A.N.-Sorry this took so long but I have a really good excuse. My dad had to have major surgery so I just didn't have the time. So as an apology I made this chapter huge I mean really, really long.

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Buffy sat down on the bench in a more secluded part of the park so she wouldn't be interrupted. At least she hoped she wouldn't be interrupted it wasn't as if she could go to the spot where she use to write her songs, not anymore. Not since he left. Buffy took out her guitar and strummed a few chords closing her eyes and sighing. She kept her eyes closed as she started playing and tried to think about happy things. Like Parker. Sure they'd only been together a week but Buffy was starting to think that this guy wasn't just a rebound he might be something. Smiling Buffy started singing.

A.N.-Ok the song is Up by Shania Twain. Ok I know country yucky bleach but whatever every song I use hear I just used for the lyrics so your all just gonna have to deal

I'm going up

I'm going up

I'm going up

I'm going up

I'm going up

I'm going up

It's 'bout as bad as it could be

Seems everybody's buggin' me

Like nothing wants to go my way

Ah, just ain't been my day

Nothin's comin' easily

Even my skin is acting weird

I wish that I could grow a beard

Then I could cover up my spots

not play connect the dots

I just wanna disappear

Up up up

Can only go up from here

Up up up

where the clouds gonna clear

Up up

There's no way but up from here

Even something as simple as

Forgettin' to fill up on gas

There ain't no explanation

why

things like that can make you

cry

Just gotta learn to have a laugh

Up up up

Can only go up from here

Up up up

where the clouds gonna clear

Up up

There's no way but up from here

Oh yeah yeah, yeah

yeah yeah, yeah

yeah yeah yeah

yeah

When everything is goin' wrong

Don't worry, it won't last for long

Yeah, it's all gonna come around

Don't go let it get you down

You gotta keep on holding on

It's 'bout as bad as it could be

Seems everybody's buggin' me

Like nothing want to go my way

it just ain't been my day

Nothin's comin' easily

oh oh oh ohhhhh

Up up up

Can only go up from here

Up up up

where the clouds gonna clear

Up up

There's no way but up from here

oh

Oh

I'm going up

I'm going up

I'm going up

I'm going up

up up

i'm going up

Oh yeah yeah, yeah

yeah yeah, yeah

yeah yeah yeah

Yeah

Strumming one last cord Buffy opened her eyes and heard someone clapping whipping her head around she caught sight of Spike and rolled her eyes, "Oh great what do you want?"

"Believe it or not blondie I didn't come here with the express purpose of annoying you," He showed her his guitar, "This is where I come to write."

"Well I'm already so find somewhere else to go."

"Um no," He plops himself down on the grass beside her, "This is the only place I can write. So you can just move along."

"No way. I was here first."

Spike shrugs, "Frankly luv I don't give a damn if someone else is here."

"Neither do I," She glares at him before turning back to her guitar.

"You know you're not half bad."

"What?" Her gaze snaps up to look at him.

His piercing blue eyes met her green ones and she swallowed nervously, " Your not half bad, pet."

"Oh gee thanks." She rolled her eyes breaking the contact and whatever hold he seemed to have on her.

"I'm being bloody serious you got a good voice, the crowd responded really well to you, you slayed them, and your ok with a guitar. But your lyrics bloody suck. There's no feeling to them. No heart." He smirks at her.

She jumped to her feet outraged, "How dare you who the hell do you think you are I work extremely hard on my songs. God for a second there I actually thought that I could have a normal conversation with you. Boy do I ever deserve to get the idiot of the year award."

"I'm not gonna argue with that one, slayer," He turns back to his guitar.

"You- I- Are- What- GOD," Buffy storms off leaving Spike behind chuckling to himself.

Buffy dropped her guitar off at her dorm room and headed towards Parker's room, 'At least Parker will be able to cheer me up.' Buffy smiled to herself things with Parker were really going great. He could make her laugh and she felt like he really got her. Really understood what she had been going through recently. She knocked on his door but when she received no answer she pushed the door open and stared in shock at the sight before her. There was Parker on his bed kissing some brunette girl. Buffy let out a strangled noise, "Parker?"

Parker separated himself from the girl, "Buffy!" He looked from the girl back to Buffy, "Um I-I can explain."

Buffy immediately got over her shock, "So you can explain how your such a humungous jackass sorry already got that memo."

Buffy slammed the door and ran for her room needing immediate girl time with Willow desperately hoping she would be there.

Buffy plopped herself down on the grass in the park hoping against hope that she wouldn't have to see Spike again. 'Then why'd you come here moron.' Silencing her inner turmoil Buffy yawned. Parker had kept her up all night with his phone calls. At 2 am Willow finally unplugged the phone. God the boy just didn't get a clue. But it still hurt. She picked up her guitar and within seconds she knew exactly what she wanted no needed to sing.

A.N.-Here you go more for your enjoyment lol. Ok so the song is by Dream and its called Pain. I edited it a little to make it work so here goes.

Boy I thought that we'd be together,

I could see it in your eyes

Threw my hand and lead me blindly,

to believe in all your lies

But now the truth is in the open,

and it's all on you

All on you, all on you

You leave me so heartbroken,

can't you see that you're killing me

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy

crazy over you

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy

crazy

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy

baby you drive me crazy

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy, pain, pain

You know I wish that you wouldn't lie to me

But some wishes don't come true

Don't come true

Time to put the past behind,

say goodbye and start anew

Move on,

be gone,

it's over

Oooo

Now you're all alone

And I know that you wished that you were here with me

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy, pain, pain

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy

going, going out my mind

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy

you bring me so much pain

All you do is bring me pain

I can't bare to be with you no more

spoken

Sup with you, you know it's not fair

You pay me no attention, when I'm standing right there

But it's all good, and it's all right

You're gonna regret this for the rest of your life

Cause I'm gonna move on, I'm gonna find love

You'll see me again, and know you messed up

So remember this song and remember my name

It's Buffy Anne Summers and I'm changing the game

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy, pain, pain

All you do is bring me pain, boy you crazy, pain, pain

Said to give you my heart and you broke it babe

Because of you I'm going crazy

I just can't take it no more

Turn around, walk out the door

ooo..., ooo, ooo

ooo..., ooo, ooo

ooo..., ooo, ooo

ooo..., ooo, ooo

Said I'd give you my heart and you broke it babe

Because of you I'm going crazy

I just can't take it no more

Turn around, walk out that door

Said I'd give you my heart and you broke it babe

Because of you I'm going crazy

I just can't take it no more

Turn around, walk out that door

Said I'd give you my heart and you broke it babe...

The sound of clapping had Buffy turn around to see the brunette girl from yesterday, "That was tight B. Really it was cool. I don't know what Spike was talking bout you put mad emotion into your lyrics."

"What do you want." Buffy glared at the girl.

"Same as you."

"And what pray tell do I want."

"Revenge." At Buffy's confused look she shoves a cup of coffee in her hand, "Wake up and smell the coffee B he played both of us."

"Thanks." Buffy takes a small sip.

"So you planning on singing that tonight."

"Yeah why."

"Cause I got a better idea." Faith smiled and Buffy smiled back as she started talking.

Spike looked around the Bronze from back stage. 'Where the fuck was Faith? He was gonna ring her bloody neck when he got his hands on her. Ah speak of the proverbial bloody devil.'

"Sorry I'm late got hung up." Faith grins back at Buffy who entered behind her, "Some unfinished business."

Spike looks from Buffy back to Faith, "What's with you two."

Faith pushed by Spike onto the stage, "You'll see."

Meanwhile back on the floor Xander and Willow sat at one of the tables talking. Suddenly a brunette girl walks up and stands in front of Xander, "Can I help you?"

"Hi I'm Anya I noticed you earlier. Do you want to dance."

"I- Um- Huh- What I um mean to say is- Why?"

Anya steps closer to him, "Well your nicely shaped and I think your very attractive. So will you dance with me."

Xander nods vigorously and she takes his hand pulling him onto the dance floor. Willow starts laughing at her friend when The Big Bad walked on stage.

Spike steps up to the mike, "Hey everyone now I know you've been dying for this so here goes nothing. This is for every one who's ever felt like there's nothing left in this cold cruel world.

A.N.-Ok this is Hold On by Good Charlotte. If you diss this song be warned I will hunt you down and do you bodily harm. Kidding, Kidding. (pauses for a couple seconds and looks at the ceiling thinking) Kinda.

This world

This world is cold

But you don't

You dont have to go

You're feeling sad

You're feeling lonely

And no one seems to care

Your mothers gone and your father hits you

This pain you can not bare

But we all bleed the same way as you do

And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on

If you feel like letting go

Hold on

It gets better than you know

Your days

You say they're way too long

And your nights

You can't sleep at all

Hold on

And you're not sure what you're waiting for

But you dont want to no more

And you're not sure what you're looking for

But you dont want to no more

But we all bleed the same way as you do

And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on

If you feel like letting go

Hold on

It gets better than you know

Don't stop looking

You're one step closer

Don't stop searching

Its not over

Hold on

What are you looking for?

What are you waiting for?

Do you know what you're doing to me?

Go ahead

What are you waiting for?

Hold on

If you feel like letting go

Hold on

It gets better than you know

Don't stop looking

You're one step closer

Don't stop searching

Its not over

Hold on

If you feel like letting go

Hold on

It gets better than you know

Hold on

Cheers erupted from the audience and Spike smirked at the audience before getting serious, "Now this one comes from my heart so I want you to listen really close its about how I felt a while back. Right around the time my parents split so I hope you enjoy it."

A.N.-This is Wonderful by Everclear. Ok so there is this whole opening part that I cut out but its really a good song so if you've never heard it check it out.

I close my eyes when I get too sad

I think thoughts that I know are bad

Close my eyes and I count to ten

Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before

Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door

I wish I could count to ten

Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad

Will figure out why they get so mad

Hear them scream,

I hear them fight

They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed

And I

dream of angels who make me smile

I feel better when I hear them say

Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little

And the world's so big

I just don't understand how

You can smile with all those tears in your eyes

Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play

I tell the kids that it's all okay

I laugh aloud so my friends won't know

When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Buffy watched from back stage in awe of the man on stage at first she thought he was just gonna do this to get girls but now she really believed him and completely understood what he was singing. Maybe he wasn't such a jerk just maybe he wasn't. Maybe.

Go to my room and I close my eyes

I make believe that I have a new life

I don't believe you when you say

Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little

And the world is so big

so big

I just don't understand how

You can smile with all those tears in your eyes

When you tell me everything is wonderful now

No

No,

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

No

No,

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say

That I will understand someday

No,

no,

no,

no

I don't wanna hear you say

You both have grown in a different way

No,

no,

no,

no

I don't wanna meet your friends

And I don't wanna start over again

I just want my life to be the same

Just like it used to be

Some days I hate everything

and I hate everything

and Everyone and everything

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

No

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful

No

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

No

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

ooooo yea yea everything is wonderful now

ooooo yea eveything is wonderful now

now

now

everything is wonderful now

Spike closed his eyes as the song ended and when he opened them and looked around he saw a pair of emerald green eyes. Emerald eyes that were mirroring the feelings he put into this song back at him but the minute she realized he was looking at her they returned to the same way they always were. Guarded. Spike turned back to the crowd, "Alright that's all for tonight. I know I know you just cant get enough of us." Spike paused and smirk, "Or should I say of me."

Laughing Spike started to walk off stage followed by Oz but not, to his surprise Faith. He turned to Buffy, "What the bleeding hell is going on?"

Buffy pushes past him, "You'll see." She went out on stage and stood next to Faith, "Hey you're probably wondering what I'm doing up her with the drummer from The Big Bad. Well the truth is she can sing. And really, really well I might add." Buffy shrugs, "Who knew."

As laughter breaks out Faith punches Buffy in the arm, "Watch it B."

Buffy waits for the crowd to stop laughing, "Ok now the reason she is up here is because we realized something. We were both dating a loser." Buffy's gaze meets Parker's, "The same loser I might add. So we decided that payback's a bitch, honey."

A.N.-Ok this is You Thought Wrong by Kelly Clarkson featuring Tamyra Gray. Ok Buffy is singing Kelly Clarkson's part and Faith is doing Tamyra Gray's part I labeled it. F.Y.I. I might have messed up a bit so don't kill me.

Faith: I see how your trying to

weasel

Your way in

Boy I

know how you maneuver

With your

your confusion

Buffy: You tell me that I'm your only

And how bad that you want me

Well then why are you so shady

If I'm supposed to be your lady

Faith: Why should I believe anything you say

And how could you shame me that way

Buffy: Tell me where

where did you get the nerve

To even think that you

you could play me boy

Buffy: You thought we didn't know

You thought we were in the dark

But boy your covers blown

Cause we both know now

You thought you had us fooled

At your beck & call

But now who's the joke

And look who's laughing now

Buffy: Now your trying to use us

Faith: Against one another

But it won't work

Buffy: I see right though your game boy

Faith: And I know exactly where to play boy

Buffy: You tried to deny all your actions

Faith: For once in your life be a real man

Buffy: At least give me the proper respect

Faith: Of the truth

Buffy: I already know you did it

Buffy: Why should I believe anyting you say

And how could you shame me that way

Faith: Tell me where did you get the nerve

To even think that

you could play me boy

Buffy: You thought we didn't know

You thought we were in the dark

But boy your covers blown

Cause we both know now

You thought you had us fooled

At your beck & call

But now who's the joke

And look who's laughing now

Buffy: I see right through you baby

Try not to be like you don't want me

Why don't you get it through your thick head

Faith: Get it through your thick, thick, thick, thick head

Buffy: Cause I've seen this game before

And I'm not trying to see it no more

Shut your mouth

Faith: I'm not trying to hear your lies

No not again

Buffy: Sorry you couldn't be a better man

Faith: Oh no, no, no, no

Buffy: You thought we didn't know

You thought we were in the dark

But boy your covers blown

Cause we both know now

You thought you had us fooled

At your beck & call

But now who's the joke

And look who's laughing now

spoken

Buffy: Guess you thought wrong

Faith: Look who's laughing now

You stupid

Buffy leaned into the mike and smiled before locking eyes with Parker, "Hey Parker. Guess dating is gonna get a little harder now huh?" Parker shoots her a dirty look before walking out of the Bronze, "Thanks everyone but I'm done for tonight maybe I'll be back next week."Buffy jumps down off the stage followed by Faith and walks over to where Willow is sitting, "Hey Wills. Were's Xand."

Xander walks over out of breathe, "Hey Buff great song. Listen I'm sorry but I think I'm gonna take off."

Buffy notices he keeps glancing at a girl, "Go be happy."

Faith sits down next to Buffy, "Get laid."

Willow turns bright red as does Xander. Buffy laughs, "Guys this is Faith. Faith Xander and Willow." She pushes Xander now go."

Faith sees Spike across the room and motion for him to come over. Willow finishes her soda, "I gotta go. Homework. See you at the dorm Buffy."

She takes off and as she reaches the door Oz reaches out to tap her shoulder but she moves out of his reach, "Who is that girl." He smiles softly to himself before shaking his head and starting to look for his band mates.

Spike slides into the seat Willow just vacated followed by Oz who sits next to him. Buffy rolls her eyes, "Oh joy."

Spike smirks at her, "Nice song Slayer." He leans over to her and whispers in her ear resting his hand on the small of her back, "When you want a real man just let me know." He slides his hand down to her butt, "Definitely wouldn't say no to a piece of this."

Buffy jumps out of her seat, "And that's my cue to leave."

Faith looks up at her, "What's wrong B."

Buffy jerks her thumb in Spike's direction, "Ask the perv." She storms away.

Faith hits Spike upside the head, "Oi. What the bleeding hell was that for."

"I don't know what you said but go apologize right now."

Spike pouts, "Do I have to."

"Yes!" Faith points at the door.

Spike gets up and starts towards the door, "Bloody crazy woman."

Buffy walked out of the back of the Bronze with her guitar case and starts to walk to the main street but is grabbed and forced up against the wall. Her head hits and she drops her case, "Ow what the."

"You little stuck up bitch you think you can do that to me." Buffy feels more presure on her cheast but she cant see the person's face, "Huh? Do you?"

"Parker?" Buffy gasps, "What are you doing?"

"What am I doing? What the fuck do you think you were doing in there?" How dare you humiliate me. You know what I always get what I want." He pushes her harder against the wall. "Always. And guess what you little slut." He lays his arm across her throat and applies precious.

"Parker please. Your hurting me."

He ignores her and keeps talking, "What I want Buffy is you in my bed. But no you had to act like a stuck up bitch. So I found Faith you weren't suppose to find out about her but you did so now I'm just gonna have to take what I want. Aren't I Buffy?" He kisses her and she fights to get away but cant.

"No Parker stop. Please oh God please stop Parker this is crazy." Tears streamed down Buffy's face as she cried out, "Somebody help me! Please someone!"

Parker slaps her, "Shut up you little whore. No one can hear you."

A.N.-That's all for now. Had to leave it on a cliffhanger. Lol. Reviews will get you more.