In his last encounter with Muraki…Enveloped by the burning fire of the Tern Snake…
With a pale face and teary eyes, Tsuzuki said, "I just want to die now. I'm tired… I'm not allowed to exist."
Hisoka, throwing his arms around Tsuzuki, "You can exist just for me. I don't want to be alone anymore. Give me a place to exist. The only place is right here, by your side." Hisoka strengthened the embrace, with Tsuzuki finally returned.
Swallowing his tears, mixed with some of his lover's blood, Tsuzuki suddenly woke up from his world of darkness. He remembered the words that Hisoka said to him when he was determined to kill himself in the black flames. Hisoka pulled him from hell, invited him to his heart, hugged him with open arms, and begged him again and again, to not leave. "I won't let go of your hand. The world you are going to, I will go as well with you. I belong right here, in your heart."
The boy loved him so much then, and certainly more now. How could he hurt him like this? Tsuzuki gently released Hisoka's neck and body, and got off of him. The boy was whimpering. From a distance, Tsuzuki realized that a moment ago, he wasn't himself. He was … a monster. He knew from Muraki that he was not human. And yet, he found a human that loved him so so much. How could he hurt this person like that? He felt he was unworthy of Hisoka's love. Frightened by his own devil side, Tsuzuki backed away from Hisoka, and landed on the wall next to the window where he drank sake all night. He swore to himself, never ever would he drink again. Alcohol made him a monster tonight. It could make him the Devil tomorrow. He could not bear the thought of hurting Hisoka again. Ever again. The only way to ensure that, was to keep his distance.
For one last minute, Tsuzuki stared at the boy in front of him, who was crying on the floor with his neck bleeding intensely. They were once happily in love. Why did things turn out so wrong tonight? Closing his teary purple eyes, Tsuzuki called for his Fuda magic, and a second later, he disappeared."I deserve to be alone, with no love, no friends, no… Hisoka."
Hisoka looked up with his crying eyes, but… Tsuzuki was gone.
