This chapter is for Jenna and
Kim. Kim becos I always do, and Jenna because I am quite frankly
scared of her. Haha Love you
both!!
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I lay on the floor of my bedroom
crying. I wish he wasn't here when I'd said that out loud!
I
went to my dresser and picked up my iPod. I plugged it into my ear
and listened to the song that described me so well, and I hated
myself for it.
Shes upset Then she closed her eyes All
alone the way she feels Then she closed her eyes Curled up shes on
the floor Now shes slowly
opening... Then she opened her eyes Then she
opened her life
Bad day
Heads
for the dresser drawer to
Drive her pain away
Nothing good can
come of this.
She opens it theres nothing there
Is only left
over tears
Mom and dad had no right she screams
As the anger
runs down both of her cheeks.
And
found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries
Left alone to deal with all the
pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip just forget the
bleeding
And found relief in a
knife
The blood flows as she cries [x2]
Relief left her she had hoped for something more
From
it (hoped for something more)
From it
He leans down to comfort
her
She is weeping and He
Wraps His arms around
And around
and around and...
The deeper you cut
The deeper I hurt
The
deeper you cut
It only gets worse
New eyes...
And
found relief in His life
And put down her knives
And found relief through His eyes
And put
down
She put down her knife
When I turned that song off, because
I felt too depressed; I heard my phone going off. I went over to the
bed and picked it up.
'8 missed calls' it read and I
sniffled. I opened the log and they were all from Edward. I pressed
the green button and put the phone to my ear.
"Bella, thank
god" I heard him whispered and I sighed.
"Hey, I'm sorry; I
was listening to a song. I didn't hear my phone ringing. Are you
okay?" I whispered.
"Yeah, I'm okay. Are you" he
whispered and I sniffled.
"Yeah, I'm okay now that I can hear
your voice" I said and I heard him pant.
"Where are you?" I
whispered. I was truly worried, he just disappeared before.
"I'm
outside your door" he said and I heard a soft tap at my bedroom
door. Edward swung it open and I rushed into his arms. I kissed him
repeatedly while whimpering and apologizing.
"Bella, Bella,
Bella, I love you so much. I'm so sorry" he whispered, between
kisses.
"Edward, I shouldn't have told you that. Well I
didn't actually tell you, but I shouldn't have done it while you
were there" I whimpered between fevered kisses. He wound his arms
around my waist and carried me over to the bed. He layed me there and
lightly kissed over my collar bone.
"I want to see it" he
whispered.
"You want to see what?" I whispered, confused.
"The scar" he whimpered and I sighed. I kissed him a few more
times on the lip and then he sat up and so did i. I took off my shirt
so that I was just in my bra. He looked at my torso, not because was
half naked, but because it had a large, angry scar down the middle of
it.
He raised his hand and put it to
where the centre of my chest it, at the very top. I whimpered because
I knew he disapproved of the way I looked. His finger trailed down
the scar until he reached my stomach. I was tired to I layed back but
Edward hand remained on my stomach.
"It's bad I know" I
whispered and he removed his hand.
Suddenly, Edward kissed the scar,
from the bottom of it to the top. His trail of kisses instantly
soothed the burning memory.
"You will never harm yourself again
Bella. Do you hear me?" he whispered as he layed his head against
where my heart is. I was still only in my underwear, but he'd seen
me like this before. Back when we used to sit in my room and talk
about things that we wouldn't do now.
"I promise" I said
sincerely and Edward breathed out against my skin. I shivered
involuntarily and he got up.
"No…" I began to object but he
took his shirt off and gave it to me.
I put his shirt on without a
question and he smiled.
"What?" I asked looking down at
myself.
"You look good in my shirt" he smiled and I got the
tune of the song by Keith Urban called 'you look good in my shirt'
and I started humming it to myself.
But Edward had heard me.
"And
maybe it's a little too early, to know if this is gonna work, all I
know if you're sure looking' good in my shirt" he chuckled,
impersonating Keith Urbans' fake American accent.
"I like the
way you sing it much better" I whispered and sighed in contentment
as Edward layed down next to me.
"I love you by the way" he
whispered into my ear and I smiled.
"I love you more" I
giggled when he began tickling me, "Edward… stop! Ah…Haha" I
gasped between fits of laughter.
I fell asleep a little while later
bit I was half awoken by the sound of Edward texting.
"What are
you doing?" I whispered groggily and Edward turned to me,
startled.
"Oh, nothing, I'm just texting an old friend" he
said and I saw, even in the pitch black of my room, he smiled.
"Anyone I know?" I smiled and he
nodded.
"Yeah, and you should be jealous of her, I think I'm
in love with her" he chuckled and my heart faltered. Edward was in
love with another girl?
At that precise second, my phone went off. What a coincidence and Edward smiled innocently. My doubt and fear left when I saw that my new message was from Edward. I opened the message and my eyes instantly teared up.
Night Izzy. Thanks for being my
best friend.
Edward. It said and I sobbed happily. I turned
to Edward and he grinned happily at me. It was breathtaking.
I
pressed 'reply' and began texting. I hid it form Edward and he
got frustrated.
I typed: Night
Edward. No star could shine bright enough for my blessings of having
you as a best friend. Izzy.
And
then I pressed 'send'.
Edward's phone
buzzed and he opened it. He looked over the message and turned to me.
"You remember?" he whispered and I smiled.
"You can't
forget your best friend Edward" I chuckled and snuggled closer to
him.
"Ok, I'm sorry I woke you. Let's get some sleep now"
he whispered and I nodded happily. He wrapped his arms around me and
I felt asleep against his bare torso and had sweet dreams.
