"You make me feel good," he looked with empty eyes on the floor. "What do you mean want?" Didn't really expect to hear this. "You know, the whole deal, marriage, a house, and kids, that sort of stuff." I smiled "only if we can have a dog." He looked up at me. "No, we're having a cat. A black one," he snickered. "Then we're having a big house in the middle of nowhere." He smiled even more. "We're having a small flat in the middle of the city," he said and kissed me. I returned the kiss and answered. "We're going to have a big lawn." He opened my dress. "I'm not cutting grass."

That was how I ended up in bed with him again.

That's how the weeks went. I spend the day with Naruto and the night with Mr. Sunlight. I had really become good friends with Naruto. He was nice and caring. He never did anything to hurt my feeling. He told me that he had to pick up a something in this hotel and bring it back to his hometown. He wasn't even sure what it was, but he was set on accomplishing the mission. He always had been, that's what made him so great.

I didn't feel any more for that bastard. I had thought that I loved him. I wasn't in love with him at all. In fact I hated him, always showing up drunk at his room. I just woke up next to him rarely remembering any of the night. He had even started being violent. I would wake up with broses and wounds. I was sure he was the one who had made them. I hated him more than ever. When it was really bad he would order flowers to the room, saying everything was alright. Karin had ran off. She couldn't deal with him being someone else I guess. Suigetsu had found himself a girl I think and Juugo just stayed in his room. Only went out to eat. Mr. Sunshine kept in his room all day afraid of bumping into Naruto.


"Where do you keep getting all this wounds and bruises?" I wanted to now. Her eyes held so much sadness. A sea of all the sadness in the world. "You know, I get a bit too drunk. I fall and walk on thing and stuff like that." It didn't help hearing that. "Are you sure not someone is doing that to you?" She had told me so many times before. "I'm here alone." I was really worried about her. I had grown to like her, but only as a friend. Sure she looked good, it was just that I couldn't. I would put her in danger. I knew someone was after me, and I was gone a lot. I would miss her too much. "Sure you don't have a drinking problem? I could help you if you have." Looked like I had found the problem. "I don't need any help, I'll be leaving this place soon anyway. Then there's not going to be that much to drink." I just had a feeling that she had to stop drinking. "Please stop drinking, for me?"


Maybe I should stop drinking. It didn't do me any good. I wake up hurting, sick, feeling bad and downright miserable. I even ate a lot more than usual, it wasn't worth my figure. "For you I said." His eyes showed kindness. He did really care about me.

I went to my own room that night, I was even sober. Naruto had helped me, he was really kind. It was this night I found out something that made me rush my plans. It needed to be done soon.