CHAPTER 7
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"Well, I guess that's that then. It's all over! Let's all leave Rose's poor brain alone and in peace then. She's been through enough," the Eleventh Doctor said.
The Doctors started to leave her mind, but Rose quickly ran over to 9 and 10 and stopped them from leaving just yet.
"I want to talk to you in private while I have the chance. There are things that I want to say while we're in here that I don't want to be heard by anyone else," Rose said to both of them.
She looked at Eleven to see if he was okay with this, and he nodded. He vanished along with the other Doctors. Cassie knew what was about to happen and so did Idris. They both left Rose's mind as well to give her privacy. Cassie had been told about this by her mother years ago. It wasn't going to be pretty from what little she knew about what had been said! Her mother didn't tell her much. She kept most of it to herself even in the future.
The First Rose vanished at last and returned to her place in Rose's mind after Rose assured her that she would not need her moral support in what she was going to do. Finally, it was just the three of them there alone. She had things to tell both of them that she had been waiting to say for a long, long time!
"So what is it, Rose?" the Tenth Doctor said hesitantly. He knew from the look on her face that it wasn't going to be a pleasurable experience for him.
"I want to know why you left me there on Pete's World? After everything that I went through to get back to you, you just sent me away! I felt like I was nothing! You seemed to totally forget about me! It was like as soon as I was out of your sight for a while, you just moved on and forgot about me! How do you do that, huh? How do you just forget about what we had together? I became the Bad Wolf for you! I found a way to save your life even when it seemed impossible! I found a way to come back to you even when that seemed impossible! I broke down every barrier that the universe put in my path to get back to you, and you just threw me away like I was trash! How could you do that? Did I mean that little to you? Was I just a little fling to you? Was that all that I ever was? You were much more than that to me!" Rose screamed at him in a torrent of anger.
Ten just looked pale, and his eyes bugged out in surprise at the hatred and anguish pouring forth from this woman that he loved so much. He didn't know what to say to her. He just wanted to curl up into a ball and hide!
Nine looked extremely uncomfortable and tried to move as far away from them as possible as he tried to hide. He hated his replacement, but he didn't enjoy seeing him be ripped apart like that! From what Rose was saying though, he thought that he probably deserved it. He couldn't imagine doing that to her himself!
"Rose, I'm so sorry! I thought that I was doing what was best for you! You would be much happier living a normal life with Handy than with me," Ten reasoned.
Rose glared at him, and her eyes glowed in fury.
"You thought that you were doing what was best for me? How dare you! HOW DARE YOU ASSUME THAT YOU KNOW WHAT IS BEST FOR ME! You don't know what is best for anyone much less me! Who do you think you are?! You act like you are some almighty authority on what is right when you're just a flawed person like all of the rest of us. You make mistakes too just like us ordinary mortals. Like what you did on Mars!" Rose shouted.
Ten looked at her in shame and guilt.
"Yes, I know about that. Time Lord Victorious? More like Master Lite! What were you thinking? You can't change a fixed point in time! We learn that as Time Tots! It's just plain stupidity! Utter stupidity! It shows that you aren't fit to judge for anyone what is best for them! You don't even always know what's best for yourself!" Rose said as her eyes glowed even brighter.
"I was lost without you! I was falling apart after what I did to you, and I couldn't take it anymore! I wanted to feel like I could change something and make things better for once! I was tired of the universe telling me what my life would be and what I could and couldn't do! I wanted the universe to listen to me for a change!" Ten said as he became angry.
"What happened though? Huh? The universe told you no! It did things the way that it wanted to because it knew what was best for the time lines. The Web of Time preserved itself despite your best efforts at messing with it. You have a problem in forcing what you think is best on people and not listening to them. They may know just a little bit better than you do what is right for them. It is their lives after all, right? Not yours! Theirs!" Rose shouted.
"I was wrong. I admit that! I went too far!" Ten admitted.
"You went too far from the start of this incarnation! You deposed Harriet Jones for killing the Sycorax! She was doing what she thought was best. I didn't agree with what she did either, but I wouldn't have gotten her thrown out because she was a good person who just happened to make a mistake! People can make mistakes you know. We're only mortal! Not like Mr. High and Mighty! You obviously have never made a mistake in your life or at least you pretend you haven't. You're a hypocrite! You want to be forgiven for the Time War, but you don't want to forgive others when they screw up! Do you realize that the Master becoming Prime Minister was your fault? If you hadn't deposed Harriet and took it upon yourself to just erase all of the good that she was supposed to do over one mistake, then all of the evil that the Master committed would never have occurred. You changed history all because you wanted to throw a tantrum because someone didn't do something your way! Such arrogance!" Rose lectured him.
"Maybe I was wrong to depose Harriet, but you can't lay the blame for the Master on me! He was responsible for his own actions not me!" Ten argued.
"He wouldn't have gotten to be Prime Minister at all to do anything if you had left things alone! Harriet was loved and respected, and she would have been there in place to keep him from ever taking over that position. There would have been no election for him to win if it hadn't been for you! Koschei would have just done his usual stupid take over the world with a new super weapon plan like usual!" Rose shot back.
"It wasn't my fault!" Ten said a little more uncertainly.
"Please! Even Martha knew it was your fault! She told you so, and then she had to clean up your mess by putting herself through a year of misery to fix things for you. She had to pay for your hubris! Then there's Donna! She gave her life to you. You threw her away too though, didn't you? Instead of trying to help her and remove your memories from her head you just took it upon yourself to remove everything about you. You changed her back into who she was before! It ruined her life and made her miserable! Was that what was best for Donna? What about Wilf? Did you think about what seeing Donna miserable like that would do to him? No, you did what you thought was best and everyone else could just go hang! Their opinions and feelings on their own lives just didn't matter in your grand design, did they? It was so much more fun for you to play God, wasn't it?" Rose lit into him.
Ten looked horrified. Talking about Donna was a low blow!
"I couldn't help her! I had to remove everything about myself, or she would have died," Ten defended himself.
"You could have tried! You could have slowly removed each part of your memories and knowledge from her head slowly over time if you had to. You should have come up with another way! The Donna that you helped to create deserved to exist, and that's why I brought her back. The universe needs her, or it wouldn't have turned her into the DoctorDonna in the first place!" Rose said.
"You're not being fair to me! I loved Donna! She was my best friend, and I did my best to fix what happened to her. I did the best that I could!" Ten shouted back.
"What about what you did to me? Was that doing the best that you could? You never even asked me what I wanted. You didn't even try to make our relationship work. You just stuck me with your new clone of yourself in a hole somewhere and got rid of me! Just give me a copy of yourself, and I'll be satisfied, right? That's all good old Rose deserves, right? You're just so great and wonderful that I'm just not worthy of your magnificence, right?" Rose screeched at him.
Ten looked deflated. "I thought that it was better for you! You could have an ordinary human life with him and not with me," he said.
"Maybe I didn't want a normal human life! Maybe I didn't care if I got old, and you didn't. Maybe I didn't think that age was what love was all about! Real love is about loving someone no matter how old they get or what happens to them, right? In sickness and in health? Sound familiar? You know what? I think that you just didn't want to watch me age because it would be too hard on you. It had nothing to do with what was best for me but what was best for you! You were thinking of yourself and not me!" Rose screamed.
"I . . . I," Ten stammered.
"Zip it! You were always pushing me away even before Pete's World though, weren't you? Every time I tried to get closer to you, you came up with something. Like Reinette? Remember her? What was that about, huh? You go charging off to rescue her and possibly leave me and Mickey trapped on that ship forever! We would have had no way back! If Reinette hadn't have kept her original fireplace, Mickey and I would still be stuck there even now! You didn't care though! You had to go running off and impress your new girl, right?! Why her? What was so great about her anyway? I wasn't impressed myself! I think that you were just so afraid of falling in love with me that you used her to keep me from getting closer. It was your attempt to shove me away and so was bringing Mickey onto the TARDIS. You were trying to get me back together with him, weren't you? You didn't want me to develop a serious relationship with you. You had to do your best to sabotage it before it became something permanent, didn't you? You could never have a real relationship with all of the hardship and the loss because then you might have to feel something, right? You might get hurt? It's much more important to protect your own feelings than to care about mine, right?" Rose accused.
Ten was in tears. He was shaking all over, and he couldn't stop. Nine actually debated with himself on whether he should try to stop Rose from going any further.
"I was already devastated from having lost the first you, Arkytior! Of course, I didn't want to go through losing another person again. It almost destroyed me the first time! I couldn't watch you die and lose someone else again! I couldn't sit there year after year knowing that you were going to be taken away from me! I couldn't! If that makes me a coward, then so be it! I just couldn't lose another person that I loved again! I . . . couldn't! I couldn't bear it!" Ten shouted as he broke down completely.
Rose looked at him in his pitiful state, and her hearts broke completely!
"What have I done?! I'm so sorry! I apologize for everything! I didn't mean it! I was just angry! I'm so so sorry!" Rose said as she started to cry too.
She ran over to him and began to kiss him. The two of them kissed passionately for several minutes, and they didn't seem like they were ever going to stop until Nine cleared his throat very loudly and reminded them that he was still there.
They broke apart, and Rose looked sadly at Ten.
"I really am sorry! I shouldn't have said that! You didn't deserve that! It's just that I was so angry! I've been thinking about all of it over and over again ever since you left me. It's been eating away at me for so long, and it almost destroyed me. If it wasn't for both of my mums, I'm not sure where I would be now!" Rose admitted.
"I'm sorry for doing that to you! I should have thought about what it would do to you! I really thought that you would be happy though. I never would have left you like that if I had thought that you would suffer this much!" Ten said.
"I know! I forgive you, and I'm sorry for tearing into you like that," Rose said as she gave him a short kiss on the lips.
Ten nodded with a smile and said, "Quite right, too! I guess I'll see you again in the future then when I become all bow ties and tweed. I love you, Rose! Don't ever think differently! Good bye!"
He then gave her a soft, sweet kiss, and the two of them broke apart. Ten vanished, and Rose smiled fondly at him.
Rose turned to Nine, and he looked at her warily.
"You're not going to rip into me like that, are you?" Nine asked as he held up his arms to shield himself.
Rose just laughed at him.
"No! I don't have the heart for it. Besides you only did two things that ever made me mad at you. You sent me home from the Gamestation instead of trying to let me help you, and you never told me about regeneration. That was a wonderful introduction to the concept that I got! All of a sudden you were a new man, and I was just left to deal with it and try to make some sense of such a crazy concept! You should have been more forthcoming with me about yourself and your life! You also should have let me stay behind and help you. We should have stood shoulder to shoulder against all of your problems together. We should have been partners and equals!" Rose said.
Nine nodded in agreement.
"Yes, you're right! I'm sorry. I should have told you about everything especially regeneration. I also should have let you stay and fight with me. I should have known that I wouldn't be able to win without your never say die attitude! I'm sure that I needed that to finally save the day, didn't I? I bet that you wound up saving me! That hasn't happened for me yet so I don't know. I always seemed to need you to come and save me at the end. You saved me from the Autons, and then apparently you saved me again on this Gamestation. I should have known that I would need the Girl Who Does the Impossible, right?" Nine said as he looked at her with a grin.
Rose smiled a wide face long grin and engulfed him in a tight hug!
"I missed you so much! I always wanted to give you a proper kiss!" Rose said, and then she began to kiss him.
Nine looked surprised at first because he had never even approached the subject of kissing with her in his time. Then, his expression changed to one of pure bliss as he found that kissing her was just as wonderful as had ever imagined that it would be! It was even better than that, as a matter of fact! He was still standing there in a daze with a huge smile on his face minutes after Rose pulled away from him.
She stood and watched him for a while, and then she finally shook him out of his trance.
"It's over, Doctor! You can come out of it now!" She said as she laughed at him.
"Sorry! I guess I kind of got caught up in it. It was just . . . fantastic!" Nine said with a devilish grin.
"You're terrible!" Rose said as she lightly slapped his shoulder.
"I guess it's time for me to go too. Good bye, Rose! I'll always love you!" Nine said with a grin.
He vanished and left Rose alone with her thoughts for a while. Then she finally returned to her body and found herself with everyone staring at her.
"So what did you say?" Amy asked with a grin on her face.
"That's my business!" Rose said with a small smile of her own.
"I bet it was all gushy! Was it romantic?" Amy prodded.
"I'm not telling you!" Rose said as her face blushed.
"Come on! Let me know! I have a right to hear some dirt after what that Cassandra put me through. I'll be sick for days after everything that she made me eat. Come on, spill it!" Amy said, being pushy.
"No, Amy! You'll just have to guess along with everyone else here. Those conversations are one secret that I'm keeping," Rose insisted.
Cassie looked away from her knowingly. Rose realized that she knew something about what she had said from the way she looked slightly embarrassed. Rose decided that they had to talk about just who she was to her once and for all. She thought that she already knew though. It was fairly obvious to her now just who she had to be. She was her baby girl!
Next: Rose confronts Cassie with her suspicions about her. Cassandra rears her head again. Where is she now?
