So your famous author here is an idiot! I thought I had published this chapter before I went to my festival but it turns out it was half completed on my document with the other half typed up on my online word account… Dumb, I know!

Anyway, I apologise greatly for the long wait, clearly I thought it hadn't been that long but I was totally wrong so I am terribly sorry!

After this chapter I am going to kinda skip the recovery a little, but only because I am not a recovery person and it's hard to write, but more drama is coming up so don't get bored with these few filler chapters.

On with the show and don't forget to review!

"It's been over 45 minutes and she still isn't up to the right temperature" Bailey complained, Derek trying to control himself as he continued her compressions.

"Denny let me go back! Someone can still have a beating heart at this temperature" Meredith complained to Denny, looking between everyone in the room helplessly.

"I can't do that Meredith until you tell me why you didn't fight" He argued back, Meredith turning to him in a fury.

"I didn't fight because of my mother okay! I thought that for 2 seconds I could just, stop fighting, because every day I fight for her approval, I fight to make her proud because for once I don't want to be referred to as Ellis Grey's daughter, I want to be Meredith freaking Grey! I stopped fighting because she was lucid and she told me I was a disappointment- but why should I care what she thinks? I currently do not care about what she thinks, lucid or not!" She shouted, Denny grinning widely.

"Well finally!" He expressed, Meredith frowning.

"Can I go back now? I need to tell them I am sorry Denny- let me have a second chance"

"If you go back you are going to be in a lot of pain Meredith, are you sure?"

"Denny listen to me, I know you never got your happily ever after with Izzie, and that really sucked. She was heartbroken, we all were, because you deserved so much better than what you got- but this is my chance to get back to the ones I love, and I don't want to waste another minute watching them think I am going to die when I am right here" Meredith felt her hair go damp suddenly, frowning when she fell cold.

"Keep going Meredith, you're doing great" She was shivering now, but it didn't stop her.

"I need to tell Mark that I love him, and erm? Cristina, god she deserves better than are last conversation being an argument. Derek is my best friend, he- I need to tell him thank you" She was on the floor now, her body dripping with water, like she was back in the water again.

"Keep going Meredith" Denny egged on, Meredith trying to rub her hands together but she couldn't move.

"It's so cold Denny" She whispered, her eyes closing over.

"Fight it Meredith, you need to fight it- tell me about Izzie and George and Alex" Meredith smiled to herself, nodding her head slowly.

"George, he knows how to make me laugh. I mean, he is just so stupid and perfect and Izzie. Man can that woman bake! But she makes the best red velvet cupcakes that make your mouth water, and she is such a good friend. She listens and she is great to talk to at 3 in the morning when I can't sleep. Alex can be an ass, I know you never liked Alex which was something I always enjoyed seeing on your face when I was on your service. You would get so angry is was amazing, but when you get to know him he is awesome" Meredith watched Denny as he started fading, but it wasn't him who was fading, it was her.

"Denny whats happening?"

"Tell Izzie I love her okay?" And with the blink of the eye, Meredith was gone. Denny grinned happily when Meredith's heart monitor started beeping again, shocking all the doctors in the room.

"We got a heartbeat?" Bailey asked suddenly, Burke rushing to her side, nodding his head.

"We got a heartbeat!" Meredith started coughing violently making Derek jump back. Her eyes started fluttering open slightly, Richard laughing in disbelief.

"Meredith? Meredith can you hear me?" She nodded slowly, her eyes stinging.

"It's really cold in here" She whispered, her voice shaking. Derek grinned happily, kissing her forehead.

You're alive" He expressed happily, Meredith sighing at his warm touch.

"You're really warm" She told him quietly, Bailey pushing her fluids to try and warm her up.

"Meredith your temperature is still really low, we are going to pump you with fluids to try and warm you up but I need you to try and stay awake for me" Meredith nodded slowly, Bailey and Richard working around her while Derek stayed at her head, smiling down at her.

"Where is Mark?" She asked, gulping loudly.

"He is outside Mere"

"I need to see Mark" Derek looked up at Richard who nodded slowly, Derek going outside to find Mark sitting on the floor, his head buried into his knees.

"Mark?" He jumped, looking up at Derek, his face red and blotchy.

"Derek please don't say it" Derek took a deep breath in before looking back down at Mark.

"She is asking for you" Mark felt his heart leap in his chest as he scrambled up off the floor, Derek guiding him into the room. His palms began to sweat violently as he approached Meredith's bedside, standing so she could see him.

"You're awake?" He laughed slightly, rubbing his hand over her hair, not caring that it was still soaking wet.

"And not dying" She added quietly, Mark shaking his head.

"Thank you for not dying" He whispered, crouching down so he could lean his head against her's, Meredith sighing deeply at the compassionate touch.

"I love you Mark, I need you to know that" Mark nodded his head against hers, Meredith smiling when he whispered back,

"I love you so much more Meredith"

So this was TINY! But don't worry, although I am going to skip a little we are going to hear a lot of her recovery and what went down in later chapters. So, until next time, don't forget to review!

Also, those following 3 years, if you could read the latest chapter and review that would be great! I am on 99 reviews and would really like to reach 100 before the next chapter!