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SMALL SPOILER-
"CAUTION"
A little fluff in this chapter so if you don't like fluff then you don't want to read this chapter.
Chapter 7- The state of bliss you think your dreamin….
Rin woke up with a yawn and a stretch before sitting up. Her bare feet met the cold mat that covered the dirt floor. These poor people were so nice, but many didn't have the luxury of a wooden floor like her lord and many like him. But they were still happy not having the riches and pretty things spoiled people and higher authority had. The little old woman and man had each other and for them that was more then enough, if it came down to it could lord Sesshomaru ever live with her like that? Could he ever love her enough to live like them? It didn't matter he was still her home and it was him and him alone she would follow. There came a startling knock at the door which jolted Rin from her thoughts for a moment. The door squealed open a peek.
"Here you go my lady," the old woman said sticking her arm through the door with Rin's Kimono.
"Why do you call me my lady? You've been so kind to me and shown so much hospitality without any expectations. I am no one of important, so please do not think of me as any more then you," Rin said taking her kimono from the old woman. The old woman smiled behind the door at her husband who was already smiling.
"I see a lot of potential in this one," she whispered to her husband, "well Rin get dressed and ready for breakfast. We must see you off for your long journey to the lord, we've heard news of his location."
"REALLY!?" Rin jumped up running to the door in her nightgown startling the old woman. The old woman jumped before Rin apologized and closed the door dressing herself appropriately.
Rin met them in them where they were eating. She sat down and took up a plate politely. They ate in silence for a moment. Rin knew it was rude to just start talking about things while they were eating their breakfast. She would be polite like her teachers back at the castle taught her. Once everyone was finished the old man looked at Rin.
"Are you sure you want to join your lord, for where he goes is in no way safe especially for a brave young human girl," the old man said his head bouncing from side to side as he talked.
"Wherever my lord is I belong," Rin said very seriously. The old man sighed and nodded.
"I figured that would be your answer. He has headed East maybe three or four days ride away non stop. But in order to catch up you must ride with no more then one nights worth of rest," the old man said to her seriously, "your in luck, your horse just so happens to be born of great endurance and long distance champion breeds."
"Thank you both for all your help but I must find him, if I must ride for a year straight to get to him then that is what I shall do," Rin said hugging them both, "you both have shown me such kindness I shall make sure the lord hears of this. Until I return good tidings and blessings."
"Good luck my child, stay safe," the old woman said handing her another pack of food. She smiled at them on her way out as she grabbed the horse that was already saddled and ready to go. She fastened her new bag on and placed her sword around her waist. The bow she fastened tightly to her back next to her quiver of arrows which were firmly strapped in. She climbed up unto the horse sinking in to the seat comfortably for a minute. Her lord would smell her scent once she neared him, besides she knew where her lord was going… she would at least meet him there.
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Sesshomaru sighed as he walked through the forest trying to keep himself undetected. He would fly but this was supposed to be a secret meeting between him and the lord of the eastern lands, so he could not be seen in the air where he was most expected. Why did he leave Rin? Now all he wanted to do was turn around, and because he couldn't he got angrier and more violent against poor Jaken who took the beatings faithfully. He knew his lord was miserable without Rin, but Rin was much safer back at the castle… wasn't she?
'I leave and she is always there when I return, she is what this Sesshomaru calls patient,' Sesshomaru thought to himself. He began to wonder what she was doing. He got the strangest feeling, he had this desire to stay in there camp for a day, "Jaken…"
"Yes milord," Jaken said stopping in his tracks. Sesshomaru did not turn to face Jaken like he would Rin.
"We are staying here for today. Rest, recuperate for we are almost there and we will engage in a restless battle. You will need your strength," Sesshomaru said turning to scout the area, 'as will I. That is if I am to keep my promise, and see my Rin again…"
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Rin stayed on the horse as he thundered through the forest dodging the roots, fallen trees, and stumps that made an obstacle course for the pair. Rin was slowly getting the hang of it, move with him. That's all she had to do was move with him. The horse was starting to break a little bit of a sweat, but he did not give out on her. All morning, day, and evening they rode until she could no longer see. She was weary and sore, and her horse was thirsty and tired. Rin guided him to a brook where he drank thirstily. Rin made him a bowl of grain and oats to eat before he moved to the patches of grass on the forest floor. She looked at her horse who stood guard by a tree. His ears moved forward and back making her laugh. He snorted before looking to her both ears moving forward. He just looked at her making her stop laughing.
"Sorry I didn't mean to laugh, honest," she giggled before the horse snorted and stomped a hoof. She stood up spooking him for a moment. She threw her hand up letting him no there would be no harm. She grabbed her spare blanket and tossed it onto his back, "it is a cold night and even you will get a cold. Get some rest."
Morning came and Rin jumped up realizing she slept in. If it wasn't for her horse nudging her she would have slept the morning away. She grabbed some bread and munched fast before packing up and climbing onto the gray stallion. The horse trotted off and then took off with a burst of speed shaking the earth with his mighty hooves. Rin hung on but paid close attention not wanting get hurt. Rin pulled back on the reins when she saw something large cross them far ahead. She looked behind them and sighed. The horse snorted a warning, but Rin didn't want to lose time. Maybe they could just go quietly and what ever it was wouldn't hear them. She let the horse walk cautiously its head hung low. Rin swallowed nervously gripping and arrow in her hand. She nearly flung off when her horse took off… something had jumped behind them. She screamed gripping the horses neck making him stop so she could climb back on properly. The stallion squealed as it felt Rin being pulled off. Something leapt grabbing her and pulling her down. She hit the floor with a thud.
The stallion began bucking and rearing as little creatures jumped all over him. Rin jumped up grabbing her sword and flinging it cutting through the horde of little demons looking for a meal out of her horse. The horse spun around gloriously as Rin chopped at the demons finally freeing her shaking horse. A large thumping noise came crashing through the large bushes.
"Flesh!" it gurgled pointing at them. Rin held up her sword in warning, "stand down girl I do not desire yours. It is that beast I wish to devour… you may leave with your life but leave the beast."
"Never!" Rin yelled jumping in front of the stallion who snorted in surprise. Rin held her sword up higher.
"Your sword cannot reach high enough to kill me," the demon laughed making Rin smile before dropping her sword, "do you surrender?"
"Nope," Rin said pulling out her bow and firing arrow after arrow quicker then he had expected. The beast fell back in surprise crying in pain before running away. Rin smiled before putting away her bow and picking up her sword. The horse looked at her before slowly walking to her lowering his head. Rin looked at him with a smile before petting his neck, "you alright?"
The horse threw his head up and down his dark gray and white mane flapping around making Rin laugh. Were all horses that cool and smart? Rin walked to him and climbed up and turned him back onto there path where they rode all day and half the night. They finally stopped for dinner and short nap. The horse stood watch as Rin laid trying to sleep. Rin tossed and turned as her dreams of silvery white hair and passionate golden eyes in fields.
--Dream--
Rin sat watching as her lord made his way through the fields of flowers. How did she get there? Her lord smiled at her as he took her in his arms. Rin smiled as she pulled away looking into his deep golden amber eyes, his hand found her cheek before kissing her. A wind blew entwining their hair as one. There was a beating against the earth, trees, and her heart that matched the dance of the dreamy wind. When she pulled away he backed away falling into a pit of dead bodies that laid around him. Rin stared nervously.
"Lord Sesshomaru!!!" Rin screamed running after him the sky filling with red like clouds releasing blood that covered him and her. Rin screamed as a pool of blood began to devour her youkai lord who stood there watching her. Rin cried screaming out…
-End of dream-
Rin was woken up by soft nudges from her horsey friend. Rin tried to hold back the tears she had already been crying. The horse looked at the poor girl concernedly before slowly getting onto his knees and laying down beside her. Rin looked at him with curiosity before laying down on him. It was a little comforting, she felt a little less alone at the moment. This horse was smarter then she had anticipated. Slowly she drifted off into a sleepless dream.
They woke up and ate, packed up and left. Rin was growing weary of travel the days were getting colder and Rin was missing them more and more. If it were not for her stallion she would lose it. Rin really missed lord Sesshomaru. She never felt this way before, this emptiness, like everything she does reminded her of him. Rin began to feel a little frantic and pushed her friend to move faster. They began to grow more as a team. They moved together, thought together, and worked together. They grew a bond together, something she began to rely on during that long and crucial travel. Rin had Sesken at a slow prance through the open field and entering a deep dark forest that gave poor Rin the creeps.
Rin jumped at a starting noise in the distance. The horse stayed calm trying to help her at ease through the dreadfully dark and eerie forest. Rin sniffled nervously before sitting up quickly. The horse snorted with all the confidence the world as he kept his balance. Rin heard something behind her making her look back and see a large shape come at her making her kick her horse. Sesken took off in a canter nearly falling into a tree. Rin didn't look behind her to see if it was near or far. Rin ducked as the horse pounded through the trees like a giant gray machine with a destination to important to miss… life.
Rin stopped by a large drop off looking back and swallowing as the horse trotted in place snorting nervously. Rin breathed nervously trying to stay calm as she looked to her side where someone in white stood watching her. Rin let out a breath as she saw the one she searched for. She pulled back on the reins to keep him still as Sesshomaru stood his eyes wide watching her. This time he thought her scent was still just a figment of her imagination. He took a step forward feeling his heart pound… was this real? And just like that she was gone. But… why did he hear her just scream. Something had knocked her and the horse over… her scent was still there, she was REALLY there.
"RIN!" Sesshomaru yelled running as Rin tumbled down the long hill squished between the earth and the heavy horse which crushed her. She screamed in pain as the horse tried to get her off of him. He managed to jump up in pain a moment tossing her off of him before falling back down. The creature on his back, Rin stopped rolling feeling broken for a moment and fell back. It took the scream of her struggling stallion to make her jump up. He was battling a large wolf like creature which moved it's attention to Rin. Rin closed her eyes defenseless as the beast jumped at her. A large whimper hit her instead of teeth and claws. She opened one eye then another… was it a swift death? No… lord Sesshomaru was battling the creature in it's full form. So ugly and disgusting it smelled as the bleeding horse trotted in front of her defensively. When Sesshomaru finished off the creature he walked over to Rin as the stallion defensively reared at him.
"No Sesken he's not our enemy," Rin said touching the horse making him snort but stand down. Rin looked at Sesshomaru as if it weren't possible, "is it really you?"
"Rin… why are you here?" Sesshomaru asked in a tone not knowing what else to say or do.
"There is nothing I could say to you, nothing I could ever do to make you see… what you mean to me. All the pain, the tears I cried still I never really thought you'd say good bye and now I really know how far you'd go. I know I let you down, but its not like that now… this time I will never let you go. I will be all that you want, and get myself together cause you keep me from falling apart. All my life I will be with you forever, to get you through the day… and make everything okay. I thought that I had everything, I didn't know what life could bring but now I see, honestly," Rin said looking up at him with giant wet brown eyes. He didn't know what to say or do… it was all too soon to fast. So she didn't wait for a response, "cause without you I can't sleep, I'm not going to ever let you leave. Your all I got, your all I want. And without you I don't know what to do, I couldn't ever, ever live a day with out you here with me, do you see? Your all I need."
"Rin," Sesshomaru said looking at her unsure what to say to her, 'this innocence is so brilliant, this moment is perfect… please don't go away, I need you now. I wouldn't change a thing about having her with me… it's the best feeling. So… wait… feeling? Sesshomaru does not have feelings. No… it's beautiful and natural. Do I have feelings?'
"Sesshomaru… are you not happy at all to see me?" she said sinking down sadly and terrified of his words.
"This moment is… please don't go away, Rin… I need you now," he said looking down at her with the same old stubborn expression, "you're the one thing I got right, the only thing I let inside, now I can breathe cause you're here with me again."
"Sesshomaru," she said with a smile as she threw her arms around him. This caught the youkai lord off guard his eyes going wide with the grip of her hug and the feelings in his body.
'What in the world?! Why… or what are these tingly feelings, these feelings of completeness and content?... It's the state of bliss you think your dreaming, it's the happiness your feeling inside you idiot…' he let out a breath before wrapping his arm around her making her smile as she buried her head in his chest. Happiness. That's what it was. That's what it felt like. Happiness. So a youkai can feel it after all… who said he had to admit it to the world?
"Sesshomaru did… you miss me at all?" Rin asked a dangerous question.
"I always needed time on my own Rin, I never thought I'd need you there by me… the days feel like years when I am alone without you by my side," Sesshomaru admitted after looking around to make sure no one was around, "I missed you."
"Lord Sesshomaru…" Rin said looking at him with sweet eyes, "when you walk away I count the steps you take do you see how much I need you. When your gone the pieces of my heart are missing you, when your gone the face I came to know is missing too… when your gone the words I need to hear, to always get me through the day, and make it okay… I miss you. I've never felt this way before everything I do reminded me of you. The clothes you left are still on my floor and they smell just like you, I love the things that you do. I'll give forever, and all I ever wanted was for you to know that everything I do I give my heart and soul. I could hardly breathe cause I needed to feel you there with me…"
"Rin enough, you know we can never…" before Sesshomaru could finish Rin interrupted.
"Please Sesshomaru I do not ask for you to feel the same, simply that you never leave without me again. I will not last if you ever do again," Rin said as he pulled away from her. He touched her face wanting so desperately to kiss her and take her as his… never. He turned to walk away.
"Sesshomaru!" Rin said frantically. Sesshomaru stopped not turning to face her, that way she would not see him smile.
"Forever," he said with kindness making her smile.
"Forever," Rin said softly finally feeling whole. It felt good, to finally be there… to finally be with him again. Her Sesshomaru… and his Rin.
Authors note- Well I hope you enjoyed my very rushed seventh chapter that I wanted a little fluff! They deserve it especially poor Rin, she needs to feel a little loved… and he needs confirmation on his feelings and hers. He's not alone… she's hurting inside to! SO what did YOU think? REVIEWS please… pretty please?
