Chapter 7
Nessie's point of view:
Sun shined through my window as my eyes flew abruptly open.
I had another nightmare.
I found myself in my bedroom in my pajamas. Last think I remember; I fell asleep in the dining room chair, while Jacob was still sacked out on the couch.
I laid there a few minutes; still tired from my weird nightmare.
All my family had-instead of gold eyes-red eyes. Even Abby and Karli. What freaked me out the most was; even the wolves had red eyes. Including my Jacob. And they were all trying to kill one person: me.
I might as well head down stairs; and check on Jake.
I heard clatter go on downstairs. My first thought was a vampire breaking in.
I rushed down to the living room to find no Jacob. Only the smell of: bacon, eggs, toast, and pancakes. Wait, Jake can cook?
I walked into the kitchen; to see him over the stove. I gasped.
"What? I can't cook for you?" Jacob asked walking over to me; pulling me closer to him.
Part of me wanted to tell him what Leah and I talked about; but I didn't want to make it worse.
"Yes, you can; I just never knew you could."
"Well, I can."
"How do you feel?"
"You're here with me know; I feel even better." Jacob said sitting me on the counter.
"I'm sorry." I said stroking his black hair.
"I won't accept it. You're just a danger magnet." he said lifting my chin to meet his eyes.
"I called my parents. They wanted to come home; but I told them I had a strong wolf to protect me."
"You should have let them come. It will be less of a chance to you getting hurt."
"They were all around when I was attacked; and looked what happen." I snapped. Once the words are out of my mouth; I regretted them.
Jacob looked down; hiding the hurt in his eyes.
He looked back up at me, anger in his eyes.
"If those bloodsucking leeches hurt you again; I'm going to kill them. If your hurt again-and I don't care who it is-I'll kill them.
"But Jacob; I hurt-"
"Ness, don't. I'm fine okay? You're the in danger. Not me! There was leeches all over the place; and we didn't know! We all have enhanced human: smell, hearing, and speed; and we didn't do a single thing! We had a chance to end this all; and we didn't! So, please don't start on the Jacob, I hurt you crap!" Jacob growled his hands tightening around my arm, breathing heavy.
"Those stupid, bloodsucking leeches used whatever crap they have; and we just sat back to pretend nothing ever happen Don't say this is your fault! Don't say that you need to protect me! I need to protect you! Right now; I want to go out and kill them. But the next time I see them; I won't sit back and think it through. If I get close enough to them; I swear I will rip them-apart alone if I have too-and watch them burn! They will not hurt you! Nobody will ever hurt you!" I was speechless as his grip on my arms got tighter and tighter.
I was about to make a snide comment; but I think I need to keep my mouth shut.
"I'm a big girl. I can take care of myself." Jacob released his grip; and put his hands on either side of me, bending his head down.
He took a deep breathe; trying to stay in control. He wasn't angry at me. He was angry at himself, the vampires, and upset that I was still in danger.
"What would you say if I went to collage? Maybe if I left Forks they'd back off." I said changing the subject.
Jacob didn't say anything. He moved to fixing our plates; hiding his thoughts from me.
"Say something? Please?" I begging getting off the counter; going over to my Jacob.
He took a deep breathe, still angry from earlier.
"You said you wanted to go to Harvard-"
"I know what I said."
"Leah's right. I thought I lost you back in December. I guess this should be on the last of my worries now."
"What do you mean?"
"I thought you left me; when you were attacked. I guess I shouldn't have to worry about the vampires taking you away; when I should really worry about you doing that." I didn't say anything. Maybe he was right.
"How did you know I was accepted into Harvard."
Jake looked at me. Despite the emotion on his face; his brown eyes stood out the most.
"I heard the whole conversation." He thought.
I decided I should do something I haven't done in a while: look into his past.
I hesitated doing this.
We found out that; whenever I do that, the person that I'm doing it one is relives it, as I do too. (Also: I think the more I read minds; the more it's like my other one. I see the thoughts through my own eyes too.)
And I wasn't sure if Jacob wanted to go back to that.
I went all the way back to where he found me. I saw everything through Jacob's eyes; and felt everything he felt.
Jacob had a fight of his own. He was fighting on; believing that I was alive, and had to keep hope. No matter how bad he wanted to give up.
He sat there beside me all that time; never leaving it. Never sleeping, eating, anything.
Leah was right. Throughout the time; Jacob was loosing it.
He only left Christmas; and that was only because he was dragged to his car.
Jacob went on instinct; and attacked Isaiah.
I saw everything.
I gasped as I finished.
"Remind me to do that more often." I said with a weak laugh.
Throughout time; we stayed silent.
After a long time of awkward silence; I went to go get ready for school.
After getting dressed; I finally came to it that I've had enough.
I stormed downstairs; and went directly to him.
"You know what Jacob Black! If your going to act so silent and distant; then you can forget spending any time with me!" He laughed and attempted to pull me close; but I took a step back.
"There's the girl I love." Jacob said.
"Then kiss me like you did at Billy and Sue's wedding!" I demanded.
"Your wish is my command." He said then his lips crashed onto mine.
He picked me up; and leaned me against the wall, our lips never parting.
This is what I call a kiss.
"You know, I don't really have to go to school." I showed him; but already knew the answer
"Your parents would kill me." Jacob said pulling away.
"They don't have to know." I said kissing him again.
Jacob stopped; and pulled away.
"Nessie, don't."
"Why?"
"You know what you promised Edward." I did.
"So, they wont know."
"I want to be married to you first. I promised your whole family that." I rolled my eyes.
"That'll never happen." I thought. Jacob looked back at me hurt.
"I showed you that didn't I?" I asked. Jacob shook his head yes; and I grimaced. I guess I didn't realize I was projecting my thoughts.
It's not that I didn't want to marry Jacob. I do; but…with collage and…ugh, this is so aggravating. More like confusing!
"What a way to ruin a romantic moment." I laughed pathetically.
"Yeah." Jake also laughed awkwardly.
We looked at each other; then our lips crashed onto each others again.
After a while my phone went off. We pulled away; then laughed.
"So much for our second romantic moment." Jake laughed. I huffed then got up to answer.
"Um…Ness, are you planning on coming to school?" I heard Abby say on the other end.
Jake walked over to where I was; and started to kiss my neck.
"Um…yeah, why?" I asked shrugging my shoulders to make Jacob stop.
"Your really making me not want to go."
"Then I'll do it more." Jacob said huskily.
"I thought you said my parent's would kill you?" I asked trying to sidestep him; but his arm wrapped around my waist, pulling me back and closer to him.
"I said they would kill me. I didn't say that I wanted you to go. I honestly wish you were home schooled again." Jacob whispered in my ear.
"Can't always get what you won't, babe. You should be used to that by now."
"Hello…still on the other line here." Oh my God! I completely forgot about Abby!
"Yeah, I'm here. Why do you want to know if I'm coming to school?" I asked Abby.
"Because class is about to start. Oh, by the way-" I hung up. I forgot about school.
.
"Crap!" I said getting out of my Jacob's hold; rushing to my car.
I hoped in; and sped down the driveway.
As I got to the middle of the drive; I heard footsteps in the woods.
I stopped; thinking it was a vampire, only to find a russet wolf with my backpack in his mouth.
I laughed.
"And you didn't even say good-bye." Jacob thought letting out a whine. He dropped my bag in the passenger seat.
"I'm sorry."
"Didn't even give me another kiss! Come one Ness, I have to go several hours without you! At least give me something to drag me through the horrible hours!"
"I forgot; and it won't be that long." He gave me a wolfy grin.
"No, I won't let you give me one of your sloppy, slobbery, dog kiss." I said.
"I can turn to human. It will only take a few seconds." I laughed and cranked my car again.
"I've got to get school, Jake. You can make it." I said but he still didn't move.
"Jacob, I'm already late enough as it is; you're not helping."
"You know, I can get you to school quicker."
"Wouldn't it seem weird though? Me coming out of the woods with no vehicle in sight."
"Your right; you're already late. We can make an excuse that your car broke down; and your night in shinning armor-me-came to rescue his damsel in distress." Jacob thought.
"What about my car?" I asked.
"Leave the keys; and one of the guys will drive it back." I huffed; then turned off the car, getting out. I grabbed my doing along the way.
"They better be careful with it." I said getting on his back.
I grabbed a fist full of his fur; as Jacob surge off into the woods.
"You love that car more than you love me." Jacob thought. I slapped him in the shoulder. He let out a barky laugh
"But seriously Ness, you have to give me something; so I can make it through the day." I laughed and rolled my eyes.
"I love you, my Jacob" I showed him.
This was going to be a long day.
~~~~ FOREVER YOURS ~~~~
"Ness, this is good." Karli said handing me back the letter form Harvard.
I showed them how Jake was; and everything that happen last night.
And I recently found out that: both Abby and Karli knew they were in danger; but both wanted to go cliff diving.
"Are you going to accept it?" Abby asked. I shrugged.
"If I go; it will be without Jake." I said. They both looked at me shocked.
"What!" They both said.
"How can Jake come with me; when he's got responsibilities here? I don't want a bunch of vampires and a werewolf breathing down my neck, trying to protect me." I said slamming my locker door.
"If you go; it'll break his heart/ You-" Abby started but I cut her off.
"I know I would break his heart; and I know Jake was lifeless when I was attacked. I want a human life though!" I said. They both shook their heads, dropping the subject.
They probably wouldn't understand. They already had their future decided.
Abby would probably go to Washington University; or go back to her home state collage. Karli would do the same thing.
Both girls would settle down with their imprinters, have children, grow old; and here I was going to live forever. With a bunch of vampires threatening to kill everybody dear to my heart.
Maybe if I go somewhere alone; the danger would follow me. Or maybe if Hailey came back to finish her job; everybody would be safe.
"Hey, can you come over tonight? You can meet me at the house." I showed Abby.
I would have invited Karli; but overall, I was closer to Abby. She accepted who I was; after I told her. Karli…that didn't go over well with her.
"Sure." Abby thought. I smiled.
"I'll see you guys later." Karli sang; running to her car.
"What in the world were you thinking? Leaving Jake? Seriously, Ness?" Abby said.
"Why are you saying this now?" I asked sarcastically.
"I just now realized that you were serious!" There I saw Jacob leaning against a tree. Despite all the feelings I've had today; seeing him made me have a smile creep across my face.
"I'll see you soon. Don't do anything stupid." Abby warned walking off to her car.
Jacob started walking towards me.
"Hey, beautiful." Jacob said wrapping his arm around my waist.
"Don't call me that; not today." I mumbled into his gray shirt.
"What, I can't call the love of my life beautiful?" Jacob whispered in my ear.
"I don't feel like it today." I pleaded.
"Well, you are." He scooped me up; and jogged into the woods. The whole time he stared at my face. I started to feel self-conscious.
"Stop that." I showed him blushing.
"You know, I can stare at your eyes all day; and never get tired of it." Jacob said kissing my forehead. I decided to change the subject.
"Abby's coming over later; so your going to have to sleep in the woods." I said playing with my promise bracelet.
"Always others before me." Jake grumbled playfully.
"Yeah, you the last of my worries." he growled playfully at me.
"I do have a heart you know. You could have been a little easy on telling me."
"I know; but I don't like doing that. If you let down a guy easy; he doesn't get the point."
"But if Abby comes over; Sethey boy is going to want to be with her; and both will beg you to let him stay, you'll give in and I get what I want."
"Oh, what do you want?"
"To be with you. That; and I don't have the guys picking at my brain." I slapped him playfully on the shoulder.
"I might kick both of you out. We might just sneak off; and go to some bar, just have a girls night out."
"Them I'm defiantly staying."
"Why?'
"Your family will kill me, then go after you. Besides, your still under aged." Jacob joked as his phone went off.
He sat me down to answer it.
"Yeah?" Jacob said.
"Quil, are you sure? Okay, I'll be over in a few." Jacob said then huffed, looking at me.
"Kid on the reservation has symptoms of phasing." Jake said taking off his shirt, looking at me torn.
"You have to go, huh?"
I've never seen Jake torn before. I couldn't let him put me before his pack.
"I…um…It's-I'm alpha, Ness; but you're more important…" Jacob trailed. His eyes pleaded with me to understand; and I did. It sounded like he was trying to convince himself that.
His thoughts were torn with his role as alpha and me alone in the woods.
"Could I come with you." I said hoping it would make it easier on him.
"No." He said quickly.
"Why?" I asked.
"Because it's dangerous." I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around his neck.
"I like a little danger." I said.
"I want to keep you safe."
"I'll be around a bunch of wolves; and I'm part vampire. I'll be okay."
"Nessie, we're not that great controlling our anger when we fist phase. This kid might not have that great control; and when he smells you-" Jacob stopped realizing what he was about to say.
"Vampire scent."
"I didn't mean it like that-"
"I know." I looked at him again.
"Please don't do this." I shook my head okay; then let him go.
After a while; I decided to follow him.
I flew up a tree; climbing to the top, then started jumping from tree to tree.
After crossing the border; I picked up on a wolf scent. I jumped further; almost losing my balance, only to have my boot slip and I started to fall. Luckily, I landed on my feet.
I turned to the direction a was handing in. This time on foot; instead of flying through the tress.
I laughed to myself as I started running; when all of a sudden a white wolf attacked me, throwing me to the ground. The wolf got on top of me growling, his face inches from mine.
Every time I tried to get up; he would push me back down. If I made the wrong move; the wolf could kill me in a heartbeat.
But I'm also protected. A pack member can't harm an imprint. Maybe that's why he hasn't killed me yet.
I let fear take over; letting it not use my gifts. This must be the new kid.
"What do you want bloodsucker!?" The white wolf thought. He sound young. Eleven? Twelve maybe?
"I-I'm an imprint." I stammered. He gave me a confused look. I searched his thoughts: he phased before anybody could get to him; and explain enough to him.
Just then two black wolves(Sam and Kaleb) knocked him off of me.
I scooted to the edge of the tree; terrified.
"She's what?! I thought I told her not to come?" Jacob thought.
"Well, she obviously didn't listen." Paul thought.
"Nessie, what are you doing here?" Sam asked. I was at loss for words. What can I say: "oh, I just wanted to follow Jacob."?
"I um…" Just then Jacob came through the woods.
"Renesmee, I thought I told you not to come." Jacob thought. I must be in trouble; because he rarely used my full name.
"I thought you knew I don't do as I am told." I said determinedly, getting up, crossing my arms in front of my chest.
"Dude, I think you met your match." Jared's thoughts laughed.
"I told you it was dangerous."
"You know I don't listen."
"Whoa, somebody forgot to mention that our alpha fell in love with a leech." The newbie said. I hated it when they called me and my family leeches, bloodsuckers, demons…
"If you gave enough time to explain; instead of running off like the immature idiot you are." Paul thought to.
Jacob growled. I growled back.
"She's only half leech; and a Cullen. We're good with them." Jacob thought to the white wolf; who-by searching everybody's thoughts-was named Joseph.
"Go home, Nessie."
"No." Jacob took a step back.
"Please don't do this." Jake begged. His eyes pleading.
"Fine." I finally gave in. Might as well. I knew he was going to force me back anyway.
"Jared, Paul, make sure she goes straight home." Jacob ordered. I stood there shocked. He didn't trust me?
"I don't need an escort! I know my own way back!" I snapped.
"I am just making sure you get back safe." Jacob thought with a smirky, wolf grin.
I made a sound of disgust and took off.
"Guys, you don't to run with me. I'm a big girl; I can take care of myself." I showed both Paul and Jared who were running on each side of me.
"Sorry, alpha orders have to be followed." Jared thought.
"Whether we like it or not." Paul added. Stupid alpha orders.
We made to the edge of the woods.
"Don't do nothing stupid, Ness." Paul thought.
"Who me? Of coarse not. I would never do anything before thinking it through."
"Yeah right. Do I need to list them off?"
"No." I laughed then ran to my house.
Once I got in the house; my phone went off. Abby.
"Hey Abb." I said walking into the kitchen, getting something to eat.
"Hey, my grandparents are here to visit; so I can't come over. Seth's actually going to meet them for the first time!" she said onto the other line.
"That's okay. Maybe another time?"
"Look on the bright side: you get more alone time with Jake?" Yeah, if he's not mad at me.
"Yeah, I'll see you later." I said then hung up.
Now I was stuck here all by myself.
~~~~ FOREVER YOURS ~~~~
I was utterly bored. No friends, no family, no Jake. I was stuck in my house with nothing to do.
I did my homework, studied, watched television, listened to music, played my guitar and Daddy's piano, took a few photo's, and read.
I was now completely bored.
I called Jake several times; but all I got was his voicemail every time. He might be mad at me?
I did promise Jake I would go home; but I didn't promise to stay here. Maybe I should just go cliff diving myself. I know I promised Paul I wouldn't do anything stupid; but cliff diving's not stupid right?
I got off the couch; and flew out the door. Jacob might take this as a suicide mission on my part; but I didn't care.
~~~~ FOREVER YOURS ~~~~
I climbed to the highest cliff. The wives were rocky, and I would be stupid if I jumped. I'm breaking my promise to Paul; but I can't go back now.
I could do this. I've cliff dived before; and several times. The waves wouldn't change a thing. I'm part vampire! I won't drown…Right?
I got to the edge and turned around; letting my arms raise above my sides. It kind of felt like I was flying.
I wonder if I jumped now; would I skip the water, and just start flying through the sky?
I leaned my head back, closed my eyes, and started leaning backwards, tumbling down towards the water.
This felt like the time I was attacked. The falling, the adrenaline rush I got whenever I was waiting to let the rocky waves overload me.
I hit the water; and started swimming to surface. All of a sudden; a big, gigantic wave crashed on top of me, pulling me under.
I got to the surface again; but the same thing happen. I kept doing it over and over; until I was exhausted.
I was tired and weak; and I felt like I didn't have nay ounce of fight, energy, determination to use.
Just then something grabbed my foot; and started dragging me further and further dowb the ocean.
I started fighting; but whatever it was doing so, kept pulling me further down.
The lower I got; the more tired I got. I wanted to give up. And I wanted to give up now.
At some point the vampire stopped; getting face to face with me. She had mocha brown hair; and between deep red eyes. Newborn.
"I'm sorry." the vampire thought. Her eyes sad.
She had a look of strong conversation on her face; starring at me. I started to feel a lot worse; as my vision became hazy. I eventually blacked out.
~~~~ FOREVER YOURS ~~~~
Jacob's point of view:
We just killed three more leeches. God knows how many more we have left.
We got Joseph trained; and told him the rules. I have a feeling he won't be the only one who phases.
I felt my phone vibrate again. I have a feeling there from Nessie.
I hated that we had to argue and that she thought I didn't trust her. I do; but she saw on first hand how we are when we first phase.
I felt torn between my Nessie and my pack. I knew she wanted me to stay; and believe me, I wanted to. But how could I when I've got my role as alpha?
"Jake, go see Ness. Everybody else is with their imprints. It seems like since Nessie's attack; they've all became overprotected." Kaleb thought. Ever since December; the guys with imprints have been making sure we wouldn't loose them. I didn't want to loose my Renesmee; so I don't blame them
'You'll understand once you find her."
What about her going to collage? How could I go; and how Nessie talked, she didn't want me to follow her. I wouldn't give it a second thought of going with her, but what about the pack? Today shown what it felt like if I had to choose between Nessie and the pack.
I phased; then started running to the Cullen mansion.
I came through the door to find the house empty.
"Nessie?" I said warily. No answer.
I took out my phone and dialed Nessie's number. Only to find it on the coffee table next to her book.
I went to check on her bedroom. Maybe she was asleep?
Nothing.
I stayed still for a while; seeing if I just ignored the sound of her quick notebook.
Silence.
Maybe she went to Rachel's. Or to Kim's even.
They went through the same thing that Nessie is going through.
I started to dial my sisters number.
"Hello?" Rachel asked on the other line.
"Is Nessie there?" I asked in a rush. Something's wrong.
"What? No hello?" Rachel joked.
"Sorry: hello. Is Nessie there?" I prayed that she was there; but I had a gut feeling she was there. Maybe she drove.
I dashed into the garage just as Rachel answered.
"No. Why-" I hung up before she could finish. I was wrong. Her car was there.
I knew something bad happen to my girl. I should have went with her!
I could loose her again!
~~~~ FOREVER YOURS ~~~~
I phased back as I got to the ocean cliffs. Quil said hr say Nessie jumped; but thought I was with her.
I checked the shores to see if she was there. Bithing.
It then hit me that she was still in the water!
I rushed; then dove into the rocky water. I started swimming downwards; hoping I could see her.
I kept swimming long enough; until I saw her. She wasn't moving. Panic shot through me.
Ok Jake, calm down. This is no time to panic.
I grabbed her arm; and started swimming to surface, the swam to shore.
Why would Nessie decide to do something this stupid?
I pushed all that in the back of my mind; as we got to the shore. My heart sank when I found out she wasn't breathing.
I started doing mouth to mouth.
"Come on, Nessie! Breathe!" I shouted in her face. Nothing.
"Please Nessie!" I begged.
What happen in December came flooding back to me. How she look.
What she looked like when I had my nightmare; was the strongest one of them all.
Her face was blank; like she was dead. Me crying over her body, at her funeral, Sam, Kaleb, and Quil having to drag me away from her grave, how I would go on a mad rampage.
Nessie coughed; then her eyes fluttered open.
"Jake?" she asked slowly sitting up. I wrapped her up in a hug quickly; relieved that she was okay.
"Are you okay? Any injuries…" I said looking her in the eye.
"I'm fine." Now was the time to ask her what was she thinking.
"What were you thinking Ness?! Were you on some kind of suicide mission! Did you even think about me? Your parents-" I started.
"I was bored, and wanted to go cliff diving." she said.
"Alone? When the waves weren't the-
"Please Jake, I'm half vampire."
"And there's bloodsuckers all around us; that want to kill you! Nessie, I almost lost you once; I don't want to it again!"
"You don't have to! Besides; I was fine. Until…" Nessie trailed biting her lower lip. She had my full attention now.
"Until what?" I said trying to get her to tell me what happen.
Nessie huffed and started showing me what went on. Seeing everything through her eyes.
She was falling backwards, then the waves kept brining her under. Yeah, she was doing real fine.
I then saw something else. Her face to face with a newborn.
"What?!" I shouted. Nessie bit her lip again; trying not to laugh.
"Nessie, it's not funny!"
"When you're overreacting; it is." Nessie laughed.
"What about with Joseph. I told you to stay back and go home. For your safety! Cliff diving alone isn't helping. And what about these leeches that want to take you away from me? They've almost did it once-"
"Oh my God! Jake, you're overreacting; and I thought we moved away from that a long time ago?"
"Nessie, I worry everyday. You leaving me is the worst thing that could ever happen. My biggest worry!" I said. Nessie stayed silent; not looking me in the eye.
I pulled her closer.
"Have I told you how beautiful you are?" I asked.
"Not today." she answered smiling a dimpled smile.
"You're so beautiful. I love you; you know that right?" I said kissing her forehead. I wish time would stop; when moments like these happen.
"Not until now." Nessie said laughing; then started running.
I chased after her; grabbing her by the waist, and spun her around. I stopped, then picked her up so she was face to face with me.
"I'm sorry." Nessie showed me. I smiled.
"Have I told you how much I love you?" I asked.
"No."
"I just did; and I'm going to keep telling you that, to make sure you know." Just then Nessie started showing me images of our meadow.
"I take that as I hint." I said sitting her down. She nodded.
"But could I get some dry clothes on first?" I scooped her up and started running.
"Your wish is my command, my beautiful Renesmee."
