A/N: Yay Chapter 5 sorry I haven't updated I have been grounded so this chapter is not going to be as long as my usual. Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight New moon or Eclipse just the few people I created

Chapter 5: Death or a New Life

B pov

"Bella," "Yeah" "I promise if will be there if he tries anything, I want you to call for me I will hear and come running. I won't let any of them hurt you again." He said and turned around to walk back to his couch all I could do was run to him and put my arms around him. "Thank you so much Edward you don't know how nice it feels to finally have someone who cares about you." I said sobbing and he turned around and put his arms around me. "It is all in the name of love my dear." He said kissing me on my forehead and I left to go back to the place where I would die. The ride there was silent I didn't want to leave the safety of Edwards arms but I knew I had to we had to make it seem like the abuse was to much and I killed myself by jumping off a cliff so my goal was to writ my note and hide it at the Cullen's where I would go every day after school for "physical therapy". "Ok Bella you know what you have to do if they try to hurt you Call for Edward if I know him he will be near by and be able to save you." He said and he sounded so sure I had to believe him. "Ok thank you, listen I am going to write the suicide not now and hide it at your house is there any way you can keep it there with out anyone knowing?" I asked and he smirked. "If by anyone you mean Edward then yes I can he will not know your plan to attempt suicide only Alice and I will know and we will be there to save you when you do." "Thank you so much Dr. Cullen." "Bella please I would like you to call me Carlisle if you are going to be part of my family." He said as I got out. "Ok thank you Carlisle, for everything." I said and walked up to my own personal hell.

Three weeks had past since I went back home and the abuse had only gotten worse. I had sat with the Cullen's everyday since we planned to change me and I planned to tell Carlisle I could wait until the end of the year today after school. "Bella, What are you thinking?" He asked me and snapped me out of my trance. "Oh just that I have to talk to Carlisle when I go to your house today after school." "Bella how bad is it? I know there is something you are not telling me." He asked and I just couldn't tell him what I was planning I had to lie. "It's getting worse I have to ask him if we can move up the date of the change." I said and he held me close. The rest of the day past slow Alex looked as if he was going to kill me if I actually went home which I didn't intend to do.

E pov

Bella had been acting strange all day and when we got home I went to talk to Esme about what I was planning to do for Bella and sitting on there bead was a not in Bella's hand writing. I picked it up and was horrified by what it said.

Dear Alex, Charlie, and Rene,

I know you probably don't care what I am going to say but today I am going to end my life. You have all helped on killing me and I am very sorry to leave you with that burden. I have nothing in this world I have no love I don't have any real friends. If I let you continue what you have been doing you will kill me. I am not being selfish I am saving my self from you.

-Bella-

She didn't feel she had love in this world she didn't feel, she had any true friends. Why was I bothering with anything about her? I put the letter down and went to my room.

B pov

"Thank you Carlisle so you will have someone bring my note to my house for me right?" "Yes Bella I will have Rose bring it over after Alice, you and I leave." "Ok I am going to go say by to Edward then I will meet you and Alice down stairs." I said as I walked down the hall to Edwards and my room. "Edward I'm leaving for a wile I will see you later goodbye." I said when I didn't see him right away. "Bella why did you tell me you would be my girlfriend when you don't feel you have love in this world?" He asked and I realized he was standing behind me. I had to do it I had to tell him. "Edward I wrote that note for my family. Carlisle and Alice are going to take me to get my stuff and then I am going to leave another note saying that I am going to drown myself but in reality Carlisle is going to take me out of the state so I can be changed." I said and he put his arms around my waist. "Edward what," "Bella please not now just run away we can move to another town another state. Just please don't damn your soul so soon please." He said and I just looked into his eyes and put my head on his chest inhaling his intoxicating smell and cherishing the moment. "I don't know how much longer I can last." I said finally breaking down into the much needed tears that had been waiting to come out since I met the Cullens.