CHAPTER 7 – TIME AWAY FOR ANSWERS
Castiel and Piper had a lot to work through. She was accepting of him being an angel but that did not make any of this easy. There were a lot of questions she had to ask and he made sure to answer them to the best of his abilities. Some of them he couldn't answer though; not because he did not want to, but because, he didn't know how. Just because he was an angel did not mean he knew all of life's questions. If he did, he would not use google so much.
"We should go away for the weekend," Piper said out of the blue over dinner one night.
"Away?" Castiel was not sure what that meant. "Away to?"
"I don't know," she shrugged. "Somewhere secluded. Somewhere we can spend some time alone and just get to know each other."
"We already know each other," Castiel was not sure what the point of leaving would be. They could get to know each other in their own home. That is what they had been doing for the past eleven months, wasn't it?
"You make more sense to me now Castiel," Piper laughed. "Getting away is not a bad thing. It is supposed to be fun. Vacations are fun."
"Then I would like to go on one with you," Castiel nodded in agreement.
"I have enough saved up for us to maybe go someplace out in the country for a while," She offered up.
"You are forgetting one thing," Castiel moved his foot to rub against hers under the table.
"And what is that?"
"I am an angel,"
"And?"
"I can literally take us anywhere in the world in the blink of an eye. Though that is not really how it works."
"Do you twitch your nose?"
"Twitch my nose?"
"Yeah. Like Samantha Stevens."
"I do not know this Samantha person."
"Really? You have been alive since forever and you don't know who Samantha Stevens is?"
"I have not had the pleasure of meeting her."
"You don't meet Samantha Stevens. She is not a real person."
"How can I be like someone who does not even exist?"
"So how does your magic work exactly?" Piper was quick to change the subject, though he was certain this was not going to be the last time he heard about Samantha Stevens.
"I just will myself to be somewhere and I am there."
"And you can take other people with you?"
"Yes," He nodded, reaching across the table and placing his hand on hers.
"That is…" Piper was cut off.
It was bad to transport them when they had been sitting down. Once they arrived at the destination, the both fell to the ground. Luckily, it was not that far of a fall and they were both going to be okay.
"What did you do?" She asked. If he did not know any better, he would say she was angry. She was more confused than she was angry.
"This is a country side," Castiel pointed out at the open fields beyond the trees and a very beautiful cabin. "Would you like to go inside?"
"Now?" She moved to pull herself up to her feet.
"I checked," Castiel grabbed her hand in his and smiled down at her. "There is no one home currently."
"Someone lives here?" She looked between the house and Castiel. "Isn't that illegal?"
"Aren't you dating an angel?"
"Right. Breaking and entering it is."
"Entering."
"What?"
"I do not plan on breaking anything. That would be highly disrespectful to the owners."
"You are something else," Piper laughed as she took Castiel's hand.
"Yes I am," Castiel smiled, gripping her fingers between his own. "I am an Angel; Remember?"
Before Piper had the ability to say anything else, they disappeared again and reappeared inside of a beautiful cabin. It was one of those Cabins that you see on the cover of magazines or something. Castiel had appreciated its beauty when he searched for it and that is why he chose to come here. It was elegant but rustic at the same time. Seemed like the kind of place Dean would go for a vacation, if Dean took vacations.
"What's wrong?" Piper asked. She was good at knowing when things were night right with him. He could sense the same in her. That is what made them work so well. They could read each other and no grace had to be used for it. With Dean, he only knew what Dean was feeling when he would read Dean's mind and emotions. He didn't have to violate Piper to know her.
"This place," Castiel pulled her over to the large, oversized couch. As he pulled her down beside him, he tried to think of the right words, the ones that would explain what he truly felt. "It reminds me of Dean."
"The friend who lives in Kansas?" She questioned.
"Yes," Castiel nodded, his eyes looking over the rest of the cabin. "Dean and Sam are my friends from Kansas."
"But this place only makes you think of Dean?" She continued on with the questions.
Castiel had told her very little about his time with the Winchesters. It was not because he did not want her to know about them, it was just, well … it hurt. Talking about Dean and Sam, it hurt. He missed them and at times, he wished that he would not have just left them but it was for the best. If he had not left, he would not have Piper.
"Dean and I," Castiel took a deep breath. Over the last few months, Castiel had been letting himself become more human, relying less on his grace. This caused him to feel emotions in a more human way. That included the tears that he was fighting back at the current moment. "I was assigned a job."
Castiel finally let it all out. He told Piper about being assigned to pull Dean Winchester, the righteous man, out of hell. He told her about the apocalypse and how he had be cast out from the angels because he loved humans, more specifically, he loved Dean. He also told her about the mistakes he made and how he helped close off heaven. Now no one wanted him. Even if the Winchester's said they needed him, they were better off without him. Which is why he left to travel the world.
"Sounds like this Dean is a great man," Piper rubbed her hand over Castiel's thigh to comfort him.
"He would never admit it himself," Castiel smiled fondly at how stubborn the man was. "But yes; Dean Winchester is a great man. So is his brother Sam."
"You ever think about calling them?" She asked.
"Yes," Castiel nodded. "But I think it is better that I do not."
"Why is that?"
"Because that is no longer the life I want."
"What life would that be?"
"Fighting to good fight."
"Doesn't sound like a bad life."
"It is a rewarding one but also one that takes away your chances of having the things that really matter in life."
"Which would be?"
"Happiness," Castiel reached down and entwined his fingers with hers. "Love."
"Are you telling me that you love me, Castiel?" Piper smiled up at him. She knew the answer to this already. They had mentioned their love for each other in conversation but they had never flat out told the other person that they loved each other.
"I am," Castiel leaned forward and placed his forehead against her own. "I do."
"You do what?" Piper looked him straight in the eyes.
"I love you," Castiel spoke the words and nothing had felt more right. He truly was in love with her.
"I love you too."
"Good," Castiel smiled. "All this rule breaking would really be pointless otherwise."
