This chapter is for Jenna and Kim. Kim becos I always do, and Jenna because I am quite frankly scared of her. Haha Love you both!!
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I lay on the floor of my bedroom crying. I wish he wasn't here when I'd said that out loud!
I went to my dresser and picked up my iPod. I plugged it into my ear and listened to the song that described me so well, and I hated myself for it.

Shes upset
Bad day
Heads for the dresser drawer to
Drive her pain away
Nothing good can come of this.
She opens it theres nothing there
Is only left over tears
Mom and dad had no right she screams
As the anger runs down both of her cheeks.

Then she closed her eyes
And found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries

All alone the way she feels
Left alone to deal with all the pain-drenched sorrow relief
Bite the lip just forget the bleeding

Then she closed her eyes
And found relief in a knife
The blood flows as she cries [x2]

Curled up shes on the floor
Relief left her she had hoped for something more
From it (hoped for something more)
From it
He leans down to comfort her
She is weeping and He
Wraps His arms around
And around and around and...
The deeper you cut
The deeper I hurt
The deeper you cut
It only gets worse

Now shes slowly opening...
New eyes...

Then she opened her eyes
And found relief in His life
And put down her knives

Then she opened her life
And found relief through His eyes
And put down
She put down her knife

When I turned that song off, because I felt too depressed; I heard my phone going off. I went over to the bed and picked it up.
'8 missed calls' it read and I sniffled. I opened the log and they were all from Edward. I pressed the green button and put the phone to my ear.
"Bella, thank god" I heard him whispered and I sighed.
"Hey, I'm sorry; I was listening to a song. I didn't hear my phone ringing. Are you okay?" I whispered.
"Yeah, I'm okay. Are you" he whispered and I sniffled.
"Yeah, I'm okay now that I can hear your voice" I said and I heard him pant.
"Where are you?" I whispered. I was truly worried, he just disappeared before.
"I'm outside your door" he said and I heard a soft tap at my bedroom door. Edward swung it open and I rushed into his arms. I kissed him repeatedly while whimpering and apologizing.
"Bella, Bella, Bella, I love you so much. I'm so sorry" he whispered, between kisses.
"Edward, I shouldn't have told you that. Well I didn't actually tell you, but I shouldn't have done it while you were there" I whimpered between fevered kisses. He wound his arms around my waist and carried me over to the bed. He layed me there and lightly kissed over my collar bone.
"I want to see it" he whispered.
"You want to see what?" I whispered, confused.
"The scar" he whimpered and I sighed. I kissed him a few more times on the lip and then he sat up and so did i. I took off my shirt so that I was just in my bra. He looked at my torso, not because was half naked, but because it had a large, angry scar down the middle of it.

He raised his hand and put it to where the centre of my chest it, at the very top. I whimpered because I knew he disapproved of the way I looked. His finger trailed down the scar until he reached my stomach. I was tired to I layed back but Edward hand remained on my stomach.
"It's bad I know" I whispered and he removed his hand.

Suddenly, Edward kissed the scar, from the bottom of it to the top. His trail of kisses instantly soothed the burning memory.
"You will never harm yourself again Bella. Do you hear me?" he whispered as he layed his head against where my heart is. I was still only in my underwear, but he'd seen me like this before. Back when we used to sit in my room and talk about things that we wouldn't do now.
"I promise" I said sincerely and Edward breathed out against my skin. I shivered involuntarily and he got up.
"No…" I began to object but he took his shirt off and gave it to me.

I put his shirt on without a question and he smiled.
"What?" I asked looking down at myself.
"You look good in my shirt" he smiled and I got the tune of the song by Keith Urban called 'you look good in my shirt' and I started humming it to myself.

But Edward had heard me.
"And maybe it's a little too early, to know if this is gonna work, all I know if you're sure looking' good in my shirt" he chuckled, impersonating Keith Urbans' fake American accent.
"I like the way you sing it much better" I whispered and sighed in contentment as Edward layed down next to me.
"I love you by the way" he whispered into my ear and I smiled.
"I love you more" I giggled when he began tickling me, "Edward… stop! Ah…Haha" I gasped between fits of laughter.

I fell asleep a little while later bit I was half awoken by the sound of Edward texting.
"What are you doing?" I whispered groggily and Edward turned to me, startled.
"Oh, nothing, I'm just texting an old friend" he said and I saw, even in the pitch black of my room, he smiled.

"Anyone I know?" I smiled and he nodded.
"Yeah, and you should be jealous of her, I think I'm in love with her" he chuckled and my heart faltered. Edward was in love with another girl?

At that precise second, my phone went off. What a coincidence and Edward smiled innocently. My doubt and fear left when I saw that my new message was from Edward. I opened the message and my eyes instantly teared up.

Night Izzy. Thanks for being my best friend.
Edward
. It said and I sobbed happily. I turned to Edward and he grinned happily at me. It was breathtaking.
I pressed 'reply' and began texting. I hid it form Edward and he got frustrated.
I typed: Night Edward. No star could shine bright enough for my blessings of having you as a best friend. Izzy.
And then I pressed 'send'.
Edward's phone buzzed and he opened it. He looked over the message and turned to me.
"You remember?" he whispered and I smiled.
"You can't forget your best friend Edward" I chuckled and snuggled closer to him.
"Ok, I'm sorry I woke you. Let's get some sleep now" he whispered and I nodded happily. He wrapped his arms around me and I felt asleep against his bare torso and had sweet dreams.