WARNING!!!!: INSANELY GRAPHIC CHAPTER! DO NOT READ IF YOU HAVE A FAINT HEART, A WEAK STOMACH, OR DON'T LIKE SAD THINGS. But do read the authors note at the end!
*~*~*Embry's Point Of View*~*~*
Today had been a fairly interesting day. We had our first day of family therapy. Dr. Giggles was a clueless idiot who ignored the most obvious of shit going on around him. I don't know how they expect us to 'fix' anything when our therapist ignores everything.
I loved my family but going to therapy with them was torture. I didn't want to hear about their problems. They all had their soul mates and they had love. I had nothing. I couldn't have anything. I couldn't have that. I tried to stop phasing. I tried to get older. But I don't have enough self control to die I guess.
I was to scared to date. What if I fell for her? What if she fell for me? I couldn't risk that. I could never tell her the truth. It wasn't safe. She would be killed. And what if she didn't understand? What if she told everyone?
I remember the day Jacob had stood in his room and wondered to himself whether or not a bullet to the head would kill him or just leave a huge mess for him to clean up. That had been one of the darkest days of his life. I guess this was the darkest of mine.
I fully intended to test out Jacob's simple musings. I knew if I was successful I would hurt more than just myself. I would cause so much pain to everyone I loved. I couldn't bring myself to care though. For once in my life, I wasn't going to think about everyone else. For once I would think only of myself, only of my pain.
I already had the gun. I'd had it for a long time. A simple Smith & Wesson 9mm, inherited from my father. He had a thing for guns. I got rid of most of them but I kept this one. It had been my dads favorite.
You wanna know something funny? Everyone always assumes I'm quiet because I'm shy and reserved. That's not true. I'm quiet because I'm depressed and lonely. Even in a crowded room I feel alone. It's gotten to be to much. Jasper knows how depressed I am but he promised long ago to never tell anyone about it.
I pressed the cold barrel of the gun to my right temple and thought once again about what I was about to do. I choked on the tears streaming down my face. I looked over my final note one last time.
Dear Family,
I'm sorry to leave all of you this way but I cannot deal with the pain any longer. Please do not stand at my grave and weep for I am not there, I do not sleep. Whether there is a heaven or not, I shall always look over you and keep you all safe. Maybe we will meet again one day but until then this is ado.
I love you all,
Goodbye,
Embry
I would miss them all so much but this is something I have to do. I couldn't take it anymore. I took a deep breath and pulled the trigger.
I heard the gun go off, felt the searing bullet enter my temple. It was a peculiar sensation, the bullet passing through my brain. I felt the tissue repairing itself just as soon as it passed through.
By the time the bullet exited stage left, the hole at stage right was almost completely healed. Blood now decorated my bedroom and the bullet shattered my window. They're was glass strewn around the room now. I sighed and threw the gun across the room.
"Fuck my life." Looking around my room now resembled a crime scene off of CSI:, minus the dead body of course.
"What did you DO?" Alice shrieked as she and half of the family came rushing into the room. The rest of the family must be out, still trying to make the new door look identical to the old.
"What does it look like I did Mary Alice? I shot myself. Apparently suicide by gunshot doesn't work on us glorious werewolves," I hissed.
"No Embry Call, what you did was break a mother-fucking window! That we're going to have to fix! Your so lucky I can't rip you limb from limb without killing you!" Alice shouted, jumping up and down like an angry Tinkerbelle. Maybe Alice was Tinkerbelle's evil sister. I'd never thought of that. Huh…maybe I should ask Lucas about that one of these days.
Alice growled at me. Edward grabbed her just before she tried to lunge.
"Calm down pixie. I'll go down to the hardware store and get a new window. I'll replace it myself. And if Esme wants to kill anyone over it, she can kill me. Okay?" I countered.
Alice simply growled at me and stalked out of the room. Everyone else remained frozen. I walked into the bathroom attached to my bedroom to get cleaned up before I went into town. I knew they would bombard me with questions as soon as they unfroze. I sighed again.
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I walked into Spoons, the local hardware store. As I walked through the door I saw a young girl with soft white hair that flowed to the middle of her back, her eyes were an odd amethyst color. Her alabaster skin shimmered slightly under the florescent lights. She was the most beautiful girl in the entire world. More beautiful than anyone, living or dead. Not ever Rosalie could compare in my eyes. The rest of the world ceased to matter to me. Who needed the rest of the world when this seraph was standing before me.
I couldn't take my eyes off of her. I couldn't even move. Who was she? Why hadn't I seen her before?
"Hello," I managed to whisper. My heart beat fluttered in my chest as she smiled a brilliant smile.
"Good evening. I'm Jennifer. And who are you?" she chirped. Her voice and her smell screamed vampire but her eyes…her eyes said something else.
"I'm Embry. Are you new here?" I inquired. I didn't realize we had subconsciously walked towards each other and now we were merely a few feet apart.
"Yes I am. I just moved here. I managed to break the newel on my staircase. I was umm…experimenting and fell and it broke off. What brings you here?" the beautiful Jennifer wondered.
"I shot my window out. I was experimenting too…" I answered her being just as vague.
"That's a shame. Window's are always the hardest to replace," she commented. I wish I knew how she knew.
"Can I ask you something personal Jennifer?" I blushed.
"Of course but please, call me Jenny. Everyone does," she laughed.
"Are you a…vampire?" I sounded so ridiculous.
She sighed quietly. "How did you know?"
"I'm a werewolf. Well a shape shifter to be technical but a werewolf none the less I guess. I live with a large coven of vampires and such. The Cullen's," I murmured. Her eyes grew wide but her smile only grew wider itself.
"I've never met a werewolf, or a shape shifter, or whatever you are before. Actually I've never met another vampire before either. Other than the one that changed me I guess. I always forget about him," she explained.
I laughed and walked with her to the counter. I ordered a piece of glass to fit the window as Jenny and I continued to talk about everything and nothing. I explained to her about imprinting and the fact that I had imprinted on her. I told her about my family. About family therapy. She told me about her past. Her feelings towards me which were already amazingly strong. Her power.
Jenny could do so much but she had very little control. She could levitate, possessed telekinesis, and could alter her appearance as well as others at will. My amazing angel. I asked her to meet my family. She agreed to meet them tomorrow, after she fixed her house.
When we bid farewell I rushed home to fix the blasted window before Carlisle and Esme got home. I knew they would know the window had been broken but at least it would be fixed.
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"It's okay Jenny. This is my family. The vampires are Edward, Bella, Jasper, Alice, Rosalie, Emmett, Lucas, and Maggie. The werewolves are Jacob, Seth, Leah, and Quil. The hybrids are Renesmee, Nahuel, and Ashley. And of course Claire is the only human. Our parents, Carlisle and Esme, are down in Denali right now, hunting with some cousins. I think they'll be home soon though. Right Ali?" I said.
"Yes! They're going to be home in 57 minutes," she said then sighed. "They're going to see the front door and know right away that it's not the old one. Shit."
I laughed and she glared daggers at me. "What's so funny?" she snapped.
"Do you honestly think they're going to care once they find out about my bedroom window? I may have fixed it but I can't get the blood off the walls. I think I might have to move to a different room. We have plenty," I mumbled.
We were lounging around the main living room when Carlisle and Esme came bounding through the door, both looking furious.
"What the hell happened to the door?" Esme snarled causing Claire and oddly enough Jenny to flinch.
"Esme dear, let's wait to find out about the door. First let's find out about the girl with the white hair. Who are you?" Carlisle said, laying a hand on Esme's shoulder to calm her.
"I'm Jennifer, but everyone calls me Jenny. I'm umm…I'm Embry's imprint. You must be Carlisle and Esme. It's a pleasure to meet you," my darling Jenny murmured. "I'm a vampire, even if I don't look like it. It's part of my gift. Like magic."
"She's my little witch," I joked.
"Well Jenny, welcome to the family. Will you be staying with us?" Carlisle asked politely. I could see in his eyes that he really wanted her to say yes, for my sake.
"I have a house actually but it's not much of a house. Just a little cottage really. If you'll have me I would love to stay with you. This is a very nice atmosphere. And you are all very nice people," she said quietly.
I grabbed her up and twirled her around, kissing her softly. I had never felt so euphoric in all my life.
I whispered in her ear, "I love you."
Jenny whispered back, "As I love you."
So what if we all had to go back to therapy tomorrow? For tonight, I would be happy!
A/N: Sorry about the graphic nature of the chapter but to be honest, I think it needed to happen. You needed to see Embry on his darkest day before he fell in love. So what do y'all think of Jennifer? Yes Jenny, I really put you in the story. Don't have a heart attack. I don't want to have to use my C.N.A training. I'm going to try and write the next chapter just as quickly as I wrote this one but it might take a little longer due to the real world. You know the real world, that place we all avoid? See I'm going to be graduating in 2 weeks and I need to finish up some stuff. Thankfully I'm home schooled so it's no big deal to graduate. Anyways! I promise to update soon. I love all of you. You all rock. Review! I have cookies and Dr. Pepper waiting for everyone who does. ;)
