I sat up. Why were there voices coming from downstairs? What time was it? I tried to get up, but I felt like my head would explode. I felt weighed down with depression. Why? Oh. Right. Dolphy…I couldn't cry. I never even really loved him, so why should I cry?
I carefully got dressed and went downstairs. Voices were coming from the meeting room. Was there a meeting going on? Without ME?
I opened the door. My lord was in his usual chair at the head of the table, Luci on his left. My seat was empty. Cissy and Draco were there, too. No one had bothered to wake me up. My fingers twitched in irritation. I was still a Death eater, right? Just because my idiot husband went and got himself killed didn't mean that I wasn't still a Death Eater. I sat down in my seat, glaring at Cissy.
My lord looked at me, along with everyone else. "Bellatrix, are you sure you should be up?" my lord asked.
"Yes my lord, I'm fine. Thank you for your concern."
Cissy looked pissed. But wait, shouldn't I be the pissed one? My husband died, and everyone thinks I should be in bed all day, mourning? Even Cissy? Don't they KNOW me?
My lord continued what he was saying before I came in. "So Potter escaped, but we'll have other oportunities to trap him and his friends. It seems that they have decided to no longer attend Hogwarts."
"But why, my lord?" soemone asked.
"I have yet to find out. But we have the advantage in this suituation. I have decided to send out the Snatchers. Potter has never been afraid to say my name, like the old fool Dumbledore. Every time my name is said, the person that said my name will be captured, tortured, and brought to me. And Alecto and Amycus, you two will now be teachers at Hogwarts."
Alecto smiled. I really wanted to punch her. "Thank you, my lord," she said.
"Thank you my lord," her twin said. I really wanted to crucio the shit out of them.
"Now then, we are still waiting for the Ministry to fall." He glared at the people who were supposed to be taking care of that. "But patience is key. The ministry will fall, Potter will be dead, and the world will be ours. Any questions?"
Of course, there were never any questoins. "Good."
We took that as a dismissal. Cissy immediately came up to bother me. "Why are you here? You should be resting. Get back to bed. Now."
"Why?"
"Because you're in shock."
"Not really. I just want to crucio some muggles. Is ther anything wrong wth that?"
"You should be sleeping."
"CISSY. Just because Dolphy's dead, it doesn't mean that I have to act dead too. It's not like I can't live without him. I'm an independent wonman, you know. I can live without him! I don't need to be treated as if I'm going to break into tears at anyminute. I'm not weak or fragile!" I was getting really pissed.
"Okay, okay, sorry. But still, it's not a good idea for you to be up."
"Why?"
"Don't you feel anything? Sad, lonely, depressed?"
"A little depressed, but just a little. Not really sad or lonely. Can I cause destruction now?"
"No." That wasn't Cissy. It was my lord. "Bellatrix, you should go to bed," he continued. "I need you to be a good girl and get some rest so you can think clearly, which you obviously aren't doing right now. The Ministry hasn't fallen yet, so you have to lie low until the Ministry is ours. Do you understand?"
"Yes my lord." I sighed quietly and trudged upstairs.
Sometimes, life just REALLY sucks. Actually, life sucks most of the time. And I was just learning this now?
I changed back into my pajamas and laid there, unable to sleep. I didn't deserve sleep. All I could think about was that my lord cared about me, even if he only thought of me as his most loyal servant. Even if he would never look at me twice.
I sighed again. Yep, life really sucks.
Hi! Sorry it's been so long for me to upload, but it's so dark and depressing! I really don't like writing dark and depressing things, so hopefully the next chapter will be a little bit better. Please review! And have a good day/night/whatever!
