I am so sorry it took so long to get this up. School is killing me. I have finals right now, so the last week or so the teachers have been cramming us with stuff, and then i had to study. So i made this chapter long. My summer vacation will start soon, and when it dose i can hopefully write more, but no promises, my summer schedule is vary full. I have gotten a beta, but i wanted this chapter up as fast as possible, so she didn't read it yet. So if you find a few errors, then im sorry. I will have the mistakes changed when i post the next chapter.

Disclaimer: I don't Twilight or any of its character.


Bella P.O.V.

We ran at our inhuman speed through the forest, and oddly I was quite enjoying it. The speed, the trees rushing by me, the wind in my hair. It was a wonderful feeling, and feeling of freedom.

Other then my speed I noticed all my senses had heightened. I could smell things that were what seemed like miles away. The entire world looked different thought my eyes. Everything was so detailed and all the colors more elaborate. My hearing was also exceptional. I could hear everything happening around me, every little animal moving, every little sound that was made in the forest.

As I was running I could also feel all my muscles in my body. It was amazing how strong I felt! It was all so amazing, like I was reborn into some super human, which in a way I was, except I was no longer human but a vampire.

I let the words play through my mind and a slowly whispered them to myself. Oh how good that sounded. Me! A vampire! I was no longer the girl that always needed to be saved, I could now protect myself. And then it popped into my mind, since I was a vampire I had all eternity to live! With Edward! Now that sounded good.

Suddenly a delicious smell swept through the air. I stopped instantly and sniffed the air. I had never smelled anything like it. Venom slowly started forming in my mouth making the burning sensation in the back of my throat even stronger. I looked over at Edward and he gave me a nod.

I bent down in a positing, ready to attack, and waited until I heard the animal coming closer. I leaped forward and ran at full speed and attacked the unexpected animal. I didn't even have time to look at what it was before I had sunk my fangs into it and the sweet blood was flowing into my mouth. I moaned. This was better then any human food I had ever tasted.

I sucked the animal completely dry until I finally noticed what it was that I had attacked. A red fox was lying in front of me, its eye glazed over. I felt so sorry for it and wanted to cry because of what I had done.

I suddenly heard what sounded like someone laughing and looked over at Edward who was trying not to crack up. "What!" I exclaimed.

"You…you…" he tried saying in between his laughter "have blood dripping all the way down your chin."

I took my hand up to my chin, and when I took it away I noticed the red blood. I quickly licked it off my hand and then the made sure to get the rest of it was off my face before saying "that cant be all you are laughing at." I said while noting he was still cracking up.

"I think we found your favorite animal. There were at least ten other animals that were closer, but you choose that" He said pointing to the fox. He walked over to me and sat down next to me then moving me onto his lap.

"But I guess you in a way match, a fox is mysterious, beautiful, and graceful, well you weren't vary graceful as a human" he said chuckling "but now you are" He said giving me a kiss on my neck under my ear, sending shutters down my back. "And you should have seen yourself when you attacked, you looked exactly like one."

The entire time I hand been looking up at his face, but now I looked back down at the fox and felt sad for it. It was amazing how quickly life could end. "Edward, I feel sorry for it, isn't there anything we could do for it." I looked up at him with pleading eyes.

"You will get used to it. Of course we all feel sorry for them but isn't it the same as an human eating a steak?"

"Yes, but still. Couldn't we like…" I paused to think how I could in a way pay my respects for this animal "like bury it?"

Edward groaned "if we do that every time it will take forever to go hunting."

"Please, just this one and then we wont have to do it again." I asked turning the power of my pleading eyes on him.

"Fine" he sighted and within seconds had dug a hole and laid it in there, and then had it covered again. "You happy?" He asked rolling his eyes.

"Vary" I said giving him a kiss on the lips. "Now was that so bad?"

"No" he said smiling. Then he paused and suddenly there was a flash of pain in his eyes that I didn't understand. I looked up at him confused, but he just shook his head. "I think it's about to get home now, Carlisle wants us to have a meeting about what we will do now that you are changed." I nodded and we started our run home.

On the way home we stopped a couple of times to feed again.

Before we would have the meeting I went up and took a shower, just to make sure that I didn't have anymore blood on me. Before stepping into the steaming hot shower I noticed my jeans and shirt had blood all over them. I made a mental to wear old cloths when going hunting, or try to control myself.

The shower felt so good on my cold stiff muscles. What I had expected to only take a minute or two turned out to be thirty. When I finally stepped out felling squeaky clean I dried my hair and then walked into Edwards and my bedroom to find a set of cloths laying on the sofa. I sighted to myself and made another mental not to thank Alice.

After putting on my new skinny jeans and a simple v-neck t-shirt that fit snug on my body I stepped out of the room and walked downstairs to the living room where the rest of the family was waiting. I walked over to the couch and sat next to Edward.

After waiting for family to settle down before we started the meeting. Carlisle started off with explaining everything about us vampires, event hough I already knew everything he told me.

While he was talking Emmett was playing some game that he seemed to just have made up with Jasper, Rosalie was twirling her pretty hair, and Alice was spacing out properly lost in her own thoughts. The only people who were really paying attention were Edward, Esme, and I.

When Carlisle was done he asked me if I had any questions. I though of all the things he had told me, about the Volturi, our sparkling skin, eating habits, and controlling ourselves in front of humans. Lastly he had ended with special powers. We had talked about what might be mine, trying to find my strengths as a human, but found nothing really special, which in a way made me sad thinking that I might not have a special power like my dear Edward and some of my other family members.

Suddenly a though hit me, why was I changed so suddenly? Edward had always refused but now, suddenly he decides to do so. When I had awoken form the transformation Edward had said he had saved me. But form what?

"I got one question…" I hesitated, thinking if I was sure I wanted to ask this. Yes, I wanted to know. "What happened? I mean why was I changed all of a sudden." I quickly realized that it could sound like I didn't want this "not that I dont want it, its what I wished for, but…"

I had noticed a changed in the mood of the room. Everyone had been happy that I had been changed and where all exited, but now no one would look at me. The all looked either down at their hands, or just at some other place in the room, anywhere then at me.

Carlisle and Edward where sharing one of those looks that meant they were having a conversation they didn't want anyone to hear.

Edwards hand squeezed mine hand tighter and then he started to talk "Bella you had an accident" he said hesitating. You had gone out for dinner with Charlie, and then on your way home someone blocked the road. He told you to get out... at gunpoint. Both you and your father ended up being shot." He looked away. It seemed vary hard for him to talk about this. "Alice had a vision, but we weren't there in time to stop you from getting shot, so the only way of saving you was to change you."

The room was completely quiet. Now everyone was looking at me to see my reaction.

I felt numb. No emotions at all. Suddenly it darted on me, Edward had never told me what had happened to Charlie.

"Wha…what happened to Charlie?" If I had though everyone was trying to avoid my eyes before, then now it was a lot worst. The room had become completely tense.

"Bella… we weren't… we… couldn't save him" Edward hand was grabbing mine tight now.

"Excuse me, I think I heard wrong." Edward looked pained by me asking him to repeat what he had just said.

"We didn't make it in time" he said looking away form my face.

Slowly I started to realize what those words meant. A feeling of a cold knife running down my back spread through my body. Pure shock spread on my face. A million thoughts raced through my head, and yet I was speechless.

As the realization continued to sink in the feeling of the cold knife started to disappear and be replaced my anger. Was this some sick joke? Was he going to pop out of nowhere and surprise me? This was so not funny.

Edward seemed to be able to read my expression "Bella?" he asked carefully.

I looked at his face, it was to serious for this to be a joke. No. I thought. No no no no no, the words of the conversations began to repeat over and over in my head. No! This could not have happened! "NO" I screamed getting off of the couch and making Edward let go of my hand. I backed away slowly while repeating the word 'no' over and over again.

Edward got up of the couch and slowly took a step towards me. Everyone was standing now, but he was the only one that dared to come closer to me. "Bella please listen" he whispered taking another step towards me.

"Don't come near me" I screamed. My voice was different, but at the moment I didn't care. I looked at Edward and saw he wasn't moving. The entire family was staring at me in shock.

I bolted through the door not even bothering to open it. This was some joke, I repeated over and over in my head. I would run home and find Charlie sitting and watching baseball.

Within a minute or two I was home. Charlie's car wasn't there, but I went over to the house anyways. Maybe his car broke and it was getting repaired now? I walked over to the door and slowly turned the handle, the door was unlocked. I entered the house. It was quiet. No TV on or any noise at all. I walked into the living room still to check; maybe he just had the TVon mute? When I saw he wasn't there I ran through the house and looked through any place a human could possibly hide.

He wasn't there! I looked at the clock. Maybe he was at work? I raced out of the door, slamming it behind me. I ran even faster, if possible, to his work. No one was there, but I still raced through the building he worked in. He wasn't anywhere to be seen.

I left and ran all over town; he still wasn't anywhere to be seen. This couldn't be true. He was still alive, but just hiding somewhere. There is no way this could happen. I passed a graveyard in town and saw a new grave. Something made me stop and look at the name that was writing on the stone next to the grave. No. There had to be someone else with the name Charlie Swan. I looked at the date and saw it matched to exactly three days ago. No, why did this have to happen?

I continued to stare at the name. Somehow I had gotten to my knees in front of the grave. I heard a sound that I didn't understand, and the world seemed to be shaking. After a while I realized it was me that was making that sound, and I was the one shaking because of the dry sobs that were running through me. Something wet ran down my cheek. It wouldn't be tears. I brought my hand up to my cheek and saw a wear droplet. I then looked up into the sky and saw a flash. It was starting to rain and thunder.

I count cry, so the sky was crying for me.

I sat there for hours, just sobbing, and getting soaked. Suddenly I heard a soft whisper behind me "Bella?" I looked around and saw Edward standing in the rain. His eyes were sad and where carefully searching my face for permission to come over to me. He took my silence as a yes.

Next thing I knew I was sitting in Edwards lap on the ground, next to my fathers grave. He continued to sit there for another few hours, not saying a word.

"Edward" I whispered. "Let's go home" I said giving him a small smile. I have finally accepted what had happened. I wasn't happy that it happened, but I had excepted it.


Again, I am so sorry that it took so long to get this posted. Hope you enjoyed it. Please review.