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A/N- Robs: JPOV! And dinner with his family, how do you think it will go? We shall see! I need to thank some people with their help on this chapter, Linds, My brother, Tippi, Ray and Kat. Fair warning, this is a fairly graphic drug use chapter, so if you do not want to read it wait for the chapter breaker with the ! at the beginning and end and just end the chapter there. It is fairly important to the story, but Alice will sort of fill you in the next chapter.

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The Slippery Slope.

Flirting is the art of making a man feel pleased with himself.

I woke up with the worst case of morning wood from a really good dream, and a girl who was extremely willing to help me with it.

Alice. I let her live with me and now it's like having my own personal little sex kitten, who gives blow jobs for a living. Yeah.

I meant what I had told her the night before… about me wishing that she actually liked the way I touched her. She was a very good actress. She told me what I wanted to hear the night before, but truly, it didn't matter. I wasn't in love with her; I wasn't going to fall in love with her so it was no big deal.

I waited until she fell deep asleep last night before trying anything with her, kissing her a few times to see if she'd return the kiss, it didn't happen and made me slightly sad. I loved the feel of her lips, I even dreamed about making out with her, and then woke up to her stroking me and purring out a nickname for me in my ear. Shit is ten kinds of erotic.

Then got a quickie in before visiting my dad, who gave me a lecture about how condoms can fuck with pap results, then when I told him we didn't use a condom I got another lecture about how I should protect myself and her… Yada, yada, yada. Seriously, it's not like I've done it before. Usually I'm really careful. Just… I don't know, with Alice I felt like I was safe.

Then after my physical, I took Alice to Wal-Mart to get something to wear. Shopping two days in a row, this girl must have some sort of hold on me because I hate shopping. There is a reason Edward buys my groceries and Esme still buys my clothes. I despise shopping, but with Alice, it was okay. Especially buying her panties. My lord, if I ever get a good enough job, I am taking her somewhere better. Like Victoria's Secret or some shit that chicks like.

At the apartment is when I realized that we were more like a couple than a roommate situation. I wondered if she had figured that out yet too. I was lost in thought when my brain was fogged by the smell of bacon. Then I fucked everything up by freaking out about the knife. Damn thing wasn't even being held or anything. I wanted to crawl in a hole and die, but of course, Alice was there to make me feel better. I was really starting to believe that she was sent here to be mine. That she was made for me, but I was still apprehensive. God hates me, what is he going to do to mess me up about her.

That's when I decided not to fall in love with her. It could be that easy right? You just make a choice and don't let yourself fall; I could see how I could fall for this chick pretty easy. I wouldn't let myself do it. I would continue to act polite and sweet to her. After all; she is a doll. But I was going to continue on my path.

But first we had to get to dinner. After we ate out BLTs Alice went into the shower and I got dressed, and brushed my hair. Then Ed arrived about ten minutes early. I gave him a shit eating grin when he told me I got cleaned up and flipped him off. Then we went and sat on the couch while Alice finished, we both knew better than to rush a girl.

Then we started to talk about her.

"What was that look for last night, Ed?" I raised an eyebrow at him.

"What look?" He gave me a look of complete innocence. Too bad I saw through that shit.

"The look of 'oh my God I want to fuck your girl' last night when she introduced herself to you." I smirked at him.

"She's pretty cool." Edward blushed, looking at his feet. I laughed and patted his shoulder. At least I wasn't the only one affected by Alice. I got up shaking my head at him and tapped on the bathroom door.

"Darlin', you almost ready?"

"Just a second," her voice called from behind the door. I stood, dutifully waiting, and Edward moved from the couch to stand by the front door just as Alice opened the bathroom door and stood in front of me.

My pants seemed to get tighter as I took in her look. The dress fitting her body perfectly and the shoes made her calves look incredible. My eyes locked with hers as I watched her cheeks get rosy. "Now I'm ready." Her voice was sure, but her smile seemed a little nervous, so I smiled at her reassuringly and offered her my arm which she seemed to take gladly.

The car ride was a bit awkward; Alice sat in the back because she figured I would be more comfortable in the front, and trying to separate myself from the temptation of molesting her in the backseat of my brother's car. I agreed, but kept sneaking glances at her in the rear-view mirror watching her as she looked out the window of the car, taking in the landscape.

About forty-five minutes later, we pulled up in front of the house. I looked in the mirror to take in Alice's reaction. Her eyes grew wide as we pulled into the garage and Edward and I both got out, opening Alice's door to help her out as she looked around in wonder. I laughed a little internally, remembering the first time I had seen this house, it was huge, bigger than the house in Texas even. I could just imagine what Alice was thinking.

I smiled at her and took her hand, our fingers lacing together as I pulled her behind me and walked through the door into the mudroom, then to the kitchen where Esme was chopping something at the island looking absolutely perfect in a light blue dress and her white and blue floral apron.

"We're home!" Edward announced, causing Esme to jump a little and turn towards us.

"Oh God, Edward," She held a hand up to her heart. "I don't understand how y'all walk so quietly." She looked at him as he walked up and gave her a hug.

"Sorry Mom."

"It's fine dear. Go set the table." She pointed towards the dining room before turning towards me and giving me a warm smile. "Jasper." I let go of Alice's hand to walk over and give her a hug. She hugged me back tightly before pulling away and giving me the once over with her critical eye.

"Hey mom," I said meekly.

"You're skinner. Jasper, don't you eat?" I rolled my eyes and motioned for Alice to join us and felt Alice's presence at my side. Esme's eyes darted over to her and looked her over, smiling in approval.

"Mom, this is Alice, my-" I cut myself off. I almost called her my girlfriend. What the fuck is wrong with you, Jasper? "Alice, this is my mom, Esme."

I felt her get closer to me, I looked down at her a little confused, was she shy? "Nice to meet you Mrs. Cullen." Well, at least she's polite. Esme beamed at her.

"Please dear, call me Esme. It's nice to meet you as well, Carlisle said you would be joining us, I hope you like steak." She nudged me lightly, knowing my intense fear of knives. "We got Jasper's favorite. So tender you can cut it with a butter knife." I could practically feel my stomach dancing the mariachi inside of me. I smiled at her.

"That sounds great, thank you." I looked back down at her to see her smile shyly. That's so fucking cute. I took her hand and felt her fingers lace with mine again.

The gesture didn't escape Esme's notice, she tilted her head a little at me and gave me a knowing smile. Oh no, not you too.

"How about you give Alice a tour of the house Jazz." She moved back to the island and resumed her chopping, making me shiver a little and turn away reminding myself that it was Esme who held the knife and started to walk toward the living room.

"She's nice," Alice whispered. "And very pretty." I almost kissed her for being so sweet. I needed desperately to show her to my room. I needed to touch her before I exploded.

"She is very nice. Thank you." I responded politely as I pointed out rooms moving towards the stairs and leading her up them. I pointed Carlisle's office and then opened the door to my room.

"This was my room, well, still is my room." I chucked, letting her walk in first and then shutting the door quietly behind me. I looked around as she seemed to do the same. My room hadn't changed since I left, a king sized bed sat in the middle of the room, baseball trophies still on the selves that lined my walls. Bookcases filled with books lined the wall that didn't have a window. I moved to sit on the edge of my bed, watching as Alice looked around.

She moved to look at my trophies. "You play baseball?" She looked at me over her shoulder, making me imagine her doing that very same thing, only naked and moaning.

I smirked a little at her. "Used to." Why? you impressed?

She chewed her lip while turning to look at me. "Umm... when did you graduate?" She asked, I saw her cheeks get a little pink. It wasn't that long ago that I graduated.

"2006."

She nodded a little in response, her cheeks getting red. "Sorry, you're gonna think I'm an idiot, but that makes you what in your early twenties?" That made me chuckle a little, she was asking all this to try and figure out how old I was? Sure now she cares about shit like that.

I leaned back on my elbows, looking at her and wetting my lips a little. "Twenty one. I turn twenty two in December."

I could tell she was calculating in her head, probably our age difference, which worried me a little bit, before my good little actress smoothed out her features with a nice smile. "This is a nice room…"

She's good at changing the subject as well. I nodded a little in response to her. "It hasn't changed much." I told her, looking around and noticing that the pictures of scantly clad women had mysteriously disappeared.

She turned and started to look some more at the trophies, running her finger along one of the figures. "My mom used to say it wasn't the decorations that change, just the person." I smiled at that thought.

"Yeah I didn't really take anything with me when I left for college. I just figured I'd buy everything new." I shrugged a little, smiling a little at how stupid that thought was now.

She turned to face me and I noticed she seemed to be wringing her hands nervously. She was nervous, I've fucked her ten ways from Sunday and she's still nervous around me, that's kinda funny to me. I smiled at her. "That makes sense. So, what position were you when you played?"

"Short stop."

She smiled at that. "I was told I had a wicked curve ball." She bit into her soft full bottom lip, making me want her even more. I licked my bottom lip again.

"Com'ere please?"

"Okay," she walked over to me, giving me a cute half smile as she stood in front of me. I rolled myself so I was still leaning looking up at her, but resting on an elbow.

"Are you okay with how old I am?"

"Oh yeah," she nodded her head vigorously and sat next to me looking at her hands as I caught a glimpse of the blue lace of one of the new bras I bought her, set off against her skin, making my dick throb in my pants. "I must seem like a fool for not asking sooner, huh?"

I smirked at her a little, "Nope." I said, I moved us so she was sitting on my lap, one leg up on the bed and the other dangling off the side, her body was sideways and she looked up at me, her blue eyes looked wide and innocent. I leaned down and kissed her neck gently, placing my hand on the other side of her neck and bringing her closer to me as I inhaled her fragrance. She smelled good, sweet, like vanilla. She wiggled against me and giggled.

Fuck, if she wanted me to follow my mom's rules, she better stop that.

"You look really nice by the way." Her voice was sweet and honest.

"Thank you." I smiled and looked back down her dress at the lace that barely hid her tits from me. "You look good too." I met her eyes smirking.

"Aren't you glad I had you wait to see it? The full effect is a ton better than what you would have seen when I tried it on." She grinned at me as I moved her so my very apparent erection was now pressed against her cloth covered ass and sighed.

"No, because it obviously has a good effect on me." For an added emphasis I rolled my hips up into her. "But we can't do anything because I will be shot if I have sex under this roof."

"Oh!" She turned a little, lifting her leg up again and buried her face in my chest. I automatically grabbed her leg to keep her from falling off of me when she spun the way she did. However bad it may seem, the minute my hand touched the soft warm flesh of her thigh, I couldn't keep my thoughts straight. I needed to touch her and hear her moan, just a little bit.

I started to massage her thigh, making her legs automatically open for me as she fisted my shirt in her hands. Moving my hand closer and closer to wear I could make her moan, I had to bite my lip to fight the urge to lay her back on the bed and take her right then.

"Jasper... not a good idea right now don't you think?" She groaned a little into my chest.

My fingertips brushed the lacey fabric that covered her core, she was wet. That made me smirk as I leaned to whisper in her ear, "I just wanna hear you moan a little."

She looked up at me her eyes were slightly lidded, telling me she wanted it. "What if someone walks in?" Oh fuck, I want her, fuck Esme's rule, I'm gonna fuck her in this over-fluffy bed. I moved her so she was on her back and I was at her side, running my lips along her neck.

"Listen for the creak." I told her, remembering the creak on the stairs I learned the hard way about so many years ago as I massaged her other thigh, making her bite her lip in earnest.

"I don't know Jasper," her voice came out in a husky whisper. I licked my lips watching her mouth and lightly brushed my fingertips along the lace.

"Or you could kiss me and no one will hear you moan." That wasn't a question, there was no way I was going to let her moan all crazy loud at my parent's house, I would force my tongue in her mouth to muffle her if I had to.

"Jasper, that's not funny." Her tone became quite serious, which was interesting because I wasn't joking.

"What isn't?" I asked her, moving my hand away from her crotch. She instantly started to sit up, I wasn't moving my hand for her to sit up, I half felt like shoving her back into the bed.

"Never mind," She said, shaking her head. Fuck seriously, all this because of a fucking kiss. My hand grabbed her crotch, rubbing it fiercely through the material as I glared at her. Give me something Alice. I heard her breath catch a little and she leaned her head into me. "Jasper, please." I could hear the tears in her voice. Fuck it. I really don't need this. I pushed her away from me gently and pulled my hand from her.

"Fine." I spat at her, getting up and swiftly moving towards the door I yanked it open. I could just go see Maria tonight, two birds, one stone. I walked out the door glancing back at her over my shoulder as she slowly got up and started fixing her dress. I wish I wasn't so attracted to her. "Dinner is probably ready anyway."

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Dinner turned out delicious as always, steaks were perfect, and veggies were perfect, honestly if anyone were to ever give Esme a superpower, she'd be super-mom. That was until she opened her mouth.

"So how did you meet our Jazz?" My head snapped up when she asked Alice that, Esme, of course, was smiling pleasantly.

"At his work," Alice said quietly. That made me smile; I only hoped she didn't ask how many days that had been. Three days. It had been three days since this dark haired nymph whirled into my life and made me do crazy shit I never did for anyone.

"Did he make you smile?" I heard my brother's voice say from across the table. I shot him a dirty look. I knew he and Carlisle knew, but they really didn't need to say anything to Esme.

I watched Alice out of the corner of my eye as she bit her lip.. "He was very polite and that made me smile, so yes he did." I turned my head to her; I made her cry and stormed out of my own apartment like a spoiled toddler when I could've gotten a piece of ass, all because she wouldn't kiss me. I felt Esme's hand touch my forearm and give it a quick squeeze.

"Aww that's sweet." She beamed at me before turning to Alice again.

If you say so mom.

"Edward says you're staying with Jazz?" Alice's eyes grew wide and I shifted in my seat nervously before looking back down at my plate. I had no clue how to answer that to my mom. I was pretty sure she wouldn't approve of me living in sin with any girl, much less a sixteen year old.

"Yes ma'am, he's allowing me to stay at his place for a while." I saw in peripheral two things, Esme nod and then Carlisle shoot her a look that told her to not say what she was going to say; instead she just smiled at Alice.

"You look pretty tonight mom." Edward's voice drifted from across the table to me, ass-kisser. Esme grinned at him and thanked him of course, but he wasn't done. "You look really nice too Alice." My head snapped up to look at him; he was giving her his famous panty-melting-angels-must-fucking-sing-when-he-does-it-because-of-the-way-girls-react-to-it half-smile.

"Thank you." Ahh, and there is that angel's voice now. I looked at her, seeing if she liked my brother's smile, sure as shit she did, the blush making that evident. Normally, I am not a jealous man, as a matter of fact; I tended to try and push my girl's in Ed's direction, hoping he'd bite. Usually it was nothing, but as I sat looking from her and my brother I had this sudden urge to throw him through something, I felt my teeth start to grind together.

"Jasper, you going to go back to college yet?" Esme asked me, I continued to glare at Ed, who stared back.

"No."

"What about you Alice, you in college?" If I weren't fighting every urge to throttle Ed at that particular moment I would've looked at Esme funny. Did Alice look old enough to be going to college?

"Um, no ma'am. I'm in between with my schools right now." She still sounded nervous. I was fighting the urge to save her, steal my old bronco's keys and just taking her home. This was obviously a very bad idea. I glanced at Alice sideways, her chest was heaving a little in nervousness, the swell of her breasts was peaking out from the top of her dress, instantly giving me the hugest hard on imaginable. Fuck did I need to get off. Leave it to Edward though, he started to chuckle.

"Code for she's still in high school mom, but she's a runaway so she can't enroll. Hence why she is staying with Jasper. Lord knows if she had a choice she wouldn't be." My eyes shot back to my brother, his eyes dared me to say something. He and I both knew that the beautiful creature sitting next to me wasn't really my girlfriend, but fuck he's an asshole. He smirked at me as I gripped the seat of my chair the only thing keeping me in my place was Esme sitting between us. Esme mumbled an apology and went back to her eating, no doubt trying to diffuse the situation.

I was pissed though; nothing was going to calm me down. Well, nothing that was until I felt a small cool hand on top of my own, even though I didn't know her long I instantly knew. Alice. I glanced at her again as she looked at me concerned. "No it's okay Esme. But yes as Edward was so kind to point out, I'm still in high school. And I think that it was very kind of Jasper to offer me a place to stay when that kind of thing is very unheard of as of late, don't you agree Edward?" I saw her give Edward a sort of dirty look. She was defending me? That's an interesting turn of events.

"I guess so." I looked back at Edward's smug face and gave him an eyebrow. "I'm surprised he lets you live there for free…" Everything in my body twitched, I knew I was getting sex as payment, but still Edward is El douche extraordinaire today, I wasn't taking anything from her that wasn't freely given and I'd probably still let her stay even if she wasn't sleeping with me, in every sense of the word.

"Enough Edward." Carlisle's voice was soothing, but there was a tone to it that you couldn't refuse. I turned my hand and laced my fingers with Alice's looking down at our joined hands as I did so. I smiled a little at that.

"Jasper, honey, I know that a guest is here, but you never take my calls and I heard you're not seeing the therapist anymore... can I ask why?" Fuck. I groaned loudly and rested my head against the table eyes still locked on our hands. Alice was my savior I knew it. "She said you were still seeing Maria." I almost cried as Alice let go of my hand as if it were fire, moving her hand back into her own lap. Maria, she was none of anyone's business, but mine. I needed her, why didn't people understand that?

I didn't know I was on my feet till I heard the sound of the chair hitting the floor. "Isn't her telling you shit against like some shit? I'll be back." I stormed out of the room, away from Esme and her unyielding questions, Edward and his overbearing smugness and Carlisle and his… Well, there's really nothing wrong with my father-figure. I pulled out my smokes as I went, putting one between my lips and lighting the minute I got to the front door. I sat on the stoop and leaned against the door frame listening to them talk about me.

First thing I heard was Esme apologizing to Alice; and Alice, as always, said it was okay. I rolled my eyes at how much that girl said that.

"I do have a question but I don't think it's my place to ask." I heard her voice, sounds soft, but all at the same time firm. Her voice turns me on. I closed my eyes listening to it.

"Ask away." I held my breath, expecting her to ask him anything. Anything except what she asked.

"Don't you think you were kinda being a," She stopped for a brief second. "For lack of a better word, a dick to Jasper?" I heard her apologize for her language, but was dancing internally because she stood up to Edward, whom girls always thought was more handsome, more intelligent, more… pfft - whatever than me. She was standing up to him for me.

"Don't you think it's kinda wrong that he keeps you as a sort of pet?" I almost forgot the damned rules and brought the cigarette into the house to beat the crap out of Edward. I may love him, but fuck he was being a jack-ass. I do not keep her like a pet. Do I? Alice's laugh drifted towards me it sounded like bells to me.

"See that's where you're wrong, Edward. The agreement we have is I help him with things such as cooking and cleaning. He protects me by providing me a safe place to sleep at night. Would you rather he let me stay out on the streets? Surely you were raised better then that?" Checkmate motherfucker. I smirked, he couldn't fight against that.

"I'm sorry I assumed differently. When I came in the apartment this morning, I automatically assumed badly." I could hear the bullshit laced in his tone. He didn't believe her for a minute, but without calling us out outright in front of Esme he couldn't say shit.

"Yes, next time you should know the finer details before you assume things." She sounded smug, and proud of herself. I smiled a little at that. I heard Esme tell Edward to eat his food and ask Alice to come closer to her, I knew they were whispering. I was pretty sure it was about me and fairly certain it was about Maria. Well, whatever, one less person I get to tell my life story to.

Suddenly the whispering stopped and I could hear Esme telling Alice about the girls, or rather the lack of girls, Edward and I have brought home. I finished up my cigarette listening to Alice talk about how Edward had made his invitation seem like I brought girl's home all the time and Esme explained how she's never minded who we brought over. I think Esme just really liked to entertain people and of course, embarrass us immensely. I butted out my cigarette, looking at my shaky hands and walked back into the house, much more relaxed, and thinking about getting high.

I rounded the corner to see Alice cocking her head to one side and looking smug about something. On her, I love that look. "So you mean.... Edward has yet to bring a girl home as well?" I saw the back of Edward's neck grow red and that made me rejoice within. I smirked at Alice and licked my lips, thinking of the last time I saw her with that look on her face.

"Edward is just about to join the priesthood. Ain't yah?" I clapped Edward hard on the back as both Carlisle and Esme shook their heads at us. Alice glanced up from Edward and smiled warmly up at me, that smile made me feel guilty for my plans later on tonight. I returned to my seat next to her.

"Welcome back." She laced her fingers with mine again, making me feel guiltier, but I had to get my stuff. I was sure that my hand was shaking so hard it was probably shaking hers as well. I looked at Edward who was scowling at me. Carlisle got up and went to his study after excusing himself and exchanging pleasantries with Alice. I already knew my adoptive parents liked her.

After that, Alice thanked Esme for dinner which earned a comment about me and Ed's pissing contest, making me want my car even more. I decided to ask her about it figuring it was worth another shot, she turned me down every time, but there's no shame in trying.

"Mom... can I have my car?" Esme thought about it for a moment before looking at Alice. Wow she was gonna ignore me?

"Do you have your license?" Or not. I raised my eyebrow at the petite chick sitting next to me holding my hand as she nodded.

"Yes ma'am."

Esme looked back at me, "You may have your car back on two conditions."

"Okay." Whatever you want I just want transportation again!

"I keep the title so you can't sell it." I nodded immediately to that one, she gave me a hard look and continued, "And, Alice drives it." I scowled a little instantaneously.

"Wait, what?" I heard Alice's voice from next to me, she didn't really want to drive my car either that relaxed me a little; it would be easy to convince her of what I wanted.

"I don't want Jasper to total it," Esme answered Alice, and made me roll my eyes. I wasn't that much of an idiot to drive my car after I had been doing shit.

"Okay... but I don't know the area and I don't want to get lost and then have…" She trailed off, I could see her shake her head in my peripheral. "Never mind, um... if Jasper's okay with it then I understand." I watched as she looked down to our hands. I gently rubbed the side of her hand with my thumb.

Edward got up at that moment and came over to us, making me part with Alice's hand. "Well since I don't have to drive you home," I tried to not watch as he kissed Alice's hand, making Alice's cheeks turn a little pink. I hate that blush, but all at the same time, oh how I love it. He squeezed my shoulder in passing and then gave Esme a peck on the cheek before jogging up the stairs to his room. I looked over at Alice who was looking at her hands again.

"Let's go home," I said, watching as Alice's eyes darted up to meet mine and she bit her lip, giving me puppy eyes as she nodded.

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The drive back to the apartment was quiet, she was focused on the road and I was getting shakier by the minute. I needed a fix and soon. We pulled out in front of the building and parked where Edward usually parked; Alice cut the engine and looked at me.

Well, Jay man it's now or never. I bit my lip and looked at her earnestly. "Can I borrow my car for a bit?"

"Oh." Her eyes went wide and she looked at the keys that sat in her hand. "I didn't know you had plans afterwards…" She trailed off, chewing her lip, that stab of guilt hit me again, and she knew where I was going.

Damn Esme.

I tried to be as charming and charismatic as I knew how to be. I tilted my head and looked at her my eyes willing her to look at me. "I need to blow off some steam; I'll be in bed with you when you wake up." I promised.

Alice nodded and closed her eyes, giving up. "Esme's gonna kill me." She opened her eyes and met mine finally, looking deep, seemingly into my soul. I couldn't break the connection and look away, I was transfixed. I felt the tingles as her fingers brushed against the palm of my hand leaving the keys there, "Please be careful."

I nodded slightly, taking the keys from her and scooting over the seat to the driver's side as she got out, still lost in her eyes. She could probably drag me home and fuck me senseless right now, I wouldn't fight it. She broke away to look where she was stepping and I regained conscious thought. "Remember my rules, lock the door, and don't let anyone in." She looked back up at me as I shut the driver's side door and smiled at her. I really didn't want to go see Maria, I need to find another supplier of my drugs.

"Jasper?" she asked, holding on to the door and standing on the step looking into the window at me. The look in her eyes made my insides all queasy, in a both good and bad ways.

"Yeah?"

She did what I least expected, she kissed my cheek and smiled at me, her cheeks rosy with that blush of hers. "Thank you for taking me to you parents. I'll see you when I wake up?" It was as if someone's icy hand reached in a squeezed my heart. The only thing keeping me from taking her upstairs and ravaging her all night was my shaking hands and my burning need to get high. I had to. I felt like I was about to get sick without it.

"Good night darlin'." I nodded my head a little at her, trying to force a smile.

"Night Jazzy." She sounded so happy as she bounced down and started to walk away.

I need it. I thought as I started the engine and drove in the direction of Maria's. I pray this doesn't last long.

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I pulled my pants back on quietly. I didn't need to wake this bitch up. Then I would be forced to do more things with her and really, I had a hard enough time getting off the first time. I didn't know what was wrong with me, but she felt wrong. All wrong, everything, her smell, her taste. God it was maddening.

I grabbed the shit she gave me, three rocks. She was feeling generous tonight. I shoved them in my pocket and walked out, running to the bronco sitting by the curb, quickly getting in and starting. I drove off without even looking back. I lit a cigarette lazily, getting anxious for my high.

The minute I got back to the apartment I peeked my head into the bedroom, Alice was sleeping curled up on her side in a ball. I smiled and shut the door quietly, went to the kitchen, dug in one of the bottom drawers, grabbing the bag I had in there and took it with me into the bathroom.

Before I got high I decided to take a shower, quickly and thoroughly washing the sweat and smell of whore off of me. Once I got out, I dressed in grey sweatpants and a white undershirt. I wanted to be comfortable, seeing as I wasn't gonna work all day.

Then I sat my shit up, getting my needle ready, placing my rock on the spoon and melting it slowly, sucking it into the needle and making sure the needle had no air in it. Using a sock I made a tourniquet, fisted my hand and found a vein quickly, puncturing it and pushing the syringe letting the venom flow through my system, and letting go of the sock at the same time.

Bliss.

Happiness.

Everything is good and right again. My body felt good and strong, my spirits were raised and… I looked around myself.

I should clean up.

I cleaned the bathroom and carefully put my supplies away before heading to the bedroom. Alice, my mind and body called to me. I wanted Alice. I walked into the room and looked at the time. 4a.m. The sun wouldn't shine in the windows, and therefore it probably wouldn't be a good idea to wake her up.

But I want her awake! My mind whined to me.

No.

I looked around again to keep myself busy and found her bag. I could unpack her things; find places for the dress, her clothes, underwear. My mind raced with the possibilities. I shifted around my dresser drawers, and organized my closet, making space for her in these areas. I put her bathroom stuff on a shelf in the bathroom and left her art supplies in the bag, then sat the bag near the bay window in the living room.

Because that only took an hour, I cleaned the kitchen top to bottom, by the time I was finished with that the sun was starting to peak in the east. I smiled.

Alice.

I went into the bedroom and crawled in bed next to her. Running my nose along her neck, savoring her smell. She smells of fucking sunshine. I swear she does. I ran my teeth gently along her neck as well, dipping my tongue out a little and savoring how sweet she tasted.

Wake up. Wake up. Wake up. My mind called out to her.


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