DISCLAIMER: I do not own any of The 100 characters, however I own some original characters that you'll get to know them one by one.

So, I'm back! Hope you missed me and this story ;)

And to Wright, as usual: Jake was a good guy, I really liked him... :( No, my intention was for everyone to think that Clarke was mad at Bellamy but it's not like that! (Evil laugh!) I kinda like Derek too and I'm thinking about growing his character a bit. Looking forward to your thoughts...

The song used in this chapter is "Fix You" by Coldplay.

Question: Anybody here into iZombie? I just need someone to fangirl over that show with! No one I know watches it... :( And if you don't watch it already, you should! It's a great show!

HERE WE GO:

Chapter7_Aftermath

"Honey, you have to eat something, please. For me?" Abby begged her, tears forming in her eyes out of desperation. Clarke didn't respond, she just looked at her mother, no expression on her face. Abby sighed looking at the dark circles under her sad eyes and put the plate away.

She started: "Clarke, you need to rest. Just lie down on your bed and close your eyes. At least, think about it." Clarke's eyes were still locked on Abby but she remained just the same. There was a knock on the door and Abby went to see who it was.

Bellamy was standing behind the door, his expression was more than worried, and he seemed like he hadn't gotten much sleep himself. He gave Abby a sad little smile and let out: "I am so sorry for your loss…"

Abby nodded but said nothing and Bellamy forced himself to ask: "Can I… Can I see Clarke?" Abby bit her lower lip nervously thinking what to say to him. She knew Clarke was not ready to see anyone yet, even if it was Bellamy.

She said quietly: "She's… Well, she can't see anyone just yet… She needs time, Bellamy." Bellamy nodded in understanding, like he was expecting that answer even before he asked his question. He ran a hand through his messy hair and said: "At least let her know I've stopped by."

Abby nodded again and closed the door slowly as Bellamy walked off. She walked back to her daughter still staring at the space she had stood in a few minutes ago. She sat down next to her and put her head on her shoulder.

She gently played with her hair and whispered: "It was Bellamy. He wanted to see you but I said you needed some time to get yourself together." Clarke didn't show any reactions, surprisingly, and stayed still.

Abby closed her eyes and a tear slipped out at the last minute. Only if Clarke knew what she had done, she would never forgive her. She regretted it, telling Jaha how Jake planned to expose them, but it was no use then.

She could never forget the look Jake gave her. Like, he understood her, he forgave her, and then he told her that he loved her. Her heart broke into a million pieces then. And seeing Clarke in her situation was making everything so much worse.

She wondered how she was going to live with the overwhelming guilt for the rest of her life…

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Bellamy changed into his uniform without much thinking about it. His mind was far too busy picturing Clarke curled up in her bed, crying her eyes out, wondering what the hell happened. It hurt thinking about her and what she was going through and he wanted nothing else than being with her at the moment.

Last night was a nightmare for him. He kept repeating the events in his head and wondered if he could stop it or have a say in the matter, but the answer was an obvious no. He kept seeing Clarke, her eyes wide with shock, struggling to stop them from taking her father away.

Everything happened in a matter of minutes but Bellamy relived it for hours, and he was sure so did Clarke. He couldn't get much sleep and the first thing he did in the morning was to pay the Griffins a visit which turned out to be unsuccessful.

He felt a hand on his shoulder and turned around seeing Derek with a sad expression on his usually happy face. "I'm so sorry, man. Who knew we had to go arrest your girlfriend's dad, eh?" Bellamy nodded and sighed trying hard not to say anything else but he asked:

"Do you know what he did?" Derek shook his head saying: "Actually, I asked around but no one knew. The only thing they said was treason." Bellamy thanked him quietly and followed him outside the locker room and on to their shift.

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Three days passed quickly and he still hadn't been able to see Clarke. He knocked impatiently on their door for the second time that day and Abby opened the door with an annoyed expression on her face. Bellamy didn't even care as he asked: "Can I see her?"

"I told you, she's not ready. She's not going to be ready anytime soon…" Abby said tiredly and Bellamy fought with himself not to raise his voice when he said: "But I'm worried about her. I have to see her. Did you even tell her I came by all these days?"

"Of course I did but she didn't say anything. She doesn't talk, Bellamy. She doesn't talk, doesn't eat, doesn't go to sleep. That's her condition now and you just have to get used to it." Bellamy opened her mouth to say something but a flash of blond stopped him from talking.

Clarke was standing behind Abby but she looked nothing like the Clarke she knew. Her eyes weren't shining anymore and there were dark circles under them. Her face had gotten thinner and her hair wasn't golden as usual, it was almost dirty and dark.

She was looking at him silently but it seemed like she wasn't really seeing him. She was looking right through him and it scared him. He couldn't help but whisper her name: "Clarke?" Abby turned around and was shocked to see her daughter standing behind her.

"Clarke!" Abby exclaimed and hugged her tightly. Bellamy watched her reaction closely, but there was none. She just waited until Abby let go to announce: "I'm going out for a walk with Bellamy." Her words caught them both off guard but Bellamy managed to give her a warm smile, even though he wasn't sure she saw it.

Abby exchanged a worried look with Bellamy but then said: "Sure." She watched as Clarke took a few hesitant steps toward Bellamy and they both walked off silently. She sighed and closed the door and went to make a drink for herself.

They had barely taken a few steps that Bellamy said: "Clarke, I'm so sorry. I have no idea what you must be going through… I just… I just wish that I could be near you…" Clarke was looking straight ahead and kept quiet.

Bellamy swallowed and wondered if he had said something wrong. But in situations like this, you never know what the right words are. Right when he wanted to say something else and try to make things better, Clarke stopped and looked at him.

Bellamy's breath caught in his throat as her hand touched his cheek and he shivered slightly at how cold her touch was. Her eyes warmed up for a moment and then it faded away. She pulled her hand away and started walking again and Bellamy followed her.

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

Soon he realized she was heading for their spot next to the library and a weak smile was planted on his tired face. She walked carefully to the glass window and put both her palms on it, staring at the space surrounding them.

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Bellamy was standing right behind her and heard her faint whisper: "My dad… He's somewhere around here… I can feel it…" Bellamy carefully put a hand on her shoulder and whispered: "He's always with you, Clarke. No matter what, he's always going to be with you…"

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

He felt her shoulders moving and suddenly she turned around and threw herself at him. Bellamy wrapped both her arms around her and held her tight as she sobbed into his shirt. She tried to let out: "Bellamy… I miss him… so much…" He rested his head on hers and whispered: "I know… I know…"

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

He squeezed her and whispered: "Get it all out…" He patted her back gently for a few minutes until she finally stopped crying and calmed in his embrace. Bellamy closed his eyes and listened to her breathing for a moment.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

She pulled away and looked at him with her troubled eyes and he felt like all the life was being sucked out of his body. She announced all of a sudden: "I don't think I'll ever be the same…"

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

It was a simple declaration but Bellamy couldn't help but feel a sting in his heart. He put his hands on her shoulders and stared deep in her then red eyes. He started calmly: "I know that…" He went to say something else that Clarke gently put her hand on his right cheek again. This time the touch wasn't so cold.

He put his own hand on hers and rubbed it carefully. She confessed: "I need some time, Bellamy… I don't know what's going on with me or when I'll be okay… I don't know if I'll ever be okay… I just want you to know… that I… that we…"

Tears stream down your face
I promise I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Bellamy closed his eyes and sighed loudly as Clarke couldn't finish her words. She continued hesitantly: "It's for the best…" Bellamy opened his eyes and looked at Clarke again, sadness seeping out of his eyes. Clarke dropped her hand and took a step back but Bellamy grabbed her arm and made her stay where she was.

"Bellamy…" She warned him but he said without even hearing her: "Clarke, I know what you're going through, kind of, at least I think I do. I never knew my father. He was gone before I was old enough to get to know him. I grew up without him and I always felt that gap that only having a father can fill."

He took a breath and went on: "I'm not going anywhere, Clarke… I'm just not… And you have to deal with that, because like it or not, I care about you…" He ended his speech with a deep stare into her eyes and he could easily read shock in them.

"But…" She wanted to argue with him but he cut her words: "Clarke, let me walk you home, alright?" She thought for a moment and then nodded and let Bellamy wrap his arm around her waist and guide her home.

She held on to him with all the strength she had left in her. For the first time in a few days, she felt warm, she felt safe. Bellamy's words somehow found their way to her broken heart and sped it up a bit.

All she could think about after her father died was how she could never be the same and how everything would change and she never stopped to think maybe that was what supposed to happen. She was supposed to change. Everything was supposed to change. It was the way life worked.

She took a look at Bellamy on her side and a small smile brightened up her face. She was too wrapped up in thinking about her father that she had completely forgotten about him. Even when Abby mentioned he came by to visit her several times, she couldn't care less.

But hearing his voice earlier, demanding to see her, made her feel something. Some sort of electrical shock finally bringing attention to her numb body. That was the reason she got up and marched to the door and surprised both him and Abby.

Bellamy turned his face around and saw her smile and he felt like he was going to laugh. Seeing her smile was such a shock for him and it made him happy behind belief. He took his eyes off her and tried to hide his big smile.

Clarke closed her eyes and breathed calmly for the first time in days. She knew when she got home she would go straight for her bed and have her first proper rest after a while. She was going to have a real talk with her mother later on.

She took another look at Bellamy and sighed. She knew life was not going to wait for her, time wouldn't freeze for her. She needed to get back on track. She was going to make things alright, with his help.

She had to.

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you…

So what did you guys think? :)

Xoxo,

S