"How are we going to do this?" Blaine was so, so nervous when I met him in Lima Bean that afternoon, he was barely able to stay seated and kept drumming the table, a trait I had found unbearable when I was at Dalton with him.
"Um… " I dipped into my messenger bag and pulled out a notepad and two pens, I tore a sheet of paper in half and slid it and a pen towards Blaine, "we write down 'keep' or 'go', fold it up and give it to each other and then on the count of three we'll open it."
"And what if we don't agree?" I swallowed and glanced at my lap.
"Then we'll have to have another conversation won't we?" He nodded and smiled, I think he loved that I was emotionally stable right now because he couldn't make any decision further than what he wanted to wear and eat that day. We scribbled our words down, both noting how we didn't hesitate or glance at the other when we did so, he's definite about this, we both exchanged the pieces of papers; our hands staying connected for a few seconds longer than necessary.
"One," I said with a deep breath.
"Two," he replied no longer smiling.
"Three," we both opened the paper and there it was my matching 'keep' written in Blaine's untidy scrawl that was really the most adorable thing I've seen; tears welled in my eyes and glanced up to see him still staring at the paper.
"We're having a baby," I said trying not to squeal, he stood up and pulled me into a kiss.
"We're having a baby! Oh wow, just wow, we get to tell everyone now!" He stopped and looked at me, "why did you change your mind?"
"I-Well, in the hospital the only thing I cared about was the baby, ever since then I've always had one hand on it and then last night, I felt it move," the tears spilt over from remembering the tiny fluttering and wondered what it would be like when it was big enough for Blaine to feel as well.
"This is so awesome! You know the hospital was the turning point for me too, I felt so fucking guilty that I let anything happen to you and when your Dad made me leave, wow, I just realised I can't live without you. Not knowing if you guys were OK was driving me insane, it's my job to protect you and I always will," we kissed again and started to make plans to tell everyone.
It was boiling this summer and being in late June already I knew it was just going to get hotter but I was also getting bigger, I had a bump, I mean there it was, anyone could have told I was pregnant (I mean if they knew guys could get pregnant that is.) Nearly nothing fit me because everything I owned was super skinny or a size too small to start with and I was getting frustrated, I wouldn't buy new pants so Blaine had to get them for me but we couldn't keep doing this, what was I going to wear in a month? Or two or three? We were on the sofa today watching Disney movies, Blaine had convinced me to roll up my top and he was running his fingers over the bulge absentmindedly. We were supposed to be alone which was the only reason I would ever let myself be exposed like that, I mean it was just embarrassing, especially in front of my Dad, it was awkward enough having a pregnant son without seeing the bump!
"Urgh Kurt what's wrong with your stomach?"
"FINN!" I jumped up dragging my top down as I went, "what are you doing home?"
"Rachel and I got in a fight, something about not putting the spoon back in the jar?" I gagged internally while Blaine stifled a laugh, he and Finn shared a rather blasé and disgusting attitude to food. "So what's wrong? You look like Quinn did before I found out she was pregnant-" His face fell, "oh my God I'm not saying you're fat I just meant that you look a bit large, no not large! I mean big! I mean-"
"It's OK Finn I understand," I sighed and glanced at Blaine who just nodded, "this is going to sound really weird but urm, I'm pregnant."
"That's not possible? Right?" He looked at us in hopeless fear.
"Not normally no," Blaine said cheerfully, "Kurt's a bit special in that department."
"Oh good," he was staring at my belly and it was making me uncomfortable, "so you're having the baby? I mean that's like a lot of responsibility and stuff?"
"Wow look at you being all mature!" I didn't mean to sound condescending but Finn brought it out in me, "and yes it will be but we've talked about it a lot and well, we can't go through with getting rid of it."
"Not that we want to," Blaine interjected pointedly.
"Yeah exactly, so please can you just keep it quiet until we tell everyone?"
"Urm… I don't know I mean…"
"Quinn knows so if you really can't help yourself talk to her OK?"
"OK but… what is everyone going to say? Like I'm cool with it but still you know, creeped out and slightly scared," he smiled helplessly and I couldn't be mad at him for being honest.
"Maybe you could help us then?"
"Do we have to do this?" Blaine asked as we walked into the restaurant; I'd been craving Indian food so we'd decided two birds one stone.
"Yes! Now stop being such a girl! Everything will be fine," I had gained my acting skills back now my emotions weren't in such a fantastic confusion so Blaine calmed slightly when he saw that I was dealing with this. "How about we tell them at the end?" The idea was good enough until dinner, we had to sit and chat about anything else without mentioning the pregnancy, which was harder than I thought it would be. Finn looked like he was in physical pain when Tina asked what was new with us but I kicked him swiftly and Blaine fell into some story about his sister getting him work experience in a film studio in New York. That should have been interesting but at 15 weeks I was feeling more and more bubbles and it was getting impossible to concentrate.
"We don't normally have coffee?" Rachel asked suspiciously despite the fact that she along with everyone else had ordered something.
"Well that's because we don't normally have something important to discuss," Blaine added coolly, he was back to his usual Dalton self now that we'd all had such a good time. Everyone looked up at us and I couldn't help but blush; Finn and Quinn both sighed with relief.
"Can't think what it could be?" The blonde girl laughed into her phone.
"Wait does she know? How does she know?"
"Mercedes just give us a second and we'll explain!" I grabbed Blaine's hand when I realised that we had to explain this…
"Just spit it out already," Santana snapped, "why are gays so overdramatic?"
"I don't know but it would explain you," Puck quipped back and the tanned girl stabbed him with her fork.
"OK, OK just stop impaling people! This is kind of hard to tell you guys but um just please-"
"Kurt's pregnant." Blaine had completely cut me up and no one was ready for it, the silence was horrendous but I couldn't break it I could only look at my lap and wait for someone to speak.
"Well I'm OK with it, I've known since New York," Quinn stated calmly.
"I've known like a week but still, it's kind of exciting right?" Finn smiled goofily.
"Everyone is unique I guess," Rachel piped up, "it's not my place to judge and anyway it means your spot is totally mine, I mean you don't want to strain yourself do you!" I rolled my eyes at her but I was just so happy that they were OK with it.
"I totally knew," we all stared at Brittany who just shrugged, "dolphins always have babies… Oh and you're jeans are like 3 sizes bigger than they used to be, I can size people on sight."
"Brit you can't say that to him!" Quinn snapped.
"Oh shut up Barbie, he's a dude and he's pregnant, normal protocol is not in play right now is it?" Santana jumped to Brit's side with her usual scathing attitude.
"Why not? If he was a girl we would have been teasing him since he first started throwing up!" Artie smiled, "I'm happy for you guys, I just don't know how we missed it?"
"Because none of us were looking for it!" Sam joined in.
"Fair enough but they're our friends what are we supposed to do abandon them?" Mercedes said to her new boyfriend but there was something in her voice and the way she looked at me that told me she felt guilty. Everyone was arguing, the majority said they were supporting us, only Santana and Sam voiced their true feelings.
"Just shut up for a second!" Blaine shouted with his hands up, "this wasn't meant to cause an argument, we just needed to tell you because we're keeping it and we can't hide it-"
"Wait is that why Kurt was in the hospital?" Puck asked with worried eyes, "oh my God I'm so sorry, I didn't even think…"
"It's OK Puck, just don't drug my boyfriend again?"
"You know they're lying to you!" Santana exclaimed suddenly looking upset, "why aren't any of you saying that you think this is strange?" Everyone was silent, "you're all cowards, I'm leaving." Everyone started to go after Santana except for Finn and Rachel who were coming back to my house so they couldn't really leave.
"That was dramatic," Blaine laughed, "school is going to be epic right?"
"You're not going to be there?" I frowned.
"Well actually I was thinking about you know, transferring?" Blaine smiled pathetically and I couldn't speak, was he serious?
"No you're not."
"Whoa that's blunt?"
"That's because you're not transferring, no way am I letting you swap Dalton for McKinley!" Blaine looked like he wanted to argue but he just picked up my keys and dropped the last of the bill on the table.
"Let's continue this at home alright?"
"Good idea, and you know what I'm expecting to be made godmother since I'm standing by your side in such a trial of diversity and hardship," Rachel didn't shut up until we got home where Finn shut her up by making out with her.
"Blaine you're not transferring!" I started up again as soon as we got into my room, "I will not let you! I mean what will your parents say! You'll have to tell them why you're doing it and there's no way in hell you'll be able to go home after school and you just haven't though this through!"
"Kurt I don't care! I just want to be with you and the baby as much as possible! I mean this is going to be rough the further along you get and I couldn't forgive myself if I wasn't there and something happened!"
"No. Just no, I can do this by myself! You need Dalton Blaine, you're an Ivy League student and you won't get that shot if you come to McKinley!"
"It's one year! It might even help to show them I went to a normal school!" I slammed the bathroom door to get ready for bed but got distracted by my bump and thinking about what Santana said, was she right? Was everyone lying about their feelings? Blaine knocked softly and came in to find me crying and hugging myself, he snaked his arms around me and sung softly in my ear but I didn't really know what song it was just that his voice was magical.
"You know soon enough I won't be able to fuck you?" I don't actually know where that came from and neither did Blaine because he was shaking with laughter behind me. "I'm serious! Look at this, this stupid bump is going to get in the way!"
"Hmm…" he kissed my neck, "are you suggesting something then?"
I hadn't had Blaine like this in months, we usually fell into him on top not because he didn't like being on the bottom but you have routine right? As I held onto his hips and eased in I remembered just how good this felt, he was so tight and the sounds he made were impossibly sexy. I don't know how managed to growl but I'm glad he could; he would dig his nails into my forearms and his legs wrapped around me and growl.
"Why don't we do that all the time?" He sighed once we had finished and collapsed on the bed.
"Because you're going to be sore in the morning and it takes you weeks to get over it," I was too tired to be kind to him.
"That's not fair! I'm sensitive..."
"Yeah you're a real china doll," I rolled my eyes, "what are you doing?" Blaine was pressing hard on my stomach in random spots and holding very, very still.
"Um… trying to feel the baby, why what are you doing?"
"You can't feel it, I can barely feel it!" He pouted and continued his useless mission, "hey, are you going to tell your parents?"
"No."
"You have to, you can't lie to them once the baby is here," I didn't want to tell his homophobic parents either but we had to, it would be impossible to lie.
"We could try?" I glared at him, "fine, I will, after I tell my friends at Dalton and I know I have somewhere to be when I get kicked out OK?"
"You can always come here if they do?"
"Your Dad will kill me in the morning for just sleeping over, I don't think so, not that I don't want to just… The same way you don't want me to transfer I don't want to invade in your house." "Urgh fine! But this isn't over Anderson, you better be in your sexy uniform come September," he laughed and I snuggled into his chest and fell asleep quickly; the bubbles in my stomach were stronger than ever almost like the baby wanted Blaine to feel it.
So I wanted it to be harder for them to this and maybe some people won't come round to it at all :O
