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Chapter 7 – Hate Me (Blue October)

Edward POV

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

I was liberated and destroyed at the same time, she had seen me and there had been no hate in her eyes, no urge to push me away, but the dream had alarmed me. What had caused her that much pain? Obviously no-one but her knew Charlie questioned her health, the pup didn't notice and her friends…well she didn't talk to them enough for them to care either.

I didn't follow her that day; I needed to work on my plan to achieve my redemption but her expression from last night haunted me so I needed a distraction. I couldn't hunt; I was too agitated to bother so I decided I needed to be reminded of the old Bella.

Breaking another promise to myself I climbed through her window and found the loose floorboard where I had hidden her memories and lost myself in my own. The love and happiness that I found there caused me to disregard the fact that the day had worn on and that Bella would soon be back from her Saturday job so when I heard the door slam and the clumsy thumping noises of her climbing up the stairs I hurriedly returned the ephemera to their hideaway and dived out of the window for cover.

It was I who made mistakes

Bella POV

I arrived home earlier than usual that day as Charlie had somehow agreed to me using the bike. The ride home had been exhilarating and I was actually looking forward to the essay I had been set for Monday when after going into my room I tripped and was forced to grab onto the windowsill of my open widow. Open window? I couldn't remember opening it since he had left but I son forgot about that when I saw the reason I had been sent flying. One of my floorboards was slightly out of place, sticking up to show a gap and a multitude of paper and objects stuffed underneath it. I investigated, lifting the floorboard and rifling through the things I had found there and soon I felt a warm liquid making its way down my cheeks. After lifting my hands to discover what it was I realised they were tears. So I let them fall, I let the tears that I had been holding in for the last 6 months finally fall. I sat there leaning against the wall crying away all the pain, loneliness and despair exhausting myself in the process. Crawling to my bed I managed to kick of my boots and with tears still falling from my eyes I curled up and drifted off into oblivion.

I have to block out thoughts of you so I can keep my head

Edward POV

An ounce of peace is all I want for you

I sat there stroking her hair as she slept. I felt disgusted with myself for causing her so much pain. I shouldn't have been so careless, I should have replaced the floorboard properly, because of my haste not to be seen I had triggered he collapse. Should I have come back? Would she have gotten better with time? I was analysing the situation so much that I almost missed the fact that Bella had opened her eyes.

She whispered: how could you do this to me?

AN: Just to clarify she doesn't actually say that last line, that's just a lyric from the song and I felt that it fit in there sorry for any misinterpretation. Also sorry I didn't write the Charlie Bella conversation about the bike but I want this to focus really on the feelings that Edward and Bella have for each other.

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