ground. She reached out her hand and clutched onto my arm, to keep herself steady.

"Do you have your key?" I asked her. I watched as she moved her hands around the pockets in her jacket until she pulled out numerous key-rings attached to a small silver key. I smiled at her and took them from her hands, opening the front door and helping her inside. Once inside, she wouldn't let go of me, she clasped her hands on my shoulders and buried her face in my neck.

"Tee?"

"Yeah?" I answered slightly curious, moving my head down slightly to try and look at her.

"Don't go back to the BB. I want you to stay with me"

I hadn't any intentions of going back to the B&B tonight, not with the state Sara was in but having Sara ask me to stay herself, made me feel warm despite the cold of winter that was upon us.

"Hey, I'm going nowhere okay" I assured her before gently walking her up the stairs as she continued to wobble from the alcohol. We got into Sara's room and she flopped straight down onto the bed, earning a small laugh from my mouth. I stripped her of her jeans and jacket, leaving her in her underwear and t-shirt. I then removed my own and climbed into Sara's bed, pulling the covers over me and an already half asleep Sara. She nestled into me and I smiled, sighing with satisfaction before closing me eyes.

"Love you Tee" I heard in almost a whisper. I looked to Sara to see her eyes still closed before I kissed her forehead.

"Love you too Sar"