It had been several months since my first kiss, and still, nothing came out of it. Gabriel's Father didn't approve of us courting to our surprise. "Too dangerous." to be with the daughter of Arthur Hellsing, Apparently. But I still remained his friend regardless of our circumstances. I could see the look on his face every time we saw each other, it was one of regret. And I couldn't help but feel guilty. If I hadn't kissed Gabe, this rejection wouldn't have happened, I wouldn't feel so, used. Even if It wasn't Gabe's fault entirely. He was still 19, and under the jurisdiction of his parents. Maybe if I waited a few more years, we wouldn't need the permission from anyone. I liked that thought.
"Gabriel." I said over the phone, awaiting his answer.
"Integra." Gabe said sternly. "What do you need?" He asked, impersonal. I frowned.
"Nothing, I just wanted to talk to you." I answered honestly.
"Oh, well.." Gabe began to click his tongue, "What do you want to talk about?"
"How was your day?" I asked, spaciously.
"It was fine." His voice was ungiving, uninterested. I felt my heart sink to my feet. What happened to our friendship.
"Mine, was good." I said, trying to keep conversation.
"Look, Integra." Gabe says abruptly. I blinked, a little stunned. "I have…" he trialed off.
"Have a what?" I asked.
"I have a date." He finally said. My jaw dropped.
"Oh…" Is all I said. "Okay, well, have fun."
"Thank you." He thanked me. "Good day Integra." He said before hanging up.
I wanted to break the phone in my hand. I chucked it across the room. It made a loud bang as it hit the wall in front of me. I clenched my teeth together. I wanted to break other things. So I kicked the end table by the loveseat I was sitting in. It made a loud crashing sound as it hit the floor, shattering the lamp that was on top of it. I then kicked over the cafetable behind me. A chunk flew off and skidded across the floor. I leaned down and broke off a table leg, and started to break anything fragile around the room, vases, mirrors, anything I could get my hands on. I continued to smash and break things, until the room was unrecognizable. I stood, panting, I had worn myself out. I dropped the table leg, noticing footsteps coming from behind me. I quickly turned, My brows touching in the center of my forehead.
"Madam Integra?" Walter asked me, his tone full of worry and concern. "What happened?" He spoke in a small voice.
"I," I panted, "I saw a spider." I lied, putting on a fake smile, trying to put him at ease. He just looked more confused. Walter bent down, and picked up a shard of glass from one of the mirrors I broke. He stood back up.
"Oh. Oh my." He said, looking at me a bit cautiously. "Did you, manage to kill the spider?" He asked, cocking his head.
I nodded. "Yes." I crossed my arms. "Took the whole room out with me." I said confidently, like it didn't matter that the entire room was destroyed. "Walter, I'm going to my room for the rest of the evening, do not disturb me unless it's deadly important." I warned Walter before walking off. I slammed the door behind me. I saw my desired destination, my bed. I ran into it, grabbing the pillows, and burying my face into them. I had never hated anyone more than I hated Gabriel. I hoped his date went terribly, I hope which woman he chose was a brute! I was just another option to him, clearly. My chest felt sore, like I couldn't breathe. My heart beat went on unnoticed. I felt dead, I wanted to be dead. I opened up, and I got burned. How foolish was I? A kiss, is still, just a kiss. I felt hot, shameful tears pull down my cheeks, soaking my pillow. I was acting so juvenile, I knew that. But at least it was in the privacy of my own bedroom.
"Master?" I heard Alucard's voice coming from behind me.
"Go away!" I screamed into my pillow. "You don't need to see me like this!"
"Master." I heard Alucard voice soften, and his footsteps echoed as he came towards me. I shrank as he sat on my bed, by my feet. His hand on my ankle. For some reason, I didn't order him away. I finally turned around, showing Alucard my swollen red face, riddled with tears, and snot.
"I saw you tear apart that room." Alucard admitted, it was quite the wake-up call. "If I may be so bold, why did you tear apart that room, it certainly wasn't over a little spider."
I wipe away my tears on my white sleeve and sighed, my breath shaken. "I kissed a man, I thought he was genuine. But, he has a date with someone else."
"Really?" Alucard sounded, almost pleasantly surprised. "My master kissed someone, wow." He spoke whimsically.
"I wish I could take it back." I groaned. I felt Alucard come closer to me, the bed shifting as he inched closer. I sat up, trying to put distance between Alucard and I. My heart beat was noticeable again. I felt like my blood was a magnet, pushing towards him. It was because his blood was in my veins, it lingered in my bones, calling me to him. I wanted him to hold me in his arms. Alucard's eyes flashed a brilliant orange, he was grinning, staring down at me. How foolish he looked then.
My tears were dried, but I had gotten the hiccups.
"We all do things we regret Master." He said, his grin fading. "But we mustn't fret, we must move on, and put it behind us."
"Is that why you're a vampire?" I asked, sarasam in my voice. "Because you can't move on?" I gazed upon my bird, he cocked his head at me.
"The exact opposite." he spoke like a little ghost, there, but not completely. "Actually." It was like he didn't pick up on my sarcasm.
He leaned in, coming incredibly close to me. His eyes were so hypnotic. Like a thousand souls screaming within them, begging for freedom. Suddenly, I noticed nothing but my servant.
"You know my father would be spinning in his grave if he found out you were in my bed." I spoke breathlessly.
"The dead don't know things." He tone full of resentfulness. "I should be so lucky." He then smirked.
"So you're just a big dumb dog?" I asked, one of my eyebrows quirking upward.
"If that's what you want me to be, then yes." He gave me a big toothy grin.
"So tell me." I began to speak, "What kind of use would I have for a dumb dog?" I curled my lips upward in a mischievous manner.
"I can be a companion." He answered, his hand itching closer to mine, grazing my fingers. The magnet within me, started to stir again. It always happened when he touched me. Whether it was a soft caress, or if he put his arm around me, it was always there, in the pit of my stomach, and in my veins.
His hand was now on top of mine. "Is that what you want?" He asked me. I nodded. Yeah, it was what I wanted. I felt his hand grip mine tighter.
"Guide me." He said softly.
"Okay…"
I was in his arms now, he was surprisingly warm, although it might have been his coat. My hand was on my breast, and Alucard's hand laid gently over mine. I looked deep into his fiery eyes, as he looked into mine. My chest heaves up and down. I wanted him to touch my breast, at least, what was there. I didn't have any chest. But he didn't seem to care that I wasn't busty. Even if I didn't have any figure, I still didn't let him touch me fully. He looked at me, his body still, unmoving. His eyes gazing down upon me as we lay.
"Integra." he whispered, his voice husky.
"What?" I breathed.
"Remove your hand, let me show you what you're truly missing." He begged me, a small whimper escaping him. It was strange to see him so vulnerable. I slowly slipped my hand out from under his. My breath hitched. He was the first man to ever touch me in such a way.
"Alucard." I whimpered. "More..."
He gentled slipped his large hand between the buttons of my shirt. His cold fingertips sent shivers down my spine as he makes contact with my bare skin. His took his index finger and his thumb and gently started to play with my nipple, causing me to shiver and shake in his arms, I whimpered pathetically. I heard him chuckle deeply.
"Alucard. More." I begged, rather than demanded. He turned me around, then he leaned in, and slowly started to kiss and lick me behind my ear. My body sank into his, becoming one with him easily. His breath was warm, so strange for an undead creature like him. I continued to pant deeply, whimpering and moaning while my nipples were being played with. Could Gabriel give me this much pleasure from just touching my chest? I think not. I felt something strange going on between my legs. I wanted to be touched there as well. I wanted him to touch my most sacred of places. I rub my legs together, backing up into him. Feeling something stiff touch my bottom. I heard Alucard moan under his breath as he kissed my ear still. I smirked, knowing his weakness. I continued to grind my bottom against that hard thing in his pant. He stopped kissing my ear, and leaned his head back, moaning. I quickly turned around to face him, his arms wrapped around my waist. He looked at me with begging, pleading eyes.
"More." He whimpered, I shut my eyes, and our lips touched. My lips were cooled by the touch of his, and my fingertips and toes curled. I wasn't exactly sure I wanted this, even now. I wondered if it was a mistake. To kiss a vampire, my servant. I wondered if he really wanted too. I wondered if he even liked me. He pulled away, looking at me with confusion.
"Of course I like you." He said.
"Reading my thoughts again?" I asked, Wrapping my arms around his neck.
"Yes." He admitted. "Is that a problem?"
"No." I spoke, breathing out of my mouth.
"Can I kiss you again?" He asked.
"Yes." I mumurr.
He leaned in again, kissing me, harder this time, more want in his lips than before. I felt that stir in my loins again, I wanted it to be touched, I wanted him to touch me there. His lips moved to my ear again, sucking on my earlobe again. I chirped in delight at the sensation, my eyelids fluttering. I clenched the fabric of his coat as I rubbed my cheek against his.
"I want more." I begged out loud. "Please, more."
"Tell me what you want, Integra." Alucard purred in my ear. I take his hand again, Putting it between my legs. He shivered just as much as me. My loins began to stir, and I started to grind against Alucard long, slender fingers. My head rested against his chest, moaning into him, vibrating his chest.
"Does that feel good?" He asked. I nodded, slowly.
"Harder." I demanded. Alucard did, and my head shot back, and my squeal echoed throughout my room. My body felt like it was going floating in a sea of pleasure and desire. Alucard continued to rub me until I felt I was going to… I didn't know. But I felt myself becoming a million pieces in his arms. A surge of pleasure shoots through my body and I know I am done for.
"Ah.." I panted. I curled up into my servant. "Ah.."
Alucard chuckled deeply, and I kissed him. "You didn't last very long." He teased me. I didn't say anything back, I just looked into his eyes.
