"I...don't know if I'm ready to do it..." In the darkness of my bedroom, I was trying to enjoy what was possibly my last night alive as much as I could.

Castiel lay under the covers hugging me to him, listening to me

detail my worries out loud. There were a great many, most of them having to do with the impromptu surgery I was due to have in the morning.

Castiel stroke my face with the back of his hand and said "There's no choice but to do it, Devin. If you don't there could be disastrous consequences."

"There might be disastrous consequences if I do do it...I don't want to stay like this, not knowing what I can do, but I don't want anyone getting hurt in the process of trying to fix me either."

He took my face and stared into my eyes with his bright blue ones. "I will be there during your surgery to ensure nothing goes wrong. If you or the Winchesters get hurt, I will heal you. If you lose control of your powers once the Leviathan fangs are removed, then I will transport you somewhere will you can cause no harm. I will do everything in my power to ensure this goes according to how we wish it to."

I smirked. "You sound so sure of yourself...It isn't the Castiel I'm used to. I fear I've affected you much more than I intended to."

"You have affected me in ways nobody else has, yes...But that will not keep me from protecting you as I promised to when we exited Purgatory." A wide smile spread across my face and across Castiel's as well, and he pulled me to him for a long kiss.

Not long after that, we were forced to get up to make the short journey to one of my parents' safe houses far out of the city. It was dangerous enough what we were doing, even without the fact that we had to make sure nobody was around.

The Winchesters and Castiel were already down at the Impala, and I was saying goodbye to my parents. Little did they know, it would probably be for the last time.

My mother came to me nearly in tears and said "You come right back when you're done, you hear me? We're gonna have a proper birthday party for you when you get back."

I was almost surprised to hear that it was my birthday. "As long as nothing goes wrong, I'll be back for my party." We hugged briefly and she moved out of the way so my father could speak to me.

"It was...such a surprise and a blessing to have you come back into our lives, and hopefully what you're doing will let you be in it for a long, long time...And then maybe we can finally get some grandkids, eh?" I chuckled a bit.

"I...didn't know you wanted to be a grandfather...But maybe I'll work on finding you a proper son-in-law." I hugged him tightly and said "Assuming you don't chase after whoever I bring home with a shotgun."

"I'd only be protecting you."

I turned from my parents and took a deep breath, and made my way slowly down to the building's parking garage. Sam and Castiel were already inside the Impala, and Dean was leaning against the driver's side door, waiting.

"It's about time you got down here...Are you ready?"

"Nope, so let's go do this anyway." I climbed in the back with Castiel and Dean got in the front, sparing no time in peeling away from the apartment building.

As we drove, Castiel took a hold of my hand that was laying on the leather seat between us, and a smile spread across my face.

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"I can do this...I can do this...Can I do this?" I started talking to myself aloud as I laid on the table that was set up and Dean began strapping me down. "Make sure it's tight enough."

"Oh, you don't have to worry about that." Dean tugged hard on the angel-proof strap around one of my wrists and looked up at Castiel and said "Jealous I get to tie up your girl?" He chuckled to himself and continued, and even though he was joking, I knew Castiel had to've been troubled. I could see it on his face.

There was nothing covering my top half except a large towel, and as Sam took a deep breath and prepared his tools, he was hesitant to move it.

"Don't worry, it's for a medical purpose...You won't be violating your gentleman's sensibilities at all."

"I'm more worried about Dean behaving himself." We both looked over at his brother, and Dean's grin made me suddenly worried.

"You know, maybe you're right...I think it's a good idea to knock me out now." Sam retrieved a small vial of morphine that had included in his bag of tools, and Sam injected the entire thing into the IV drip bag he'd already attached to my arm. "I won't OD, will I?"

"It'll disperse through the bag and go into your veins a little at a time...Feeling tired yet?" I nodded, already feeling the effects of the drug. My eyes felt heavy and I blinked several times.

"Okay, so I'm high...and about to fall asleep. Let's all pray I wake back up, okay?" Sam chuckled, and as I heard footsteps I turned to see Castiel come up beside me. He held my hand right there in front of Sam and Dean, and I said "You're being awfully bold..."

"If you don't wake up, then this is my last chance to be." He bent down and kissed me, and in my off-kilter state of mind, I giggled hysterically.

The morphine took the rest of the way over though and I dozed off, everyone's voices quieting until everything was silent.

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(Third Person PointOfView)

As soon as Devin was out, Dean stepped up and loudly asked Castiel "What the hêll was that? Cas!"

"In the process of Devin teaching me to be more human...we have developed an intimate relationship. I would not expect you to understand." Dean was flabbergasted.

"Wouldn't expect it? Well of course not! How long has this been going on?!"

"Dean, calm down." Dean's angry gaze shifted to his brother. "This is no reason to get pissed. They can do what they want."

"The hêll they can! Did you know about this?" When Sam nodded, Dean nearly exploded. "I can't believe it...I thought we agreed to trust each other more? To tell each other things? To not keep secrets?"

"That was about us. This has nothing to do with us." Dean was barely listening to his brother, and stormed out of the room in anger. Sam sighed and told Castiel "This might not've been the best time to let him know about that."

"It was not for your brother's benefit. If this might truly be the end for Devin, then I won't hold back because your brother won't like it."

Sam shrugged and proceeded to continue with the ramshackle surgery.

Cutting into Devin's flesh made him extremely uncomfortable, but he knew he had to do it. What was even worse was taking a pair of Kelly Forceps and having to dig out the Leviathan teeth one by one. Sam was not the only one that couldn't handle it.

Castiel left the room and followed after Dean, to find him drinking in the other room. Castiel sat and wrung his hands tightly together, and upon looking at Dean's face, knew Dean wanted to say something.

"Dean...I know you wish to speak about what you have seen, so please, speak."

"Nice of you to ask me this time. Why in God's name didn't you tell me about you and Devin? Why didn't you at least ask me first?!"

"I am sorry if you have taken offense Dean, but I was unaware that I required your permission." Dean was silent, knowing Castiel was right about that part. "You are aware that Devin and I met in Purgatory, where she not only provided me shelter from monsters, but she was the one that brought me through the portal to this world."

"Okay?"

"Since then, Devin has spent much time teaching me to be more human, so that I may be of more help to you and Sam during our hunts. In my ensuing emotional chaos...I was supported greatly be Devin."

"So you fell for this chick because she helped you? You still could've told me!"

"I am sorry...Devin informed Sam the night we made love, and I simply assumed that he would tell you." At that, Dean's eyes widened and he was truly surprised. the look of shock was soon replaced with a smile though, much to Castiel's confusion.

"Way to go Cas!" Dean patted Castiel's shoulder and Castiel was still confused.

"But...just a second ago, you were angry. Now you are happy?"

"Hêll yeah, I'm happy! My best friend finally lost his virginity!" Dean patted his back again and Castiel finally understood. "So, how's it feel to be able to call yourself a man now?"

Castiel didn't understand the humor, but he didn't have much time to react anyway. There was a flash of light and a crash in the other room, and both Castiel and Dean ran in to investigate.

They found the metal table overturned and Sam lying on the floor across the room, and Devin was nowhere to be seen. Dean helped Sam up and Castiel called out Devin's name, to no avail.

Castiel rushed to Sam just as Dean asked him "Sam, what happened? Where's Devin?"

"I don't know...I was picking out the last of those Leviathan teeth and suddenly there was a really bright light, and it was like an explosion...She was just gone." He reached up and touched his head, and also said "And my head hurts."

Dean motioned to Castiel and said "Cas, you heal Sam, I'm gonna...go make a call or something." Castiel instantly healed Sam and went past Dean back to the other room. Dean followed and asked "What are you doing?"

"You won't know how to find Devin. She's turned into an angel now, and she's no longer here."

"How do you know?!" Castiel was looking up at the ceiling and said "They know she's alive, don't they? The other angels?"

"They can tell that there's a new angel, but they don't know where from...I have to find her before the other angels do, or they will quickly find out that Lucifer is her father, and will try to kill her."

"How will you find her?"

"Devin should have a certain energy signature, one that only us angels can detect...I have not been using my power lately, in case this was to happen. I will be back as soon as I can." Castiel suddenly disappeared, and Dean was left with a hundred different questions.

Sam entered the room and Dean said "He poofed out to go see if he could detect Devin's angel mojo, because apparently the other angels know she's alive now that she has powers."

"Well, if anyone can find her, it's Castiel. There's not much we can do about it Dean." Dean grumbled, knowing his brother was right.

But he also knew that they needed to find Devin before the other angels did.

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(Devin's PointOfView)

As soon as I opened my eyes and saw a wall of fire before me, I knew I was in Lucifer's Cage again. Sure enough, when I turned around, Lucifer and Michael were right there beside me.

"Why am I here again?!" Lucifer looked at me questioningly.

"You don't know? Sam removed all those little Leviathan teeth and you got your powers back. What a surprise it was that the first place you teleported was down here with me." I stepped back against the burning wall of fire.

"You mean...I'm not just here in a dream, like the last time? I'm actually here?"

"Yup. You're here in my cage, body and soul. Though, as a God, I'm not sure if you even have a soul..."

A God? "Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait...Okay, you shut up, because I don't want to talk to you." Lucifer looked amused at that. "Michael, if you would be so kind as to translate, what in the hêll is he talking about?!"

Michael stepped forward and said "You have much more power than either I or my brother have, and that is why you were able to transport so easily in here with us. The only creatures with enough power to accomplish that are ones such as our Father and Death."

Lucifer interrupted him and said "When you leave, do tell Death I said hello." I was aware of how Lucifer had bound Death with a spell before, and knew he just wanted to make trouble.

"I'll pass the message along, but only if you tell me how I'm a god. I thought I was half angel."

"You are. But like a Cambion, your human half means you don't have any rules or restrictions on your powers, and so they far exceed that of what you should have. Perhaps if Jesse Turner had been born to a more powerful demon, he could've become a god like you."

Crazily, what Lucifer and Michael were saying was actually making sense...But me? A God? Seriously!?

"You know what...I'm not sure I want to believe what you're saying."

"What, can't you trust you own father?" I flinched and Lucifer cackled. "When you leave, summon Death. He is much better at explaining these things than I am, and he doesn't have a personal stake in the situation. Oh, and maybe you can even ask him where our dear old Father has been lurking!"

I didn't know how I knew, but I knew that I had to focus on a particular place to teleport there. I did, I found myself back at the convent where this whole things started.

"Now how am I supposed to summon Death..?"

"You called?" I spun to see a thin, gaunt man leaning against the broken altar that had allowed me to be possessed by Lucifer. "Devin Blair, correct?" He spoke with a slow, indifferent tone that both annoyed and interested me at the same time.

"Are you Death? I thought I was supposed to summon you?"

"Well, for a true God, you simply need to call upon me for me to hear. I don't have to respond, of course, but I thought it would be interesting to meet you."

"Interesting? How?"

"Much like God, I have a near-unlimited view of the universe. I happen to know the angels are searching for you at this very moment, and they will most likely capture and torture you when they find you. They are not very welcoming to newcomers, especially one that would happen to be Lucifer's spawn."

"How do you know that?" He chuckled and stood.

"Child, I know more than you can imagine. I can...smell that frustrated little toddler in your blood. How exactly you came to be has eluded me, though."

"Lucifer did want me to relay a message to you, if you're willing to hear it." Now he actually looked a bit interested. "Besides a few niceties, I'm supposed to ask you if you know where God is at."

"Concerning him...I don't know where he is."

"What?!" I tore at my hair and almost screamed. "I was created by accident and right before I was supposed to get my powers I got shipped off to Purgatory...I know that isn't a coincidence, and I know God is the only one that can help me right now."

"Well, sorry to have to tell you, but it isn't God's time to go, so I have no need to find him. I suggest you take control of your rightful subjects and find out for yourself who tried to get rid of you." I looked at Death questioningly. "Come now, you can't be that dense, can you?"

Trying not to get angry, I slowly said "I spent the first 21 years of my life thinking I was a human, and the next 20 in Purgatory. Forgive me if I'm not exactly in the right mindset right now to understand what you're trying to say."

"Well, I don't usually offer advice...But it might be a hindrance to me if you would lose control of yourself...You are the daughter of Lucifer, albeit with a power level equal to myself, and one might say you have certain duties to fulfill. Lucifer was the ruler of Hêll, and it is only natural that you would become the new Queen of Hêll."

Me? Queen of Hêll? The God thing was hard enough to believe...

"Okay, I'll believe that, but only because I'm Lucifer's daughter...but how do I take control of his legions of demons?"

"Well, the easiest way would be to seize control form the current King of Hêll, Crowley. If you wouldn't mind dispatching him when you find him, I would be very grateful. He attempted to help the Winchesters bind me and I've had a...difficult time locating him."

"That doesn't sound too awful...But if I take control of Hêll, then what do I do about Heaven? I'm...I came from an angel, so I should be up there."

"Then be there. Take control of Heaven as well. Those angels have been too pompous about their existence for far too long...It's about time they were put in their place. Do that, and I will be impressed."

Death suddenly disappeared and I found myself alone again, with a great many questions still rumbling around in my head.

A God! I was an actual God! Death was one of the oldest creatures in the Universe and probably the most powerful, so I knew he had no reason to lie to me. Lucifer sure did, but I believed Death.

I looked down at the tattered remains of my pants and realized I didn't have a shirt on. I then remembered how Castiel had made clothes appear on me before, and decided to try it for myself.

With a snap of my fingers, I created a whole new outfit perfectly tailored to how I wanted it. Gold angel wing earrings and a matching ring on my right hand, a diamond cross hung around my neck, gold strappy heels, and a one-shoulder white dress with gold accents.

I had no idea what angels wore, if they even wore anything, so I just went with a stereotypical white-and-gold look. But I liked it.

Next, I used my new found powers to look back at my parents' safe house, where they had joined Dean, Sam, and Castiel. Good. I didn't need one of them accidentally walking in on what I was about to do.

I thought about the safe house and was transported there, but before anyone could really move, I snapped my fingers and they all froze. Susan and James were looking over the broken remains of the table I was strapped to, and Sam and Dean looked to be conversing heatedly. Castiel just stood out of the way looking severely dejected, and I had to turn away from him.

I went to Sam and touched his shoulder, and he unfroze.

"Dean, you..! What the..?" Sam spun around, looking confused. When he turned to me, he lost it. "Devin! Where were you?! You blew me halfway to Hêll and just disappeared..! And what are you wearing?"

That last question was so out of context that I almost burst into laughter.

"Sam...I'm gonna tell you everything I know about myself, and I want you to tell it to everyone else, okay?"

"Why not just appear and tell us yourself? You know, Cas went and searched the entire dâmn county and couldn't find a single thing."

"I know...That's because I wasn't on Earth. I was in Lucifer's Cage." Sam's eyes widened. "I also went there before in my dreams, when I was unconscious at that hotel in Arlington. That's how I know what I know, but right before I came here, I also talked to Death."

"Okay...I'm not gonna bother asking how...but what do you know?"

I recited to Sam everything that Michael, Lucifer, and Death told me, including the parts about taking over Heaven and Hêll. He seemed genuinely surprised at everything, but more understanding when I reminded him about Jesse Turner.

"Taking control of Heaven or Hêll...Neither is gonna be easy, you know."

"I know...It might help if I actually knew what Crowley looks like." Sam chuckled and pulled out his phone, and showed me a picture that I couldn't help but chuckle at. "I'm gonna assume it's the shorter British-looking one."

"Yeah, that's Crowley. He took this when he made a deal with our friend Bobby, just to taunt us. How are you gonna find him?"

"I'm a God now, remember?"

I turned to go and Sam said "You're gonna be gone for who-knows how long, and you're not gonna say goodbye to any of them?"

I stopped in my tracks and said "That...is a good idea." I touched Sam and he froze again, and I went over to where Castiel stood.

His blue eyes seemed to be focused on nothing at all, and they were filled with nothing but the same sadness and pain that was plastered on his angelic face.

"I'm so sorry Castiel..." I stroked the side of his face, but was careful not to unfreeze him. I just spoke into his ear so that he would hear what I was saying, but would be unable to respond. I don't think I could leave if he begged me to stay. "I have to leave Castiel...I'm going to kill Crowley and take control of Hêll, and then I'm going after Heaven next. Don't try to find me, because I don't want you to get hurt. I want you to leave me alone while I do what needs to be done."

Several tears fell from my eyes and I forced back a sob. I needed to do this.

"My time with you was the best time of my life, and I can't think of a way to thank you for saving my life, so I'll just start by saying goodbye. Please, please understand that you can't see me again, for your own safety." I kissed him gently. "I'm sorry Castiel..." I kissed him again and took my hands off him.

I snapped my fingers and everyone unfroze. Castiel said "Devin..?"

But I disappeared. I teleported far away from them all, but as I left, I could hear the faint echo of Castiel screaming "Devin..!"