Dear Diary
The plan is slowly falling into place. I have my father and Chun Won right where they should be, as with the other allies my father has made. I think I can do this. It is almost finished. I just need to hang in there a little while more.
Yet...what am I doing? For Baek Won? For justice? I am probably the worst possible son ever alive, to want to send his father to jail for all the crimes he has committed. Perhaps other sons would team up and help cover up, or even join in. But I can't. I hate this family he married into. I can't forget the sorrow I always saw in my mother's twinkling eyes. And this family is so cold, I don't even want their company. I am a prosecutor, I enjoy my current job much better than being head of a conglomerate. My father says he wants to give all these to me. Ha. Really? Can I believe him? I don't want any of it. I hate what money does to people. It belongs to Baek Won anyhow, rightfully. She is the rightful heir, not me, not my father. And she will do such a wonderful job! She won't be evil and look only at profit, but will use the money to help people. That's right. That's why I fell in love so deeply with her in the first place. I love her heart.
My father says he will do all the dirty work, to keep my hands clean. I guess my father does love me, in his own way. And he is my father, no matter how much wrong or how much he has hurt me in the past. He is the one who gave me life. I can't be so unfilial. I will need to atone for my sins...both his and mine...so I will go to jail with him. That's the best I can do for my father; to be with him when he is at his lowest, for I am the one that brought him to this point.
There has never been any other way, I guess. My life has always been heading towards jail, since my father began his schemes. So I have given my all; I have nothing left to loose. I know Baek Won still loves me, but dare I ask her to wait for me? If I did she would, but that would be too selfish of me. Yet, my life is nothing without Baek Won - I might as well be dead. She is the one keeping my sanity. She and my mother.
Baek Won, I love you. It would all be over soon. I can never understand how you would love me; son of a monster, an unfilial brat, ostracised by others...but I am thankful. Always remember, I love you.
DY
