Hello. So here is Chapter Six. Its been so long I know and I'm so very sorry. Just been kind of busy. Also had a lot of writers block. Anyway hope you enjoy! Tell me you thoughts.


462 HE – 29th May

The sun was shining and the sky was clear and yet I was inside hiding from it all. Everyone else was outside enjoying the good weather but I remained indoors. I was afraid that if I saw someone or spoke to someone something would snap and they would find out the truth.

The scary thing was that this is what Max was getting at. He knows me better than I know myself. I was losing my grip on myself and who I was in life. Why did this have to happen now when I had everything going for me? Had the Gods finally realised that I had escaped punishment for who I was all those year ago? I paused in my thinking. That was it. Who I was 15 years ago is not that same person I am today. I'm not the same person, I can't be. I got up from my bed and started pacing around my room. I couldn't be the same person; I hadn't killed an innocent in years. I killed only to protect others who could not protect themselves and save my country but I am not a killer. I'm not… I'm not… I'm not… Looking out the window I saw my squad fooling around in the sun. This is who I am. Here and now, those are the people who I love and care for and love and care for me in return.

I froze suddenly and sat back down on my bed hard. It sounds crap but it felt as though I had a battle inside of me. I knew the people outside loved me and I love them but there was a part of me that knew that love would turn to hate the moment the found who I really was.

Knock knock. My head whipped around to the door my hands instinctively moving towards my weapons.

"Dom, I know you're in there. Let me in please." I relaxed a little, it was only Kel. I was so jumpy these days it was stupid yet I couldn't shake the feeling that they were going to come for me one day and I hadn't decided what I would do if that happened. Would I fight? Or just let them take me?

"Open up Dom, or I'll break the door down. You know I will." She was pounding on my door now which was really annoying.

I didn't know if I was ready to talk to Kel, I'd been trying to avoid her for a week but I did know that she would break down my door and I really didn't want to get another not after last time. Sighing I heaved myself off my bed and opened my door. Kel was opening her mouth to shout again when I opened the door. She looked slightly surprised then smiled at me. I tried to smile back but it seemed all wrong because Kel looked worried.

"Are you alright Dom?"

I nodded. "I'm fine Kel."

"Don't do this to me Dom, please."

I feigned ignorance. "Do what Kel?" I stepped aside allowing her to enter. She seemed hesitant but moved inwards. I closed the door. I realised this was a stupid move, I didn't want to talk to Kel and leaving the door open meant that people would be able to walk by and see us. Now we were alone and I was afraid I'd do something wrong and she would find out everything.

Kel stood facing me her arms crossed in front of her. "Don't pretend you don't know. You're shutting me out. You always do this. You shut me out and I can't get in."

I stayed by the door staring at the floor saying nothing. She was right, I did shut her out but I couldn't let her in because I was scared I'd say something I'd regret.

She moved forwards to me placing her hands under my chin and making me look up. I felt like I was a child again and been caught doing something wrong by my parents, trying to hide my shame by not looking at them. Kel searched my face as she looked at me trying to figure out what was going on inside my head.

"Tell me whats wrong Dom. Please I want to help."

I was silent for a moment and I could tell she saw the argument going on inside my head. I could tell her part of the truth, open the door but not let her in. I could do that and that would be safe. I could do any harm by warning her against him. I'd leave out the whole truth but I'd make my point clear.

Still silent I took Kel's hand and led her over to my bed. We sat down facing each other. It seemed to me that Kel didn't want to be distracted from what I was about to say.

I took a deep breath. "I'm sorry Kel, I've been avoiding you. I shouldn't have I know but I was afraid of what you heard from him."

Kel looked confused. "Him? Do you mean Max?"

"Yes. Max. He sometimes says things that aren't quite true and it can hurt people." To me this sounded like a crap lie but I had no idea what Kel thought of it.

Kel shifted closer to me on the bed and looked at me sympathetically. "Is that what happened when you left Max? He said you drifted apart but was there more to that?"

So that was the story Max had told Kel. Fine I could stick to that. It was mostly true.

"Yeah, something like that."

"Tell me please."

"He wanted one thing, I wanted another. What he wanted though was something you couldn't get on the right side of the law. He needed my help to get it and I said no and so we parted. I haven't seen or heard from him since and I really don't know why he has come back to ruin my life now."

"You could go to the court against him, that would put him in is place."

I gave a half-laugh at the thought of Max locked behind bars, they wouldn't be able to keep him one night. "No that wouldn't work. I'm not exactly blameless on all accounts I hope you know that Kel. When you live as I have, the Law doesn't really help much and sometimes you've got to cross it." It was half the truth. More than half really, I hardly lived by the law before I came to Corus but she needn't know the full extent of my law breaking.

Kel just smiled at me. "I know its tough but you have repaid your debt with the work you do in the Own, besides I know you Dom, you wouldn't do anything to hurt anyone else intentionally."

That stung. Kel's words hurt a lot. She didn't know me at all but whose fault was that? She wasn't too blame for not knowing. It took most of my control not to let anything slip.

"I know. But I want to make it up to you Kel. My behaviour this past week has been atrocious and you don't deserve it. I want to take you out to dinner sometime, like we used to. Just the two of us, no Max, no call outs nothing. Just you and me so I can show you how much you mean to me."

Kel smiled again more broadly this time. "I'd love that Dom. You know you can talk to me about anything. I'm always here to listen if you want to talk."

I nodded. "I know you are Kel. I honestly don't know what I've done to deserve you."

Kel grinned at me. "I'm your knight in shining armour."

"You are indeed. Just promise me one thing please."

Kel was still smiling like she was playing a game. She really had to see this wasn't a game at all. "Maybe…"She teased. I shifted around so I was looking straight at her.

"Please Kel, stay away from Max. that all I ask, just stay away from Max."

She still wasn't taking it seriously enough for me. "I can take care of myse-"

"I know you can." I interrupted her. It was rude I know but I had to make her see how much this meant to me. "Believe me Kel I know you can take care of yourself but Max just makes things a whole lot more personal and if anything happened to you I don't know what I would do. He's not your usual bad guy."

She started looking more serious when she realised I wasn't joking around. "I know but…"

"Please Kel for once let me look after you. Stay away from Max, that's all I ask and you can still be my knight in shining armour. Max is more dangerous than your average guy because he knows me and knows what will hurt me the most. Just promise me Kel, its all I ask."

She gripped my hands and looked at me, no longer joking at all. "Alright Dom, if it means that much to you, I will stay away from Max." I breathed a sigh of relief. I didn't realise how much her promise meant to me. "But one day you will have to tell me what really happened between you two."

I grinned and gave Kel a kiss. "I know and one day I will I promise. Now shall we see where Sir Meathead has got to? I'm sure Yuki could use some time to herself at the moment." I dragged Kel off the bed and we set off towards Neal's room.

"I know! Neal has some issue dealing with the fact that his wife doesn't need him hovering around her just because she's pregnant."

"Well maybe you can take him out for a joust. Knock some sense into him or something." I was glad the conversation was over for now. I knew I wasn't free from it forever, not yet anyway but until Max left I had to on guard or things could get ugly very quickly.


So there you have it. Chapter six. What did you think? Like it? Hate it? Please let me know. I haven't written in ages and I feel like I'm starting all over again. Hopefully things will heat up soon in the story. Its what I'm planning on doing. Any ideas please let me know.

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