Leah POV

With peace of mind so hard to find
We're dwelling on the drastic signs
Another way to numb your mind

I was starting to let Edward go. It was as if knowing he wouldn't come back made me hold on tighter. When I really knew it was time to let go. If he could let go so easily.. Why should I hold on so tightly?

Jake was a great help, really. But he wanted so much more that I don't think I could give. If Ihad more time.. maybe, I've tried to love him, I want to love him. I just don't think I can. Edward took everything. They took everything. My family was gone.

Then there was Bella. Jake explained her story to me, about how long she went out with Sam, and then him phasing and going missing for a month, he came back, they made up. The next day her cousin shows up and BAM, Sam loves her like nothing else ever before.

I knew how it felt to be lost and feel unloved. And I knew she felt like that. It was the most horrible feeling. Jake was poring salt into the wounds by trying to look like the good guy. Bella was.. Bella was almost like Rosalie.

Maybe thats what drew me in. That I was still trying to hold onto the fact that she was like Rosalie. She was like one of the Cullen's. I knew it was wrong, but to even be close to them..

I wanted to be friends with Bella. I really wanted to. Jake was there to help me. Who does Bella have?

No one.

Alone.

On her own.

Nobody should have to go through that.

I picked up my phone and rung Jake. He answered first ring.

"Hello?" He asked.

"Hey Jake, it's-"

"Leah! How are you? Whats up?" He asked.

"Oh, I'm great. Umm, you owuldn't have Bella's number by any chance?" I asked hopefully while biting my lip.

"Lee, she'll kill you. Your lucky she didn't before. You don't know her. Just let her suffer on her own. She'll pull through."

"How can you even say that? After Edward left me, I was a freaking zombie, Jake. Why can't someone be there for her?" I nearly screamed down the phone.

"Calm down, Leah. I'm sorry. But it would be best to just leave her on her own. She is lethal. She will hurt you. And I.. I couldn't live with that.." he stuttered.

"Jake, Trust me?" I practically begged.

In the end he gave me her cell phone number. So I rung her. I tisted the cord off the phone around my fingers nervously. The phone kept ringing. And ringing. THen it finally picked up.

"Hey?" She asked.

"Um, hi, Bella. It's Leah.." I nearly stuttered. I debated on hanging up before I said anything. But I knew I had to grow some balls and harden the fuck up.

"Oh.. Right." Was all she said.

"Yeah, Listen, I know you said you don't want help, but can't we just be friends at least? If not for your benefit, I need a friend. An actual friend. Jake is great, but.." I stuttered, not knowing where to take this.

"Where do you live?" She asked. Why would she ask that. I gave her the address anyway.

"But, why?" I asked.

"I'll be there in a few minutes." Then the line went dead.

She was coming here. I hung up the phone and decided to wait out on the front porch. I sat and waited. And no sign of anything. Maybe she wasn't coming after all. Then five minutes later I saw something grey in the forestry. Then it was gone. And Bella walked out wearing a small, strapless black dress that came to her knees.

"Hey." She said. She wrung her wrists with her hands.

"Hey." I answered. And I only just realized, I was more tan than she was. "Come inside. I know you don't get cold being a wolf and everything, but I'm cold." I said. She smiled at me and followed me inside.

"Wow, nice house." She said as soon as we got into the lounge.

"No it isn't." I laughed.

"It's called being polite." She laughed too.

"It's dark and.." I started.

"Perfect to hide out in when your a zombie?" She finished.

"Yeah." I nodded my head. She laughed.

"Don't worry about it. I know how it feels. Did Jake explain imprinting to you?" She asked. I nodded my head slightly.

"He gave me the breif version of what happened to you." I explained. She sighed and sat down on the couch, crossing her legs and resting her small hands in her lap.

"Sam and I, before the wolves thing, we thought we were soul mates. Ready to settle down and get married, have kids even. I'm young, I know that, but I would've done it for him in a heartbeat." She said so sweetly.

"Then he went missing. For a whole month. A whole fucking month he left me worried and scared, not for me, not because I was along, but for him. What if something happened? He came home, in the end." Her voice grew darker.

"What happened?" I asked softly. Her head lowered and she looked at the hands in her lap, I almost knew that she would have tears in her eyes.

"He came home, we had sex," She said so bluntly. I was almost taken aback. I had only slept with one guy and that was in Phoenix. "The next day Emily, my cousin, my best friend, came around, you know, help plan the wedding."

"And he imprinted?" I asked. She nodded.

"Bam! I don't exsist. He spent the whole time she was here ignoring me, I sat in his lap, he pulled me off. Rejected me. Put me to the side, literally, and oggled Emily." She snarled Emily's name. She was shaking now too. I didn't move back though, I wasn't scared. I placed my hand on her shoulder and the haking stopped.

"Thanks," She mumbled. "Anyway, pretty much the next day I phased. Now, can you imagine having to share the same mind as someone you love, but didn't love you back? No sorry, he loved me.. 'Just not enough.'" She quoted. Harsh.

"Evil bastard." I tried to growl. Bella laughed at me. I glared back.

"Thats not all." She told me.

"What else?" I asked.

"I imprinted. On Paul. Thats actually where I was before, when you rang me."

"Oh, I'm sorry." She hung her head again.

"Don't be, I fucked up with that, too." SHe whispered.

"How?" I asked gently.

"I fucked him too. I'm a slut." Okay, did not see that coming. I wrapped my arms around her as she cried.

"Then how did it screw up?" I whispered.

"Because everything good, I ruin!" She whisper screamed. I held her tight as she clung to me like a life line. She cried her heart out on my shoulder and I cried with her.

Bella Clearwater was still fractured.. Still broken.. But we could fix her, couldn't we? We could help.. I had to call Paul soon.