Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star. I do however own some of the poetry and the songs used.

Song used in this chapter is All Around Me-Flyleaf

Chapter 7: All I Can Say Is…

I was still sitting in the studio when I heard a knock at the door and to my surprise it was Portia and Darius. I just looked at them as they came in and I kept my eyes fixed on Portia. I was still angry with her and Darius as well.

"Tom, I've been calling." Portia said to me.

"Look, it was five years ago, it's over and done with." I said to her.

"Look, it was a mistake and I am paying for it. My sentencing is tomorrow morning. I just wanted to say that I was sorry and that I was wrong before I was sent away."

"Portia, look I don't want to hear it. I just want to forget it." I spat at her raising my voice a little.

"T, man calm down." Darius trued to tell me.

"You want me to calm down, you helped her. You protected her and lied to me. Then you warned me to be careful with Jude because of what happened and then in the end it was all you both. I ruined the best thing that was in my life. She was gone and I thought that I would never move on." I said and I saw Georgia, EJ, and Chaz and the rest of BoyzAttack in the doorway. "But, I did and I found Jude. You both ruined that and I will never forgive you for it." I said to them lowering my voice at the end.

"How can you blame us for you and Jude breaking up?" Darius and Portia asked me in unison.

"Because, Hunter came after me for revenge. He threatened to kill Jude and I publicly humiliated her to protect her life, and in the end she almost died because of you both."

"That's not my fault." Darius said.

"Yes it is." Portia told him.

"How can you agree with him?" Darius asked his kid sister in disgust.

"Because, if I hadn't cut the brake wires on Tom's car that night, Angie never would have died and Hunter never would have went to jail and then he wouldn't have ruined Jude's party." She finally told him.

"But, if that hadn't happened then Jude and I wouldn't be together at all and I never would have met her." I said to them. Chaz and Bruno just looked at me. "Leave, now." I said in a stern voice and they turned and left. Georgia and EJ walked off leaving me in the studio with the band.

"We came to congratulate you on your solo career but, is what we heard true?" Chaz asked me.

"Yeah, Portia cut the brake wires on my car. It was intended for me but, Angie got in and she died. Darius covered it up, and I found out." I simply explained to them.

"You're serious?" Bruno asked me.

"Yeah."

"Whoa." Was all AJ, Collin, Marcus could say.

"So, I'm guessing that was also in the preemptive trip to Asia?" Bruno asked me.

"Some of it. Most of it was Jude. After we broke up and I wasn't on her album anymore I decided to leave and then few days before I left that happened and it just seemed like the right time." I said to them.

"Damn, and I thought Angie changed you." Chaz said with a smirk.

"Nothing compared to Jude." I said with my eyes closed.

"So, she's the one?" Collin asked me.

"Definitely." I said to them.

"So, when did you fall for your artist Tom?" Chaz asked me in a sarcastic tone.

"The first time that I met her." I boldly said to them.

"How old was she?" Bruno asked me.

"Fifteen."

"You fell for her when she was fifteen?" Chaz asked me.

"Yeah, I fell in love with her then."

"So, why didn't you two start dating then if she fell back?" AJ asked me.

"Because for one, artist producer relationships weren't allowed at G-Major; and number two. It was against the law." I pointed out to them.

"Screw the law man, at least when it comes to love." Marcus said to me. "That's what I have always done and it had always worked." He shrugged.

"Don't even go there." I said and we all busted out laughing.

I heard a knock on the door and it was Sadie.

"I need to talk to you a minute." She said to me.

"What's up?" I asked her. She came over to me and she whispered it in my ear.

"My mom and Don are back and my dad and Yvette are dating. They want us all at dinner tonight." She said to me.

"I can't. Jude and I have plans." I whispered back to her.

"Can you cancel them?" She asked hopefully.

"Nope because Jude and I have not had any alone time in about a month because of my album publicity and hers, plus the press has followed us everywhere." I pleaded with her. She looked at me and she raised an eyebrow. I knew what she was implying. "Not that Harrison, I just want to be with her." I simply put it.

"Fine, I'll get you both out of it. But, just to inform you they might come looking for you here because Yvette hasn't met Jude, and my mom and Don haven't seen her in almost two years." She whispered very loudly.

"That's their problem not mine." I said happily.

"All right, all I can say is if I call one of you had better answer because this isn't going to go over well." Sadie said before she walked out.

The boys looked at me and I looked back.

"Isn't she your ex?" Collin asked me.

"Yes, and she's also Jude's sister."

"Damn." They all said in unison.

"Shut it." I said to them. "By the way what are you doing here besides offering congratulations?" I asked them curiously.

"We as in all of us wanted to make a reunion CD and we wanted you to do it with us." Chaz said and I just looked at them. They thought that they had a shot of getting me to do a BoyzAttack reunion. I figure that I'd give in just to shock them.

"You know what, I'll do it." I said and they were all shocked into pleasure.

"Seriously?" AJ asked me.

"Seriously." I said before I saw Jude and Kat coming back from lunch. I saw them walking towards the studio.

"Hey." Was all she said to me before she kissed me. When we parted I grabbed her hand and I led her out of the studio and into my office so we could talk.

"Jude, I have some news." I said to her.

"What news?"

"Sadie came to me and your mom and Don are back, and your dad is dating Yvette. They want to have dinner tonight but, I told Sadie that we had plans." She had a worried look on her face at first but, in return she had a look of joy.

"You got us out of it?" She asked in surprise.

"Yes, and I have some other news."

"What's the other news?"

"I'm doing a BoyzAttack reunion CD." I said and I regretted the words leaving my mouth.

"You're serious?" She asked me.

"Yeah, they asked and I knew they were going to do it with or without me so I am now officially in BoyzAttack again." I said and she laughed a little at this.

"Sadie is going to love this. Promise me one thing though."

"What's that?" I asked her.

"No white jumpsuits and matching bandanas, and no ass shaking." She said trying not to laugh.

"I will make sure of it." I said to her and she came over to me and she jumped on me and out her legs around me and she kissed me.

Her fingers ran through my hair and my hands went around her waist. I walked us over to my desk and I sat down on it. Her hands went to the hem of my shirt and she disconnected our lips to lift it over my head. I was about to lift her shirt over her head when my office phone started to ring.

I didn't answer it but they called back. I lifted Jude's shirt over her head and I broke our kiss to answer the phone.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Tommy, its Sadie."

"Sadie, what's up?"

"My mom called and she and Don are on their way here to see Jude, and my dad is as well with Yvette."

"Thanks, I'll tell Jude." I said and hung the phone up.

"What did my sister want?" She asked me in a sad voice.

"Your mom and Don, and your dad and Yvette are on their way here to see you." After the words left my lips she grabbed my shirt and handed it to me, and she out on her shirt and I grabbed her hand and we left my office.

We walked back into Studio A and I sat down at the soundboard and she sat on top of me.

"I wanna record something." She finally said.

"What?" I asked her curiously.

"A duet with you."

"What song?" I asked her.

"A song that I wrote, the night before my birthday. Me and SME have already done the music it just needs the vocals." She said to me.

"All right, where is the song?" I asked her and she showed me the song.

I nodded at her and she handed me the background music. I put it in the soundboard and I pressed a one minute delay and I ran into the booth and put on the headphones. I was standing across from her and she opened her mouth to sing. I looked over and I saw Sadie walk in with her parents Don, and Yvette.


My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

I listened to Jude sing the first verse and I closed my eyes, listening to the sound of her voice.

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

I sing the chorus with her and then I went onto sing my own verse.


My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

As I was singing my verse I felt Jude's eyes on mine. Staring at me, I could tell that she was snickering a little bit but, she was probably making faces at Sadie who was still probably standing behind the glass.


I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

We sang the bridge of the song together and I opened my eyes and I looked into her. She looked at the people behind the glass and she nodded at me.


And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

I let Jude song the last bridge by herself and I just listened to how much she has grown in the past three years.


Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

I finished the song with her and she just looked at me. I saw Kwest press stop on the soundboard and Jude just looked at me with her big blue eyes. We were standing inches apart and she leaned in and she kissed me hard on the lips.