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Have I mentioned how much I love each and every one of you? Let me tell you here.

Alright let me explain this upcoming chapter.

The idea was brought up to me of Edward leaving Bella, (I have a funny feeling the person who said this was a Jacob fan...) But then again, I am no Sherlock, I'm only going on guesses.

So, I decided to listen to that crazy Jacob lover, and yeah I bet your thinking...("OMC! HE'S LEAVING HER? NOOOO!") Yeah...and you probably want to throw tomatoes at me and scream profane words...Be my guest.

JUST, read this lovely chapter first. )

P.S. Am I a Jacob Black fan?

HELLS NO!

;) He's coming up in the next few chapters...maybe he's the one you should throw tomatoes at.../

-This is Bella's POV of her thinking.-

The law and I have had a relationship ever since I can remember, gone on a few dates but I never wanted anything serious, you know. The normal relationship. Anyways, My first meeting with the lovely law was when I turned seven. I stole candy from a store and got caught. The police let me go and the owner of the store decided not to press charges, only if I promised I'd never do it again.

Three days later, I was stealing a dog from the same store, so what's wrong if my promises aren't...official?

When I turned thirteen, I got my first tattoo, It was a black heart surrounded by flames. The man that gave it to me was an ex-con, he had recently gotten out of jail and he'd give anyone a tattoo or piercing for the right price. With me, I have him money and cigarettes. NEVER SEX. He'd get 20 of anything I stole and three packs of cigs until I felt I'd given him enough. He knew what type of ink I wanted on my body and my moment fed flue to his fire.

I was doing pretty well by the age of sixteen, which is...now. My mother hardly knew I existed, the men and women she was ducking clouded her vision. I never went to her apartment, ever. The same goes for the fact that she never came looking for me.

I guess I've always been fucked up. Smoking, drinking and getting tattoos since the age of thirteen and stealing since I was seven. Now, at my current age, my body holds twenty-three tattoos, on my back, arms and waist. It also holds four piercings. My tung, my eyebrow and two piercings on my breasts. Yeah, I got brave.

I came to camp crossroads three months ago, because my mother didn't want me, because the cops where sick of me, also because I'd robbed a liqueur store. That's when I met Edward.

Even now I don't know where my feelings stand for my auburn haired sex god of a vampire boyfriend. I think, no wait, I'm positive I love him.

I never thought I'd feel this way about anyone. I was always desired by yeah, yeah, but never gave then a second look. But with Edward...everything was...different. I wanted him, really, really wanted him. Like I've never wanted ANYONE before...

"Bella?" Edward's voice pulled me from my thoughts. I glanced up at him, he stared at me, shirtless.

"Yeah?" I asked, drooling over him.

"You where staring off into space..."

"Oh, sorry."

He chuckled, "What where you thinking about?"

I sighed, "My life."

"Oh, that boring, huh?"

I glared at him, "Stop! I was thinking about my life and everything in it, and you." I sighed, "So far your the only good thing in it."

He grinned, proud. Then suddenly he appeared nervous and scared. Before I could say anything he sighed, "Bella. My family and I can't stay here any longer..."

I froze...No...no...NO!

"Hamilton is beginning to suspect why we have no other family and also, she is seconds away from catching us every time we go hunting...I...we can't stay here any longer."

My insides were burning at his words. I managed to mutter a small, "I see.."

He sighed, looking pained to tell me all of this. "I didn't want...I really wanted---"

"How long were you planning this?" I shouted, "How long were you going to sit there and act as if everything is alright?"

"Nothing is alright Bella! I'm a vampire and you...your..."

"Human." I snarled at the words, spitting them out like it was the dirtiest thing to have crossed my path.

"You see? Any moment with you...I could loose control! I could kill you!"

"I wish you would." I mumbled, hoping he hadn't herd me.

"I can't do this Bella. I put your life in danger every moment...I think of you, and I do, always. Your smell, your touch, your voice...everything."

I was close to sobbing, but I would not let him see the tears that threatened to fall.

"I don't want you to go." I whispered, for once in my life feeling...innocent.

"Bella, you need to learn to...move on. To live."

I glared at him, "What is there to live for, huh?" I shouted, "Now that your just picking up and leaving."

"I...don't want to, honest. But my family and I, we have to."

I laughed, a dry horse laugh. "That's not it though." I told him. "It's not only your family stopping you, is it?"

He didn't meet my gaze.

"Your afraid." I shouted, "Your afraid of the monster you think you are! You can't do this to yourself Edward! You can't go around everyday punishing yourself, hurting yourself over something like this."

"I want redemption." He whispered.

"Then go for it, dammit! Don't come to me and say your scared of yourself when you are near me."

"But I am!"

"Fine." I reasoned. "But, I'm not scared of you. I never have been, and I never will be. I love you."

I gasped, I didn't even mean for the words to come out of my mouth, it felt like one of those...oh crap! Moments.

He stared at me...not saying anything. "I..."

"Fine!" I said with a dry laugh, "Don't say anything...I get it."

"--Love you."

Huh?

"Bella..." Edward whispered taking about five steps from one point in the room towards me. "I love you, too."

Seconds later Edward's cold hard body was pressed up against mine. He picked me up, (I felt his hards hover over my ass...) and carried me over to the bed. He mumbled something against my ear as his lips kissed up and down the path of my neck.

"Edward..." I moaned, "What...-moan- are we doing?" He mumbled something I didn't hear.

"No. Stop! Your leaving..." I yelled pushing him off of me. "You want to fuck me before you leave? Is that it?"

He looked stunned, and by the look of his now tight jeans, so was Edward Jr.

"I want to take you with me." He whispered as he crawled back up my body. "You can leave with my family and I..." He trailed off to suck on my neck some more, "and we will be happy. Isn't that what you want?"

I felt the sudden urge to scream happily...or punch someone...but I didn't. But, I could not stop the grin from appearing on my face.

"What do you want, Edward?" I asked him, completely serious.

"I want you." he said. The love in his golden eyes was all the proof I needed.

"Edward..." I mumbled against his neck, "Make love to me."

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Muahh! Yes! I cut it off there! -Evil laugh plays-

So, how are you all doing? Did you need a box of tissues or did you laugh your ass off?

Well, anyways...

Some of you want Sex (GAWD people! Get your mind out of the gutters!) Only kidding!

Anyways, I've never written any sex pieces before –gasp-- Yeah, It's new to me. Well, I might do it if some of you lets say...encourage me? Some positive attitude towards this fan fiction might make a girl feel better...

Also,

Jacob Black -spits- Well, yeah he's going to be in the upcoming chapters...but, Bella's not going to fall for him.

Oh, and Mike Newton will be in it too! But...he'll be...erm...different.

Haha... Poor Edward! Lemme know what you think about this, I wanna see what your guesses are.

Okies, Much love.

Nicole./