~She'll lie and steal and cheat, and beg you from her knees.
Make you thinks she means it this time
She'll tear a hole in you, the one you can't repair
But I still love her, I don't really care
When we were young, Oh Oh, we did enough
When it got cold, Ooh Ooh, we bundled up
I can't be told, Ah Ah It can't be done~
"Are you serious? You know what? I'm tired of your shit! Yeah I said it!" Lauren said getting out of the car and slamming the door as she made her way to the driver side window. "You love me! You hate me! You wanna be with me, you don't! Pick one! God dammit pick one! Don't, I'm done Camila, I quit." Lauren said, her green eyes darker than usual with her nostrils flaring, hands in the air all in frustration and anger staring at the love of her life who was still in the driver's seat with her hands on the steering wheel, not making eye contact.
"I'm outta here." She mumbled as she began to walk down the side if the road.
Camila started the engine as she slowly drove along side the older brunette who was still fuming over the pictures that had been printed in the tabloids.
Camila wasn't completely out to the public yet and she had recently attended an event where pictures of her and a certain male counterpart looked very warm and cozy. Lauren couldn't stand it; it made her sick to her stomach and she knew that Camila had to choose. She had to come out and be happy with who she was and who she was with or continue to please the rest of the world. Lauren was tired of being put on the back burner. She was done.
"Baby, it's late, pllleeeaaasseee get back in the car, lets go home." Camila said trying to reason with her girlfriend as she watched green eyes glare at her and proceed to walk straight ahead.
"'Baby?' Don't Camz. Don't." She let out a puff of air and shook her head as she kept walking, tears forming in her eyes.
"Just leave me alone." Her voice was barely audible as she began to cry.
Camila heard her voice crack and could see the tears streaming down her face. What have I done, she thought to herself. It absolutely broke her heart to see Lauren this way. It was all her fault.
The green-eyed beauty had told the younger brunette to take as much time as she needed, that she understood and loved her. Seeing the love of her life walking down the street at midnight with tears running down her face, she knew she waited to long.
"Lauren! It's sprinkling, please, just get in the car." Her face filled with heartache at the sight in front of her.
Camila abruptly pulled the car cutting her girlfriend off; she was NOT letting her walk for 10 miles in the rain. She opened the door and got out of the car and stood in front of Lauren.
"Lo, baby, please," She said in a soft voice as she placed both hands on her hips. "Lets talk about this in the car; I don't want you getting sick." She dipped her head in search for green eyes that were reluctant to look at her.
Lauren pushed Camila's hands off of her and made her way to the passenger side and into the car.
The drive to their house was silent. It was colder in the car than it was outside, at least for Camila.
Lauren finally broke the silence as they approached the gate to their home, "I think you should find somewhere else to stay."
Camila's head snapped to the right. "Lo, can we at least talk about thi-"
"I don't want to talk Camila, I'm tired of talking about the same thing and the result never changing." Lauren replied in defeat as she stepped out of the car and walked into their home, alone.
Camila watched her heart walk away and close the door behind her from the rearview mirror. She knew if she sat in her car any longer and waited she would fall apart then and there, she kind of did.
***Ritz Hotel, Downtown Los Angeles, CA***
Camila had been in and out of a drunken state for the last two weeks. Lauren wasn't returning any of her phone calls or text messages, she was breaking, NO, she was broken.
~Knock-Knock-Knock~
"Camila! Open the door! We know you're in there!" Normani yelled.
~Knock-Knock-Knock~
"Mila! Open the doo-" Ally was cut off by the door suddenly opening.
Camila sat on the recliner with her head leaning back on the chair and her eyes closed. Her two best friends sat across from her on the couch, analyzing, with concern, the younger brunette in front of them.
"Camila, this place is filth and when was the last time you showered?" Normani asked looking around the hotel room that looked like a hoarder had occupied it.
"Why does it matter?" She answered bringing her face down to her hands as she hunched over.
"Mila, we're worried about you. What's going on in that head of yours huh? Talk to us." Ally said as she approached the younger girl and began to rub her shoulders.
Camila began sobbing uncontrollably, her emotions completely taking over her entire body, as her sobs got louder. Both girls collapsed by her side to soothe her.
"I fucked up." She said in between sobs as she slowly looked up at her best friends. "I really fucked up, she won't take my phone calls or text me back. What am I supposed to do? She won't even talk to me." She continued while putting her hand over her heart and scrunching her shirt.
She was in pain. Both Normani and Ally could tell that their best friend's heart was broken and all they could do was listen and hug her; be there for her.
~It's better to feel pain, than nothing at all
The opposite of love's indifference
So pay attention now, I'm standing on your porch screaming out
And I won't leave until you come downstairs
So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, keep your love~
Camila let out a slight mocking chuckle to herself. "I REALLY did it this time didn't I?" she said as she wiped the tears with the back of her hands. "I manage to push away the one person I love the most in this world," She shook her head, "how could I be so stupid?"
Ally and Normani watched Camila stand up, her face changed all of a sudden. Almost as if a sense of realization and determination took over.
"Mila, you okay?" Ally asked.
"Hello, earth to Mila," Normani said while waving her hand in front of Camila's face, as the younger girl continued to stare at who knows what.
"What's wrong with me?" Camila asked rhetorically as she shook her head and looked from Ally to Normani. "Lauren's my EVERYTHING, she's my HEART and I'm here, moping around? I gotta get my girl back!" Her voice filled with determination.
***Cabello/Jauregui Residence, Hollywood Hills, CA***
"I'm crazy right Dinah? I'm crazy! Ugh!" Lauren said as she paced back and forth her hands moving about expressing her emptions. "Why do I love her so much? Why? She's messy, she REFUSES to eat anything but corn and pizza, she leaves the cap off of the toothpaste when I ask her not to, she's unreasonably obsessed and she drives me completely INSANE!"
"But…" Dinah trailed off knowing there was more to Lauren's venting than just the bad.
~And I don't blame ya dear for running like you did, all these years.
I would do the same, you best believe
And the highway signs say were closed, but I don't read those things anymore
I never trusted my own eyes~
"She writes me love notes on the mirror while I'm in the shower, she makes me fresh coffee in the morning with an inch of nonfat milk with two packets of sweet and low because she knows that's the only way I'll drink it," Lauren began to sniffle at the memories running through her, "at night, when I fall asleep while reading, she marks my page for me, when I'm sick she watches scary movies with me even though I know she absolutely hates them and when I'm restless, she holds me and sings to me."
The floodgates opened and Lauren began crying, her heart pulling at every string completely confusing her. She couldn't continue to live like THIS, as a secret, but she knew who had her heart. Camila held it in her hands and she knew that.
Dinah quickly wrapped her arms around her best friend in an attempt to comfort her. "I know you love her Laur, I know you do. Love is unpredictable, it's insane, impulsive and makes you do things you would never do, but that's the beauty of it. Talk to her Laur." She said sympathetically.
Dinah stepped back and furrowed her eyebrows, as she looked at Lauren a little confused. Lauren returned the look.
"I'm not going crazy, you hear that right?" Dinah asked.
"Is that music? Where is that coming from?" Lauren turned to walk towards the window as Dinah followed behind her.
Lauren pushed the window open and she couldn't believe the sight in front of her. It was Camila standing on their lawn, holding a boom box over her head blaring music so loud that she was sure the neighbors would call the cops soon. She spotted Ally and Normani by the gate with amusement written all over their faces. Lauren chuckled at the brown-eyed girl's song choice, Keep On Loving You by REO Speedwagon, but she absolutely loved it.
"And I'm gonna keep on love you, cuz it's the only thing I wanna doooo, I don't wanna sleep, I just wanna keep on loving yoooouuu." Camila sang to the track playing as she put the boom box down and pretended to play air guitar.
Lauren crossed her arms, trying her best not to give away any emotion, but if you asked her, she would tell you that she was happy to see the younger brunette play air guitar and that it took every fiber in her body NOT to laugh and smile at the beautiful scene in front of her. Because in front of her, at that moment was the girl she fell in love with.
The music slowly trailed off and glistening green eyes locked with hopeful brown eyes.
"You know Camz, this isn't a John Cusack movie!" Lauren yelled down trying so hard not to smile from ear to ear, because that's all she wanted to do.
"No! This is much better." She looked up at the most beautiful sparkling green eyes she's ever seen while she extended her arms from left to right. "This is real life and I just wanted to tell you that I love you Lauren Michelle Jauregui. I've been in love with you ever since we were 16 and that's never going to change. I know I haven't been the best girlfriend in the past anddd-"
Camila was left with unfinished words as Lauren disappeared from the window. She came bolting out the front door as she quickly closed the gap between herself and the younger brunette. She threw her arms around Camila's neck as their foreheads touched, gazes locked on each other.
"What were you saying?" Lauren whispered, a little out of breath.
"I know I hurt you Lo, I'm not really sure why I've been so afraid to tell the world about us, but I'm not anymore. I hope you can find it in your heart to give me another chance because I can't picture a life without you." Camila confessed as she lightly bit her bottom lip. "I love you so much Lo."
Camila tiptoed to mesh their lips together; it was gentle and passionate. It conveyed the love they had for one another as full lips moved in sync. They reluctantly parted as air became imperative not breaking eye contact. Bright brown eyes continued to stare into glistening green eyes.
"I'm so sorry about those pictu-"
Before Camila could finish the taller brunette pulled her in by the waist to press their lips together; this time aggressively as the green-eyed girl squeezed the exposed flesh between Camila's maroon skinny jeans and black tank top that loosely drifted.
"I love you too baby." Lauren breathed out as she broke their kiss, the shorter brunette's lips pulling to her eyes, she couldn't help but smile.
"Can I come back home?" She asked as she playfully pouted.
"Yes, on one condition," Lauren replied as she perked up an eyebrow.
"Anything."
"You HAVE to put the cap back on the toothpaste Camz! I love you, but you KNOW that drives me mad."
Camila began to laugh at her girlfriend, "done." She said as she shook her head in disbelief.
"I must have been REALLY awesome in another life to have you Lo." She said her eyes lovingly gazing into green-eyes while cupping her cheek in one hand.
"You've been pretty amazing in this life." The older girl bent down to give Camila a quick kiss. "So tonight, we celebrate you moving back in, I missed you so much Camz." She said with a lustful smirk.
"Ahh, babe I can't tonight."
"Why not?" Confusion was written all over Lauren's face.
"I scheduled a press conference."
"Tonight? What for?" She asked confused.
"I'm ready..." Camila trailed off looking intensely into green eyes.
"Ready for what?" Lauren asked tilting her head, but she knew the answer to her question.
"I wanna tell the world about you and me." Camila said giving Lauren's hands a squeeze before intertwining their fingers. "I've had a lot of time to think, ALONE, and I'm not really sure why I was afraid." She said breaking eye contact as she shook her head back and forth.
Lauren listened to every word Camila had to say, her heart swelling and she could feel tears coming and she couldn't hold them back. She began to cry as Camila brought her eyes back to the green-eyed girl.
"These past three weeks have been hell without you and I realized something that my heart has always known," Camila swallowed the lump in her throat. "My career, this life, it means nothing without you. You're my heart Lauren Jauregui and I want everyone to know that YOU are the love of my life."
Camila kissed salty lips as she pulled away and began wiping tears with her thumbs.
"Tears of joy I hope." She said with a slight smile.
Lauren rolled her eyes playfully and began to chuckle, "I didn't mean what I said when we fought; I would've waited forever for you Camz, I love you so much."
"I know you would have, but I NEED to, WANT to make you happy, for me to even slightly feel whole." She said while she brought one of Lauren's hands to her heart and cupped her face with the other.
Lauren's urges took over as she practically jumped on the shorter brunette and practically tackled her down on the grass straddling her as she began to pepper her with kisses all over her face.
"Yeah! Get it dawg!" Dinah shouted from the window causing both brunettes to giggle into each other's lips.
"So I take you two are good then?" Ally shouted sarcastically.
"Nah, they look like they're still mad at each other." Normani added in the same tone.
Lauren placed one more kiss on red full lips before laying her head on Camila's chest. She could hear and feel her heart beating. This heart belongs to me, she thought to herself with her eyes closed.
Camila tightened her hold on the girl lying in her arms with her head on her chest and she thought to herself, as she looked up at the clear blue sky, what a wonderful life it was to be in love, in love with Lauren Michelle Jauregui.
~When we were young oh oh, we did enough
When it got cold, Ooh ooh we bundled up.
I can't be told, Ah ah, it can't be done.
So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love
Head up, love~
