Yay im finally going to update the story. Thanks for all the riviews you just raised my self esteem lol. Well anyway since nobody guessed the song I'll have to dedicate this chapter to everybody who tried. Thanks BellaxDemetri and and this chapter is for you. The song is I caught myself by Paramore. I think its nice to put a song from the twilight soundtrack in it and its also one of my first song requests. Don't forget to review please. Reviews = happy author.

Disclaimer: Yea, yea i dont own twilight, the characters, nor the songs yada, yada, yada.....

(B PoV)

Demetri left me at my changing room to change while he went to his to do the same. It took me about 2 minutes to change. I put on some dark skinny jeans and a black skin tight dress shirt with a red tie on. Then i went to my make up kit and applied some more of my lipstick. Damn I looked hot. I laughed at myself for actually thinking that. Never in my life would I imagine to think that about myself. I grabbed my favorite black and red converse(on my profile next to my playlist) put them on quickly and went to go get my guitar and meet up with the rest of the group.

Just as I left out of my room Jane walked up to me with MJ attached to her hip.

"Hey Izzy MJ was looking for you" said Jane handing her over to me while she took my guitar. "I'll take this for you and meet you back on stage, by the way damn girl you look good" she smiled before walking away. I laughed and whispered a small thank you knowing she'll here me.

"What's wrong baby" I asked Mary Jane giving her all my attention. Mary Jane looked up at me and place her chubby little hands on my face. She showed me when Edward grabbed my hand and spoke to me all the way until i left the Cullen's. She wondered who they were, if I was okay, and she showed me her dislike to Edward.

I hugged her tightly and before reassuring her that i was fine.

"Mommy is okay baby don't worry about her. And they are very important people to mommy." I whispered to her while she gave me a confused look tilting her head to the side a little bit. She was sooo adorable.

"I promise to introduce them to you after the concert okay but mommy has to go the show starts soon" Mary Jane gave a quick nod before she grabbed on to me tightly. I ran vampire speed back to a hall before the stage making sure no humans were around to see me. Giving Mary Jane a quick peck I handed her to Alec and made my way back on stage with the rest of the group. Demetri looked as hot as ever wearing the exact same close except in opposite colors. His shirt was red and he had a black tie on. Felix and Jane were wearing the same colors, Jane was in a black mini skirt with knee length boots and my same shirt and tie while Felix had on a black shirt with red pin stripes and no tie. Both guys had on black converse.

We walked out to hear the crowed roar with applause and cheers. I smiled and grabbed my guitar. Jane exchanged her keyboard for a guitar. I looked back and almost laughed. Jane's guitar was almost as big as her. She looked at me and rolled her eyes and started to tune her instrument. I looked at my men to see them ready and waiting.

I faced the audience again and said into the mic."Hey guys ready to restart the party"

After a few rounds of cheers I started the first round of chords for the song. Jane followed next then Demetri began to play as well as Felix.

Down to you
You're pushing and pulling me
Down to you
But I don't know what I

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that
I should have never thought

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that
I should have never thought

Of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me
Down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

I looked straight at Edward when I sang this part of the song. It's exactly how I felt when I looked at his eyes. I could never help but be dazzled by them and bend to his will. Actually I was never truly myself when I was together with Edward. I was always the Bella Edward wanted me to be.

You got it, You got it
Some kind of magic
Hypnotic, Hypnotic
You're leaving me breathless
I hate this, I hate this
You're not the one I believe in
When God is my witness

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that
I should have never thought

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that
I should have never thought

Of you, of you
You're pushing and pulling me
Down to you
But I don't know what I want
No, I don't know what I want

I looked at the audience and reached out to take the hands of some of the people in the front row and smiled. Then I looked at the Cullen's before I sang.

Don't know what I want
But I know it's not you
Keep pushing and pulling me down
When I know in my heart it's not you

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that
I should have never thought

Now when I caught myself
I had to stop myself
From saying something that
I should have never thought

Both Jane and Demetri walked next to me and we played together all the while I was looking at Edward hoping he understood the message I was trying to give him with this song. It looked like it did since I saw his face fall. Guilt washed over me but I'm not going to be as gullible ever again.

Of you, I knew
I know in my heart it's not you
I knew
But now I know what I want
I want
I want
Oh no, I should have never thought

(Ed PoV)

I knew this song was for me just by hearing the first few verses. It sounded like she was confused about my family and the Volturi but then again I guess not. She sure made her decision by the last verse.

How can I be so stupid. I lost the one that I love just to keep her human which apparently wasn't what she wanted. I broke her and left her. I'm so stupid and selfish. I really don't deserve someone like her. But god damn I want her. I will try my damn best to get her back. Even if I have to go against the Volturi and their guards.

Hey guys so what did you think about this chapter. Please review I would like to known what you're thinking about my story. And many thanks to the people who has reviewed so far and has added my story to their favs. I'm going to add a new songfic too. Be sure to check that out it again it's a twilight fanfic. I heard the song yesterday and got so many ideas on what to do with it. I'm going to make the characters all human so its a different story. I didn't want to add the song to this fic because it had nothing to do with my plot. Please go check it out and review.