2/15/2011
Dear Diary
My brother has been having a hard time. Three of his friends have died, he dropped school twice, and his girlfriend has dumped him for the third time. Tobi hasn't shown up at all. I hope I didn't scare him off.
School has been getting harder. I've been waking up late almost everyday, and feeling tired and weak all the time. I keep spacing out in class, barely pulling myself together.
I'm thinking about killing myself. I know, it's stupid and selfish, but I don't deserve this. I can't live up to everyone's expectations no matter how hard I try. I just want it to end, to stop the constant pain. Is that so much to ask for? I don't think so.
