A.N.-Sorry this took so long but I have a really good excuse. My dad had to have major surgery so I just didn't have the time. So as an apology I made this chapter huge I mean really, really long.
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Buffy sat down on the bench in a more secluded part of the park so she wouldn't be interrupted. At least she hoped she wouldn't be interrupted it wasn't as if she could go to the spot where she use to write her songs, not anymore. Not since he left. Buffy took out her guitar and strummed a few chords closing her eyes and sighing. She kept her eyes closed as she started playing and tried to think about happy things. Like Parker. Sure they'd only been together a week but Buffy was starting to think that this guy wasn't just a rebound he might be something. Smiling Buffy started singing.
A.N.-Ok the song is Up by Shania Twain. Ok I know country yucky bleach but whatever every song I use hear I just used for the lyrics so your all just gonna have to deal
I'm going up
I'm going up
I'm going up
I'm going up
I'm going up
I'm going up
It's 'bout as bad as it could be
Seems everybody's buggin' me
Like nothing wants to go my way
Ah, just ain't been my day
Nothin's comin' easily
Even my skin is acting weird
I wish that I could grow a beard
Then I could cover up my spots
not play connect the dots
I just wanna disappear
Up up up
Can only go up from here
Up up up
where the clouds gonna clear
Up up
There's no way but up from here
Even something as simple as
Forgettin' to fill up on gas
There ain't no explanation
why
things like that can make you
cry
Just gotta learn to have a laugh
Up up up
Can only go up from here
Up up up
where the clouds gonna clear
Up up
There's no way but up from here
Oh yeah yeah, yeah
yeah yeah, yeah
yeah yeah yeah
yeah
When everything is goin' wrong
Don't worry, it won't last for long
Yeah, it's all gonna come around
Don't go let it get you down
You gotta keep on holding on
It's 'bout as bad as it could be
Seems everybody's buggin' me
Like nothing want to go my way
it just ain't been my day
Nothin's comin' easily
oh oh oh ohhhhh
Up up up
Can only go up from here
Up up up
where the clouds gonna clear
Up up
There's no way but up from here
oh
Oh
I'm going up
I'm going up
I'm going up
I'm going up
up up
i'm going up
Oh yeah yeah, yeah
yeah yeah, yeah
yeah yeah yeah
Yeah
Strumming one last cord Buffy opened her eyes and heard someone clapping whipping her head around she caught sight of Spike and rolled her eyes, "Oh great what do you want?"
"Believe it or not blondie I didn't come here with the express purpose of annoying you," He showed her his guitar, "This is where I come to write."
"Well I'm already so find somewhere else to go."
"Um no," He plops himself down on the grass beside her, "This is the only place I can write. So you can just move along."
"No way. I was here first."
Spike shrugs, "Frankly luv I don't give a damn if someone else is here."
"Neither do I," She glares at him before turning back to her guitar.
"You know you're not half bad."
"What?" Her gaze snaps up to look at him.
His piercing blue eyes met her green ones and she swallowed nervously, " Your not half bad, pet."
"Oh gee thanks." She rolled her eyes breaking the contact and whatever hold he seemed to have on her.
"I'm being bloody serious you got a good voice, the crowd responded really well to you, you slayed them, and your ok with a guitar. But your lyrics bloody suck. There's no feeling to them. No heart." He smirks at her.
She jumped to her feet outraged, "How dare you who the hell do you think you are I work extremely hard on my songs. God for a second there I actually thought that I could have a normal conversation with you. Boy do I ever deserve to get the idiot of the year award."
"I'm not gonna argue with that one, slayer," He turns back to his guitar.
"You- I- Are- What- GOD," Buffy storms off leaving Spike behind chuckling to himself.
Buffy dropped her guitar off at her dorm room and headed towards Parker's room, 'At least Parker will be able to cheer me up.' Buffy smiled to herself things with Parker were really going great. He could make her laugh and she felt like he really got her. Really understood what she had been going through recently. She knocked on his door but when she received no answer she pushed the door open and stared in shock at the sight before her. There was Parker on his bed kissing some brunette girl. Buffy let out a strangled noise, "Parker?"
Parker separated himself from the girl, "Buffy!" He looked from the girl back to Buffy, "Um I-I can explain."
Buffy immediately got over her shock, "So you can explain how your such a humungous jackass sorry already got that memo."
Buffy slammed the door and ran for her room needing immediate girl time with Willow desperately hoping she would be there.
Buffy plopped herself down on the grass in the park hoping against hope that she wouldn't have to see Spike again. 'Then why'd you come here moron.' Silencing her inner turmoil Buffy yawned. Parker had kept her up all night with his phone calls. At 2 am Willow finally unplugged the phone. God the boy just didn't get a clue. But it still hurt. She picked up her guitar and within seconds she knew exactly what she wanted no needed to sing.
A.N.-Here you go more for your enjoyment lol. Ok so the song is by Dream and its called Pain. I edited it a little to make it work so here goes.
Boy I thought that we'd be together,
I could see it in your eyes
Threw my hand and lead me blindly,
to believe in all your lies
But now the truth is in the open,
and it's all on you
All on you, all on you
You leave me so heartbroken,
can't you see that you're killing me
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy
crazy over you
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy
crazy
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy
baby you drive me crazy
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy, pain, pain
You know I wish that you wouldn't lie to me
But some wishes don't come true
Don't come true
Time to put the past behind,
say goodbye and start anew
Move on,
be gone,
it's over
Oooo
Now you're all alone
And I know that you wished that you were here with me
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy, pain, pain
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy
going, going out my mind
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy
you bring me so much pain
All you do is bring me pain
I can't bare to be with you no more
spoken
Sup with you, you know it's not fair
You pay me no attention, when I'm standing right there
But it's all good, and it's all right
You're gonna regret this for the rest of your life
Cause I'm gonna move on, I'm gonna find love
You'll see me again, and know you messed up
So remember this song and remember my name
It's Buffy Anne Summers and I'm changing the game
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy, pain, pain
All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy, pain, pain
Said to give you my heart and you broke it babe
Because of you I'm going crazy
I just can't take it no more
Turn around, walk out the door
ooo..., ooo, ooo
ooo..., ooo, ooo
ooo..., ooo, ooo
ooo..., ooo, ooo
Said I'd give you my heart and you broke it babe
Because of you I'm going crazy
I just can't take it no more
Turn around, walk out that door
Said I'd give you my heart and you broke it babe
Because of you I'm going crazy
I just can't take it no more
Turn around, walk out that door
Said I'd give you my heart and you broke it babe...
The sound of clapping had Buffy turn around to see the brunette girl from yesterday, "That was tight B. Really it was cool. I don't know what Spike was talking bout you put mad emotion into your lyrics."
"What do you want." Buffy glared at the girl.
"Same as you."
"And what pray tell do I want."
"Revenge." At Buffy's confused look she shoves a cup of coffee in her hand, "Wake up and smell the coffee B he played both of us."
"Thanks." Buffy takes a small sip.
"So you planning on singing that tonight."
"Yeah why."
"Cause I got a better idea." Faith smiled and Buffy smiled back as she started talking.
Spike looked around the Bronze from back stage. 'Where the fuck was Faith? He was gonna ring her bloody neck when he got his hands on her. Ah speak of the proverbial bloody devil.'
"Sorry I'm late got hung up." Faith grins back at Buffy who entered behind her, "Some unfinished business."
Spike looks from Buffy back to Faith, "What's with you two."
Faith pushed by Spike onto the stage, "You'll see."
Meanwhile back on the floor Xander and Willow sat at one of the tables talking. Suddenly a brunette girl walks up and stands in front of Xander, "Can I help you?"
"Hi I'm Anya I noticed you earlier. Do you want to dance."
"I- Um- Huh- What I um mean to say is- Why?"
Anya steps closer to him, "Well your nicely shaped and I think your very attractive. So will you dance with me."
Xander nods vigorously and she takes his hand pulling him onto the dance floor. Willow starts laughing at her friend when The Big Bad walked on stage.
Spike steps up to the mike, "Hey everyone now I know you've been dying for this so here goes nothing. This is for every one who's ever felt like there's nothing left in this cold cruel world.
A.N.-Ok this is Hold On by Good Charlotte. If you diss this song be warned I will hunt you down and do you bodily harm. Kidding, Kidding. (pauses for a couple seconds and looks at the ceiling thinking) Kinda.
This world
This world is cold
But you don't
You dont have to go
You're feeling sad
You're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
Your mothers gone and your father hits you
This pain you can not bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on
If you feel like letting go
Hold on
It gets better than you know
Your days
You say they're way too long
And your nights
You can't sleep at all
Hold on
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you dont want to no more
And you're not sure what you're looking for
But you dont want to no more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on
If you feel like letting go
Hold on
It gets better than you know
Don't stop looking
You're one step closer
Don't stop searching
Its not over
Hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead
What are you waiting for?
Hold on
If you feel like letting go
Hold on
It gets better than you know
Don't stop looking
You're one step closer
Don't stop searching
Its not over
Hold on
If you feel like letting go
Hold on
It gets better than you know
Hold on
Cheers erupted from the audience and Spike smirked at the audience before getting serious, "Now this one comes from my heart so I want you to listen really close its about how I felt a while back. Right around the time my parents split so I hope you enjoy it."
A.N.-This is Wonderful by Everclear. Ok so there is this whole opening part that I cut out but its really a good song so if you've never heard it check it out.
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream,
I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I
dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home
Buffy watched from back stage in awe of the man on stage at first she thought he was just gonna do this to get girls but now she really believed him and completely understood what he was singing. Maybe he wasn't such a jerk just maybe he wasn't. Maybe.
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No,
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
No,
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No,
no,
no,
no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No,
no,
no,
no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
and I hate everything
and Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
No
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful
No
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't wanna hear you tell me
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
No
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
ooooo yea yea everything is wonderful now
ooooo yea eveything is wonderful now
now
now
everything is wonderful now
Spike closed his eyes as the song ended and when he opened them and looked around he saw a pair of emerald green eyes. Emerald eyes that were mirroring the feelings he put into this song back at him but the minute she realized he was looking at her they returned to the same way they always were. Guarded. Spike turned back to the crowd, "Alright that's all for tonight. I know I know you just cant get enough of us." Spike paused and smirk, "Or should I say of me."
Laughing Spike started to walk off stage followed by Oz but not, to his surprise Faith. He turned to Buffy, "What the bleeding hell is going on?"
Buffy pushes past him, "You'll see." She went out on stage and stood next to Faith, "Hey you're probably wondering what I'm doing up her with the drummer from The Big Bad. Well the truth is she can sing. And really, really well I might add." Buffy shrugs, "Who knew."
As laughter breaks out Faith punches Buffy in the arm, "Watch it B."
Buffy waits for the crowd to stop laughing, "Ok now the reason she is up here is because we realized something. We were both dating a loser." Buffy's gaze meets Parker's, "The same loser I might add. So we decided that payback's a bitch, honey."
A.N.-Ok this is You Thought Wrong by Kelly Clarkson featuring Tamyra Gray. Ok Buffy is singing Kelly Clarkson's part and Faith is doing Tamyra Gray's part I labeled it. F.Y.I. I might have messed up a bit so don't kill me.
Faith: I see how your trying to
weasel
Your way in
Boy I
know how you maneuver
With your
your confusion
Buffy: You tell me that I'm your only
And how bad that you want me
Well then why are you so shady
If I'm supposed to be your lady
Faith: Why should I believe anything you say
And how could you shame me that way
Buffy: Tell me where
where did you get the nerve
To even think that you
you could play me boy
Buffy: You thought we didn't know
You thought we were in the dark
But boy your covers blown
Cause we both know now
You thought you had us fooled
At your beck & call
But now who's the joke
And look who's laughing now
Buffy: Now your trying to use us
Faith: Against one another
But it won't work
Buffy: I see right though your game boy
Faith: And I know exactly where to play boy
Buffy: You tried to deny all your actions
Faith: For once in your life be a real man
Buffy: At least give me the proper respect
Faith: Of the truth
Buffy: I already know you did it
Buffy: Why should I believe anyting you say
And how could you shame me that way
Faith: Tell me where did you get the nerve
To even think that
you could play me boy
Buffy: You thought we didn't know
You thought we were in the dark
But boy your covers blown
Cause we both know now
You thought you had us fooled
At your beck & call
But now who's the joke
And look who's laughing now
Buffy: I see right through you baby
Try not to be like you don't want me
Why don't you get it through your thick head
Faith: Get it through your thick, thick, thick, thick head
Buffy: Cause I've seen this game before
And I'm not trying to see it no more
Shut your mouth
Faith: I'm not trying to hear your lies
No not again
Buffy: Sorry you couldn't be a better man
Faith: Oh no, no, no, no
Buffy: You thought we didn't know
You thought we were in the dark
But boy your covers blown
Cause we both know now
You thought you had us fooled
At your beck & call
But now who's the joke
And look who's laughing now
spoken
Buffy: Guess you thought wrong
Faith: Look who's laughing now
You stupid
Buffy leaned into the mike and smiled before locking eyes with Parker, "Hey Parker. Guess dating is gonna get a little harder now huh?" Parker shoots her a dirty look before walking out of the Bronze, "Thanks everyone but I'm done for tonight maybe I'll be back next week."Buffy jumps down off the stage followed by Faith and walks over to where Willow is sitting, "Hey Wills. Were's Xand."
Xander walks over out of breathe, "Hey Buff great song. Listen I'm sorry but I think I'm gonna take off."
Buffy notices he keeps glancing at a girl, "Go be happy."
Faith sits down next to Buffy, "Get laid."
Willow turns bright red as does Xander. Buffy laughs, "Guys this is Faith. Faith Xander and Willow." She pushes Xander now go."
Faith sees Spike across the room and motion for him to come over. Willow finishes her soda, "I gotta go. Homework. See you at the dorm Buffy."
She takes off and as she reaches the door Oz reaches out to tap her shoulder but she moves out of his reach, "Who is that girl." He smiles softly to himself before shaking his head and starting to look for his band mates.
Spike slides into the seat Willow just vacated followed by Oz who sits next to him. Buffy rolls her eyes, "Oh joy."
Spike smirks at her, "Nice song Slayer." He leans over to her and whispers in her ear resting his hand on the small of her back, "When you want a real man just let me know." He slides his hand down to her butt, "Definitely wouldn't say no to a piece of this."
Buffy jumps out of her seat, "And that's my cue to leave."
Faith looks up at her, "What's wrong B."
Buffy jerks her thumb in Spike's direction, "Ask the perv." She storms away.
Faith hits Spike upside the head, "Oi. What the bleeding hell was that for."
"I don't know what you said but go apologize right now."
Spike pouts, "Do I have to."
"Yes!" Faith points at the door.
Spike gets up and starts towards the door, "Bloody crazy woman."
Buffy walked out of the back of the Bronze with her guitar case and starts to walk to the main street but is grabbed and forced up against the wall. Her head hits and she drops her case, "Ow what the."
"You little stuck up bitch you think you can do that to me." Buffy feels more presure on her cheast but she cant see the person's face, "Huh? Do you?"
"Parker?" Buffy gasps, "What are you doing?"
"What am I doing? What the fuck do you think you were doing in there?" How dare you humiliate me. You know what I always get what I want." He pushes her harder against the wall. "Always. And guess what you little slut." He lays his arm across her throat and applies precious.
"Parker please. Your hurting me."
He ignores her and keeps talking, "What I want Buffy is you in my bed. But no you had to act like a stuck up bitch. So I found Faith you weren't suppose to find out about her but you did so now I'm just gonna have to take what I want. Aren't I Buffy?" He kisses her and she fights to get away but cant.
"No Parker stop. Please oh God please stop Parker this is crazy." Tears streamed down Buffy's face as she cried out, "Somebody help me! Please someone!"
Parker slaps her, "Shut up you little whore. No one can hear you."
A.N.-That's all for now. Had to leave it on a cliffhanger. Lol. Reviews will get you more.
