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Chapter 7

The End Of The Date

Sam's P.O.V.

The Elevator stops on the top floor and Freddie leads me out and up a flight of stairs to the roof. There are two chairs sitting near the ledge and we walk over and he has me sit down. He moves the other chair closer and produces a blanket and sits down in the chair and covers us both in the blanket.

"I come up here when I just need to get away from everything and everybody," he tells me. "I know it's corny, but I feel at peace up here and I talk to him here."

"Talk to who?" I ask.

"My dad," he says very low.

"Your Dad?" I ask

"I know it sounds crazy, but I talk to my dad and then I answer for him. I mean I answer as I think or as I want him to," Freddie says as he looks down at the ground.

"You really miss him don't you?"

He looks up at me and I can see a mist in his eyes as he speaks, "I can't see his face in my head anymore. I try hard, but he's fading away on me. I don't even remember what he sounded like. That's why I talk to him, because I'm afraid if I don't he'll disappear from my mind all together."

At this moment I feel the real pain that he feels. I can see the pain in his eyes and hear it in his voice, and a piece of my heart breaks. I never thought anyone else was in the same quiet pain that I was. I feel tears well up in my eyes.

Long minutes pass with no sound, and I know Freddie is crying. I just remain quiet and reach out and hold his hand. No words are needed here, just the knowledge that someone is here for you and has your back.

After a few more moments of quiet, I decide that I can trust Freddie and that he would understand my pain.

"My dad use to hit me when I was little," I whisper. "He'd get drunk and after he'd get tired of hitting mom he came after Mel and me. Mel would hide, but he always found me and would hit and smack me. I never could understand why he hit me and didn't love me. I really tried to be good Freddie, I did, but he wasn't ever proud of me and never said he loved me.

Freddie got up and came and kneeled down beside me and wrapped his arms around me and for the first time in my life I finally asked out loud what I had asked in my head for years.

"Why didn't he love me Freddie, what did I do so wrong that he hated me so much and hurt me so bad," I blubbered out and broke into deep sobs.

"Shhhh, Sam it alright, you didn't do anything wrong," he cooed in my ear, "he had problems of his own and he just took them out on you like a coward."

"I cried ever night for someone to please love me and save me from this awful mess, but no one ever came and that's why I'm such a bitch, I had to take care of me because no one else would," I sobbed.

"You made it through Sam, and you have people who love and will protect you now." he said as he stroked my hair and held me.

"Please hold me," I asked.

"Shhhh, I'm right here Samantha,' he whispered, "And I've got you, I've got you."

I rocked in his arms and sobbed for a long time. I cried 11 years worth of tears and he never let go of me.

After a time, I stopped crying and looked up at him, "Please don't tell Carly about this or what I told you."

"It stays right here," he said and taped his heart and smiled.

"It's late and I need to get you back to Carly's," He said after a few mintues of us just hugging. "It's almost 4am," he said, "Carly and Spencer will have my hide for bring you home so late."

We head back to Carly's door with his arms around me. I don't want this to end. Something very special happened tonight and I'm afraid to let it go. Freddie knows more about me now than anyone else on earth, and I learned that he will protect me and keep the bad things away from me. I know now that I need Freddie in my life if I ever want to be whole.

We get to the door and I look up at him and smile.

"Well Ms. Puckett, I'm sorry this date didn't go like I'd hoped," he began, "It certainly wasn't the fun and exciting time I had planed. I'm so sorry about those jerks and what happened. Sorry that I brought Lilly over and kind of spoiled the evening, but I guess it happens.

"Freddie what the hell are you talking about?" I ask.

"The bet, I'm saying I lost, so I'll sing "I'm To Sexy" in the clown suit on the next show."

Suddenly Carly opened the door and said, "Where the heck have you two been? It's after 4 am!"

He winked at me and said, "Out and about," to Carly.

He leaned down and I thought he was going to kiss me, but he just hugged me instead and whispered in my ear, "I'll always be there for you Samantha."

And then he turned and went into his apartment and closed the door. I just stood there and stared until Carly asked me, "Are you coming in?"

'W… um… sure," was all I could say.

After the door closed she asked me, "So how was it?"

"I don't know how to describe it," is all I can tell her.

I dreamed of Freddie and His arms around me, and of us standing in the yard of a house with 3 children playing in a tree and the sound of laughter and love all around me.

I know what I have to do!

Next:

Chapter 8:

A Winner Is Named

I hope you like this one. Thanks for the reviews and I would like to say sorry about not answering them, but I just haven't had the time, but know they mean a lot to me.

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