Never Letting Go

Nobody compares to how amazing she is. Nobody even comes close to the level genuine kindness and how she does everything with dedication and passion. She's beautiful… I know that. Heck, everyone knows that. But she doesn't. She doesn't notice how everywhere she goes all eyes are on her. She doesn't see how she takes everyone's breath away with her smile or the sound of her laughter. The way she clutches her stomach when she is laughing too hard, or how her eyes sparkle mischievously when an idea sparks. She doesn't notice how these simple things drive me crazy. Or the way men look at her and I have to shoot glares at them. She doesn't but I do. And I want to crush all her insecurities, make them disperse and vanish from existence. She has no reason to doubt herself. She has no reason to feel insecure. Because she's beautiful. I am the luckiest man alive because she's mine and I'm hers.

She doesn't accept the fact of how great she is. She always brings herself down and I want to change that. I want her to see how amazing and genuinely kind she is. I want the world to see her talent and maybe she'll learn to love herself like I love her. But most importantly, I want her to see how much it pains me when she puts herself down and underestimates all that she can do.

We were parked outside of Pops bar; Loren leaned back on her seat and covered her face with her hands. I cleared my throat and scratched the back of my head. Her question was ringing in my ears. Was I any good? Was I any good? Was I any good?

I internally sighed; of course she would ask this question… I looked up at her and I took in how her face was red. Why are you embarrassed babe? You're the best I ever had. You were incredible… I smiled.

"Loren?"

She slowly looked up at me and I got to see her blushing face. Before she was able to ask any questions, I grabbed her by the waist and our lips collided against each other. Surprised by my unexpected action, her eyes widened but soon she wrapped her arms around me and closed her eyes, giving in to my kiss. She reciprocated and exerted as much force and passion as I was into this kiss. I pulled her closer to me and gently held her waist as she caressed my cheeks. Because she doesn't need to worry if I'll ever leave. I will always be by her side, holding her. Never letting anything hurt her and showing her what she is to me. And she doesn't need to worry if she was good, because she was more than that. And this kiss, I know it'll get rid of all those doubts.

Her arms wrapped tightly around me, as I tasted every part of her, as our tongues hastily brushed against each other. I slowly pulled away, panting for air and I knew my face was burning. I swallowed and Loren looked at me with her eyes half closed. I smiled as her lips were plumped from the excess of biting I have done there and her cheeks were burning. I pulled her closer and gently kissed her lips.

"You were amazing."

Her mouth slightly parted but she shook her head and her hold on me loosened. She down casted her eyes and smiled weakly. "Don't say-"

"No. I'm not saying it to spare your feelings. I meant it. You were amazing babe."

I leaned in and kissed her lips again. She smiled between our kiss. "Not too bad for a virgin?"

I chuckled and she began pulling away from me. My eyes trailed down to her lips, and the temptation to have her again stroke me. I tried looking away but my eyes betrayed me and my mind played scenes of all the things I could do to her right now. I swallowed and Loren looked at me confused. I was leaning back in to her when she realized just what I was doing. I cupped her cheeks and my tongue forcedly entered her mouth before she had time to react. She hesitantly placed her hands on my biceps and I took the lead. My tongue fiercely stroked her tongue. Simultaneously, I pulled her closer to my body as she clutched my hair. And in instant she pushed me away. I grunted as she tried catching her breath. I opened the door and quickly got out.

"Eddie. What are you doing?"

"I need to get out before I do anything else."

I closed the door and walked over to hers. She already had opened her door, I extended my hand and she took it. I sighed and we began walking towards the entrance of MK. I smirked, hoping to find Pops and his love struck look. Grace has been keeping tabs on him and has let me in on how Pops has a thing for the new accountant. Nora to be specific.

"What are we doing here?"

"I'm checking on my dad. Pops has been in high spirits lately and I want to see the reason."

I turned around to Loren when she came to sudden stop. She clutched my hand and I walked closer to her. I looked at her with confusion and she laughed nervously. I pressed my eyes together and they relaxed as realization struck me.

"Your mom."

She nodded and I sighed. I briefly closed my eyes, but quickly turned around and dragged Loren to the entrance. It could be that Nora is not on board with us going too fast. It could be that she doesn't like the fact of us being together. It could be that she thinks her daughter deserves better than me, which she does. But it could also be that it's now or later. And the sooner the better. To confront the infamous 'Momma Tate.' I'll fight to the end to be with Loren, and I know Nora will understand this. She'll see how much I love this girl and how I only want the best for her. And if she doesn't, I'll damn make sure that by the end of the day, she knows that her daughter is in good hands. Because I will never hurt her. I pulled her with me and she quietly follows me. Babe. Believe me; I know what I'm getting myself into. I know how once you get into Nora's wrath; it's hard to get out of it. It's like how I fell in love with you, unavoidable since the start. And I know I will never stop.

I tightly held her hand, ready to fight for us. I turned the corner from the hallway when I stopped walking completely.

Holy shit.

I raised my left eyebrow and a smirk formed on my face. I felt Loren bump into me and I quickly pulled her to me, to stop her from falling backwards. She regained her composure and I kept looking at the scene in front of me. Who knew? Pops works quickly. He had Nora pinned on the wall, ready to lift her up and take her to his room. I pressed my lips together to stop myself from laughing at the quiet moans they were trying to suppressed, but they escaped. My eyes widened when I heard her quiet and curious voice.

"Eddie?"

I felt Loren tip toe to see what I was looking at. Oh shoot.

"Mom!"

She whispered. I glance at her and she stood there frozen and not knowing what to think. I turned back to the scene and we continued to look at how both of our parents were busy with each other to notice how they've been caught red handed. Loren clutched my arms for support as she couldn't process what was happening in this instant. And in a sudden movement she walked past me and towards them. What are you doing? On her third step, I quickly grabbed her waist and turned her back around to me. She was about to protest, but I rapidly covered her mouth and hid behind the wall so they won't notice us. Not like they will. They're too busy with each other. I pinned Loren on the wall; I prevented escape by placing each of my hands on the wall. I looked down at her and her eyes were pleading.

"Eddie… let me go."

"No." I smiled and pulled my body closer to hers. I looked at her for a few moments before looking back out to our parents. They were making their way up the stairs with Pops already trying to take her shirt off.

"They can't-"

"Why not? They obviously like each other. So let them be."

"But-but-"

"No buts." I turned back to Loren and she sighed. She fidgeted under my body and I shook my head. "Anyways. If you would've interrupted them it would've only caused an awkward situation and its better that way."

"How is it better? My mom just came out of a relationship. I don't want her to jump into something she'll regret later."

"I understand. You want to protect her. But let her have her fun. And if she comes home today with a smile then you shouldn't worry about regrets."

Loren indulged herself in her own internal conflicts. Her eyebrows were pressed together as she played with my shirt. I stared at her as she would sigh every now and then. I grabbed her waist, capturing her attention, and smiled when she looked up at me. She nodded and reciprocated it. Then in an instant her smile faded and she down casted her eyes, losing herself in her thoughts. She bit her lips. Something's going on and it's not about our parents. Concern took over and I lifted her chin up to make her look at me. She avoided my gaze and I caressed her cheek.

"Babe, what's wrong?"

"Nothing…"

"Loren…" I cupped both of her cheeks and kissed her forehead. She gave in to my kiss and sighed.

"Do you think we went too fast?"

No. Definitely not. Too fast would've been if I had kissed you the second day after our encounter, when I went to see you at the café. Too fast would've been if I hadn't controlled myself every time the desire to have you came. We didn't go too fast… On the contrary, not calling you mine right away was painfully slow. But I liked it, each day with you, and the experience of falling deeper in love with you. I would do it all over again. And each time I did, I wouldn't change anything because all the mistakes I did is what got us here. Together and deeply in love. I guess some things go fast. But since when were we normal? She waited for my response. I licked my bottom lip and kept my hands on her cheeks, gently holding them. I smiled and shook my head. "No… our whole relationship from the start was far from being normal. Everything happened between us. I fell in love with you at first sight and I knew I was going to make you mine no matter what. And… I don't think I would've controlled myself with you any longer…"

She looked at me in the eyes before slowly nodding and pressing her forehead on my chest. I instantly wrapped my arms around her and looked down at her as she smiled in content. Does she have regrets? I swallowed and shook the thoughts away… but they came rushing back and I stood there thinking that maybe I did go to fast with her. Maybe I should've waited a little longer… Does she regret it? I sighed.

"Loren?"

"Hmmm…?"

"Do you regret today?"

Please don't say yes. I pulled away from her and waited for her reply. I stared intently at her and she smiled giving me hope. She shook her head and I stopped breathing. "No. I'm glad my first time was with you." She tip toed and kissed me. "You made it special and all I could ask for." The soles of her shoes were back on the ground. She giggled as I placed light kisses on her lips. Making small fists on my shirt, I grabbed her waist with one hand and with the other cupped her cheeks. She smiled and I looked at her hazel eyes. "Good. Because you're the best I ever had." I chuckled at her reaction towards my words. She blushed feverishly and cleared her throat. She bit her lips and I wanted them on mine… again. I proceeded to lock her body with mine and the wall. She gulped as I leaned down and whispered next to her ears.

"I have a surprised for you… we're going back to my place."

She shivered and I smirked as her face turned a darker shade. She laughed nervously and shook her head.

"No more surprises."

"Why not?"

"Well…" She shivered again as I slowly kissed her neck. Addicting. "Today was full of them and I don't think I can take anymore."

I kissed her neck once again. "Yeah? Name them." I felt her body go tense as I placed my hands on her waist and stroked them. She cleared her throat as I let that kiss on her neck linger before I nibbled it slightly. She squealed and tried to regain her composure. "Early in the morning, I woke up with you on top of me."

I was dreaming about you babe. "Sorry about that… I can't help it."

I bit her neck and she pushed me back. I grunted and she squirmed as I pushed her against the wall, my body tightly held her in place. She pouted. "Then the car ride…"

I kissed her forehead. "Hmmm?" I trailed down to her cheek… "Then Jake…" She rested her hands on my shoulder blade and smiled. "Then… we did it for the first time."

"Did I ever tell you how amazing it was?"

"Eddie…"

I placed my hands on her waist and worked my way up to her jaw. I felt her body heat up as she clutched my shirt. I smirked at her reactions and harshly nibbled a little below her jaw. I looked up at her and she was red, really red.

"Then we came to the sweet surprise of our parents…"

Not another beat wasted, our mouths connected. I violently crashed my lips to hers. I moved quickly and put forth so much force that it took her a moment to regain her senses. As soon as she did, her reaction as to pull me closer to her, she grabbed my head and I pushed my body closer to hers. She held on to me as I felt her body waver and lean on me for support. I pulled her upwards and her back arched upwards to me. I got a better taste of her mouth and she passionately stroked my arms. I was pulling away when she suddenly pulled me back. She bit my lower lip and I panted. Our lips hovered and she looked at me, swallowing. A smiled formed on my face and I grabbed her hand taking her away from the wall.

"You're going to love this one. I promise."


"What is this for?"

Loren spun around to me and I could see the amount of felicity in her eyes. She was smiling from ear to ear and she turned quickly around to look at the room once again. The curtains were closed and it was dark except Candles were everywhere, illuminating the room. I had specifically told Jeffrey to move the table and couches and replaced them with a low table, and on top put strawberries and chocolate to dip them in. And I also ordered Shang's Chinese food since it was that moment, that time in the restaurant that I realized how deep I was in for Loren,

"A week."

She looked confused back at me. I smiled. A week of loving you. A week ago I found my love, the one who owns my heart. The girl who I couldn't keep my mind off, who had me going insane over her. The girl who I thought I was never going to get, but I never gave up because every time she smiled, every time she touched me. I knew I was going to make her mine no matter what. No matter the consequences, circumstances, she was meant to be with me from the start. And if it wasn't supposed to be that way, for her I would break the rules and be with her. A week of being with her and experiencing what true love feels like. She smiles as she understands what I meant. She feels it because as she knows she caressed my cheeks. I grab her waist and pull her closer to me. We began to slow dance to the music and she rests her head on my shoulder, wraps her arms around my neck as I hold her tightly.

And it's just as two.

Her and me. Just how it's supposed to be.


She was scrutinizing a strawberry as she slowly leaned back on me. I wrapped my arms around her, and her back reclined on my chest as I mine rested on the wall. She took a small bite and I kissed the top of her head. She found comfort in our position, as she sighed and scooted closer to me. I chuckled and she closed her eyes. There was a moment of silence before she broke it with her cracked and frail voice. I held her as I listened to every word she said. Holding on to them as she barely managed to get them out.

"I was lost. I didn't know where to go. Every step I took made me drown deeper and the deeper I drowned the harder it was for me to find my way out. My vision was blinded and all I saw was pure darkness. But every once a while I saw a man. I didn't know who he was. I would step closer to get a better look. But he was… faceless." She choked and I tightly held her. She stroked my arms and I pressed my forehead on her head. Babe… I'm here. "He was my father… I was hopeless. I lost all faith of over going back. And that only drowned me deeper to a point where I would start suffocating from all the pain and betrayal. "I just wanted to go back to where I could see the light. Like when I was four and I viewed the world as this wonderful place and life a gift filled with surprises. I just wanted that."

I closed my eyes and she cried in my hold. I pressed my lips together and Loren continued. "But I was lost. Lost for fourteen years..." She stopped speaking and I looked over at her. She had a small smile on her face; she was smiling behind those tears. "Then a week ago you entered that café and did what seemed impossible. You pulled me out and saved me. I was dying, shriveling up in loneliness and sorrow. Then you came along and with just one smile and the sincerity of your voice. I was resuscitated and began breathing again. Breathing the same way I breathed fourteen years ago."

She turned around and looked at me. I felt a tear slowly roll down and she wiped it away. She smiled and leaned in to me. "Thank you. My savior." She gently kissed my cheek and sat on my lap. I pulled her to me and she rested her head on my chest. I wrapped my arms around her as she closed her eyes and wiped her tears away.

"I will always protect you. I will always hold you. And if I feel you slipping away I will only hold on you tighter. No matter what, I will always be by your side. I will overcome every obstacle that's thrown our way and knock them down. For you. Because you deserve the best. And I'll make sure you never shed another tear. You'll never hurt again."

"Just being in your arms is enough. I just want this forever. You."

"Babe I promise you I will never let you go."

She sighed and nodded. But she doesn't understand how I mean each and every word. I'll never allow her to go through all the pain she went through. I will always protect her and never let her go.


"Eddie…"

She moaned my name as I was taking of her shorts. She groaned as I pulled the boxers off too, leaving her completely naked. She blushed and covered her breasts as her leg got on top of the other. I dropped the clothes on the floor. She looked up at me and sighed. I smirked as she sat up briefly to clutch my shirt and pull me back down on her. She quickly began stroking my chest, arms and then tugged my shirt upward. I kissed her cheek and gently massaged her breast. She moaned pulling my head to hers. Her lips violently moved against mine and I stroked her toned thighs as she locked my torso with her legs. I grunted and pulled away from our tongues tight lock when she grinded upwards. She gripped my hair and flipped us around. I lay on the bed as she sat on top of me, my body in between her legs; she leaned into my neck and began biting that one spot I wished she never found. I quickly rubbed her waist up and down. She sat straight and pressed the palms of her hands on my chest. I panted as I watched the naked beauty sitting on me. She fidgeted on top of me and I moaned as her body glistened with the sweat, her mounds were perfectly erected and her eyes were filled with want. I'm positive mine were too.

And just like that she got off me. I heaved a sigh and sat up straight as I watch Loren look for her clothes. She smiled innocently at me but quickly turned around. I watched every move she took and the desire only became stronger. I rapidly stood up and walked over to her. I smirked as I wrapped my arms around her and her body tensed up. She cleared her throat. I knew she felt it.

"Eddie… you're really hard."

I kissed her shoulder blade and nodded. "Mmhmm."

She unfolded my arms and took a step back from me. I walked towards her and she squirmed as I lifted her up and made her sit on top of the drawer. I placed my hands on her mid-thigh and parted her legs. She interlaced her hands with mine and tried pushing me away.

"I really need to go…"

"No. Stay with me."

I grabbed her ass and pulled her to me. My throbbing member was beginning to hurt. Damn. "Eddie…" She moaned my name as she took my shirt off and outlined my bare abdomen with her finger. I panted and kissed her softly. She cupped my cheeks and I unbuckled my belt. She took notice of my actions and slowly parted. "Baby, Mel needs me-"

I interrupted her as I forced my tongue into her mouth. I grabbed her waist and she wrapped her legs around me. I lifted her up and began walking towards the bed. She suddenly got off me and pushed me onto it. I groaned in agony and want as Loren shook her head.

"I got to go. It's an emergency." She picked up the boxers and began putting them on. I propped my elbows on the bed and looked at her. She was finding her bra while I spotted all the way on the closet entrance. I stood up and walked towards it, picking it up. I waved it to Loren and she walked over to me. I lifted it up and she jumped trying to get it.

"Give it to me!"

I laughed as she stomped the floor and glared at me. I shrugged my shoulders and while she was distracted with the bra. I took the shirt in her hand away. She tackled me to the ground and I tossed the clothing upwards, snatching it away from her when she caught it. Her movements were provoking my friend to erect. I groaned and Loren stopped and smiled sheepishly.

"Loren… You're not helping with my little problem."

"Little? You're little friend is anything but little."

She whispered seductively. I moaned as she gave it a tease. "Loren… babe you're-"

"Get up." She got off me and made me stand up. Once I was up she pushed me to the bathroom. "Go take a shower, a cold one if you may and hurry up. I'll be ready when you're out." I turned around to her and shook my head. "I don't think a cold shower will help."

"Just try."

She closed the door and I stared at it. I rubbed my face and looked down. I pulled my pants down and groaned.

The things this girl does to me.


I tapped the car wheel as I waited for the light to turn green. I sighed and leaned back on the car seat when cars kept coming from the other direction. Rubbing my face, I turned to look at my vibrating phone. Probably Jake. Without looking, I picked it up and pressed it to my ear.

"Eddie."

I flinched at that annoying voice that's been coming back to torture me every time she can. Can she leave me alone? How the hell did I survive with her for a year? The world may never know.

"Eddie? Are you there?"

I was stupid for ever being with this person.

"What do you want?"

"I need you to do me a favor."

"Bye Chloe."

I hanged up and tossed the phone on my car seat. I looked at it and she called several times. She's never going to leave me alone is she? After the fifth call she left a message. I didn't bother to listen to it so I deleted and sighed in relief when the light turned green. I drove towards MK and once I got out I noticed Nora exiting. I stopped dead on my tracks as we locked gaze. She smiled out of politeness but it soon left and it was replaced with concern and warning. I walked forward and she sighed.

"I need to talk to you."

She beat me to it and I slowly nodded. Nora scratched her head and eyed me for a moment before turning around and walking back to MK. I watched her enter and I stood there.

Oh this is going to be good.

So I know I took too long to update. Part being that I was stuck. I had writers block and it ain't pretty. It's hard being Eddie, his thoughts are scattered and I wonder about this boy. Anyways. I'll cover His and Nora's convo on the next chapter. And Everything else that has happened in Trust. And I should have Trust up the next week. And I have another story line ongoing. "WorthLess" It was a one shot but I got such nice reviews and people kindly asked to continue it :). So I am. Ahh I still can't get over of "It's Over." I didn't know where I was going with that story. (Actually none of my stories are planned. Yikes. Sometimes it bites me back).

Well I have Been catching up on fanfics. Chech allywashere (they're short but OMG I love her). hhlover101 (serious talent) lalaeveryday (she makes me cry) LongLiveLeddie (asdfghjkl her story is too cute and Leddie filled) mj-neHH (Her story is different and so good) of course can't forget cassiejohnson (I love her so much! Rock on!) okay that's pretty much it. I still have a lot to read. So yeah. And if you know any good ones please PM them. In need of more Leddie and fanfics keep that alive.

Stay True,

Leddiexx (I am fierce and need to finish my work. Procrastinating is my specialty.)