Bwello!

I just had the last exam for a while, (geography -.-) so hopefully I'll post more often, but I post pretty often anyway so it doesn't really matter.

Last chapter I wrote Bella leaving the house to hunt Alice only wearing her towel at first. As funny as it would be for it to drop mid-sprint, I thought that'd be a little too much for you lot...as well as Alice.

Chevrolet Camaro's are fucking amazing, just saying. I was debating between that and the 2014 Corvette...but I stick true to my baby *strokes Camaro*

Have fun with this one haha.

I was barefoot…my feet stung.

I was wearing next to nothing…I was freezing.

I was panting…I was exhausted.

I felt so full…She was close.

My calf was wet and burning like hell as I shoved branch after branch out of my face, I couldn't see a fucking thing so I permanently had both hands in front of my face, aiding me as well as they could as I moved as fast as I could through the dense forest. I had no clue where I was going, I never seemed to know to be honest, but my feet carried me anyway. They had a vague idea where I was going...I think.

This reminded me so much of that time those years ago, but the roles seemed to have switched completely. Last time I was running for my life away from her. Now though, I wasn't letting anything stop me from getting to her. From finding her. I felt like my life would actually begin when I finally found her. We could begin our lives together.

Then why was she running from me? I didn't do anything to scare her off...did I? I don't think so...She seems so determined to keep me desperate, from not getting what I want. Sure, she can come sauntering up to my own fucking home and go in my bedroom, but as soon as I want to see her? She fucks off and expects me no to care? Who does she think she is?

Why is she doing this to me, I'm not a fucking toy!

Bella, stay away.

I felt a sudden rage boil through me. I don't know where it came from, but I'd never felt this angry before. She can't tell me to stay away! She was practically in my bed a few minutes ago and she wants me to stay away!? I won't let this…this girl control me. Who does she think she is?!

I felt the stirring inside me abruptly stop before swelling with its own anger. Oh, do you not like being called a girl, darling?

I don't know what came over me, but I knew this wasn't like me whatsoever, but I just felt so full of utter uncontrolled rage that I couldn't let out on anyone, that Alice was the only one I could let it out on.

It was her fault, anyway.

Maybe it was the added bonus of Alice's feelings that had made me this livid, since I knew for a fact I had never felt like this before...I knew something was wrong with me. But I couldn't stop. Knowing she could feel everything I felt and know everything I thought infuriated me even more. I never have any space! Even in my own head she's there! She won't just fucking leave me alone.

I was mad. I felt my face contort into something vicious and screamed, the shriek ricocheting for miles and sending birds cawing in fright and flying away. I looked up whilst running and saw the shadows of them above my head, spurring me on.

"Yeah, that's right Alice. I'm not your fucking toy! You can't do this to me anymore. No. I won't let you do this to me anymore. You hear me?!" I felt my lungs burning with running and screaming at the same time. I had to stop, but I also had to get this anger out. I sounded so wild. I felt so wild.

I dug my heels in and stopped abruptly, at the back of my head I was vaguely surprised that I hadn't fallen over...

But that was far from important.

"Not talking are you!? Fine! You've treated me so confusingly and I've had it!" I don't know why I was still screaming. She was probably long gone, but the rage just dominated me completely. I clenched my fists until my nails dug into my hands, I was shaking all over. I couldn't control myself as an almost snarl ripped through my chest, coming out louder than my screaming.

Nothing...just silence.

You. Fucking. Bitch.

I felt my hand yank ferociously at the necklace that was still around my neck, snapping it off I clasped it tightly in my hand. I glared at it, inspecting it with almost new eyes, it registered to me that my sight was clearer, and I was able to see a bit more of my surroundings as I had before. I was brought back when the swirling irritation of Alice inside me swelled into something powerful and unreal, but it only made me more angry, more hurtful, and more heartless. I sneered at the necklace, a vessel of Alice.

Pathetic.

I felt my voice contain such hate and mirth as I whispered, "take it."

Bella, don't.

...Before catapulting the necklace as far as I could into the darkness.

"I DON'T FUCKING WANT IT!"

The outburst echoed for what seemed like ages, I relished in the unresponsive forest apart from my erratic breathing. It was like no one dared contradict me. I felt powerful... I felt my lips pull into a hateful smirk, I looked down and my now numb feet.

Hmm, that's a lot of bl-

The wind was knocked out of me as I was forced into a tree about a foot away. I cried out in pain when my back made contact, I felt my legs give out but I didn't fall. I felt someone press flush against me and knew immediately that it was Alice. I was reminded this time of when she was last pressed against me, it was different then, even though it was against my will both times...this was so much worse. This was real life. Here I felt her anger pulsating through me and around me as she enveloped my senses. I felt like I was drowning again, and I couldn't do anything to stop her. She grabbed at my wrists and thrust them above my head against the tough trunk, then shoved one of her thighs in between my legs.

It felt so good. I felt myself begin to submit and felt a moan welling inside me-

No.

The moan in my throat cut off.

You have no fucking right to touch me.

I felt Alice stop moving her thigh, but she was silent. Why was she always silent? I lifted my infuriated eyes to meet hers for the first time in years. I could see the outline of her face, her beautiful face...but her eyes...

She looked frightened.

Take her...

I felt power surge through me, strengthened by my anger. I felt a deep rumbling come from inside me, utterly terrified when it came out in a snarl of such magnitude Alice backed away.

"Bella - I - I'm sorry. Your blo-"

That did it for me. I swear something literally snapped inside me as I felt an almighty force explode in me. I felt alive. Before I knew it I had Alice on the floor, her arms pinned above her head as I straddled her, keeping her down.

Take...Alice...

Alice...

Mine.

I felt her struggle beneath me, all her efforts went to waste since it was doing fuck all, and she was too weak. She heard me and opened her mouth to speak but she was silenced quickly when I let out another animal-like noise. It almost sounded like a giant cat, hissing at a threat.

"Mmm. Alice...mine...Alice. Mate…mine." My voice held such power and clarity I was reminded of the rooms. I felt myself lower my upper body and shove my head into the crook of her neck, keeping her pinned and taking a deep, lung-filling breath. Her natural scent invaded my senses and I felt my eyes roll back into my head in arousal. Before I knew it, I was rubbing myself against her.

Mark. Mate.

Alice whimpered below me, I relished in this power I had over her for once. She deserves it.

"I love you..." I barely heard Alice whisper. I pulled back to look at her, her eyes were darker than when I last saw them, they were an amber color. I let go of one of her arms to slap her hard on the cheek, her face didn't move but my hand hurt and her eyes were wide. I ignored the pain and shoved my face right in hers; I felt another growl quietly come out of my baring teeth.

How dare she?

I shoved a leg in between hers and felt myself grind it against her once, resulting in Alice hissing. "You don't love me." I snarled in her face. " You don't deserve to have a judgment. I hate you." I ground against her again, harder. Her hiss turned into a moan and I smiled. She can't win.

"Bella, stop. You're not yourself." I felt her will against me stronger than it was before; this infuriated me as I tried to keep her down, but she was winning. Alice growled and rolled, flipping us over so she was now on top. I growled at her the same time, both of them becoming one as I glared at her with wide, wild eyes.

"Bella...Bella listen to me!" I felt her freezing hand make contact with my cheek this time. I whimpered at the stinging sensation running up my face. Alice seemed to relax at the sound and almost made herself comfortable on top of me, but still managing to keep me down. I tried to push her off, but the earlier strength just wasn't there anymore. I just laid there motionless, feeling the burning rage inside me slowly dissipate and be replace with...what?

Contentment?

Calmness…

Oh right, Alice.

"I'm so sorry Bella. This is my fault." I felt Alice lower her head and breath against my neck; I shivered as her breath ran over my nose. So good...

I believed her, I couldn't really remember what she had done, since all I remember was me being very angry, but I believed her. I felt my voice coming back again, my normal one that is. It still sounded rasp from all the noises I had made, but at least it was mine.

"Alice. I'm scared"

I admit it, I was fucking terrified. I didn't know what just happened. The noises, the strength, the possessiveness, the need to overpower Alice, to control her. This wasn't me, fucking hell.

"I know Bella. I know...I'm so sorry." Why doesn't she actually tell me what the fuck is going on instead of apologizing? Alice gently rose off of me and onto her knees at my side with her hands in her lap. I guess she trusted me now to not flip out at her or whatever. I was reminded this time of when I was asleep in the meadow...our meadow. I guess you could say it was where we first met, even though I was fairly out of it... I focused back onto Alice's face and saw her eyes looking me up and down, making sure I was okay. She had a pained look in her eyes; she was ashamed...of what?

She started to check over my lower half, her eyes looked like they were roaming down my legs, which made me shift uncomfortably. Then she froze, her eyes locked on something on my leg. She stayed like that for what felt like ages.

Her eyes, were they changing color? Golden, then Amber...

...Now black?

"A-Alice?" I was confused as to why my voice even wavered in the first place; I just seemed to know that something wasn't right here. Alice wasn't moving. Quite literally, she was frozen, like a statue. Was she not breathing? She had never done this before and I didn't like it. I tentatively raised a hand and touched her face with it for the first time in years. At the skin-to-skin contact, I felt an almost invasion of my thoughts, Alice's thoughts swarmed me for a brief second.

Blood.

Her eyes locked with mine and I swear they were now slits. They narrowed at me.

She looked sinister.

I saw her hand shoot up to whack mine out of the way then cover her mouth and nose. Her eyes shutting tightly, a loud moan forced its way out of her closed mouth as she shuddered in her position.

I felt compelled to help her, to protect her. I ignored almost everything else as I focused on Alice's eyes, Alice was in pain. I had to protect her.

Protect my mate.

Jesus, I'm so fucked.

I sat up quickly but was shoved back down with two powerful hands on my shoulders. I tried to sit up but I had no chance. What is happening? Alice still had her eyes shut but she was leaning into me, her nose flaring. She let out another moan that in other circumstances would have made me want her, it was so sexual.

But here?

Now?

I was fucking terrified.

"Alice. What are you doing? Get off me." I tried again to sit up but that went to shit, Alice applied more force on my shoulders as she lifted a leg over me to straddle me. Her eyes opened to reveal pools of pure blackness as she hissed right in my face.

I think I just shat myself.

Were her teeth pointed?

"Bella..."

Oh my God, her voice. It sounded so evil. I slapped myself mentally, to think how aroused I was at this point, I should be fucking scared. Well, I was, but she was just so alluring...in every way.

Even like this.

Fuck it, this was the most alluring she had ever been. She seemed so primal like this; there was just no way I could look away. Her eyes were so trained on me, burning me from the outside, while her emotions burned me from the inside. I was trapped by her, not just physically, I'm sure by the way she was filling me up on the inside, even if she did let me go I wouldn't be able to move.

I felt wetness against my neck and snapped back. Alice was stroking her tongue over the length of my neck in one languid movement. Starting from my collarbone, she didn't stop till she reached my chin and carried up to my jawline. I couldn't help the deep groan that escaped from me when she took my earlobe in her mouth and bit lightly.

Alice pulled back sharply, removing her hands also.

Knew it. Couldn't move.

I couldn't see her as well as I could before, but I could tell she was struggling with herself. I don't know why, I just knew. I wanted to comfort her, but something stopped me. I didn't want her to slap my hand away again. It hadn't really hurt me physically, but I didn't like the feel of rejection from her. I felt useless not being able to protect her, my mate.

Again with the mate thing…

I ignored my unimportant though and did the only thing I could think of doing. I sat up as soundlessly as I could so it was like Alice was sitting on my lap; I tentatively cupped her face with both my hands. I felt Alice freeze, but I didn't let her run away again before I brought my lips delicately to hers. I felt her inside me spin and whirl around in joy, but outside she was motionless. Again like a statue. My lips tingled and I marveled at our first kiss. Sure, I couldn't really see her, and that this was kind of a fucked up first kiss...

But it still felt amazing.

My freezing lips met hers in temperature, the only thing that we seemed to have agreed on tonight. I moved mine against hers even though she was unresponsive.

I needed this.

All the grief, the pain and confusion, left with the wind with just the contact I had with Alice right now. Her soft skin in my hands, her lips with mine, showing how much I loved her, cared for her. Even if it was so soon, I knew it was true.

I really did love this girl.

Alice twitched against my lips, the soft bliss inside me halted before making me cry out as a wave of anger surged inside.

"What did you call me?" Alice growled at me. What had I done now? Her eyes narrowed at me, her eyes expressed her so much...she was positively livid and I don't even know what I've done! I felt my own irritation start to come back. I was only trying to comfort her, why couldn't she let me just have this one moment. One moment of bliss with her, that's all I ask, but no.

I felt her shake in my hands, but I didn't care. She was acting like a child.

"I don't know Alice, why don't you tell me?" I couldn't help the sarcasm in my voice ooze over my words and I saw her eyes narrow imperceptibly. I don't know why I loved riling her so much; it just made me feel like I had some control. She's pulled me along so far in this...this...whatever the fuck this is, relationship. She can't get everything she wants, all the fucking time.

Alice snarled at me before slamming her lips against mine, forcing me back down against the ground and shoving her tongue in between my lips and into my mouth.

I wasn't expecting that.

I closed my eyes and let out a moan for the millionth time today before wrapping my arms around her neck, pulling her in tighter. Alice responded with tangling her slim fingers deep into my hair, massaging my scalp. I groaned and involuntarily thrust my hips up, into Alice. My heart was beating wildly, whacking against my chest like a drum. I couldn't even function, so I just sucked on Alice's tongue.

She groaned in appreciation and ground her hips back at me, molding our lips together in one passionate moment.

This should have been our first kiss. Alice grunted in approval.

My arms were starting to ache from gripping around her neck so tightly, so I let them run over Alice's curved back before resting at her hips, pulling her closer to me there. Alice started to calm down with her furious mouth dominating, and I enjoyed the moment even more. Our tongues swirled around each other in my mouth before I had to pull away. I gasped for air and relished at the cold air that ran down my throat.

I slowly opened my eyes, not wanting the complicated moment to end. I thought I could hold my breath for a long time, but Alice didn't seem to even remotely need to pull back before I did. I was impressed.

Alice was gazing at me with inquisitive eyes. That didn't even slightly faze me, the confusion it brought me, I mean. I tilted my head to her questioningly; I didn't want to be the one to break this silence. I think Alice realized this, as she closed her eyes before taking a very deep breath, before opening them once more.

They were lighter again.

Not the gold that I loved, the amber I hated or the black I feared, but an in between...maybe honey.

Inquisitive honey.

It was nice.

"Bella. Let me take you home, I'll explain tomorrow." I wasn't really surprised that I wasn't going to get any answers when I wanted them more than ever, but I kind of just accepted it. Alice was relatively back to normal, and so was I, that's all I cared about. "Me too...I'm so sorry Bella." I hated that she was still apologizing to me. Yeah sure, she had kind of assaulted me in the middle of a forest, but it sounded way worse than it actually was. I practically had a go on her first; if she hadn't stopped me I'm not sure what I would have done. All I can remember was just being absolutely infuriated at her, and I don't even know why.

And of course, I was left with a thousand unanswered questions in my head, which kind of pissed me off. I'm sure though, that Alice had some too. She generally seemed surprised when I lashed out at her, fuck; I was terrified when I did. I had a vague idea though that it wasn't just my doing that made me so...so...

Animalistic?

Fuck my head hurts.

Before I knew it I was in Alice's cold but secure arms, I smiled and lifted my gaze up slightly to meet her eyes. She was gazing down at me with love in her honey eyes...so beautiful...

"Alice..." I saw the pearly whites that were Alice's perfect teeth. Jesus, what a smile. My lids conveniently started to feel heavy and weigh down, making it harder for me to keep them open. I tried to fight it, which brought me back for about two seconds. "Alice, why do your eyes change?" That was only one of the questions swirling around in my head, but it intrigued me so much. I couldn't be the lighting. Her eyes went from gold to black with no light at all...

My eyes became heavy again but I didn't fight it. Instead, I just circled my arms tightly around Alice's neck… my Alice's neck, and pulled myself up so I was resting my head in the crook of her neck.

I was barefoot - I was flying

I was wearing next to nothing - I didn't care

I was panting - In her arms

I felt so full – of my Alice

At last.

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How was it? :O

I don't know why this chapter took so bloody long to write, I just had so many ideas but then was like 'no, too fast.' Or 'no, too explicit.' Haha ;)

The emotions in this chapter almost made my head explode, I was confusing myself when typing this so I have no idea how you guys feel right now XD

I feel mean for making their 'first meeting' the way it was… the anger and stuff, but ya'know, we all love drama! It's what makes a fan fiction amazing? ;D

But yeah, hope you enjoyed! Much love.