A/N: Just to let you guys know, the titles to these chapters actually from lyrics to the Coheed and Cambria song Wake Up. It's one of my favorites off their third album.

Wake Up

Seven: I've Earned Through Hope and Faith

Wade knew that he was, in a sense, truly and utterly pathetic. But it wasn't a bad, mocking pathetic; it was a good pathetic.

When he first laid eyes on John, he knew that there could be no one else for him. It was love at first sight – something he didn't believe in – and it hit him hard, like a punch to the face. At first, he tried to deny it; after all, his career was just beginning and, although Chris introduced, they really didn't talk that much or know each other that well. But that didn't matter. Eventually, he admitted his feelings to himself and then to Justin, who had helped him a lot with his sexuality and his feelings.

After he had admitted to his feelings and was no longer embarrassed or ashamed of them, he decided that, one way or another, he'd be with John. Which is why he was so adamant with Creative about giving him the leadership position in the Nexus. That really was the only reason he wanted to be in it. Creative had it already written in the story line to make John a member and then 'fire' him and Wade made damn sure that he got in and got his chance.

And, sure enough, his efforts paid off. As the Nexus started terrorizing everyone in the storyline, Wade and John were forced to work with each other a lot more. Slowly, they got to know each other and Wade thought that perhaps his feelings weren't all that one-sided. Hell, even Justin and Heath noticed that John was being just as flirtatious and nice as Wade was and they were the ones that, literally, shoved Wade into John one day. The result of that shove was two body smashed together, falling down in the hallway, and lips locking for a few split seconds.

John was bright red by the time Wade had helped him up and the Brit wasn't all that calm either. Before Wade, or John, could yell at Justin or Heath, the two had run off, giggling like maniacs the entire way. When John asked what the heck all that was about, Wade discovered that he couldn't lie to the man. Looking into those gorgeous, bright blue eyes, he told the older man everything.

He waited for yelling, for snide remarks, for disgust, for anything of that nature, but it never came. Instead, what he got was a light, loving laugh and a pair of strong arms enveloping him in a hug. For a second, he was too shocked to do or say anything. And then, he pressed John closer to him and pressed a hard kiss to those delicious lips of his.

That had been four years ago, and they were still going strong and true, even through all of their fights and fits of jealous rage. So yeah, Wade was completely pathetic, but he didn't care as long as he had John by his side.