and here is a bonus for you guys... two in one day...

dont get used to it, i will only update it once but, i felt like giving you two parts today..

Enjoy part 7!


Being hurt is never fun. But being played is less fun.
You wanna be something, and mean something to others.
But when your try fails, do you have anybody you can go to?
Do you have any place you can run to, or does things just get worse day by day?

There is a place inside your body, that feels more pain then any other place ever could. A place so sensitive that whatever you do, you could never heal it by yourself. The help from others could only maybe heal it. This one place is called the heart. Its the home of the mosters, and the angels, the good and the bad, the pain and the pleasure.

But why do humans have a heart, when it can bring more pain the pleasure to a person. When you can in fact die from having too much pain in that heart of yours. When scientists says you cant live without it, and God says you have it for a reason, what do you say? and what does your heart say to you when it breaks? falls in love?
Do you ever feel worthless to the limit that your heart breaks? and the one you fall in love with, is the one to do the pain you feel in your heart. When nothing you do is ever good enough to please a person, what do you do?

Ciel knows this. He knows that having a heart is pain. He knows the fact that he has a heart is the reason he feels so much pain. While he feel like Sebastian will never love him. But he doesn't think about what happened before. He forgot that Grell have had feelings for Sebastian long before Ciel even dared to. So why was he so jealous? why did it hurt so much to see his trusted butler in the arms of somebody else? not to mention a reaper of all.

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"Would you like some tea, My lord?" Sebastian said with a smile and a small bow, to the boy who was sitting in his chair in his office, with folded hands.
"Yes. Gray" Ciel said very cold back to the raven black demon butler.
"Yes my lord" Sebastian said as he bowed and then went out. Sebastian knew Ciel was cold. And he somewhat knew what was wrong. He had trouble finding the courage to ask Ciel was what wrong. He does remember the strange scent of Ciel that had come over Sebastian yesterday, while he was kissing Grell. But why was Sebastian feeling so empty and torn apart? A demon should at least be that strong, not to mention a butler. What kind of butler would hurt his master, to gain power? Sebastian only wanted Ciel's soul, right? Yet, he still felt like he loved Ciel, but the same feelings had started growing for Grell.

"Oh.. Mr. Sebastian, is the lord sick?" Finny said and took his hand up to his cheek. Sebastian looked down at Finny and shook his head.
"No Finny, he is not. He is not in a very good mood im afraid." Sebastian smiled, to cheer the smaller blonde boy up. Sebastian had been so deep in thoughts that he didnt notice that he had found his own way to the kitchen, and that the other servents were there.
"O-Oh My" Mey-Rin said as she looked at Finny. Finny looked back, clearly not very happy about it either.
"It will be okay, just do your job good!" Sebastian said in a cheerful yet demanding voice as he nodded for them all to get back to work.

When Sebastian had made the tea, and taken some scones on a plate, he walked back to the masters office. He was still deep in thought, and he really did need to find the right time to talk to Ciel, but as a butler, it would be bad if he let it all go over his work. His work was important, wwithout doubt, but Ciel was very important too.

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((Ciel's POV))

Ciel had broken down when Sebastian had left the room. It was hard for him. He really really wasn't one to cry, but he did. He hated Sebastian, and he hated Grell. He hated his life and he pretty much just hated everything and everybody, yet there was nothing he could do. untill now, he had been staying strong, but it was still so early, too early to be able to look at the black butler, or speak to him. Ciel did it. He could give orders, and was acting very told towards Sebastian, but Sebastian's smile did break him in pieces everytime. He had finally broken down, and tears were rolling down his cheek. They had started as soon as Sebastian had left the room. It was not of any maner for an Earl to be crying when he was in company, so Ciel didn't. He cried, but only when he was alone, either in his office or in his bedroom. After his parents had died, he used to cry himself to sleep, and sometimes he would wake up in the middle of the night crying because of it. But he would never talk to anybody about it, and he would never admit it to others, only himself.

"My lord I..." Sebastian had started as he suddenly came in. Ciel had not heard him coming, so he had not had the time to wipe his tears away, yet now he did.
"Sebastian! Knock next time!" Ciel said, as he covered his face and wiped the tears away as fast he could. He had not seen this moment coming. How dare Sebastian come in without knocking. Sebastian always knocked, so why didnt he this time!

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"Ciel..." Sebastian said as he laid the tray with scones and tea on the table and kneeled down beside his young master. Sebastian took Ciel's hands away from Ciel's face, and then Sebastian met eyes he had never thought he would see ever. Ciel was crying, and had so deep pain in his eyes, that it almost hurt Sebastian even more to see Ciel like this.
"Ciel, tell me what's wrong" Sebastian said while he didn't wanna let go of Ciel's hands, even though he could feel the young master trying to fight him off.
"Let go of me! let go!" Ciel yelled at Sebastian, but Sebastian just didnt wanna let go.
"Tell me what is wrong! Ciel!"
"You let go of me right this instend!" Ciel yelled.
"Why are you so stubborn! I can see the pain in your eyes, and I can feel the pain in your body! what's wrong! you have been so cold..."
"You! You are the reason! How dare you even..." Ciel started, but was interrupted by himself crying. Ciel had started crying and had turned his face away to hide it from Sebastian.
"Me? Ciel.. Tell me what I did" Sebastian whispered as he got closer. This was only more toture to Ciel's poor heart.
"You... You love him, dont you..? You dont need me... all you need is my soul... You dont need me" Ciel said, or at least tried to say in between his crys. He was deeply hurt, and Sebastian could sense it clearly.
"Ciel.. I.." Sebastian had started but was interrupted by Ciel pushing him off, finally. Ciel had gotten up from his chair and went the other way around the table. Sebastian stood up and walked towards the young lord slowly.

It was clear to Sebastian that this was hurting Ciel. It was paining Ciel. Sebastian truly was a nightmare dressed like a daydream.
"Do you wish me to leave?" Sebastian said. These words. These actions. Sebastian no longer knew what to do. He felt like the young lord needed space and time to breath. Maybe it would all be better if Sebastian just wasn't there.
"If we never met each other then it would have hurt less" Ciel said and went out of the room. Sebastian had been shocked quiet a lot of times by now, but this time he was indeed again shocked. These words coming out of Ciel's mouth was hurting Sebastian as well. It was true that Sebastian wanted Ciel's soul, but that was not the only reason for Sebastian to love Ciel.

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Grell was laying on a coffin, at Undertakers shop. He was so deeply in thought about last night where he had shared a special moment with Sebastian. His Sebastian. It was like a fairy tale coming true. It was like Grell's fairy tale.
"Ohh M'Dear, your color is back.. tell me, did something happen?" Undertaker said as he kneeled down beside the red reaper. Grell was not fully red yet, but his red color had indeed started to come back. He was no longer in a shade of pink, he was a light light red. More light then normal, but it was red, and not pink, which worked fine for Grell.
"If you could not read it by my smile, Undertaker..." Grell answered with a smirk.
"Ahhh, ah, i see i see, did you speak to your beloved one?" Undertaker giggled to himself as he stood back up. Grell too had stood up when Undertaker did.
"Yes! We had shared a true moment" Grell said as he spinned around in a circle.
"Ah now my dear red reaper, do not live in your fairy tale, go talk to him!" Undertaker said and gave Grell a light push. Grell really did feel like going to see Sebastian, but a part of him felt that it was a bad time. He missed Sebastian, and wanted to see him again.
"I cant... if i go now, he will get in trouble!" Grell said and turned to look around.
"By the little mud? Oh how Phantomhive can stop love this way"
"Indeed, indeed" Grell said and started laughing. Undertaker had clearly went along with Grell's romantic talk, from his fairy tales. He had picked up on the romeo and Juliet language already, but that was over with now. Grell himelf was now living in his own Romeo and Juliet story.

Later that night, Grell did go to the Phantomhive manor, like he had planned to. He did not have to speak to Sebastian, or kiss or touch, just a look at his beloved demon, would be enough to make him sleep peacefully. He jumped down from the roof and looked in though the window, but nothing met his interest. Sebastian was not there, which was very odd. Around this time, Sebastian would normally spend his night on the couch, reading something or doing something. But Sebastian was no where in this room to be seen.

Grell turned around and started thinking. He thought about places Sebastian could have gone. But maybe the question wasn't where he had gone, but why he had gone away, leaving his master like that. Was he somewhere else in the house? perhaps. Grell turned around and started looking around on the windows. Most of them were part, and only a little light from the hallways were shining out. In the middle of Grell's stalking for Sebastian, the door opened to the livingroom Sebastian could normally be found. But it wasn't Sebastian coming in, it was Ciel, and... Nobody. Ciel was alone. But why was Ciel alone so late?

"What are you doing here Grell?" A voice sounded behind Grell and forced Grell to look back. It was Sebastian who was standing there.
"Sebby!" Grell said in a cheerful voice and hugged his demon tightly. Grell could already now feel that Sebastian's attention was on something else, then Grell. Grell looked up and found Sebastian just standing there looking in through the window where Ciel was now sitting. Sebastian used to sit there when Ciel had fallen asleep, but now Ciel was sitting there and Sebastian was outside.

"Sebby?" Grell questioned as he watched Sebastian went pass Grell and directly to the window, where he could see Ciel.
"Why are you here?" Sebastian said in a low voice. His attention could have been on Grell, but right now Sebastian was too busy watching how sad Ciel looked. Ciel had a blanket wrapped around his feet as he laid on the couch. It must still have smelled of Sebastian. Sebastian could see that Ciel was snuggling into the blanket, and it was clear that the young lord was crying.
"Why is he crying, Sebby?" Grell asked as he had walked up to stand beside Sebastian. Sebastian looked over at the red reaper. The red reaper was looking in at Ciel, clearly wondering why the young lord was crying. Ciel clearly didnt know anybody was watching.
"I hurt him... Now i can never come back.." Sebastian said, still looking at the red reaper. Sebastian finally looked away as soon as Grell looked up at him.
"But... why?" Grell asked as he turned his full attention to the raven black demon. Sebastian let out a deep sigh and turned around as he walked a few steps away from the window. Grell followed the butler, as he always would.

((Flashback from the moment Sebastian left))
"Im sorry im doing this way..." Ciel said and looked away. He tried not acting broken, but Sebastian knew very well that Ciel was hurt.
"You dont have to be sorry... Im sorry" Sebastian said, and laid his hand on Ciel's cheek, making Ciel look up at him. Their eyes meeting, like sun and dark meet.
"We'll be fine without each other..." Ciel said as he looked at the demon, laying his hand ontop of Sebastian's hand, which was still on Ciel's cheek.
"Sure... I'll be fine." Sebastian said with a broken voice, as he kissed his young lord one last time. Sharing the last kiss from Ciel's love he would ever feel.
((Flashback ending))

"He loves me" Sebastian said, low but still loud enough for the red reaper to hear it. The red reaper stood there with wide open eyes. How could somebody else but Grell love Sebastian. Sebastian belonged to Grell, or... Grell looked back at the window, where he could see the young Phantomhive lord bury his face into the couch, enjoying every last scent of Sebastian there was left at that place. Grell couldn't help but feeling sorry, and like this was his fault.


Ahh, so... you guys might have to wait a day or two for the next part, because im getting sick.

Im very sorry, i will try to update it as soon as i can, i promise.

and to my supporters, thank you for supporting this story, i was thinking about deleting it because i felt like it wasn't good enough, but thank you for giving me a reason to keep updating... i have a feeling that this story is gonna get dark and awesome!