{Hey guys another chapter is here! I don't own the song in here Not a Love Song by Bulow or anything to do with Fifty Shades of Grey trilogy only my own character and anything else that you do not recognize.}

(Flashback Christian p.o.v.)

She stood in front of me with a calming smile but, I knew her. I knew it was faked and strained. Her hands were in front of her with her suitcase being held by both. My family stood around me as we all prepared to say our goodbye's. She was leaving us, leaving me for an adventure around the world. "Well guys, if I don't leave I will miss my plane." Eva voice flitted across the room.

My mother walked forward and drew her into a hug, "You will always have a home here so don't forget us."

"I wont." Eva's muffled voice spoke against my mother

Next was my father, "You must tell us of all your adventures, even if it is just through a phone call."

When my father pulled away from Eva I could see that her tears were brimming her eyes. Mia's screeching voice came from beside me as she ran to Eva. "Eva! Don't go, who else will hang out with me!"

Eva wrapped an arm around her and closed her eyes, "You have many friends Mia, but you know I am only a phone call away." She told her

I could tell that my sister was crying, and Eva was rubbing her back trying to soothe her. After a few minutes my mother called Mia over to her where she continued to cry as my brother stepped up next. He hugged her and said, "Stay out of trouble. The world can be a scary place."

When Elliot pulled away from her, I could tell she was trying hard to hold back her tears. It was my turn now…but, I didn't want to say goodbye. I didn't understand why she had to go…I didn't want to let her go. She was looking at me now with that same smile and I couldn't stand it. My feet felt like led as I walked towards her. I wanted to scream at her but, as I reached her, she couldn't hold back her tears anymore as they streamed down her face before she jumped into my arms. I was shocked at first because she knew how I felt about touching me but, then again, she broke through my barriers that no one else could. I could feel her tears staining my shirt and I felt my heart begin to break. I wrapped my arms around her and held her tight to me. No words were exchanged, we didn't need to. After a few moments she pulled away with that same stupid smile. I reached forward and brushed her tears away. She was to beautiful to cry. She took a deep breath and looked at everyone, "Well, I will be on my way. Wish me luck!" She waved her arm in the air as she turned around.

Everyone but me and Elliot followed her out as she left to go to her cab. As I watched her walk further and further away from me, my first curled in anger. Elliot clapped a hand to my shoulder and said, "You know if you let her walk away now without telling her how you truly feel you never will tell her."

"I don't know what you are talking about." I glared at my brother

"Don't play stupid, you both have feelings for each other so why not tell her? Maybe she wont leave?"

I looked back out at her, would that be all it takes for her to stay with me? I looked down at the ground before I turned my back to her and began to walk into the house. "She made her choice." I mumbled behind me

(End of Flashback Christian p.o.v.)

(Christian p.o.v)

I tapped my finger impatiently on the car door as I waited for Taylor to drive to the bar I had tracked her to. I scoffed and looked out the window as the name of the bar came across my mind, the Broken and Damned. It puzzled me, her last words to me, I knew there was something she was hiding from me, but I didn't think of how serious it could be. Once we pulled up, Taylor came and opened my door and I stepped out and straighten my suit. I walked to the door and just as I was getting ready to open it a girl tumbled out and threw up just a few feet from me. I caught the door and I grimaced as I looked at her before I turned back to the bar. Music filled my ears the moment I opened the door,

You're a nice guy
And you're looking for a nice girl to fall for you, for a lifetime
But that's not my vibe, I'm just tryna have fun
You say love is blind, but that's just some bullshit right there
Cause I'm looking in your eyes, and they're burning fire
Sex on my mind, and that's what you want
Here face to face, and we both know the truth
You're calling my bluff, I can't lie like you do

It was beyond me why people wanted to drink so much. Don't get me wrong I wasn't against a glass of wine or other such drinks every once in a while, but, to drink to the point of throwing up your diner was beyond me. I hated it when Eva would drink, I wasn't stupid I knew of her nights where she would drink herself to sleep but, what could I do? But, then again look at where I was now, in a loud bar that stunk of all the sweat of the people moving about, the loud music that some were dancing to and the quieter groups that were on the side playing pool. As I moved through the crowd looking for her familiar face. What I found was not what I was expecting,

Wish I could tell you that I love you but I can't
Wish I could call you in the morning but I can't
Wish I could tell you that I miss you but I can't
This is not a love song
I get excited when you kiss me like that
When we're body to body like that
Wish I could tell you that I want you more than that
But this is not a love song

Eva was standing on the bar top in a beige crop top with black leather skirt that only went to her mid thigh, fishnet stalking's and a pair of black stiletto strap heels. Many thoughts went through my head as I saw her up there any ranging from I wanted to rip her off there and scold her like a father would to ripping those fishnet stalking's right off her and showing her how naughty she was being. As she stood up on that bar top moving her hands up her body sensually, she brought them gently up her body as she moved to the beat, singing along with the lyrics of the song. Once her hands reached her hair that was up in a pony tail, she dug her hands in and slipped her ponytail out and shook her hair loose. "She has been up there for almost an hour, has the DJ like putty in her hands. She keeps choosing the songs but, if she keeps up like that I'm sure we are all up for the show, eh buddy." Some guy that was extremely intoxicated had leaned into me and told me what she had been up to

My blood boiled as I looked at him to see him looking at my best friend with lust in his eyes and it wasn't just him. The girl I had truly loved for my whole entire life was standing on top of a bar top dancing provocatively for all the horny men in this building. I thought I was angry from her call earlier, oh no I was way beyond that now.

This is not a love song
It's all lies, it's all lies
Fairytale's a waste of time
It's all lies, it's all lies
You know what I want, you know what I like
No need to pretend we'll be happy in the end
No more lies, no more lies
Wish I could tell you that I love you but I can't
Wish I could call you in the morning but I can't
Wish I could tell you that I miss you but I can't
This is not a love song
I get excited when you kiss me like that
When we're body to body like that
Wish I could tell you that I want you more than that
But this is not a love song

The song had ended, and my jaw dropped as I watched her move her hips in a swaying motion before she had slipped off the counter onto some guys lap and began to stick her tongue down his throat. People began to whistle, and I had had enough of this bullshit. I pushed my way through the people that began to move to the next song. Once I reached her I grabbed her upper arm roughly before I ripped her off the brute's lap. She stumbled next to me but, I didn't remove my hand from her. The guy she had been making out with stood up and glared at me, "What the fuck do you think your doing?" he swore at me

"Yeah what the hell Christian!" Eva slurred voice grabbed my attention as she tried to wiggle from my grasp and when that failed she tried shoving me away from her with one hand

My grip got tighter, and I stood up to face the brute in front of me. "She isn't yours to have in the first place, she is mine and she is coming home. You had your fun now go find some other girl here to go home with."

I didn't want to deal with him right now, I just wanted to go home with Eva. I trusted my family to watch her tonight and here I am getting ready to drag her home. I didn't move though, and my look didn't change, I knew I was challenging the man to do something or let us walk. I could tell the man wanted to punch me, but he pursed his lips, "She your woman?" He asked

Eva may not have been in a relationship with me but, I wouldn't let her go to another man anytime she was around me. "Yeah."

Eva movement stilled beside me and I didn't know if she heard me but, I couldn't focus on her. I had to make sure that the man backed down. The man in front of me looked between me and Eva before he nodded his head firmly and turned away from me. I didn't look at Eva as I began to pull her behind me out of the bar. She seemed to come to her sense's and began to tug at her arm again, "Let me go! You're ruining my fun!" she whined

I had finally pulled her out of the bar and pulled her in front of me, letting her go then. She stumbled again and her blue eyes glared daggers at me. "What happened to telling me to leave, I told you that I don't need you." She snarled at me

I looked her up and down again and a deep hunger grew for her but, I knew my words would get thrown at me and the only way I could get her home with me is if I told her the truth, even if it was just a little piece. I stepped towards her and grabbed her shoulders gently in my hands, "Evangeline, I have always needed you," she seemed to calm down at my words, so I turned her towards where Taylor was waiting with the door open

She didn't fight to much more as she slid into the vehicle and with one frustrated look at Taylor I slid in after her.

(End of Christian p.o.v.)

I was still extremely mad that Christian had ruined my fun but, his confession calmed me down even just a little for the moment. With the rock of the vehicle, I clutched my stomach trying not to get sick in the vehicle. "Too much to drink?" Christian's amused voiced spoke beside me

I glared at him in other words trying to tell him to shut up. Once we were home I allowed Christian to grasp my hand to pull me from the car before he placed a hand on my lower back and guided me into the building and into his apartment. But, once we were in his apartment that's when the argument started, I should've known better than for him to keep his opinions to himself. "So, what was that about tonight?" he asked

I shook my head and walked ahead of him, "Its called having fun. I want to live my life, when have you ever cared on how I have done that."

I could hear Christians footsteps after me, "And snacking on someone guys face is the way you do that."

I rolled my eyes and tuned to face him, "I have never questioned your assortment of snacks, so you have no right to question mine."

"I've never did it in front of you." He bit back

He was right he never flaunted them when I was around. "You didn't have to come get me. I would have been fine."

I could tell that I was pushing his buttons as he came closer to me. "You would have been fine? I think we have very different definitions of what fine is. You would have been fine getting so drunk you forget yourself in a very public place? You would have been fine sitting on a stranger's lap making out? You would have been fine going home with a stranger with no knowledge of who he was? What if he raped you, what if he had a disease, what if he had hurt you Eva!" Christian began to get louder as he walked closer to me

I rubbed my arm uncomfortably and looked at the floor like a scorned child. "You're being a little overdramatic don't you think?"

"No, I'm not. What about your comment of if your going to die than me or him won't stop you from having fun?" he asked me while he was so close that I could feel his breath on my face. My eyes felt like they were bulging from my face, I can't believe I told him that. He grabbed my chin and pulled my face even closer to face him as he continued to speak, "who hurt you Eva? Stop hiding from me and let me take care of you."

Tears began to slip from my eyes as all my feelings rushed to the surface. Fear, loneliness and love and with the genuine look of love coming from him. I couldn't do it anymore. I felt my legs give way underneath me but, Christians arms wrapped around me holding me to him, so we didn't fall to the ground. "It was so stupid, I'm so stupid to think that I could run from him. He will kill me when he finds me Christian." As I spoke I shut my eyes tight and gripped onto his suit that I was no doubt ruining with my tears

Christian moved one hand to my hair and tangled them into them, "What are you talking about?"

"Ryan…I was seeing a guy Ryan."

"I know, you didn't think I wouldn't look into you when you were gone."

Of course, he would but, he still didn't know everything. "It was all good in the beginning, dates, fun once in a lifetime experiences, love…but, that changed with the drugs and before I knew it everything changed. He would beat me when he was angry which was all the time, he would have sex with me when it pleased him and how it pleased him." My voice cracked as I cried more

Christians hand tightened against me and I could feel his body tense against mine, "Why didn't you call anyone? Call me?" His voice pleaded with me

"I tried many times but, I just couldn't bring myself to disappoint everyone, especially you. It got so bad one day that he almost killed me if it wasn't for our neighbors calling the cops. He was supposed to be away for years and when or if he was ever released I was to be told. But…but…he found me Christian, he is out, and he is coming for me." I spit out and bit my lip in anticipation

Christian didn't say anything, and I was nervous. Did I make him mad? I just wanted to let the earth swallow me whole. "What an idiot." Christian mumbled

My grip loosened on him, he was mad at me. But who was he to call me an idiot! It struck a nerve and my heart seemed to break at him. I shoved him away from me and rubbed my eyes furiously as I glared at him. "Seriously Christian I open up to you and tell you about one of the hardest things I went through in my life! I know I was an idiot to end up in that situation you don't think I know that? Honestly!" I turned abruptly and walked to the hallway where I would hide in my room before sneaking out and leaving for good.

I had just reached the corner of the hallway when arms wrapped around me, turning me quickly around. I barely had time to register Christians face before I was lifted up into his arms and I wrapped my legs quickly around his waist, as he pushed me against the wall. One hand was under my thigh holding me up and his other hand placed beside my head. "You didn't let me finish. It isn't you who is the idiot…it was me. I let you leave all those years ago. If I had just told you to stay you wouldn't have met him," Christian told me through gritted teeth. Before he leaned forward and placed his face in my neck, letting his lips grace my skin. My heart was racing, this was different for Christian, I ached to hear his next words, "if I had told you to stay you wouldn't have had sex with someone who doesn't know how to treat a woman as special as you."

With his words it was as if my heart had completely stop.


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Brookeworm3- It will still be a rocky road to start as we all know Christian isn't a love man. But, it will be slightly different from Anastasia because Christian has been in love with here for many years. I am glad you enjoyed the last chapter and I hope I didn't disappoint with this. I am always up for ideas so thank you for yours

.9- I'm pretty sure this chapter answered all your questions or at least for the most part

MissTeller-Ortiz-Dixon- I am glad that you enjoyed it and that the chapter was able to make up for your valentine's day (Sorry about that by the way that is never good)

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