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Ashley's POV

After I hopped off stage I ignored the glances from Madison and Aiden. I'm sure she will do a great job dancing up there. She just brought him for moral support. Kyla hasn't looked at me yet which makes me at ease. Everyone is gawking at me. Slightly impressed and more surprised. I think everyone knows that break up song was dedicated to Aiden. I took out my notebook in my guitar case sitting far from everyone and started to jot down some song ideas this whole coming out thing as really boosted my artist abilities. I wrote until all the auditions were over. Spencer came and tapped on my shoulder. She was looking at me with exactly what I didn't want from her. Pitty. She walked out with me after I stored my guitar and notebook. We walked out to my car in complete silent. I just hoped she wouldn't ask anything.

"Give me your keys." She said holding out her hand. At this state I didn't care as I placed my keys into her hand and walked to the passenger side. I placed my guitar in the back as she sat in the front seat. She adjusted herself as I cuddled into the door. I looked at the window as she pulled over her seat belt.

"Where we off to Spence?" I asked with less emotion as possible.

"A surprise." Spencer said starting the car.

There was a little hope in her voice. It hit a nerve in my stomach hearing her trying to give me hope.

"Okay." I said and she didn't reply. I felt my eyes began to drop watching the cars and trees sped by everything looking like a big circle.

"You can sleep. I will wake you up when we get there." Spencer said.

At her permission I closed my eyes feeling exhausted from my day and emotional auditon Spencer must think I'm a freak or something. Soon or later I felt Spencers hand's around my face and I jumped feeling the contact. She was smiling at me and I looked up at her. She was standing outside the car and had the passenger side of the car open.

"Wakey Ashy." She smiled at me.

I smiled at her nickname and watched her blush. Red was becoming my favorite color. I unbuckled my seat belt and Spencer smiled at me as I got out.

"Where the hell are we?" I asked looking at an abandon exit off a random road.

"Just follow me." Spencer said and took my hand after shutting the car and locking it.

"I will just if you promise me nothing will happen to my baby." I said sternly.

"Oh. I've been here plenty of time don't worry about me." Spencer teased. I rolled my eyes.

"I'm talking about my car." I said feeling her fingers in mine. I looked down at our hands connected and she released my fingers. I already missed the feeling of Spencer's soft hand in mine. She must of felt it too because she turned and started down in-between trees. I was alittle excited to watch Spencer walk along side the road until she saw cement. Building higher on the road.

"What is it?" I asked curiously.

"It's a bridge." She smiled back at me grabbing my hand walking inbetween the trees. The feeling was back the heat rose up my arm into my chest and I melted. Spencer did a double take at me feeling it too.

We finally came a quick stop.

"This is a part of it. But I've never shown anyone this before." Spencer said taking a deep breath.

"When I came out to my parents about being gay my mom didn't take it well and I . . . came and hid here. I come here to think and it helps me heal slowly." Spencer said walking underneath the bridge. It was filled with spray paint and rows of empty things.

"Don't tell anyone but I was a little into street designs when I was younger." Spencer smiled pulling me underneath it. It was beautiful there were portraits of people and poems plastered everywhere. It told a life story that just made my heart sped up. Spencer touched one wall with her hand and looked sad.

"What?" I asked her.

She was quiet and I turned her into me. She was crying.

"Spencer what's wrong?" I asked thinking I upset her.

"I just wrote this after my brother died." She said touching the poem. I turned my head to read it and Spencer caught my eye.

Clay,

A terrific human-being

People never and people believed

Alive, Strong, and full of spirit

Caring, nattering, and overwhelming

Never took life for granted.

Death

A terrible end of people

Quick, Hard, and painful

Cutting, Shooting, and Crying

Never looked back once

Love in Life

Is not existent unless death follows it

Love is followed by death

Putting all smiles at rest

I turned back to Spencer and held her. I didn't know she lost her brother. I felt sick she was so hurt by this.

"Am I allowed to know what happened?" I asked curiously.

"I went with a friend of the family's Patrick on a date who tried to suck face with me every minute. It was after I met you actually two weeks to be precise. I called Clay to come get me and a drunk driver killed him on the way home hitting his side. I survived. Two minutes before I told Clay that I was sure I was into girls. My mom blames me for the reason he died. He looked back at me and smiled and told me to love with all my heart and never let anyone stop me." Spencer ran her fingers over his name.

"I was pregnant." I spat out.

Spencer turned around shocked.

"It died." I said sadly turning around.

"Aiden and I were a couple at the time for two years when I got pregnant. I miscarried and it was around school. Everyone thinks it's the reason I broke up with him." I said rubbing my hand over love is followed by death. Spencer's stared intensely at me.

"I'm really sorry Ash." She said rubbing the tears from my checks.

"It's fine. I really didn't love Aiden like everyone thought I did. I thought I made that really clear earlier." I said. Why am I telling her this? I never tell anyone how I feel.

"Was that song to him?" Spencer asked. Her voice was calm and she stopped crying. I patted myself on the back for that.

"Yes." I said.

"But partially for you." I said then I closed my eyes admitting it.

"What do you mean?" she asked. I could feel her body turning towards me.

"What do you mean what do I mean?" She asked again. She was a little amused.

"What do you mean it was partially for me? Like a verse or?" She stopped realizing I didn't mean to say it. I could feel my checks go red.

"No the chorus and bridge kind of…" My voice got quieter.

She tilted her head to the side and I opened my mouth to sing.

But there's something inside that I need to release

Which way is right?

Which way is wrong?

How do I say that I need to move on?

(I paused opening my eyes looking at her staring at me and closed them again.)

There's nothing I can really say

I can lie no more

I can hide no more

Got to be true to myself

"So if I interrupted that..." Spencer said stepping towards me. I could feel all my blood rise to my face

"That I um ... Am over Aiden and I don't know how to move on and I have to be true to myself." I said finishing her sentence. Spencer stopped an inch away from me. Please let me live through this embarrassing moment.

"I have one last thing to show you Miss Davies." Spencer said walking toward the other exit from the tunnel. Phew. I was about to die there.

I followed her through a dirt path and my thoughts began to rise again. She didn't freak out about me telling her about Aiden. She felt sympathy... I think? Spencer stopped and smiled. I was a little confused then I looked in front of me. It was a secret beach. It was beautiful. It was just escaping the trees white sand and clear ocean.

"This is my favorite place." Spencer said twirling around.

I smiled at the beautiful view, not the ocean but Spencer. She was spinning in circles without a care in the world. Her hair was moving with the wind and she just smiled. It was huge... Her shirt flew up exposing her stomach. I ignored the deep feeling from down under and just smiled at her. She had so much pain with losing her brother and blaming herself... This was her escape. I felt free being with her. . . If she can get over losing her brother maybe I can get over everything too…