A/N: Hey, guys I'm back! Yesterday was my boyfriend and I'S anniversary and he is the reason why my motivation is back! Sammy planned an amazing date for us and when we exchanged gifts I never imagined him to put this much thought into a gift. On the card he wrote " This may not be Dou BeBe, but these 3 diamonds represent the 3 most reasons why I love you!
You are perfectly imperfect!
Judgment is never in your eyes!
You love me for my flaws also!
The ring has a gold band with 3 diamonds. So after sobbing my eyes out and hugging him to death, I realized that life can be unexpected and that there will be ups and downs. What matters the most is how we react after it occurs. My life compared to other is amazing because of my family, Sammy, and my friends. So I decided I am not going to let what happened hold me back, but rise from it.
" What do you mean Fitz is my father mamma?" Harper asked with so much confusion in her voice. Fitz and Olivia looked at each other making a silent agreement in their thoughts to weather this together and to make Harper understand.
" I love your dad and I wanted to tell him but we just weren't at a good time when I was pregnant with you…." Olivia whispered.
" SO YOU JUST DECIDED ON YOUR OWN TO KEEP ME FROM MY FATHER?" Harper yelled out of anger.
" HARPER LILLIAN POPE DO NOT RAISE YOUR VOICE AT ME YOUNG LADY! Yes, what mommy did was wrong, but that does NOT give you the right to raise your voice at me!" Olivia boomed.
" SO ALL THIS TIME I CRIED ON MY BIRTHDAYS THINKING THAT MY DAD DOESN'T WANT ME AND YOU KNEW?!"
" Harper, baby I need you to understand that when I was pregnant with you, Fitz and I weren't at a good place….." Olivia starting to cry now.
" I hate you mom!" Harper said while gritting her teeth and tears dripping down her face.
" Harper…...baby girl….." Fitz started to say, but then Harper cut him off.
" Can you just both leave me alone for the night? I am very tired and I just want to be alone right now! Please!"
Olivia gave Harper a kiss on the top of her head and said
" I know you don't understand my actions right now, but I want you to know that Mommy loves you so much sweet heart and that I am sorry….." and left the room. Fitz hugged Harper tightly, but carefully and said
" God, it's good to hold you knowing that you are my daughter. I know you are upset at your mom right now, but I am equally at fault too….Please try to understand her reasoning, and to apologize to her….I may have come into your life not long ago, but I am not fond of you disrespecting your mom kiddo….I love you…." The he left. When Fitz came out he saw Olivia crying on the floor.
" Livvie…."
" She hates me Fitz, my own daughter hates me!" Olivia sobbed even more. Hearing those words from Harper nearly killed her.
" Livvie, our daughter doesn't hate you….She just needs to calm down and I know for a fact that she loves you VERY much…."
" I don't know anymore Fitz, it was just too much! I almost lost her today and I just wan not ready to hear those words from her….."
Fitz sat down next to Olivia and pulled her into his arms. Then he started to sing to her. When they dated in college whenever she was stressed out about school or had a fight with her parents, Fitz would always sing to calm her down.
" Much you blame yourself ,you can't be blamed for the way you feel….
Had no example of a love that was even remotely real….
How can you understand something that you never had
Ooh baby if you let me, I can help you out with all of that
Girl let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself
Girl let me love you
And all your trouble
Don't be afraid, girl let me help
Girl let me love you
And I will love you
Until you learn to love yourself
Girl let me love you
A heart of numbness, gets brought to life
I'll take you there…..
Let. Me. Love. You. Olivia….." After Fitz finished Olivia and him just stared at each other's eyes for a long minute.
During that minute they both could see the longing, hurt, confusion, and love in each other's eyes.
" You sing beautifully….." Olivia whispered into Fitz strong chest.
" Only for you sweet baby….." Fitz kissed Olivia's forehead. Their moment was interrupted by Peter clearing his throat, he've been watching Fitz sing to Olivia with so much love in those eyes, it scared the shit out of him. Peter knew he had to do something to change that really quickly.
" Pette….." Olivia got up and hugged.
" We need to talk…" The she and Peter left, leaving Fitz wondering what she wanted to talk to Peter about. Two hours later Olivia was asleep and Peter came and sat next to Fitz.
" I know about you being Harper father….Honestly I just want her to be happy, she deserves a dad and you better treat her like a princess or I'll hurt you. As for Olivia…..STAY AWAY FROM HER! You had your chance and you blew it and now it's my turn. You don't deserve her, she is so much better without you! Do you really think that if you stay with her she would have become a doctor, all you do is hold her back! Do her a favor and remove yourself from her." Without saying another word Peter got up and left for his room.
All throughout the night Peter's words really had Fitz in deep thought. Peter was right he was holding Olivia back and is not the one for her. All he did was hurt her, he regretted but it was too late now. She moved on and he shouldn't confuse her feeling for Peter. It was then and there Fitz decided to let Olivia go for her own good. It hurts like hell, but all he does is hurt her so this was better. Fitz thought about actually giving Amanda a shot to see where it goes from here, but deep down no one will replace Olivia as the love of his life. Plus Amanda's voice kind of annoyed him. Fitz cried so her, because he had to let go of the love of his life. He cried like he never did before.
The next morning Olivia woke up to see Fitz staring with her and he looked like he'd been crying.
" Fitz…..are you okay?" Olivia said worriedly.
" Yeah…..yeah….I'm good…..Can um can we go see if Harper is awake and try to help her understand….." Fitz rubbed the back of his neck.
" Yeah, of course let's go…" They walked in together and there was Harper sleeping peacefully.
Then she opened her eyes.
" MOM, I DON'T HATE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I'M REALLY SORRY! I HEARD YOU CRYING LAST NIGHT AND I AM SORRY MAMMA! PLEASE FORGIVE ME!" Harper tried to get up to her mom. Olivia quickly went over to Harper and hugged her tightly.
" Baby girl we both said and did things we regretted last night, it's because you were upset I understand….I love you and of course mamma forgives you!" Olivia kissed Harper on the forehead.
" Princess…...I was not the best person when your mom was pregnant with you…..I am part of the reason why she didn't tell you about me….When your mom first told me about you, i was so upset…..Then I realized I broke her heart, if I was her I wouldn't have told me. But I have been given a chance to be your father and I will never fail you again princess… Please forgive me baby girl….Daddy loves you so much….."
" Can I call you daddy?" Harper asked nervously.
" It would make me the happiest man alive by you calling me daddy princess…." Emotions were high right now and so Fitz went over and hugged both of them. Having Olivia and Harper in his arms made him feel at peace. He knew he wouldn't be holding Olivia so this made this embrace especially emotional. Fitz loved her so much, but he knew he couldn't have her. This was best for everyone.
Just then there was a knock on the door and in walked in Joe and Isabel Anderson. Olivia's grandparents. Fitz was pretty sure Joe was going to kill him for what he did to Olivia. Fitz swallowed down air and slowly stood up.
A/N: There ya have it! I just wanted to give a HUGE SHOUT OUT TO ALL OF THE PEOPLE THAT DMed me! You guys just blew me away! Thank you so much for caring! Also a huge shout out to SocialFl 2282, she listened to all of my venting sessions and have been there for me! Last to my AMAZING BOYFRIEND SAMMY, whom without I wouldn't gotten my motivation to write back, you are always my #1 fan and I thank you so much for loving me the way I am! You complete like a jigsaw puzzle.
