Set directly after Alfie's doctors appointment {heavy emphasis on bipolar disorder}
I wish someone would find me
and help me gain control
before I lose my reason
and my soul
King Midas in Reverse, Hollies
Alfie didn't trust Amber as much after the hospital appointment; Alfie had officially been diagnosed with bipolar but his case was rare and could potentially be extremely dangerous. His mania was only very mild, but his depressions were bordering on fatal.
"Why didn't you just tell me Amber" he questioned
"I didn't want to worry you" she replied
"You think that I would worry less if I knew I could be a danger to you than knowing that I was after something happened" he said firmly
"I suppose so" she answered "I'm sorry"
Alfie reached his arms around her neck and she stretched hers around his waist and rested her head on his shoulder, they remained like this for a few seconds.
"I got a job" Amber piped up after a moment's silence to generate a subject change.
"Are you serious" Alfie said "That's great"
"It's just down in the local shop but I'm trying to get back on my feet" she replied "I'm starting tomorrow"
They held hands as they walked back to Alfie's apartment, Part of the reason Amber wanted a job was because she felt guilty about intruding on Alfie's life so she thought she could get out as soon as she could, but also she needed time away from Alfie to research more into his bipolar disorder, there was something about it that didn't seem right, it all seemed too fast, bipolar was supposed to be a long term cycle but Alfie's were occurring in the space of a few hours, sometimes even minutes. Somehow Amber thought that maybe this wasn't what the doctors were saying it was, maybe it was something more sinister than that.
Amber called into the corner shop on her way back to the flat leaving Alfie to walk the rest of the way himself. She bought a bottle of water and a bag of dried raisins; she was famished as she hadn't eaten for a majority of the day.
When Amber arrived back, she was astonished to hear a loud banging coming from Alfie's room followed by the sound of sobs, she ran in to see what was going on. She discovered Alfie perched on the side of his bed periodically banging his head of the wall, she knew that this was his depression and knew that it would settle but as she was getting ready to leave her eyes were drawn to something in the drawer, lying there small, shiny and black, was a gun.
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